Prompt #44:Loss(part 1).

White lights almost blinding to her her eyes opened. They stung,but they were seeing. She had been away,in such a beautiful place,with things she really couldn't remember,but she knew she had been with Carter. Head turned,she spotted him right there. Lying on the other side of the room. Lexie would've liked to keep her eyes open,but she couldn't. And that was a shame.


When she came to again there was some weight on her hands and she was aware of far more things than before. First of all that it hurt,even if less than when she had woken up,not really aware of what was going on. Second of all,he was nowhere to be seen.

"Honey?"

"Lexie,sweetie"

"Mom?Mama?"

"Hey,we're here. "

They looked so odd.

They looked….worn out.

As if they had grown several years in a few days.

"Everything alright?"

They looked like hell had come down on earth.

"Is Carter ok?"

The strangled noise she heard coming out of her mom's troath,and her mama's eyes looking down were enough to point out that there was something of terribly wrong with the world she had woken up into.

Lexie sat up,though in pain,and looked on her right.

"Where's he?"

"Lexie..."

"Where's he?Why won't you let me see him?He was right there?Where is he?"

She broke down in tears. Her adult tears turned into childish sobs.

"Please. Carter. Carteeeer"

Some doctors came in,and actually held her down before injecting her and sed.

They had her sedated and were glad it was easier for once,if she had been full alien this would've taken devices which weren't as easy,kryptonite and substances Kara herself didn't want to remember. But in sleep,in sleep she would've found some comfort. Shame they couldn't have the same.


Her hand leaning on the glass,Cat's pale face looked through it,at Lexie's still form. William sitting by her.

She hadn't moved an inch since she had had the news.

They had said it could happen. But Cat was still trying to understand when all this hell had descended on them,what had just happened.

A building had fallen. All over their kids.

Their baby boy.

Their boy had been crushed.

"No…he is our boy"

Lexie had lost her powers in the middle of it all,and he had done everythin to make sure she would be ok,to save her life.

They had dragged her away,begging to see him. Said they wanted him rest,before they could see him again.

She looked to her side. Kara was sitting there,face hung down low,chest heaving,almost hurting with the excerpt. She looked as still as Lexie,but her eyes weren't fixing the void. They were yet to have shed a tear.

In her broken state she knew that look all too well. She had seen it every day for many months before they could take it off her face.

"No. You're not doing it. No. You won't feel guilty about him."

"I wasn't fast enough. That could've been me. It would've been better."

"You don't get to do it. What?I was supposed to lose you?I'm dying inside already"

"But Carter would still be here"

"But you wouldn't. Neither of you. How could I ever do this alone. I need you please don't do this again."

"Do what?The drug gig?I'm a bit old for that,I realized how dangerous it was the first time around."

"Don't shut me out Kara,I'm in pain,but you must be as well. Carter was yours as much as he was mine. "

It had only been four days.

"I killed you all. I brought you into this world. Carter became an agent because of me,Lexie is in there because of me. All I touch I destroy."

"No"the mons got repeated over and over as she kneed in front of the wh and forced Kara to look her in the eyes.

"No way. Because of you I was happy,for so many years. Carter was a wonderful man because he had you there too. You brought him out of his shell,he found his way. And you gave me the most amazing joy the day I found out we were pregnant with Lexie and then the twins"

Why was Kara being so distant?Why was she trying to escape this?

"I'm gonna leave you alone."

"What do you mean?"it almost came out as a shrill scream,deep inside the fear that Kara might have been hiding something up till now,was huge.

It hit her like a ton of bricks when she realized the implication of what Kara had just said.

It froze the blood in her veins.

It wasn't over. It had just begun.

"You can't. You can't go and leave me alone."

Tears streamed down Kara's face free finally,like they hadn't before. Full of grief for Carter and the predicament she was putting Cat into once more.

"Can't they do anything about it?"

Kara shook her head.

"It's too much. My body will give up. It has started spreading,and with the way my back and lungs are... But at last I'll be with Carter. We'll be with you anyways. I'm so sorry,Cat."

Cat let her head fall on Kara's legs,hugging her.

Her voice broke mid sentence.

"H-how…long?"

Kara stole a look at William still trying to talk to Lexie without any result,as she still was in the same position as the last two days,and her heart went in pieces for the nth time in the last four days.

"Two years,at the best"

Cat felt as if somebody had punched her and thrown her into a wall.

Her mind lost all it's thoughts,but her voice screamed out loud her pain.

Painful wails over the woman she had loved for the past 20 years and the beautiful son she had lost.

She had carried him for 9 months,had spent so long raising him up all by herself,and then Kara had come,she had made their life better,easier. How was she to lose her after she had lost Carter? In her mind she was proud of him,for what he had done. He had had unwavering faith in his duty as an agent but above all as a brother to do this. But her heart would skip beats and ache looking at what he had left behind,above all at his wonderful little girl. Her insides felt twisted,and so cold. She was afraid of the day she would've woken up,not knowin what it felt like to be hugged by him,or remember his deep warm voice,or once she had forgotten the sparkle of childish wonder his eyes had held when he was little.

But she wouldn't go and shut everything out,and forget.

He had been there. She didn't want to fall into that type of despair which didn't let you remember the good times,or put a veto on his name,so she didn't hurt everytime it was being spoken by somebody,especially in the family.

He had been there. For 33 years. And she felt so lucky to have had him. He had felt like her second chance after how bad she had treated Adam.

She wouldn't wonder if he had been born to go this way. Everybody had a deadline,he had been born to be an hero. One in disguise,who had never loved to brag about himself for the taste of it. He had chosen a part in the shadows to keep the world safe.


To Kara it was like trying to breathe underwater without her oxygen on.

She couldn't make sense of the days which had just passed. So many things to do,people to call and hear out,and she had just said it. She had told Cat what would've destroyed her completely,after how much they had just lost.

How could she have looked now into her eyes knowing she was gonna bring the world down on her,after all they had been through? Why had they lost Carter?Most kids didn't know that a side of being a good mom,or parent in general, actually came from learning something from your kids. Carter had taught her so much Kara was sure he would've known how to deal with this,better than them.

He had been heaven sent. She hadn't imagined what it would've all turned into the day she had brought him and Cat out for a movie,it would have made her happy to hear about all the good they had had,but just to know this would've happened would've spared them lots of pain and their pitiful strangled cries in a deemly lit hallway.