A/N: ok first apologise that this is late but life got in the way. My daughter was rushed into hospital Saturday night after a nasty asthma attack and then Sunday my husband was attacked. Both are thankfully ok now but as you can imagine my writing has had to be delayed.

Anyway here's chapter 6 and I own nothing but the plot

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Chapter 6

Bella pov

As we drove out of Forks, the tears started to spill onto my cheeks. I felt Rose squeeze my hand but nobody spoke. The silence stretched on for what seemed like hours but could only be minutes however I could take it no more and started to sob. I felt so out of control and so lost whilst grieving for all I'd lost at the same time.

"Bells sweetie, its ok I got you. You're safe now I promise." Rose said as she rubbed circles on my back. I just sobbed harder.

"Bella?" Came Jaspers voice from my other side. "Bella, may I help you calm down?"

"P…Pl…please" was all I could manage. I felt Jasper's calm reach me immediately but it still took a few minutes before I stopped crying completely.

"Bella, I know what I said about being your mate was probably a shock, but I want you to know that I will always be here for you no matter what. I wont even pretend to know what you could possibly be going through right now but you can talk to me, or any one of us if you want Peter, Charlotte and I all did a psychology course a few years ago so we could help you if you feel you need it. Everything will be on your terms and no one will push you to do anything you don't want, ok. I just want you to be happy and know that you are completely safe and even if you weren't I will protect you I promise."

"You ask me, you should have ripped that fucker apart and burnt the pieces if you want her to be safe." came a voice from the front.

"That's enough Peter, she safe regardless of whether Edward is still alive or not. My reasons, for leaving that piece of shit alive are just that my reasons, but rest assured if he comes anywhere near Bella again I will end him!" I must admit I was curious as to his reasons myself. I didn't particularly want to see anyone killed but as long as Jasper didn't get hurt I truly didn't care.

"Where are we going? Do you have a house near here?" I was really starting to get tired and I could tell the pain killers were wearing off.

"No we live in Billings, Montana at the moment but we will be making a few over night stops to ensure you get some sleep. We're just coming up to Poulsbo so we should be in Seattle in the next hour maximum. You could go to sleep now if you want and we'll wake you when we get there" Jasper said. Sleep was going to be impossible without my painkillers and I needed to eat with them but they'd done so much for me already I didn't want to impose any further.

"Um, I'll be ok I can wait until we get there." I was surprised we were almost to Poulsbo. I must have zoned out because that was a 2 and a half hour drive.

"Peter, find a gas station in Poulsbo, Bella needs her painkillers and she needs to food with them. It'll only take a few minutes." Rose knew me only too well, and I knew better than to argue with her.

"Text Emmett and tell him the change of plan." Jasper said to Rosalie.

We pulled into the gas station a few minutes later and they all got out the car. Rose went to get the chair out of the truck bed but I shook my head at her. Id been sat for a few hours so it would be good to stretch my legs though I knew I'd need her help.

"Darlin' do you need to use the bathroom? I could get you something to eat while you do that if you'd like or we can wait." I knew Jasper was giving me a choice, something I never had with Edward and it warmed my heart a little.

"No that's fine could I have a soda as well?" I knew it wasn't the best drink at this time of night but the pain killers would counteract the sugar anyway so I thought why not.

"Yes of course you don't need to ask, you can have what ever you want." Jasper said. There was a slight edge to his voice that scared me slightly but I squashed it down as I saw a frown on his face.

Rose helped me to the rest room and I decided to ask her about it.

"Rose did I do something wrong? Jasper seemed almost angry at me."

"Oh Bella no, he wasn't angry at you. He was angry at the fact you felt the need to ask for a drink that's all. I don't think Jasper could ever be really angry at you. How you holding up though? Are you doing ok?"

"I'm… doing better I think. I'm really confused though."

"What's got you confused?"

"Well, I was in so much pain just hours ago I didn't want to… well I mean I wanted to…I thought about if it would be so bad if I wasn't around anymore, but now, since I met Jasper, I feel different. I feel things that I shouldn't be feeling not so soon after Edward… you know. I don't know what's wrong with me." I couldn't look at her telling her I had wanted to kill myself just hours ago. Would she think any less of me?

"Bella, Bella look at me. Everything you have been feeling is completely normal. You know I welcomed death after Royce but I never got my wish and yes I resented Carlisle changing me but I don't feel that way anymore. When I met Emmett I felt better too. Yes I was scared shitless but like you I started to feel more positive emotions. Its being near your mate I think. The theory is that your mate completes you and together there is nothing that can keep you apart. As for the feelings themselves, you must do what you feel is right when it is right. Jasper won't ever pressure you for anything you can be assured of that I promise."

"Everything alright in there my most beautiful ladies" came Emmett's booming voice through the door. I giggled while Rose just rolled he eyes.

"Yes Em we're coming out now" she shouted at him.

As we walked slowly back to the truck my eyes found Jaspers and he smiled slightly at me almost as if unsure of himself. As we reached each other I smiled brightly at him which he returned immediately.

"I'm sorry if I scared you darlin'?"

"I'm ok. I guess we have a lot we need to figure out but I know we'll get there eventually."

Jasper smiled again as he helped me back into the truck and passed me a sandwich, a soda and a bottle of water.

"I heard somewhere that you should take tablets with water and I know you asked for soda so I got both." I couldn't help but laugh at the sheepish look on his face but sent him my gratitude all the same. Pretty soon the pills and the gentle hum of the engine out me sleep.

I woke with a bit of a start when I realised I was no longer in a vehicle but led on something soft. I groaned as I opened my eyes and looked around. I found myself in a hotel room with Jasper and Rose chatting quietly in the corner of the room. As I tried to sit up I screamed at the pain in my side and both vampires came rushing to my side.

"Bella, what's wrong. Rose, call a doctor now. Jasper panicked while trying to check me over. It would have been hilarious if it didn't hurt so much.

"Jasper calm down. She doesn't need a doctor. It's just been 5 hours since the last lot of pain killers. Make yourself useful and find her something small to eat like a chocolate bar or something. Here you go Bella, take these. Is the pain still the same as before? Any pain in your lower stomach?"

"It was my ribs again. The pain in my stomach is almost gone just the bruising is a bit tender. I need some cosmetics though Rose otherwise its gunna get real awkward in the truck." I said as I led back against my pillows.

"I'll go and get some now and then we'll get you a quick wash."

"I can go get it. What do you need." came jaspers voice as he re-entered the room.

I looked at Rose and laughed at her slightly disgusted look despite feeling mortified myself.

"Its ok Jasper I think Rose can manage."

"Its ok Bella, I don't mind, I want to take care of you."

"Jasper you need to stay here with Bella and make sure she eats her snack. I won't be long."

"But…"

"Oh for god sake, Jasper, Bella needs some sanitary products. Are you telling me you can go find her some?" Rose interrupted now slightly amused by Jaspers pouting.

"I… well… er… you have fun with that. Here Bella eat your chocolate." I couldn't help but laugh at his expression.

"Oh you find that funny do you? Well let me tell you I could do it I was just taken by surprise that's all." Jasper whined but soon smirked at me still trying to control my laughing. "Honestly though Bella, if that's what you need I would find a way to get it for you. You just have to ask."

Once Rose got back she took me to the bathroom and helped me wash and put some clean clothes on then tucked e back in to bed like a mother hen.

"Where's everyone else?"

"Oh, Peter and Charlotte went hunting and Emmett wanted to go with them. To be honest Bella I wanted to talk to you about that. You see Em and I are going to started hunting our natural food source but I want you to know that you will be absolutely, 100% safe with us." I had honestly never seen Rose look so worried in the entire time I had known her. I had guessed it wouldn't be long before they changed their diet and I was completely fine with it.

"Rosie, its fine. You are what you are. It's not your fault you have to drink blood. And seeing as we're being honest I have to say I think the Cullen's are idiots. The animal diet isn't as good as Carlisle makes it out to be. I haven't seen Jasper struggle with his thirst the entire time he's been near me, the same with Peter and Charlotte. They don't have the dark shadows under their eyes and they look just all round healthier. Your body human or vampire craves things because you need it. For a doctor he really is blind when it comes to this." Jasper and Rosalie just sat there staring at me dumbfounded. I just smiled took Jaspers hand in mine and drifted back off to sleep.

A few hours later I awoke to a loud obnoxious laugh that could only belong to Emmett.

"Em what the hell are you laughing at?" I growled. I hated being woken up and I was not a morning person at all.

"Oh shit, sorry bells. Here I'll go get you some coffee. Do you want a bagel?" It was kind of funny to see a anyone of Emmett's size scared of my reaction to being woken up especially as that person was a vampire. I barely had time to nod before he was grabbing his keys and running out the hotel door.

"Rosalie, you didn't tell me that you keep his balls in your handbag. Really I've never seen a vampire run from a mere human before." Peter laughed. Ha he ain't seen nothing yet.

"Um Peter I wouldn't… ya know what never mind I'm going to join my husband." Rose rushed out the door double quick time.

"See I told you brother, munching down on the furries makes you tapped in the head. Really those Cullen's would shit themselves if the came across a real vampire. If they were able to that is. So bellsy wellsy, when you gonna join our ranks and get yourself some juicy criminals. Wait you are gonna feed from humans aint ya I cant be living with no animal eaters?" I was seriously pissed. I hadn't even been awake 2 minutes and this a hole was being an obnoxious idiot.

"Who the FUCK are you talking to asshole? Firstly they are NOT Cullen's they are McCarty's. Secondly, I haven't had a chance to decide when I want to be changed or if indeed I want to be at all, but I can assure you that you will not be the first to know as quite frankly it is none of your fucking business. If I do decide to be changed, Jasper and I will talk about what I wish to hunt and you will NOT interfere. Thirdly, IF YOU EVER call me Bellsy wellsy again, I will personally find away to turn your ass into a crispy critter. DO I MAKE MYSELF CLEAR?"

"Yes ma'am." With that he was off out the door just a tad quicker than Emmett. I did feel a tad guilty but honestly when were people going to understand I needed caffeine first thing in the morning. I was bought out of my musings by a cough from the corner of the room. I turned to see Charlotte looking rather amused and Jasper looking rather scared. I raised my brow at him and before my eyes he too rushed straight past me and out the hotel door. I snorted and plonked myself back on the bed before looking at charlotte with a smirk.

"your still here?"

"Sorry Bella, did you want me to leave too? Damn sugar you sure know how to clear a room. I think we are gunna get on just fine." With that she went back to reading whatever book she had been before my rude awakening.

I'm not sure how long I led there but soon came a timid knock on the door and I lifted my head to see Rose with a very timid looking Emmett behind her.

"Hey, lil sis I got you a double shot but I couldn't find any bagels so I had to get you a McMuffin." I was up off the bed as quickly as I could considering my ribs and almost launched Rose out the way causing Emmett to flinch back and almost drop my coffee.

"Oh Emmy-bear you're the best big brother a girl could ever wish for I'm sorry I got mad I didn't mean it, forgive me please?"

Rose just snorted and then looked around the room. "Where Jasper and Peter?"

Charlotte started laughing so hard I don't think she could talk.

"I got kinda cranky with Peter, cos he called me Bellsy Wellsy so they legged it. I don't know where they went though" I said between mouthfuls of coffee. I was starting to think I had a bit of a problem. Emmett gasped and started shaking his head while mumbling something about suicidal vampires.

It was about ten minutes later when I saw a rather worried head pop round the door and then push Jasper through first before asking,

"Has she been dispossessed yet?"

"She has a name ya know" I growled at him.

"Sorry Bella I meant have you enjoyed your coffee on this lovely fine morning." I growled in response and then went to sit on Jaspers lap and lie my head on his shoulder.

"Hey cowboy you got anything to add to what your brother said?" I asked while trying to look 100% innocent. I don't think it was working because he smirked at me and whispered into my ear,

"You are not as sly as you think sugar but don't worry Peter was appropriately scared." I couldn't help but giggle so he'd caught on to the fact that I wasn't angry anymore.

"So what's the plan for today, we've still got a good 12 hours of driving to do but obviously lil bit here cant sit in the car for that long." I contemplated telling Peter off again for the nickname but I decided it was actually not that bad so let it go.

"Well, its 8:30 now so I was thinking we'd hit the road about 9ish, stop for Bella to rest in Ritzville, then head across to Missoula where we'd spend the night and from there straight to the ranch we should arrive by lunch time. Bella do you think you can manage 3-4 hours at a go in the truck or do you need to stop more than that?" Jasper asked.

"No that's fine. As long as I have a snack and something to drink I can take painkillers in the truck if necessary. I do need some clean clothes though and I think you and Rose should hunt tonight when we stop as you didn't get a chance to last night." I wasn't sure how that would go down as Edward hated it when I suggested he needed to hunt but Jasper did say he wouldn't hurt me and Emmett and Rose were right here so I decided to risk it.

"That sounds like a great idea but I can go another couple of days if you want me to stay with you." He was so sweet but then so was Edward in the beginning. This was harder than I thought it was going to be.

"No its fine, Emmett will stay with me wont you Em?"

"Of course he will Bella and you don't need to worry about clothes, I picked you some up when Emmett was hunting up your breakfast. Do you want me to help?" Bless Rose she always knew just what I needed.

Half an hour later we were back in the truck on the road towards Ritzville. Peter and Charlotte were full of questions while Jasper and Rose were just quietly listening. We'd stopped in Ritzville for about 2 hours for lunch before hopping back on the road for our final leg of the day continuing with the 'lets get to know Bella' questions. A few of the more personal questions I hedged around or just said 'next'. No one pushed for me to answer and I was glad, only Rose was aware of every detail of my life before I met Edward and that was fine with me for now. I just wasn't ready.

3 hours later we pulled into a hotel in Missoula and checked into a suite. Once we got to the suite I realised it was gone 5pm so decided to call down to room service after some small hinting by Jasper. While I was waiting for my dinner I decided to have nice soak in the Jacuzzi tub while Rose sat on the vanity chatting away to me. A while later Jasper gently knocked on the door and told me room service had arrived so with Roses help I got out of the tub and got dressed into the shorts and t-shirt she'd managed to find for me to sleep in.

After I ate Rose and Jasper said their goodbyes and promised not to be long, leaving me with Emmett, Peter and charlotte. In the end we decided to just watch a movie until the others came back.

Just as the movie was finishing the door opened and Jasper and Rose walked in and sat by me on the bed with Jasper practically pushing Emmett out of the way.

"Wow, that was quick" I said surprised they were back already.

"Yeah we got lucky we came across 4 men who were about to…uh… never mind, we managed to find plenty and will be good for a while." I knew what Jasper was going to say and I was glad he didn't not in front of everyone else. I know deep down that they know what has happened to me but nobody needs to be reminded of it. I wondered how Rosalie coped with it, or if perhaps she saw it as justice for those girls they weren't in time to save. I'd have to ask her one day.

We sat around while Emmett put the second movie on but I was asleep before the film really got going curled up into Jaspers side feeling safe for the first time in I cant remember how long.

"Bella. Where are you? You know you cant hide from me forever. Be a good girl and do as your told for once."

I was running through trees despite knowing it was useless. He would catch me eventually. I carried on running anyway. I don't know why just that he wanted something from me and I couldn't let him have it.

I came to a clearing and knew I'd never make it, he was too close behind me.

"Bella if you just stop and come with me I'll let him live." I whirled round to face my tormenter and screamed horrified as I saw Jasper my mate in pieces at Edwards feet with Edward holding a lit match just feet from him.

"JASPER NO! Edward please don't I'll do anything." I screamed. I couldn't, no wouldn't watch jasper die.

"Come here Isabella you are coming home with me and we will get rid of that thing as soon as we arrive." he sneered as he grabbed my stomach. I looked down to see what he meant and sobbed as I saw I was heavily pregnant.

"Don't worry love I know he manipulated your emotions into getting you into his bed but I promise as soon as we are far enough away and that thing is no longer inside you, his hold will wear off and we can go back to how it was before."

"Bella? Bella can you hear me? You have to wake up, its just a dream darlin', ive got you, you're safe."

I woke with a scream and started thrashing about trying to get away from the cold hard body that was pinning me.

Before I could register my surroundings I was free from my restraints and Rose was in my face, stroking my hair.

"Sweetie, it's ok shush. It was just a nightmare hunny. He's not here it's just me and Jasper."

"Jasper?" I looked around and saw him in the corner as far away from me as he could get without leaving the room. Without a second thought for my still sore ribs I launched myself off the bed and into his arms.

"Jasper, I'm so sorry, I didn't realise it was you. I know you would never hurt me I thought you were him when I woke up. Please forgive me?" I begged. The look in his eyes was haunted like I had punched right through his chest and ripped out his heart before slowly stamping all over it right in front of him.

"Nothing to forgive darlin'. Are you ok?"

"I'll be ok but I think I need some pain killers my ribs are killing me."

Not longer after I had calmed down properly Peter, Charlotte and Emmett cam into the room with the latter holding up a large coffee and a brown paper bag which I soon found out housed a bagel and a McMuffin. I reached up and kissed him on his cheek before eating my breakfast. After I'd eaten Rose helped me get dressed and we once again climbed into Jaspers truck while this time Rose went with Emmett in his Jeep, to make our final leg to the Whitlock ranch.

I must have fallen asleep at some point as I was being gentle shook awake by Jasper telling me we were almost there.

As I sat up he pointed out the most gorgeous house I have ever seen. It was big but nowhere near a big as the Cullen house in Forks. Approaching closer I could see there was a wrap around porch with a swing seat and I immediately imagined Jasper and I snuggled up watching the others in the yard goofing around. I felt so at ease and as a smile crept up onto my face I could think only one thing.

I was home.

A/N: so there's chapter 6 and it's the longest yet purely because I wanted to get the travelling out in one chapter. I'm actually going away next week so my daughter can recover without all the nasty air we have in the city and although I will do my very best to get another chapter to you I don't know what the wifi connection is like where we're going. Regardless chapter 7 will be posted by next Friday night (that's the 9th not the 2nd).

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