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"Goodbye, Jade" He said and she stared at him terrified; he wanted to open his hands, he wanted to let her fall but he was having a hard time and in the end he couldn't do it, he couldn't kill her, he wasn't strong enough. However, just when he was going to pull Jade back up, a voice interrupted him.
"BECK!" Tori screamed and Jade moved her eyes off Beck.
"Guys…" Jade whispered surprised with a smile because she thought they were there just in time to save her life and Beck turned around to see Tori, Andre, Robbie and Cat standing there completely appalled. He stared at them for a fraction of a second but he was so shocked that he completely lost sense of what was happening and his instinct was to let go of Jade's arms so her smile immediately changed to a terrified and resigned expression; there was no going back after that moment, she would die and it was pretty clear to everyone that she knew it.
"Ah!" Jade gasped when she felt her weight going down as soon as Beck's hands were loose and everyone's eyes wide opened.
"NO!" Tori screamed as she saw her friend's face while falling back and Beck immediately turned around again to try to catch her but it was too late.
"Jade!" Beck exclaimed and tried to reach her hand but he couldn't. Everything happened too fast.
"Oh my god" Andre exclaimed shocked in that same second and Beck simply froze because he couldn't assimilate what had just happened. Everyone was just standing there petrified not knowing what to do and they remained that way for several seconds but then they ran to the edge and looked down at the street only to see Jade's body on the sidewalk as the blood surrounded her head and they turned to Beck with an appalled face.
"You killed her!" Tori affirmed completely shocked and ran back downstairs; Andre simply shook his head at Beck and followed the rest of the gang while he stayed there trying to cope. He had murdered Jade for nothing because his friends were still alive.
"Jade, Jade!" Tori exclaimed as she got on her knees next to Jade's body and started crying even more. "Oh my god, no"
"Jade!" Cat said and broke out crying as well while Andre and Robbie looked down sadly. A few seconds later Beck appeared and simply stared at her. Jade was laying on the ground with one of her arms on the concrete and the other resting on her belly, her legs were slightly spread and bent to the ground, her head rested on a lot of blood that kept flowing, there was a line of blood coming from her nose and her lifeless eyes were still open.
"She is dead…she is dead, oh god, she is dead" Tori repeated desperately and covered her face as endless tears ran down her cheeks.
"WHAT DID YOU DO?" Andre asked madly and pushed Beck back. "She was innocent"
"I…I don't know, I…I didn't mean to push her, I couldn't" Beck mumbled without moving his eyes away from Jade's body.
"Well, you did…she didn't jump, she was asking you to let her go, WE HEARD HER BEGGING YOU FOR HER LIFE!" Tori said angrily and turned back to Jade. "I'm so sorry, Jade, for everything" she said sincerely and put her face on Jade's belly as she cried. Andre got on his knees next to her and checked her pulse to confirm what they already knew.
"She's dead" He confirmed and put his hand on her face to close her eyes before he started crying as well; Beck was just standing there shaking his head as some tears streamed down his face.
"No, no, no….this is not happening, this is not happening" Beck said anxiously and they turned to him.
"Yes, it is…look at her, LOOK AT HER!" Tori screamed. "She is dead, Beck, DEAD!"
"She can't be" Beck insisted.
"You just pushed her off a building, what did you expect her to do? Become a god damn bird?" Andre asked angrily and continued crying. "Of course death was what would happen, it's what you planned, congratulations! It fucking worked!" He exclaimed full of rage. "This eighteen year old girl, who had a whole life ahead of her and who never even imagined tonight would be the last day of her life, is dead, Jade is gone…because of you, I hope you are happy with what you've done...LOOK AT HER!" He screamed angrily and Beck just stared at the corpse with the same shocked expression.
"You didn't deserve any of this, Jade, please forgive us" Tori said to Jade's corpse and broke out crying again as she held her friend's lifeless hand. Beck just leaned back on the wall with his mouth wide opened as he tried to understand what was happening; it wasn't a joke or an act, it wasn't a threat or a possibility anymore, Jade was actually gone and he'd been the one to take her life away.
Jade's body was taken to the morgue and Beck was arrested after the gang testified against him but nothing could compare to the pain and the guilt he felt for what he had done. He remembered her begging him not to kill her, saying she didn't want to die and how she swore she hadn't killed his friends and he kept wondering how everything had happened; in what second he'd let go of her, in what instant his friends had appeared. All those ideas fulfilled Beck's head minute after minute of every day. He had killed the only girl he'd ever loved, he had told her many horrible things before she died and the worst part was that she was innocent.
The gang pressed charges against Marilyn and all her staff for kidnapping and accessory in murder and they were arrested; Jade's father made sure that they never got out of jail and the same went for Beck. He was never brave enough to kill himself but his life became a hell because all he could ever think about was Jade, how much he loved her, how much she'd suffered because of him and how he'd disappointed her in the worst way by taking her life away. He remembered the look in her eyes in the instant she realized she would die and it killed him inside, he couldn't take it but that look would chase him forever.
One day Beck was in his cell just staring at the ceiling and playing with a tiny ball he had while thinking about everything; a few seconds later his cellmate entered but he ignored him and continued throwing the ball at the air and catching it. "Hey, you" The old man said.
"What?" He asked emotionlessly.
"You've been here for a month now, and I think it's time for us to talk" The man said; Beck was glad he'd been put in a cell with a nice person but he didn't really love the idea of befriending him.
"I don't like talking" Beck responded.
"Come on, son, open up…I've heard you crying every night since you arrived and I think you need to let it out, so get down here and talk" The man said and Beck stared at him for a few seconds debating whether to do it or not but he ultimately decided to do it. He got down and sat down on the other bed next to the man.
"My name is Beck" He informed and the man nodded.
"Why are you here?" The man, whose name was Bernard, asked.
"I…killed someone, a girl" Beck informed and sighed sadly as he looked down.
"Who was that girl?" Bernard asked.
"My girlfriend…or ex-girlfriend" He responded.
"And why did you do it? Jealousy?" The man questioned and Beck shook his head.
"We had to a do test and it went wrong, I had to lie to her, I had to hurt her and then when we were free, things changed" Beck informed. "She stopped caring about me and my friends, she threatened us and then they went missing one by one, until it was just me"
"So…she did it, and you did it out of anger?" Bernard asked and Beck sighed.
"Yes, I was sure she'd done it but the cops didn't have enough evidence so she walked out and I didn't want my friends' death to be left like that, so I asked to see her, I lied and took her to the roof of a building" Beck continued. "I started saying horrible things to her, she swore she hadn't done it, she begged me to let her go…she said she didn't want to die, she cried and cried asking me not to kill her" He said as a few tears streamed down his face. "I had her leaning off the building, her life was in my hands…literally and she, she was so scared" he said and covered his face as he cried more.
"And then what happened?" Bernard questioned.
"I…I couldn't, I couldn't let her fall but just when I was going to pull her back on, my friends appeared…they were alive, she hadn't lied, she hadn't hurt them, she was innocent" Beck said, frustration and regret dripping from his voice. "I turned around and I don't know what happened, I just…I remember hearing Jade's scream as I felt her arms slipping off my hands, I could see her face as she went down, the look in her eyes expressed fear, disappointment and sadness because she knew it was over, she was going to die…" he said as he stared into space remembering the moment. "And she did, I tried to catch her but I couldn't and she fell off that building, when we went down to see her; she was on the sidewalk…and there was so much blood around her head, god" Beck commented and shook his head with a mortified expression. "Her eyes were open but they weren't alive anymore, her face didn't express anything…she was gone and to this day, I can't understand how I let that happen, why did I let go? Why did I get distracted? How?" Beck asked as lots of tears streamed down his face.
"Let it out…" Bernard said as Beck cried his eyes out.
"I love her, god, I do…and I can't believe I could do this to her, I deserve to die" Beck affirmed. "I remember her begging me, I remember her crying and trembling and asking me to let her live and I just…I can't handle it, I'm a monster but I'm not brave enough to kill myself so I have to live with this constant pain"
"Yes, you have to face the consequences…" The man responded. "You might've changed your mind when you were there, but the point is that she's dead and she would still be alive if you hadn't plotted her death" He said and Beck closed his eyes in frustration as he kept crying. "I can see you're not a bad boy, but you can't change the past and you need to learn how to live with the guilt because it won't go anywhere, her memory will chase you forever so you have to just accept it and take responsibility for it"
"I know, and I do…but it's so hard; I would do anything to bring her back, I would die if that meant she would be alive, I swear" Beck affirmed. "I just want things to be like before we entered that stupid test, I want us to be in my RV watching a movie, I want to hug her, I want to hear her laugh and see her smile, I want to kiss her, I want to feel her…I want my life back, that's all I ask…I would do anything to get it"
"Unfortunately, there's nothing you can do; you'll never see her again because she is dead, you killed her and you need to move on, otherwise you'll end up going crazy, believe me" Bernard affirmed. "I know it's painful but you've got to do it"
"That would be better than having to live this reality…"
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I KNOW, I KNOW YOU ALL HATE ME NOW and you have reasons to.
It was sad, I know...I almost cried while writing it because I love Jade but it had to happen.
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And guys, it's VERY VERY IMPORTANT that you read the next (and last) chapter, alright? Please do it, I know it sucks that Jade died but don't stop reading because of that, just one more chapter, okay? :)
