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He's just a man
The next day, Alexandra was still on patrol duty, but this time, Damon was with her. She was very happy about it, yet she didn't really show it. Something was bothering her and she couldn't find a solution to stop it.
"How was your first day out with Reilly?" She asked casually as if she didn't care, despite the fact that she was eager to know.
"Silent." Alexandra looked at him, arching her eyebrows. "I mean, silent if I compare with you," he mocked.
"Poor you. I know how much you loooove having me talking all the time!" She grinned.
"Exactly. And you, with Dunham?" he asked on the same casual tone than her.
"I think he didn't really enjoy it either."
"What happened to him?"
"I think he thought about Reilly a lot. He was distracted the whole day."
"Well he's not the only one. You've been distracted the whole morning. What's on your mind?" Alexandra looked at him and sighed.
"Not a good day I guess." She winced.
"Tell me Alex, you know I won't judge you," he said truthfully. She looked away, thinking, then she noticed Lucas at the south of the market.
"It's about Lucas. I'm sure you don't wanna know."
"Give me a chance."
"I promised myself I would not blame him for asking me to stop going OTG but I'm frustrated. I feel like a lion in a cage," she said, walking between the stands, quickly glancing at Lucas, just enough to see he was staring at her, leaning against a unit wall, arms folding on his chest. She gave him a tiny wave and he winked at her, a crooked smile on his face. She couldn't suppress a smile, shaking her head. He was so sexy when he had this attitude. "Do you mind if I go and talk to him for a minute?"
"Sure."
"Thanks," she said before starting to walk to him. Lucas was smirking at her when he saw her face getting suddenly worried, looking at his right side. Lucas turned his head just in time to see a fist coming right through his face. The punch made him fall down, his head spinning. He heard people shouting around him.
"Josh! Josh, are you mad?" That was Alexandra's voice.
"Oh my God Josh, no!" That was Skye.
"Keep your boyfriend away from my girlfriend!" That was Josh, warning Alexandra.
"What?" Alexandra asked in disbelief, furious.
"You heard me," Josh huffed witheringly.
"Ok ok enough," Damon said, pushing Josh away. "You boy, go away and cool down. Skye, go with him," he commanded them. Skye nodded, gave a quick look to see Lucas sitting on the floor, his head in his hands, and joined Josh who was already gone. Alexandra knelt next to Lucas and took his hands off his face.
"Let me see," she murmured. He pushed her hands away.
"It's okay," he said angrily.
"Hey, I'm not the one who hit you ok? I'm trying to help," she said, hurt. She knew it was his anger talking, yet it was hurtful having him refusing her help.
"Sorry," he murmured, moving his face up so she could see.
"Nice, you'll have a bad black eye."
"I guess we make a good pair." He smiled lightly. She chuckled at his joke. She always loved the funny Lucas, he could make her forget everything.
"Stand up, I'll bring you home to clean this cut."
Alexandra brought Lucas home to look at his bruised eye. He sat in the living room while she went to the kitchen to get the emergency kit. She came back and stood in front of him. While she was cleaning the wound, she asked him what was going on between him and Skye.
"Nothing," he replied, surprised.
"Then why is Josh saying the opposite?"
"Because the Shannon boy doesn't like me" She waggled her eyebrows.
"Come on you know I'm right," he said, grabbing her legs and making her come closer to him. As he saw skepticism in her eyes, he added. "Really, there is nothing going on, I'm just annoying her, like I always did. He's mad at me because he's genetically programmed to make a big deal out of every little thing." He pulled her and sat her on his lap, her legs each side of his. "I think you look sexy when you're jealous," he smirked. She smacked his hand in response.
"Shut up!" she suppressed a smile, a fake angry look on her face. He brought her face close to his as she tried to go away.
"Stay here, I haven't finished with you," he warned her before kissing her hungrily, his hands going under her shirt, running on her back. She couldn't resist and kissed him back, excited by his warm touch. She dropped the medicine she had in her hands and ran them in his hair. Soon, their shirts had been taken off and he carried her to the bedroom.
Alexandra went back to the market an hour later and joined back Damon on their patrol.
"How is he?"
"He's okay."
"What happened?"
"If I knew it I would tell you but I have no idea."
"Taylor called me when you were with Lucas. We have a shift, we end at 7 instead of 9 but then we work again from 8 to 10."
"Super," she said ironically.
"I know. I don't like it either. I had plans for tonight."
"Oh really?"
"Yeah. I sort of invited Trinity for a drink."
"Is it a date?" She asked, surprised.
"Not a date, just two adults who are going to have a drink."
"It's a date," she chuckled.
"Yeah well doesn't matter anymore now, I have to cancel it."
"I'm sure she'll understand. You don't have to cancel it, just postpone it."
"You don't mind right?"
"Mind what?"
"Me and her, dating?"
"Of course not. I have no right to forbid you. She's nice and pretty, you'd be a fool not to give her a try." Alexandra was quite surprised by her answer, yet she knew that even if it was not really the truth, it was what Damon needed to hear. He looked disappointed though.
It was 7 and Alexandra was walking back home when she found Josh, sitting in a dark alley.
"Josh? Are you alright?"
"No…" He mumbled. "I'm not… not at all," he whined. She sat next to him and realized he was totally drunk.
"Oh Josh," she sighed. "Tell me what's going on."
"Do you know what it feels like when the girl you love loves another one?"
"I think Skye loves you Josh. Maybe it's just a bad time now but I'm sure you'll be happy again soon," she tried to reassure him. "It can't be that bad."
"I've never thought that she could be one day attracted by a guy like him. I mean, did you know this guy was obsessed with her before and she hated him, and now, he comes back as a brand new man and she suddenly sees in him the man she wants to be with."
"Wait. Who do you think she's in love with?"
"Lucas! Who else?"
Alexandra remembered the night before when Skye had told her about this mysterious guy who flirted with her but had a girlfriend. She remembered Skye saying she was lost in her feelings. She had thought she was talking about Hunter.
"I'm so stupid," she murmured to herself. "Josh, come on, I'll walk you back home, you can't stay here." She helped him to stand up and walked him home. When she reached the Shannon's house, Jim opened the door. He grimaced when he saw Josh drunk.
"Good evening Jim! I brought you a present," she smiled.
"What happened?"
"I think Josh is suffering from heartache." Dr Shannon arrived at the door, shaking her head when she saw how bad was is son. She helped him to get in.
"Thank you Alexandra," Dr Shannon said gently.
"What happened earlier at the market?" Jim asked her once Elisabeth was gone.
"Josh attacked Lucas. I don't know why. I think it's something to do with Skye, but I'm not sure." She lied. Actually she wasn't sure she was lying because she didn't really know what had happened between Skye and Lucas. Yet, there was something.
"Are you alright Alex?" asked Jim in a concerned tone. "You look worried."
"I'm fine. Thank you. I have to go now. I have 2 hours off before I go back to work, I need dinner! Take care of Josh and don't be too severe with him, I think he's already been punished."
Jim joined Elizabeth in Josh's bedroom.
"Son, what's going on?"
"I hate this guy."
"Lucas?"
"Dad, this guy is evil. He shouldn't be here. He shouldn't be allowed to talk to us, to talk to Skye."
"Well, that is not what Taylor thinks." Jim reminded him.
"And I think Alex would disagree with you," Elizabeth added.
"Alex shouldn't be with him. He's not good for her, nor for the colony," he hissed.
"Josh, you can't say that!" Elizabeth tried to calm him down. "Lucas has changed and Alexandra is most of the reason to that change."
"Mum, this guy can only hurt her."
"Josh, you're too young to understand them. You don't see what your mother and I see. It's not just that she brings out the best in him. He changes her too. Lucas is the best thing for Alex as much as he can be the worst. In each case, there is an unbreakable bond between them and you have to stop trying to break it," Jim explained. "The only thing stronger than his craving to hate his father is his love for her. He needs her as much as she needs him. I think we all have to accept it. They have been separated twice and they always ended up together. It means something."
Josh was too upset to agree with his parents, even if he knew they were right. But he could not stop thinking about Skye and how she was talking about Lucas, how he was with her. He was jealous and didn't trust the guy.
When Alexandra walked back home, Lucas didn't give her time to pause. He rushed over to her, kissing her, caressing her and taking off her clothes.
"Wow, wow, slow down cowboy," she chuckled under his hot kisses. "What's the rush?"
"I want you now," he said breathlessly, unbuttoning his belt. She put her hands on his, stopping him. He stopped kissing her and looked at her. "What?" He seemed concerned. She looked at his beautiful green eyes and got lost in them. She loved him and couldn't stop loving him.
"Nothing," she whispered putting her arms around his neck and kissing him. They ended in bed, having sensual and hot sex. Alexandra didn't stay in the bed long once they had finished. She quickly kissed him, stood up and got dressed. Lucas was surprised. She used to stay in bed with him. Lucas pushed himself up onto his elbows, his brow furrowing.
"What is it?"
"Nothing."
"I can see there's something"
"Honestly, there's nothing," she sighed. He stood up quickly and grabbed her wrists, turning her to face him.
"Don't lie to me Alex, you know you don't know how to lie. You're mad at me."
"I'm not mad at you."
"Yes you're mad at me because of what happened earlier. Admit it." He snapped.
"Yes, I'm mad at you, satisfied?" She said ironically.
"See, you're mad at me," he stated.
"Yeah you know what, actually I am fucking pissed off. I don't wanna say something I'll regret. I have to go back to the market, I'm supposed to be working tonight." She took her hands off of his and turned to go out.
"Hey wait, what is it?"
"What?" she sighed, annoyed.
"You! You're not telling me everything, are you? It's not only about this afternoon, is it?" Lucas walked to her and stop inches from her.
"Well if you really want to know, you're not telling me everything either. I remember that back in the jungle you used to tell me everything. Since we're here you are... You are different."
"Different?"
"You're more… distant and…" she murmured.
"Distant?" He cut her off. "We were closer than ever a minute ago!"
"Oh come on, you know I'm not talking about that. You tell me half of the truth and of course it's the half that is beneficial to you. I'm not saying you're lying to me but..." she stopped.
"But?", his eyes widened.
"Look, I know you're here because of me. I know it's not easy for you to be here and I am really grateful you decided to stay for me. But you are truly different from the man I met." Lucas was startled.
"So this is all my fault now? I changed for you, I did it for you, to prove you how much I wanted to satisfy you and this is how you thank me? Can't you see all the sacrifices I'm making to keep you by my side?"
"I wish you'd had done it for yourself. If you stay here just because of me then that is the wrong reason."
"I don't understand you anymore. What is it that you really want?"
"I don't know I…"
"Do you want to break up with me?" He asked, stunned.
"No, no I don't!" She cupped his face with her hands, shaking her head.
"Then what is it? Tell me for god sake what do you want from me?" He whispered softly in a sad tone. She took a deep breath and looked intensively at him.
"I want you to love me, I want you to stay with me because you love me, not just because I asked you to, not only because you think you have a sort of debt to me, I want you to be the charming sexy crazy guy I met in the jungle, I want... I want you to be happy with the way we live, not just pretending."
Lucas had been caught off guard. He hadn't seen it coming. He opened his mouth but nothing came out. It had always been like that with her. The second he thought he understood her perfectly, she would do or say something to unsettle him. He met her gaze, her eyes were looking for the truth deep in his, begging him to have the good answer. As he didn't reply, she sadly smiled at him and left him. Lucas stayed standing in the middle of their bedroom, stunned. He grabbed his clothes and got dressed. He was thinking about his conversation with Alexandra when a knock at the door brought him back to reality.
"Hi," Skye said sheepishly.
"Come to see the damage that your cocky boyfriend did?"
"More to apologize for his attitude."
"What did you say to him?"
"I don't understand."
"What did you say to him so he felt the urge to come and punch me?"
"Nothing."
"Why are you defending him?"
"He's my boyfriend!"
"Well, he seemed to be afraid you might not see him as a boyfriend anymore."
"He knows I'm with him."
"Does he know how much you were ready to save him in the past?" He teased her, leaning to her, stopping inches away from her. "Or maybe it was not for him," he whispered, his green eyes narrowing, looking for the truth in her blue eyes. Skye's heart was racing in her chest, her body trembling; it was suddenly harder to breath. Lucas stayed in front of her, waiting for an answer. Skye didn't know what to do and suddenly closed the gap between them and kissed him. She felt him stiffen in surprise, yet Lucas kissed her back. He had wanted it so much to happen in the past and now it was real. He had dreamt about it and this dream was suddenly true. He didn't think about what he was doing, he just did it. Lucas had played with Skye like he used to do when he had Terra Nova in charge. He never thought she would forget about the Shannon boy that easily. Or maybe he did. He wasn't sure anymore.
Alexandra was ashamed of how she had reacted earlier. She wanted to apologize to Lucas, explain herself and above all give him a chance to explain himself. Keeping secrets was not good for her sanity. She had to tell him what she knew about his story with Skye and understand why he never told her anything about it. As she entered the house, the scene that was playing in front of her made her freeze. Her heart stopped, just in front of her, in her house, was the man she loved kissing another woman. She stayed the mouth agape, her mind suddenly empty, unable to say a single word. She had been stabbed right in her heart.
Lucas broke their kiss and looked at Skye, confused. Then he felt a presence in the room and turned his head to see Alexandra staring at them, speechless. Skye gulped at the sight of Alexandra. If she could have disappeared, she would have done it. They stayed in silence, staring at each other, tension growing between them. Alexandra was clenching her teeth, her face paling, her eyes blank. Lucas was totally lost, he didn't know what to do, he was panicking. Skye looked at Lucas, then Alexandra and realized Lucas was not going to talk until she was gone. She took all the courage she had left and walked outside, ashamed, Alexandra's eyes boring into her.
"Alex…"
"No!" she cut, shaking her head. "No please say nothing. I… I really thought that would never happen to us. Honestly, we've been through so much together, I really thought we were different, you were different. I'm such an idiot, I spent weeks saying to everybody that they should trust you, that you're worth it. You said betrayal was part of your family, well you know what? Well done genius, you were right as usual."
"Alex, I swear to you I…"
"Don't! Don't swear! Pleeaasse don't lie to me, not in front of me," she sighed. "You know I thought of you as a tough man, smart and interesting, and it ends up he is young and stupid. I am so disappointed. Our life was just that annoying for your genius mind wasn't it? A normal life with a woman who loves you, was it that bad?" she cried.
"No, it's not about us, it's…"
"I want you to go," she managed to say. "Now. Just get out of here. Get out of my house, out of my life." She hissed through gritted teeth.
"You're not serious?" He walked to her, trying to reach her but she pushed him away.
"I said GET OUT!" she yelled, her eyes full of tears now. She just wanted him to go, she had to be alone right now, she didn't want to say anything she would regret, she really needed him to go. Lucas sighed and tried to catch her gaze but she was staring at the wall, waiting for him to leave.
"I'm sorry," he whispered as he left.
That was too much, Alexandra burst into tears, shaking. She let her body fall down on the floor. She cried, cried until she had no more tears, until her own body felt no more pain, until she felt empty and used. She stayed curled on the floor a long moment, not moving, not thinking, doing nothing more than just being there. She finally found strength to stand up and went to Boylan's. She needed a drink, something strong, really strong. It was like she couldn't feel anything anymore.
Skye wasn't sure what happened earlier. Everything happened in a blur. Had she really kissed Lucas? He kissed her back though. She had come back to her house but couldn't stay there. Josh… She didn't want to see him right now. She knew he was with his parents tonight, having a family evening. She could go to Boylan's, she would be ok there. She actually felt ashamed of what happened and at the same time she wanted it to happen, so was it really wrong? If Lucas wanted it too then maybe they should be together? She was totally lost. She had Josh and he was good to her. He loved her, why was she hurting him? When she saw Alexandra drinking at the bar, she deliberated if she had to go back to her house or stay there. She dared to come and talk to her. She had to do something.
"Hi…" She said, her voice trembling a bit. Alexandra didn't answer, didn't even look at her, she was clearly ignoring her. "Alex, I know what you're thinking but…"
"Look, you really don't want to talk to me right now ok? I probably drank a bottle of gin and I really am pissed off right now… So please, just go away, go find some other lips to stick on."
"Alex, can we just be adults and talk about what happened?"
That was really too much for Alexandra. She didn't want to do something she'd regret, she didn't want to fight with her, she wanted to hurt her so much right now. She took a deep breath, glared at her, stood up and walked away. Skye followed her outside. Big mistake. She tried to reach Alexandra's arm to stop her. She wasn't expecting her to slap her in return. She stayed still, shocked, her hand on her flushing cheek. Alexandra didn't wait for her to react, she had too much on her heart right now.
"What's wrong with you? I don't know what you're playing at and I don't want to know. Isn't Josh enough for you that you need to go and take what's not yours?"
"I have feelings him," Skye murmured, tears prickling her eyes. Her cheek was hurting her. She'd probably have a bruise.
"What?" Alexandra asked, in disbelief
"I think… I think I love him," she said louder. Alexandra laughed out loud, she couldn't believe what she just heard.
"Really? You love him?" she mocked. "That's perfect!" She spat wryly. "You know what? You can have him! I give him to you. Do whatever you want to do, I don't care." She started to walk away, stopped, turned and said, seriously now, "I thought we were friends. You just stabbed me in the back. Funny how people told me to be careful with you. I've been stupid, you'll always be a traitor." She walked away as Skye stayed alone, crying and ashamed. She felt dirty and disgusting, she hated herself for what she had just done. Alexandra had made her point, Skye knew it.
Lucas didn't know what to do when Alexandra asked him to leave. He needed fresh air to make his mind straight. He had decided to go OTG. It would help him for sure. What had just happened? His kiss with Skye wasn't as he expected it. Actually, he didn't really enjoy it. He wanted it so much to happen in the past that it was too good to be true when it did. And now what? He had always called Skye his sister to tease her, his Bucket as he used to say. But now that he could have her, he didn't want her anymore? Why? Skye was beautiful and she wanted him. What had changed in him? Maybe nothing had changed, maybe he was wrong from the beginning. Skye was like a sister, not like a potential girlfriend. Alexandra's face crossed his minds. She had always been by his side, helped him, defended him… She had never betrayed him. Even after all the pain he had caused her. He suddenly realized how different he was with her, how intense his feelings had always been for her. A new question popped in his mind. Was it… love? He cared for her, sure he did. He missed her when she was away. He wanted her to be his, only his. But he was clearly the jealous type of guy so it was not a proof. He didn't want to share her with anyone. He always wanted to have sex with her, she knew how to arouse him and he liked it. He knew how to inflame her body just with his kisses. He never really thought about his feelings for her. They were together and it seemed normal, like best friends with benefits. They went through a lot together and he had been ready to raise a family with her. Being in the jungle with her had been fun, but they were only the two of them. Yet, living in Terra Nova had been his choice, for her, to stay with her. It's always when you lose something or someone that you realize how much you needed them. Love was a word he had never learnt to pronounce. He felt utterly stupid now, knowing that he was in love with her since the beginning and he had never told her. She had told him she loved him and he had never told her the same whereas he clearly was in love with her.
"I might be a genius but I'm not smart when it comes to love," he murmured to himself. It was too late for him to go back to her and tell her how he felt about her. And she was probably still upset with him. He decided he would go to see her in the morning. Knowing now that he loved her, he was sure of it, his heart felt light in his chest. It was a brand new sensation for him. He could love and was ready to be loved.
