Jackson was laying in his bed, unable to sleep. He didn't quite understood what had just happened. He had just stood there, wishing to kiss April until she stepped back. What the hell did that mean? She hadn't moved away quickly. She had also stared back at him. Did it mean something? It had taken all his willpower not to kiss April, so much he had being unable to move away from her. Maybe she wasn't so indifferent as he thought she was. He didn't want to get his hopes up, but he was sure there was something there. He went to sleep with a smile on his face, completely ignorant of the fact that at the same time April was crying on her bed.


The next days, things were a bit different. It wasn't awkward, but he could see April was nervous, jumpy. As if she was really aware of his presence. Jackson wasn't sure of he should be happy about it. She was constantly hiding her phone, or going to another room when he entered one. Was she afraid he might suddenly kiss her?

She had also started to speak really fast, as April always did when she was nervous. He wasn't sure if he should say something. He was afraid he was jumping to conclusions, or that he was rushing things. He decided it would be best to pretend not to notice, at least for a while.

Was this really the right thing to do? Getting back with April? It would make some things easier, for sure; but it could also complicate a lot of things. they had divorced for a reason, right? Things weren't working out. They were both too hurt and too angry at each other to make it work. Just because they had Harriet and they were living peacefully now, it didn't mean they should get back together. But then he was called to the E.R. for a consult, and his mood improved knowing he would run into April.

And sure enough, as soon as he got the she saw her. In fact, she didn't see him coming when he went to say hi, and started acting nervous again.

- What's up?- he asked her.

But she only said hi again, after already had said hello, and left. Jackson smiled to himself. Yup, definitely jumpy and suspicious.


April looked a little more nervous than her now average while they were on the car, going back home. As they were arriving home, she finally spoke out.

- Do you mind if I leave you alone with Harriet tonight? I'm going out, you know, a date.

- Sure, don't worry about it.

She was probably going out drinking with Arizona. He wondered what they would talk about. It wasn't until April came to the living room, all dressed up, that he realized his mistake. April wouldn't dress up so much for a girls night out drinking. She was going on an actual date. A freaking date. As with other man. As not Jackson.

It struck him like lightning. She was talking. But he wasn't actually listening. He had mixed feelings, staring at how beautiful April looked, and struggling with the fact that she hadn't dressed up for him, but for another guy. He had misread the whole situation. Or nor?

- So you're going out on... a date?... like a date-date?

- Yeah, date-date - she said. And Jackson's heart broke.

- Huh…- So he HAD misread the whole situation.

- Huh? What's huh?

Damn it, he hadn't meant to say it out loud.

- It's so hard to believe that a handsome… - She was defensive, Jackson stared at her, his eyes opening in disbelief, he hadn't meant to offend her, he just… he what? Had his hopes up? Wait, what was April saying? And who was this guy?

- Where did you meet this guy? At work or...?

Did someone in the hospital really dared to ask April out right under Jackson nose?

- We met on tinder.

Wait, what? April was using tinder. Meaning SHE was looking for dates, as in SHE was moving on.

-You're on tinder?

- So what? So are you.

WAIT, what? April wasn't supposed to know that. And he hadn't even open the damn app since Harriet was born, maybe long before that.

-That's.. ah, no, not...not lately, how do you know that?

- Cause you came up on mine once.

- Really?

God, this was awful. And that had being an awful way for April to found out. Why the hell did he kept showing up if he wasn't using the app, maybe he should had closed his account. Damn it. How could he explain to April that that was not how things were.

- Well, why wouldn't you? I mean, we're… you're really close by.

- Yeah…

"Close by" … sure. Great!

- I swiped left… so yeah.

His heart broke a bit more.

- No, yeah, I would too.

As if! April left and Jackson stayed there, watching all his hopes crumble and burn. He wasn't even angry at her. She had every right to move on with her life. He was a hypocrite. He had started dating after the divorce, before he found out April was pregnant. He had being the one to push the divorce and now he was acting all surprised over the fact that April was dating someone else. He wanted her to be happy, he didn't want her to stay alone. But he, for some reason, had believed they would get back together. And now she saw that was never going to be the case. And it hurt. It hurt way more than Jackson ever thought it would, back when he divorced April, knowing she would someday find someone else. He wasn't ready for this.