April was going back to work the next morning. She was nervous. She was excited to go back to the E.R., but at the same time she didn't want to leave Harriet.
- It'll be fine, April- Jackson said.
April smiled at him, still nervous. Jackson was watching tv with Harriet on his arms. They looked so cute. April looked away, hoping he hadn't noticed her staring. They had agreed on living together. It was what April wanted, things would be easier this way and Harriet would have both her parents on the same house. But she was unsure it had been the right decision. They never mentioned for how long it would be, it couldn't be forever. They had to move on. She couldn't lie to herself anymore. She wasn't trying to get over Jackson anymore. Instead her hopes had grown. It wasn't right, she knew it, but she couldn't stop it. April didn't want to think about it.
She couldn't stay still, so nervous about the next day. She was walking all around the house, making sure she wasn't forgetting anything. She had to calm down. If she was going back to work, she needed to be focused. She couldn't make a mistake with a patient just because she was thinking of Harriet. She needed to believe it would be fine. And she needed to go back to work so bad. She loved Harriet, but she missed her work so much. She needed the rush, feeling useful and mostly, not spending her day staring.
- Are you going to watch the movie with us, or not?- Jackson asked jokingly.
She walked towards the sofa. She couldn't sit too close, it'd be weird; but not too far, that'd be suspicious. Finally she sat down. Jackson had made some popcorns and Harriet was playing with her toys.
- What are we watching?
Jackson said the name of the movie, but she hadn't heard of it before. She took some popcorns and tried to relax. It wasn't an easy task. She had to be able to do this if they were going to live together. But it was so easy, and at the same time so hard, to forget they were divorced when they were living together and had a child. She had to process it, they were two friends who used to be married and now they were raising their child. But were they really friends? They weren't open to each other as they used to. But admitting they wanted to live together was a progress, wasn't it?
Callie and Arizona had stopped living together when they got divorced, but Sofia was way older than Harriet by then. Was it really healthy that April and Jackson were living together? A part of April believed it wasn't, but the rest wanted so badly to believe it was.
Twenty minutes into the movie, Harriet felt asleep and Jackson got up to put her on her crib. April got up too.
- Stay, don't worry. I'll put her on her crib and we can finish watching the movie- said Jackson.
April sat down again and he left. April started to freak out a little. They were going to be alone. As in completely alone. Jackson came back after a few minutes and sat down in the sofa, only this time he was closer to April than before. They didn't talk. April tried to focus on the movie, as Jackson did, but by now she had no clue what it was about.
She tried to look at his discretely. He was so handsome, his arms looked so strong. Jackson had being her best friend, the person she loved the most. They used to trust each other so much. He had always got her back. Whenever something happened, he had always being there for her. He was also the only man she had ever being with. It was funny how she had stressed so much over no longer being a virgin for her future husband then ended marrying him. At the time, it had felt like it had all being God's plan. But she no longer knew what God's plan was.
- April?
¡Oh, God! He had seen her staring at him. She looked away.
- I think I'm too tired and I should get some sleep for tomorrow. Good night, Jackson.
April got up and went straight to her room. She was so embarrassed. She kept making this harder.
