I smile slightly as I feel him gently place his hand around my stomach.
"There's someone really in there" he says quietly
"You're not mad?" I say looking down at his hand
"Riley. Look at me" he says placing his finger under my chin as he lifts my head to meet his eyes
"I will never be mad at you.. I love you and I love this little person we made. I will always love you both" he smiles as he places a kiss on her stomach
I sit as I look out the window as I place my hand on my stomach. 8 months and 5 without him. I close my eyes as I feel a tear escape my eyes. When I soon feel a hand on my shoulder. I turn to meet his gaze his eyes never as green as Lucas but comforting
"Please don't cry. It'll be okay" he says quietly as he places as kiss on my head
"I can't help it. How do you know that" I say looking down
He kneels in front of me as he looks at me.
"May I?" He asks as he moves his hand over my stomach
I slowly nob as I tense up.. As it bring back the memory of him
I watch as Charlie smile grows as his hand touches my stomach.
"I know that because this little girl is going to be the greatest gift ever. So please don't be sad be happy that you have her" he says softly as he smiles up at me
I smile at him as I reach forward to kiss his check
"You are everything to me" he says quietly
My eyes flutter awake as I stretch out on the left side of the bed. My heart sinks down as once it's empty. I raise myself up as I rest my back on the headboard of the bed. As the memories of both of them run through my half-awake mind. Both meaning to much for my brain to wrap around
I run my hand through my hair as I think over everything. It has been over a month since everything happened and nothing is right. Lucas had been coming over frequently asking for Hope much to Charlie's discomfort. He wanted to say no so badly but couldn't.
I'm fully woken when I hear the door open slowly. I look up to see him enter the room quietly. He stops as he sees me he slightly smiles..
"Hi" I say as i get out of bed
"Hello" he says sternly as he makes his way to the closest
I frown as I feel my heart. It had been a month since the argument we had and Charlie couldn't quite forgive me
"Please talk to me" I say
"Riley.."
"Charlie, it's been over a month since it happened! I'm so sorry" I say as I move to stand outside of the closet
I watch as he dresses himself. I miss him.. I miss everything about him
"Riley we do talk okay." He say as he walks out
"No we don't! You only talk to me when Hope is around from there on you don't. What do you want me to do?" I say as I felt my emotions rise up
He stops fixing his tie resting his hands on the sink looking down
"I want it to be how it use to be Riley! I want what we use to have. I wish it could" he says looking down
"We can be like that again char-"
"No we can't Riley! We can't be like we used to be because Lucas in now part of the picture. And I'm sorry but I still don't know how you feel" he says looking at me
"Maybe you would know if you would sleep in bed with me! I have apologized over and over about what I said to you that day. I have felt guilty enough for that but Charlie you have fault to!" I say as I rise my voice
"Me? How is it me!?" He says as he crosses his arm
"You don't speak to me! You completely ignore me and you don't even bother to sleep with me at night! You sleep in the guest room! Charlie it's been over a month don't you get that! Don't you remember what you said to me" I say as I felt my tears forming
"I've said a lot " he say crossing his arms
"Don't you remember what you said to me when I was 8 months pregnant with Hope? Remember that day?" I say a I sit on the bed
I watch as his relaxes and looks at me. He comes closer to me as he kneels down in front of me. I close my eyes as I feel a tear run down my cheek as I remember .
"You are everything to me. That's what I said and I still mean it Riley. You both are everything to me.." He say as he reaches to wipes my cheek
"Then why don't you come back to me? Please I can't talk you being hostile towards me" I say
He closes his eyes as he looks down" I'm sorry.. It's just I let my anger get to me.. "
"I married you Charlie that isn't going to change.. Please" I say as I rest my head on his forehead
"I'm sorry.. I promise we will fix everything" he smiles as he kisses my cheek
I smile as I feel his heat run through my body.
"See you later" he say as I watch him walk out of the door
I'm preparing food when I hear someone at the door. I quickly rush over as I open the door without even asking. I gasp as I'm met with two pairs of embarks eyes
"Hi" he say smiling
"Hey" I gulp as I shift my feet
"You look beautiful"
"Thank you but Hope's not here yet?" I say biting my lip
"I didn't came to see her actually.. I wanted to see you" he says as he moves closer
"Lucas I-"
"Can I come in? Just for a minute please" he says
I nob my head as I move to let him in. We walk to the couch as we take a sit
"What do you need" I say
He shift his body slightly as he claps his hands together as he looks at me
"I know what I did was wrong and I'm-"
"Lucas it's been over a month okay. Can we-"
"No. Let me finish.."
I nod as I stare at him
"I'm so sorry for everything. And no matter how many times I say it, it will never fix it and I know that, but I need to ask you something" he says as he grabs my hands
"Ask me what?" I whisper looking at our hands
"Do you remember what I told you that day you told me about Hope?"
I close my eyes as I breathe out and recall the memory. The memory of his warmth on my body. I slowly nob as I open my eyes as she his closer to me
He rest his forehead on mine as he whispers "I love you and I love this little person we made. I will always love you both no matter what"
I feel his hands move up to cup my face. As I feel his fingers play with my hair. My heart beats as I feel his head move slightly as his lips come dangerously close to mine. I stop. Breathing as I felt his breath linger on my lips.
"Riley it's going to be us again because I never stop loving you. I'll show you" he whispers as I feel his lips touch my cheek
I close my eyes as I try to control the rush of my emotions. I open my eyes as I watch him smile and walk out the door.
I groan as I fall back on the couch as I run my fingers through my hair. I grab the family photo from the table as I run my finger across Charlie's image
How could you both mean so much to me.. To much. How could I possible love you both...
Honestly not the best and I apologize. This is kind of just a filler to show where the story is at right now. I'll try my best to make the chapters better.
Also do you guys still like this story? Let me know, I would love to receive some feedback. I feel like the story started, good and now it's kind of ehh.
** Also please check out my new story called Compel me. It will mean so much to me:) 💕🔥❤️✨
