AN: Sorry it's been so long, but I've had lot of homework. Let's try to get 37 reviews this time. Remember to send any story ideas to Dauntlessmaster or me.
Tris POV
That was stupid. That was beyond stupid. How could I just let him kiss me? This is so jacked up. Why does life have to be so complicated?
I kick rocks out of my way as I walk home. I really don't want to go out tonight, but knowing Christina I don't have a choice. I finally arrive at the apartment at 8:00. Christina beat me and is waiting as I come home.
"Where have you been?" she demands, crossing her arms. As soon as she sees my tear stained cheeks, her expression softens.
"H-he kissed me" I stutter, still not quite believing myself.
"Oh honey" she says, giving me a hug. "Don't worry about him, let's get you ready."
"Alright" I say miserably. She takes my hand and guides me to my room where outfits are spread out across my room. I groan quietly but Christina still hears me. She slaps my arm lightly.
"Can I choose?" she asks with a hopeful expression on her face.
"I suppose" I say, grinning a little. She claps her hands and her hand immediately darts out to a dark blue top.
"Put this on" Christina orders.
"What about pants?" I ask. She blinks once before laughing.
"It's a dress silly. You won't need pants" she answers, smiling.
"Really?" I grumble.
"Yes, really. Now go change, we're short on time" she snaps, pushing me towards the bathroom.
I change quickly and as soon as I pull it on, I feel only half dressed. The 'dress' is navy blue with a low neckline. It's short and I feel my butt is poking out.
"Chris" I whine, sticking my head out.
"Let me see" she calls.
I walk out of the bathroom and she squeals.
"I don't know if I should be pulling this thing up or down" I grumble, fidgeting with the clothing.
"You look amazing. I never thought I would get you into it" she says.
"I don't want to be in it" I say.
"Well, . . . you owe me anyway" she retorts.
"For what?" I ask in disbelief.
"Uh, remember? . . . That one time. . .?" Christina says. I laugh at her antics.
"Right. Anyway, what about you. If I go out half naked, you better be three quarters naked" I say.
"Don't worry, I will be" she says, grinning as I roll my eyes.
She takes ten minutes in the bathroom before she comes out. During that time, I find myself rediscovering old pictures. I find an old photo album in the drawer of my nightstand. It's filled all the way and as I open it, I realize where it's from. Tobias.
The very first picture is of us on the Fourth of July laughing. I have a glow stick on my head like a halo while Tobias has a tiara on his. I feel a prickle of sadness from the pictures from the past. The next picture is of Tobias pushing me into a pool. I smile at the memory preserved on paper. I flip through the pages, watching as our relationship grows. A picture of us laughing. A picture of Tobias keeping something out of my reach. A picture of me chasing him. It goes on and on until the last picture; the first day of senior year. I had gotten my hair dyed and cut that summer. It was right before I left.
The bathroom door opens with a creak.
"Hello?" Christina calls. I stuff the album away and rush to see how three quartered naked Christina really is.
She's pretty much three quarters naked for sure.
"Uh" is all I can say.
"So, what do you think?" she asks.
"It's, well, you. That's for sure" I say. The piece of clothing is black and has a plunging neckline with cutouts on the side. It's even shorter than mine.
"I'll take that as a compliment. It's almost time" Christina says. She starts reapplying her makeup and soon, I follow suit. I just finish when there's a knock on the door.
"Oh, come on. They're here" she says happily.
"I thought it was just one person coming?" I ask her.
"Did I not tell you? Will is coming with me."
"Oh. I can't remember" I say dumbly.
"Put these on" Christina says, tossing a pair of heels at my feet. I pull them on and instantly feel myself grow at least five inches. She answers the door, having already put her mile long heels on.
"Hello boys" she greets. Two hello's greet her back. I walk to stand behind Christina and spy my date. He's pretty handsome, tall, and by the looks of it, pretty strong.
"You must be Tris" he greets, taking my hand in his.
"Yes. And you Matthew?" I answer.
"Yes" he replies, bringing my hand to his lips. I smile and blush, already feeling as if I have embarrassed myself.
"Ok, let's go" Christina says, hustling me out the door.
The Lounge is packed as always. We hop out of the cab and I feel like a teenager again; about to explore some new topic. Though, of course, I'm not a teen anymore. Matthew offers me his arm and I take it gladly, it trusting myself to walk alone in these heels.
We walk in and Al smiles at Christina and Will, his smile fading a little when he sees me. I offer him a smile anyway, feeling my face heat up. Again.
The place is filled with dancing people making the room hot and stuffy.
"Would you like a drink?" Matthew asks, indicating to the bar Marlene is working at.
"Sure" I yell over the noise of the music. We take a seat and Matthew orders two shots of Vodka.
"Trying to get me drunk early?" I tease.
"Maybe" he teases back, laughing. I join in and laugh also. It feels good to forget about Tobias for awhile. Marlene places the shots in front of us, offering me a quick smile.
"Bottoms up" Matthew says, taking his shot. I follow suit and feel the burn of the alcohol go down my throat.
"Mmm, thank you" I say. He smiles at me in response.
"So, Christina told me everything" he says out of thee blue.
"About what?" I ask.
"You know, your ex" he tells me.
"I'm going to kill her" I growl, causing Matthew to laugh. My serious façade fades and I join in with the laughter. I stop as I'm tapped on the shoulder. I turn around to see Christina.
"What?" I ask.
"Come here" she says quickly, pulling me up from my seat.
"I'll be back" I tell Matthew before I'm pulled away.
"He's here" Christina says as soon as she's satisfied that I'm away from my seat.
"Who?" I ask stupidly.
"Four" she says so quietly I can barely hear her.
"Screw him. I thought this was something important" I snap.
"He wants to make you jealous. I can just see it. He's with Maggie at the bar" Christina says. Maggie the slut. Of course.
"I don't care" I say.
"Oh, but you do" Christina says gently.
"I don't care what he does with his life."
"Once you see them you will. Just ignore him, alright?" she says hurriedly.
"Alright" I sigh.
"Okay, now go have some fun" she says, giving me a nudge to Matthew. I roll my eyes and walk back to my seat.
"What was that about?" he asks once I sit down.
"My ex is here with a slut" I say. No point in lying.
"I'm sorry. But on the bright side, you broke up" he says with optimism.
"Yeah. . ." I say. We sit in a silence for a moment before Matthew speaks up.
"Is he that guy with that blonde? He keeps sneaking glances at you" Matthew wonders. I turn around, and of course, there he is.
Maggie dances with him, pushing her boobs in his face. Their hips move together. I look away as his eyes flit to mine.
"Yeah, that's him" I say.
"I can see why you dumped him" he says, laughing. He once again causes me to laugh also.
"I'll be back, I'm just going to go to the bathroom" I tell Matthew.
"Alright, I'll be here" he replies. I stand up and weave my way through the crowds to the bathroom.
The bathroom is crowded as always with women doing their makeup or fixing their hair. I get in and do my business as I planned to do. I wash my hands and as I walk out Maggie bumps my shoulder. I manage to get out and keep Maggie out of my mind.
As I walk out, a hand grabs my arm making me jump.
"Relax, it's just me." I relax at the familiar voice and tense up again once I realize who it is.
"What do you want" I spit at Tobias.
"I just wanted to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry for getting mad when you left. I'm sorry for not giving you a chance. I'm sorry for not bothering to listen to your story. I'm sorry for blaming you. I'm sorry for yelling at you. I'm sorry I kissed you. And-"
"Save your breath" I cut him off.
"Tris-"
"I'm sorry too. For many things, but after everything that's happened, you can't expect me to just forgive you" I say.
"I know, I don't. I just want to be friends" he tells me.
"Friends? I can't believe it. Friends?" I ask.
"Uh, . . . yeah?"
"Is that equivalent to date?" I ask, sure that's what he really wants.
"No, I-I, please?" he pleads. I feel my face heat up as I realize how foolish my last comment was.
"Maybe. I-"
"Baby, why are you talking to this slut?" Maggie asks, emerging from the bathroom. You really want to go there?
"Maggie-" Tobias starts.
"She's right...for the most part. I have to get back to my date" I say, leaving the situation.
How dare he apologize when he's with another girl. Now more than ever, I want to make him jealous. Make him regret pushing me away as bad as that sounds.
I sit down with a plump in my seat.
"I ran into the ex" I explain.
"What did he say?"
"He apologized" I say bluntly.
"Did you accept?" he asks.
"I don't know yet" I say, watching from the corner from my eye as he comes back with Maggie.
"Oh."
"Kiss me."
"What?" Matthew exclaims.
"Kiss me. Just to make him jealous" I say quickly. Matthew grins.
"Alright." He leans in and kisses me directly on the lips. I deepen the kiss, creating a heated moment. Matthew's hands caress my sides gently, and my hands find their way to their hair. I feel bad that this kiss is completely fake.
But, the whole time I feel Tobias' burning eyes on me.
AN: Thank you for reading. I'm so sorry this took so long, but I've been busy. I know Tris wasn't really acting like herself, but remember she has changed. Please review. The next update will also take a while, I'm sorry.
