Chapter 3:

Chuck and Sarah finally realized that this was all an elaborate set up by their friends. Chuck had just told her everything, much of which she was at a loss to even put into words. Sarah had never had a man bare his soul to her. Chuck had done just that bearing himself defenseless, no walls or barriers to protect himself. Yet he took Sarah in his arms and held her deeply in his arms, kissing her forehead softly. His right hand gently stroking her blond hair, running his fingers in them softly. All Sarah could do was begin to sob in his arms and pull herself deeper in his warmth.

"Chuck, I need your strength, your love. Chuck you are my home!" Sarah cried into his chest. "I am sorry I was a coward. I was scared to let you see the real me. I was scared of not being good enough for you. "

"Chuck, you are my home! ", Sarah further explained.

"I did not know that you had not gone the whole way with them, I thought I had lost you Chuck!" Sarah explained.

At this very moment Sarah began to remember her life before the CIA, and when she had been recruited. Her Father had just been arrested and she was running to the hiding spot her father had prepared in case of emergencies. She remembered being surprised by Grahams approach and throwing her knife at him. He told her of his intentions to save her by training her to his agent. She remembered about the safe house and about the two agents who would care for her until she graduated from school and entered Harvard.

Her thoughts went to Harvard where she studied languages, and other subjects that would make her an exceptional agent. She also trained her body as well to increase her fighting skills. She studied Kempo, Hapkido, Aido, knife training, and Judo. Her unarmed fighting skills exceptional. She could take on med twice her size and come out on top. Trained Agents marveled as well as feared at her by far deadliest skill. Her blazing fast and accurate kick. Very few if any could withstand her deadly attack and remain standing. But her weapons training by far made any soldier envious. She smirked that even Casey drooled that a CIA skirt could outmatch his gun toting skills.

Then she remembered when she lost her virginity, it was not for love or passion. She had been ordered to have sex as part of her seduction skills training. She felt ashamed when the agent she was made to have sex with questioned her when he saw blood coming from her. She felt dirty inside that the most precious gift she had was taken from her. She started to feel the pain that Chuck as he held her tightly had not given his gift but had waited for her to give it to. Inside she felt pride for him and just how much she meant to him.

She slowly lifted her head,"Chuck! Can I talk to you and can you just listen. What I need to tell you is not easy for me to say. Her eyes reddened by her tears, showed the pain and anguish she felt in her heart. "Chuck, until I met you I never had this feeling of feeling dirty, but when I saw how sweet and innocent you were I felt ashamed of the things I did. " Looking back I feel dirty at my whole life, meeting you has opened my eyes Chuck."

Chuck looked at her warmly, seeing that she had just bared herself to him like she never had.

"Sarah, do you remember our first time together at the beach. You told me to do something, remember!"

"Yes, Chuck! I do I told you to trust me!" Sarah softly replied still sobbing.

"Well Sarah it is your turn to trust me. Trust me Sarah!"

" Trust me to fight for you, trust me to stand by our side, trust me more importantly when I say , I Love You!"