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Euterpe
a.n. Leo's dead, but Jason has no one else to talk to. Set after the events of The Blood of Olympus.
TWO—TELL YOU ALL ABOUT IT
'. . .So let the light guide your way, yeah
Hold every memory as you go
And every road you take, will always lead you home. . .'
~See You Again, by Wiz Khalifa
Half-Blood Hill, Camp Half-Blood
The stars seemed to shine brighter than usual.
Thoughts of his recent nightmare lingered at the back of his mind and kept his muscles tensed reflexively, but as he sat cross-legged in the overgrown grass of Half-Blood Hill, all he could focus on was how brightly the stars were shining.
The bark of Thalia's tree felt rough against his back, but he didn't care; it was more of an emotional comfort than a physical one. Jason almost felt silly, taking a tree as any form of comfort in the first place, before reminding himself that Thalia's whereabouts were still unknown and—despite knowing she could handle herself perfectly fine—he had every right to worry about her.
For more selfish reasons, Jason wanted his sister back at camp. He wanted someone sleeping in the bunk across from his in the Zeus Cabin so it didn't feel so lonely. He wanted someone he could talk to when a nightmare shakes him out of sleep in terror.
The nightmare had been his fourth one that week—and it was something Jason could trust to be a constant. Every night, the same things: fighting Gaea, Leo dying, Gaea winning, Leo dying, camp being destroyed, Leo dying.
It was a never-ending loop.
If they had been back on the Argo II, Jason might have gone to Piper's room after a nightmare, knowing that no matter how little rest she got, she'd be willing to calm him down. But now that they were back at Camp, Jason doubted he'd be able to walk into Piper's cabin just as easily—at least not with her gossipy half-siblings sleeping only feet away.
It wasn't necessarily a bad thing (Piper needed her sleep, and Jason always felt guilty waking her up) but when insomnia struck at two in the morning after yet another rerun of nightmares, well . . .
Who was there left to talk to?
Jason leaned back until the back of his head hit the rough tree bark. His eyes found the stars again, gleaming intensely against the night sky, and he mentally traced the constellations.
Subconsciously, he kept coming back to one cluster of stars in particular, and a lump formed in his throat as he made out the image.
Leo.
The starry lion suddenly seemed so much more prominent amongst its neighboring stars—so easily insignificant, yet so quick to stand out.
Jason barely noticed when he'd opened his mouth to speak.
"Hey, Leo," he said quietly, his eyes continuing to outline the lion in the sky. Although he'd wished for it only moments ago, he suddenly felt relieved that no one was sitting by him. He'd rather not be known as the guy who talks to stars at two in the morning.
"It's been weird without you here, man," he said. The words kept spilling out, and Jason didn't think he could stop even if he wanted to. "It's like someone's ripped the soul from Camp. I don't know if you knew how much you meant to us, but . . ."
A breeze blew past, ruffling his hair and brushing through the pine leaves above him. He tucked his legs to his chest and circled his arms around his knees, immune to the chill of the breeze but still feeling cold.
"It's been pretty peaceful," Jason continued, and the conversational tone in his words shocked even him. "Well, you know, barring that one fight the Ares Cabin got into after they lost Capture the Flag." He grinned softly. "Don't tell them I said this, but a lot of them are pretty sore losers."
The star that might have been the lion's eye twinkled, and Jason imagined Leo's own eyes sparkling amusedly. Something in his chest panged painfully.
"Piper's thinking about visiting her dad for a bit," he went on, his blue eyes never straying from the constellation. "Maybe go to school there this fall. She invited me to come along. I don't want to spend so long without her, but I dunno, man. Meeting the father? Isn't that, like, the one thing all boyfriends dread?"
There was no reply, but Jason could picture Leo's sarcastic look, his teasing remarks, his ever-so-helpful advice. The lump in his throat grew.
"You're supposed to be here, Repair Boy." The nickname sounded wrong without the indignant protests that usually followed it. "You're supposed to help me out and be my wingman with things like this. Piper's birthday is coming up; how am I supposed to say 'I love you and I want to spend every moment with you until some power-hungry god decides to wake up and we lose the peace' with a birthday present?"
The lion's eye twinkled again.
"Harley's building a beacon to find you. He's pretty convinced you're still alive." His voice caught on the 'a-word'. It hurt to even consider that Leo was dead and would not be returning home. It hurt to even put Leo and the idea of death in the same sentence. It felt wrong. "And, man, I hope to the gods that you are. Everyone wants you back but a lot of people are starting to think you really did die in that explosion." He swallowed. "We were kind of running low on hope to begin with. You've been gone so long . . ."
Jason squeezed his eyes shut as the lump in his throat escalated to a stinging behind his eyes. "Gods, Leo—If you're out there, come home."
It was silent for a few minutes, only the wind brushing through the leaves and sending ripples through the grass, miming whispers like they were echoing his words.
Jason slowly opened his eyes again. Ignoring the tear tracks on his cheeks, he blinked away the blurred vision and refocused on the glittering night sky, once again noting how brighter the stars seemed.
His eyes found the lion, and he couldn't help but imagine Leo out there somewhere—alive and well and staring at the same starry sky as Jason. The image gave him hope, and Jason held onto it.
Maybe the stars were shining brighter. Maybe they were a beacon of hope. Maybe they were creating a path in the night sky—a trail.
One that would finally lead Leo home.
so getting ideas out of my head and written out with words is hard, i'm discovering. this didn't really turn out how i thought it would, but i kind of like it.
-eira-
