Ch 2:

(You're mood matches your eyes, you're so, so blue)


Alex knows she isn't what her mother wanted... want's. She'd never been the little girl who wanted pink and purple walls in her bedroom. She'd never been the little girl who wanted to play with dolls, or play dress up. Alex still hated wearing dresses or skirts.

When she was small, she had wrestled in the dirt with little boys until their parents had told them they shouldn't play with girls like that. There had been countless times where her mother had told her to act like a lady, and Alex had never understood why girls weren't supposed to do the things she wanted to do. She'd never really fit in anywhere. She had been an awkward tomboy whose smarts had helped isolate her from her peers. Alex's differences from what her mother wants, and from what everyone else expects puts her in a closer relationship with a father that's around less and less and a distanced one with a mother who tries to make up for their lack of bond by discussing curriculum. Alex is smart for her grade, and it makes her happy to please her mom by being better. It seems to be the only way she can.

Shes about to be 14, and asks her mother if she can have her room in purples, silver, and black for her birthday. Alex watches her expression carefully. Her mothers face lights up considerably and falters a little at the mention of black. "Really Alex," her mom says. "Black?"

Alex shrugs. "It's my favorite color."

She sees her mom purse her lips. Alex knows she does that when she's displeased. "Ok." Alex is surprised, she didn't expect her mom to agree to black as part of the color scheme. Her room right now was reds and oranges.

"This will be fun!" Mom says. Her voice lighter than Alex is used to. "We can go shopping tomorrow after school what do you think?"

Alex feels a twinge of hope. "I'd like that." She says. Mother and daughter smile at each other for real, and Alex hates that she can count moments like this on her fingers.


Things worsen when Kara comes. At first she hated her. Hated her crystal blue eyes and golden hair, and how her parents seemed to forget her existence because this thirteen year old girl was actually a freaking alien who literally crashed into earth like some cliche science-fiction story. It was utterly ridiculous. There was no way in hell that Alex Danvers, was going to accept that Kara Zor El, was now Kara Danvers. She could barely even comprehend Superman was real and now her parents were telling her this small, thin, girl could lift a car as if it were a fucking flower? The whole thing might have been cool if she wasn't gaining another family member out of nowhere.

And her parents, especially her mother, forget she exists. They're too busy fretting about the terrified alien girl who covers her ears when you speak too loudly and either closes her eyes or blinks rapidly because she says she can see through you... see through everything. A part of her understands, of course Kara Zor El would take up their time. That same part of her feels bad for the sad and stressed out alien. But the other part of her is angry her life has changed. She's angry that everything is about protecting Kara. The girl was always so down and shy, and Alex hated her sullen attitude. It made her parents try harder. She didn't blame Kara for being the picture of depression, but the side of Alex that was shocked and selfish wished she would just smile so Alex could maybe get her dad to take her shooting or her mom to ask about the homecoming dance or well anything (Not that Alex was going to go to homecoming anyways.)

Meeting Kara was... something. Alex remembers gazing out from her room window to look on her mother speaking to a small blonde girl whilst her father spoke to freaking superman. She had muttered, "What the fuck?" and the small girls head had snapped up to look at her Where she gazed from the second story. She looked to be around 12 or thirteen, her face red and puffy, and confused. When they had spoke face to face it was awkward, the girl couldn't really speak English and Alex was simply in shock. Around the house Alex tried to avoid her. Sometimes at night she could hear Kara crying herself to sleep. Despite her annoyance at the change she had caused, Alex felt so bad for the girl, but she had no idea how to handle the situation. It's not like she could go up to the girl and say something like "I'm sorry your planet blew up." So Alex just let her mother coddle Kara and didn't complain when her father took more time to teach and talk to Kara than her. Alex sulked and scowled and let Kara have the time and attention from her parents she craved . It's not like she ever had it anyways. And that was actually, the real reason she hated having Kara around.


School is another issue. Kara won't be enrolled until next year and Alex can already feel the coming burden. She will have to be the babysitter. Watch out for Kara, protect Kara, bla, bla bla. She's a freshman in high school, and is turning 15 in a few months.

She figures she won't be able to do anything for her birthday because her house has turned into Area 51.

Alex tells her friends that Kara's parents were close family friends of her father who died in a fire. She tells them they took Kara in because her father wouldn't let his nest friends daughter in a foster home. She tells it like this because Kara isn't her sister. She's not.

"That's not all," she tells her best friends , Kim and Scott. She doesn't have many friends, not really, but Kim and Scott are exceptions. Scott's an awkward boy who, while not unattractive, is just too nerdy and awkward to have a lot of friends. Kim is really into outdoorsy stuff, and obsessed with art. The girl always seems to have charcoal or paint on her hands. The two are so different but somehow it works. Though she's on the cross country team, Alex hasn't really got close to anyone other than Scott and Kim, who she met in her algebra class. They had developed a real friendship from studying together.

"She has a speech disability, and she doesn't have good social skills," Alex continues, "I don't understand how to get along with her because of it." Scott and Kim nod understandingly. "That's so sad Alex, I'm sorry for her." Scott says this again because he really doesn't know what to say.

Kim reaches out and lays her hand on Alex's arm. "I'm sorry this happened Alex, maybe you should try to talk with her. Even if you don't know how I think you should try, it sounds like she needs a friend and parents just don't cut it sometimes."

Alex blinks, guilt weighing in. "I know, it's just I don't know what to say."

This time Scott perks up and exclaims, "Don't mention it at all then, just ask her what she likes to do!" Alex frowns, after a few weeks of trying to ignore her, she thinks it would be weird. But Kara still hasn't stopped crying at night and Alex feels a little too conflicted about it all so she agrees.

"Ok guys I'll try it. Thanks. It's just kind of crazy." Her friends don't know her dad's gone all the time, they don't really know about her and her mother's distanced relationship, and they certainly won't ever know about aliens, but Alex likes it this way. Their advice is normal and less complicated as a result. Alex could do with less complicated right now.

The first thing Alex hears when she gets home is the sound of drill whirring. "Dad?" she calls out, loudly over the sound of the power drill. She follows the noise to the backyard, when she sees Kara sitting in the grass watching her father fixing the gate to the courtyard. Her fingers are stuck in her ears. Their backyard is nice, it has an enclosed lawn and a porch with some chairs and a fountain. A week ago, it had a play set before Kara destroyed it by accident. Now, it seemed Kara had probably destroyed the gate too.

Alex knows Kara's struggling, but it doesn't make it any less annoying.

The drill noise stops, Kara unplugs her fingers from her ears and Alex's father says, "There we go, good as new." And the gate to courtyard is indeed fixed, back on its hinges and at a better height than before. Alex takes her eyes away from the gate and notices Kara looking at her who immediately drops her gaze to the ground.

"What'd I miss?" Alex says. Her father turns around and beams at her, and Alex can't resist smiling back.

"Kara here tried to close the gate and took it off its hinges when the neighbors car alarm went off." Her father is laughing. "You should've seen her face Alex it was priceless!" Alex isn't sure how to feel. Her father has never ending patience for this alien and her constant mistakes. She looks at Kara who instead of smiling, has her head down and looks like she might cry. Alex decides she's sick of it.

"That's actually hilarious," she says, offering a small laugh and a smile. Kara's eyes brighten and meet hers and the smile on the girls face is blinding. Alex feels her breath leave her. Happiness on Kara Zor El looks a lot better than degection. Alex falters awkwardly, breaking eye contact and the moment is broken. Her father reaches down and ruffles both of their hair and heads inside saying he's going to help their mother make dinner. Alex follows him saying she's got homework to do, and she does, but she's mostly in a hurry to get away from Kara, who's eyes she can feel follow her all the way back inside.


Another few weeks go by and Alex tries to be a little nicer to Kara. She's busy with school and Kara's busy practicing English and learning earth customs and her fathers left again on some secret mission. Kara seems happier and Alex hopes she's helped. Her dislike of the girl has been fading fast. She's still wary of the alien girl however. Alex doesn't ever think she'll be able to accept her as her sister. But now she's getting used to things and her parents are too. The better Kara gets at controlling her powers, the more normal things get, even with the new addition to the family. Alex has gotten more time with her father too, which helps a lot.

Superman comes to visit with Louis Lane and Kara happily chats to him about what she's learned and that she can hug Eliza without worrying about crushing her anymore. Alex doesn't really like superman. She thinks it has something to do with how perfect he comes across. He takes Kara off to the fields outside the yard to show her some "tricks" with controlling her powers. The closest neighbor is a couple miles away so they don't have to worry about being seen. Louis Lane talks to her mother and father and Alex finds that she really doesn't want to talk about the latest article she's written or whatever else they're going to talk about, so she excuses herself and heads upstairs to work on her homework for the day. She comes back down later to say goodbye to Clark or "Kal El" as Kara calls him and hugs Louis goodbye. As she heads back upstairs she hears Her father tell Clarke that Kara's glasses are almost ready for pick up. Alex squints, why the hell would Kara need glasses? Alex puts her headphones in her ears and glares at the assignments due in front of her. She doesn't like history. This was going to take a long time.

It's late, and Alex realizes she still hasn't managed to go talk to Kara. She's been putting it off for weeks now. Her parents have gone to bed and the house is eerily quiet. She's just finished up the last of her history homework and carefully staples the papers together for tomorrow. Alex doesn't hear Kara crying, or having any nightmares, and wonders if she's awake. She's not sure when she'll have any courage again so she decides the best time to talk to Kara is now. She opens the door to her room and walks straight into a boulder, or what feels like one she realizes, stumbling backwards and landing flat on her ass.

"Alex I'm so sorry!" Kara whisper yells. She reaches out her hand, and as a second thought, snatches it back to fidget with her hair. Alex pulls herself up, ignoring Kara's awkward change of mind.

"It's ok, I'm fine. What are you doing?" Alex takes in Kara's appearance, the girl looks frazzled in her dorky and conservative looking nightgown which amuses her. I just got knocked down and you're the one freaked out, she muses in her head.

Kara begins to fidget, "I was coming to talk to you," she says, her voice getting higher.

Alex furrows her brow. "I was coming to talk to you too," she murmurs. Kara looks back up at her, a small smile begging to grace her lips. The light from Alex's room cause the shadows and highlights to dance across Kara's face. Alex supposes the only alien thing about the girl right now are her eyes; they're the darkest blue she's ever seen. "Ok," Alex says, stepping aside. Kara seems to glide past her into the room. They sit on the floor, across from each other. "You go first," Alex says, nerves getting the best of her. Kara takes a deep breath, and she does.


Authors note:

I've finally decided to continue this! Sorry for such a delay. This story lacks a beta so I apologetic for dumb grammatical errors. This is also my first story so please let me know how I can improve. Also take note that I've moved canon around to fit a more realistic time line. The chapters will sometimes jump around in terms of when it takes place during the show. This story takes place in season one. Thanks for the support so far.