* I own nothing of Rizzoli and Isles I just have the privilege of playing with the characters for a while.

Jane walked into her apartment and looked around. It was her night to host movie night and that wasn't going to happen now. She grabbed Joe Friday and took her out to pee. It was a pleasant evening so she decided after the dog was finished she would go for a run. She just couldn't take the emptiness of her apartment at the moment. She thought maybe a run would at least tire her out so she could sleep. It might even help her clear her mind and figure out what in the hell was going on. She needed to sort through what her mother had said and for sure what Maura had said if she was going to be able to fix any of the mess she had made.

She changed into her running shorts and shoes then began stretching. After ten minutes or so she went out the door heading for the street. She started at a jog but as she started replaying everything she found herself sprinting. "She loves you Jane and she would cry when no one was around thinking you would die." Angela's words ran through her head like a record player on repeat. "Listen to what she has been telling you."

"What has she been telling me?" She said out loud. Then she had a thought, "I shot myself...then my parents split and Maura took in my mother. What does that say to me?" She stopped in mid stride. "Maura and ma became close when I was in the hospital." She thought to herself. "Then Tommy got out of jail and she helped him till he got a place. I thought she was into him but she just liked him but said she loved me."

She had to sit down on the bus bench as the next thought rocked her world. "Maura said that after their kiss last night Keely had three thoughts. The first was that she was still an amazing kisser. The second was that Maura was totally in love with someone else." She never got to the third reason because the second one had her penned to the bus bench for two hours thinking back on where she had missed everything. Maura's words went over and over in her mind, "You look but don't see, you hear but don't understand, I speak and you don't listen. God she's right... I haven't even read the note she left in the file let alone understand what she is saying."

She stood up and started walking back to her apartment to read the note that was in her pants pocket where she put it so no one else would get it and read it. She started thinking about what Angela had said when she described what she was feeling, "You are jealous Jane." She thought about that for a few moments and realized she was. Maura should be friends with someone as successful as Dr. Bonner but she chooses me as her best friend. A screw up plumber's daughter who shoots themselves thinking that will save everyone around her not seeing that everything fell to hell anyway. She deserves to be loved be Dr. Bonner not me. I have no right to be jealous of someone who helps Maura with her nightmares." She thought and stopped again in her tracks.

"Maura has nightmares. She always helps me with mine. I never thought..." she slapped herself with her hand on the forehead,"...if she is in love with me...of course she would have nightmares with everything that has happened." She made it to her building when her mother's question hit her memory like a ton of bricks. "Have you ever thought how she felt when she saw you tied to that bed and couldn't help you?"

She ran up the stairs and almost tore the door off the hinges getting into the apartment so she could read the note Maura wrote. She pulled it from her pants and tore it open.

Jane,

A colleague is in town that I went to college with and I wanted her to speak with Tina Weber. She is a doctor that specializes in psychodynamic psychotherapy. She is great with children who suffer from traumatic events. I thought she could help her in getting her speech back so I have taken a personal day and may have to take another. I will not be at work but do realize you need my report to close the Sullivan case so we will stop by before we go to the hospital where Tina is so I can give you the file and introduce you to Dr. Bonner.

I know you will despise this but Dr. Pike will be handling any cases for the next two days that come in since I will be out of reach for this space of time. Keely is having some personal issues with her partner and I have told her I would be a sounding board for her. She has helped me with a few things that I've needed a sounding board for over the years so I want to return the courtesy to her.

This means I will not be available for at least a day possibly two by phone. I want to give her my full attention like she gives me but she leaves on Friday in the afternoon and I was thinking that maybe we all could have lunch together. I would love for you two to get acquainted with each other.

Thanks for understanding... Maura

Jane folded the note and felt like a dog. She got in the shower and as the water sprayed on her face she thought, "I want Maura to talk to me not her. If she has nightmares I want to hear them not have her talk to someone else. I'm her best friend...damn it." The water poured over her head as she thought and thought about everythimg. Then it all came out in a yell, "I see you...and I hear you!"

She got out of the shower with courage and a plan. She put on a nice pair of jeans and a red button up top. Then she drove to the market and bought a dozen roses, a bottle of wine and ordered a pizza to be delivered in an hour to Maura's. She pulled up in front of Maura's house and wavered in nerves some and altered her plan a bit. She placed the roses on the front porch and got back in the car and texted Maura.

There's been a delivery to your porch...please come and get it.

She waited a few moments holding her breath hoping the text would work. She blew out a long breath when the front door opened and Maura looked down and saw the roses. She picked them up and took the card off of them and read it while standing in the door way.

Maura...

I look and I see the most beautiful and sophisticated woman that I have ever seen.

I hear her tell me she chooses me as her best friend and I don't understand how or why.

She speaks things that I couldn't believe could be true so I didn't listen.

BUT I'M LISTENING NOW!

JANE

You knew it was coming... Yes, a cliff hanger... I'm just glad you still read my stories even though I do this... I'm sorry but I got to get some sleep... more in the morning I hope... :)