Dear Ginny,
I don't even know how to start this. I think it will be the hardest one of these I have to write, and yet, the most important. Ginny, I am so damn sorry for this. I don't want to die and leave you behind. I want to spend a lifetime and more with you, growing old and being happy. But it doesn't matter what I want because it won't happen. I'm going to die, and I think you know this. I know it too, though, I try not to think about it. It's not exactly something I like to ponder, but it rises to the surface of my thoughts every so often. It's why I'm writing out goodbyes.
I don't think that you will ever understand how much you have done for me. When I think back to when we were dating and you told me that you felt so lucky to be with me, I laugh because you got it wrong, love. When I was with you, I was the happiest I have ever been. You do that for me. Even just thinking about you right now makes me smile. You are one of the people in my life that fully understands me. You always knew what to say to make me feel better. I hope I did that for you. I hope that I made you feel as loved as you made me feel. I hope that I was able to make you happy.
I have never been good at showing people that I care about them. I think that it was being raised by my Aunt and Uncle that made me that way. You know that they never really were affectionate towards me, so I'm kind of awkward in that arena. I'm pretty sure that you have noticed that, though. It's kind of obvious. But when I was with you, Ginny, I never felt awkward because, being with you, everything just felt so right. It was the easiest thing that I ever had to do, being with you. It was like everything just got so much better from the first time I kissed you.
Hagrid was the person who told me I was a wizard. He knocked down the door of the shack that Uncle Vernon had us hiding in. He showed me that magic existed. He showed me that it was out there, but you made me feel it. I know that sounds corny and dumb, but you did something for me that no one else had. I don't remember my parents or the love they had for me. I had Sirius, but he was more broken than I was. You made me feel so whole, Gin. I never felt anything less than myself when I was with you, and I felt like so much more than the Boy Who Lived. I never doubted the fact that I loved you-that I love you. You are everything that living is worth to me, because without you, I'm not just broken, I'm shattered.
I regret that I was blind to how absolutely brilliant you are at first. I really should've suspected that you were more, I mean, not many girls have complimented me in such extravagant ways. If ever asked, I will proudly describe my eyes as 'as green as a fresh pickled toad.' It suits me well, I think.
Ginny, I don't want to say goodbye. I don't want to leave you. I can't let this be goodbye, but it is. I just need you to know that I would do anything I could for you. I hope I made you happy when we were together. I hope you find happiness when all of this is over. I love you, Ginny, I love you.
I'm sorry for this, but I have to ask you one favor, should I live or die. Survive Gin, live for me, okay? I don't think I can fight any longer if you aren't going to make it.
Remember me,
Harry
