My mind was running with how to answer the question. Trying to organize every word to explain my arrival but my heart beat my mind when it came to speak. My heart ached to have this question answered
"how is she" I whisper while I kept my gaze at the floor
"what!?" He yells
I shoot my head up and look him in the eyes "how is she!?"
He starts to tap his foot rapidly against the floor as he runs his hands through his hair and drops his bag to the floor.
"How is she? How is she?!" He says as he move to be right in front of my face " don't you think your 5 years late to be asking that question!?"
I step back and gulp I've never seen this angry from farkle.
" f-f-f arkle I-I know I don't deserve to ask but I need to know what happened." I plead
" pssht what happened. What happened Is that you left her when she needed you the most! For your own selfish needs" he says as he points right at my chest .
I push his arms away " I was young! Okay! I was scared I wasn't ready! couldn't let an opportunity like that pass!"
"You you always about you! What about her huh, she was young and wasn't ready but you didn't see her walk away like a coward! She had opportunities to! " he says as he turns away form me clenching his fist
I was about to speak when his phone ringed.
He lets a breathe before he answers " hello"
I see him looking for something. I turn to see maybe just maybe I can see her . Maybe it's her who's picking him up and i could a glimpse of the one I left behind
His eyes finally land on are car that's a few feet away from us
" oh yea I see you . No stay there I'll walk to the car. Thanks bye" he says as he picks up his bag and turns to start walking past me I quickly grab his arms to prevent him from leaving. My heart needs that answer.
"Buddy please " I plead
He quickly jerks his arm away and pushes me
" don't buddy me . We stop buddy's 5 years ago when you made your decision to leave for Texas!"
I look away from him as I feel my jaw tense and the guilt build inside of me.
" you know what. I'm done talking to you. I have some where to be and I'm not going to waste my time with you. " he says as he shakes his head as he walks away
" I'm sorry!" I yell
He stops and turns " sorry isn't enough Lucas! You did too much damage. I don't know why your back but no one needs you here . Oh and to answer your question she's amazing! She's happier than she ever was with you. Both of them are." And with that he disappears into the crowd of people .
I feel my body heat rising. My body shaking as my fist tighten . His words repeat over and over and then the memory of when I left her pops Into my mind. I shake my head trying to make it stop. "Ahhh" I yell as I kick my suit case and run my hands throw my hair and keep them behind my head. I close my eyes tightly as the memory plays.
"Lucas! You can't do this! You can't leave! I need you we both need you! She say with tears in her eyes as she places my hand on her stomach
"I-I just can't ! " I say moving my hand away and turn but she grabs my arms
" you promised never to leave me!" She yells
I feel the tears running down my face . I place my hands over my face trying to control my sobs. But all the guilt that I've kept bottled up releases into my tears . I hear a honk and look up to see the cab. I quickly wide my tears away and collect me things.
As I sit in the backseat of the cab I look out the window and think I need to make this right . I know am years late but I'm going to make this right again.
