To guest re - Olivia submitting: Seeing this particular story is about Amanda (or even the readers POV for some) being dominated by Alex and Olivia, I don't think it's right to show either Olivia or Alex submitting in that sense. However, I am willing to write a two shot supplement story from this 'universe' at a later date that would give readers a sneak peek of Olivia and Alex submitting to each other in their playroom... if that's something readers might like? Let me know :-) To the other guest asking why where wasn't any more story: I can only write what and when my muse tells me to, and she told me I had to work on my other stories first ;-). I'm trying to rotate between stories equally but my muse is known change her mind. Hopefully this chapter will have been worth the wait :-) I will say that part of what was supposed to happen at the end of this chapter has been pushed to the start of next chapter ;-) (Yes, I've already started working on it). Thankyou to livsgirl for the help regarding a specific Georgia location that's mentioned.
Enjoy and please let me know what you think :-)
Alone in the squad room, I keep my eyes firmly focused on my paperwork as I hear the familiar footstep of high heels approaching from the elevator.
It's been over a month since Olivia and Alex had me in their playroom and they're still yet to make a firm decision if they will invite me to join with them again... or not. Or if they have made a decision, they're yet to tell me what it is. I shouldn't complain really seeing it took me long enough to make my decision to take them up on their offer. It's just... they both seemed quite open to the idea of playing again after our scene... well, it came across that way to me. I guess, maybe, that their fantasy of dominating at the same time wasn't what they thought it would be when it became reality.
What I can say is that it exceeded my expectations immensely. Maybe if Olivia and Alex say that we won't play again, I could ask Allegra if she would allow someone she trusted to join her in dominating me at the club? It wouldn't be the same as Olivia and Alex... Mistress and Ma'am... but it would satisfy the desire I have now.
I can only imagine what she would've said if I even suggested the notion. Our last encounter springs to mind... if you can call it that, an encounter. I know what it really was, but being a Detective that investigates sex crimes... it's easier to label myself a hypocrite than admit I was a vict-
"Rollins, is Olivia in?" Alex pauses near my desk.
Keeping my focus squarely on my file, I point towards Cragen's office, "Sergeant Benson is in the Captain's office seeing he's still in his meeting at One PP, Counsellor."
Alex's hand gently rests on my shoulder unexpectedly, causing me to look up at her. She studies my face and mouth intently from behind those black framed glasses, avoiding making eye contact. Her eyes dip down towards the buttons at my cleavage and linger before those blue eyes dart up and look directly into mine. I can't help swallowing then immediately looking down and away on instinct. She shifts her hand so that the tip of her finger grazes the column of my neck briefly when she removes it from its resting place.
"Good!" Alex says softly, yet with a hint of authority.
As Alex heads towards the Captain's office, I can't help but wonder if that single word comment was in reference to Olivia being here, or to the subtle appraisal I was just given and my submissive response to it. Who am I kidding? Even if Alex and Olivia take another couple of months to make their decision, I'm going to see if Allegra is available tonight if the current incessant throbbing between my legs doesn't subside any time soon.
I'm halfway through writing my text message when I hear Amaro's voice getting closer, "I just don't get the whole 'whips and chains excite me' thing. I mean, come on, I love you, I hit you? How is that-"
Munch replies, "It's not for us to judge people and their kinks, Nick. I learnt that the day I joined SVU."
"What do you think, Fin?" Nick stops at his desk and shrugs off his jacket.
Fin sits down at his desk opposite me with a paper bag and soda, "What consenting adults do behind closed doors is none of my business. When it crosses the line and becomes assault or rape, then it becomes my business."
Nick looks at me, "Amanda, what about you? What do you think?"
I shift uncomfortably in my chair and put my cell phone in my coat. People in 'vanilla' relationships never truly understand the BDSM lifestyle. They judge what they assume it to be, not what actually is. Nick's uninformed opinion is proof of that right now. "I think..."
"Rollins! Got a moment?" Olivia calls from the doorway of the Captain's office, hitching her thumb back over her shoulder.
Saved by the bell! Or in this case, the Sergeant. I don't even want to know how the subject of BDSM came up while Munch, Fin and Amaro went to get their lunch from the nearby cart. I can only hope it relates to a past case. I swiftly get to my feet, "Sure, Liv."
Nick flops down in his chair as I make my way to the office, "Why aren't you filling in for Cragen seeing he's not here right now, Munch?"
Munch begins unwrapping his lunch roll, "As the senior of the Sergeants at SVU, I delegated that Olivia could be in charge of all the paperwork."
"Close the door," Olivia instructs as she moves to sit in the Captain's chair.
I do as instructed, then take a seat opposite her and Alex, who is resting on the cabinet behind Olivia to her right.
The short silence is broken by Liv, "Alex and I have talked at length about our... arrangement... and have made our decision. It's a decision that we feel is right for us as a couple and we hope you can understand and respect that decision..."
I keep my features neutral but my heart and stomach plummet to the floor. Obviously it was just a one time thing and Olivia and Alex don't want to play again. I can hear her mocking me, 'Y'all got what you deserved, greedy Slave slut!'
"... We have decided that we'd like to continue our arrangement on a semi-permanent basis."
"Semi-permanent?"
Alex nods, "We know you're looking for a permanent owner and collar, but we don't think we can offer you that. However, Liv and I understand the security and comfort a collar can offer a submissive during scenes. Therefore, we're willing to collar you while and when we play together... if that's what you'd like."
To have a collar again, even if it's only semi-permanent seems better than no collar at all. My old collar, a white leather choker with the word 'SLAVE' in diamante letters, resides somewhere in the murky depths of Lake Lanier. After what she did to me... I couldn't stand the sight of what had once symbolised our love and trust. On my final visit back to Loganville before my transfer from Atlanta PD to NYPD, I took a detour and as evening twilight descended after a few hours reflecting on what was and could have been with her, I flung it into the lake as far as I could. Legend has it that underneath the water is an old town that was cleared out and flooded over simply to make the lake, and that's one of the reasons why when someone drowns there it's almost impossible to find their body. It seemed the perfect resting place for the collar she gave me.
Before making my decision on taking a new collar, I ask for clarification, "What do y'all define as semi-permanent?"
"As a married couple, Liv and I need the time to reconnect and talk things over after every scene because BDSM scenes can be just as draining when dominating as it is submitting. Combine that with the emotions of inviting someone else into the playroom with us... We can't and won't pencil it into our diary for a regular time every single week. It might be a few weeks or even up to a month between scenes, but that's what we're willing to offer."
"I'm fine with a semi-permanent arrangement then."
Olivia chimes in after a beat, "Amanda, you're obviously free to see whoever you want-"
"I've only been seeing Allegra at the club when the itch needs scratching, if you catch my drift."
"We're fine with that. If you do start seeing someone else while this arrangement stands, we'd like the courtesy of knowing so we can reevaluate if necessary."
I can't help but scoff, "It's hard enough finding someone that's not completely creeped out or way too interested with job of being a sex crimes detective, let alone wanting to find someone that's also into our lifestyle. That's why I asked Allegra to help find me a new owner to begin with."
"You started at the right place with the club," Alex shifts from her resting position and moves to stand beside Olivia. "Where did you meet your previous owner?"
"A club in Atlanta," I mutter, not really wanting to talk about her.
Olivia's tone is soft and caring, "She didn't treat you properly, did she?"
I look down with a mixture of sadness and shame. She treated me so well in the beginning, but after I told her what happened with Deputy Chief Patton... My lingering silence regarding her tells Alex and Olivia more than enough. I'm not sure I could ever tell them what happened to me. Telling Allegra was difficult enough.
"We'll help find you a new loving, caring owner vetted by the club and by Allegra personally. We'll make sure your new owner ticks all the criteria and will treat you the way you should always be treated... no matter how long it takes," Alex says with a kind smile as she rests her hand on Olivia's shoulder.
Lifting my head, I give a small smile, "Thanks, I'd appreciate it."
"Be aware it could be long, arduous process..." With an undeniable smirk and twinkle in her eye, Olivia's tone changes to one of teasing, "...however, as the saying goes: 'All good things come to those who wait'. Isn't that right?"
My mind flashes back to Mistress and Ma'am's lessons of relearning self-control and not being allowed to come without permission. They were some of the more intense orgasms I've ever experienced and I won't deny I want it to happen again. My core clenches involuntarily at the delicious memory, "Yes, Mist-... I-I mean Liv!"
Alex and Olivia share a look of curious surprise and I'm completely mortified at my unintentional slip! I've never done anything like that in my life, even when I was with her. I've worked side by side with Olivia and spoken to Alex numerous times since we played together... even been questioned intensely in court. Never once have I slipped up like that, but this is the first time we've all been together privately since they dominated me.
"So," Alex breaks the silence between us, "What are your thoughts regarding our arrangement, Amanda?"
I clear my throat in an attempt to regain my composure, "Semi-permanent sounds better than never again to me."
"That's the same conclusion we came to as well," comments Olivia. "I can honestly say Alex and I are glad to be all on the same page. We really enjoyed what took place and we're looking forward to it happening again."
Trying not to sound too keen, I ask the burning question that been torturing me: "When can we play again?"
Alex stifles a laugh, "I told you she was eager, Liv."
"Sweetheart, I think we all are to be perfectly honest," Olivia looks up at Alex before looking back and giving me a wink. "Unfortunately with it being Monday today, the earliest would be later this week when I've got Thursday and Friday off."
"I've got..." I pull out my cell phone and hastily check my calendar to be absolutely sure, "... Friday and Saturday off."
"Friday night then?" Olivia suggests, earning a nod of approval from Alex and myself. "Come around for dinner around seven-ish. We'll have a couple of drinks to loosen up like last time and then we can have some fun... abiding by the code, of course."
"Playing safely, sanely and consensually is the only way I ever want to play," I say quietly, slipping my cell phone back inside my coat.
"Liv and I are the same, Amanda. Always remember that," Alex states. "Now, about that collar?"
I look back and forth between Olivia and Alex several times before voicing my decision, "I'd like to wear a collar while we play... even if this arrangement between us is only semi-permanent."
"We'll have one for you on Friday night."
Olivia's attention is drawn to something outside, "Better wrap up this private meeting. Cragen's back."
Alex gathers some files and places them inside her attaché bag, "Alright then, I'd better get back to the DA's office and continue prepping for the Edwards case."
We exit the Captain's office, one after the other, then I sit back down at my desk while Olivia and Alex share a discreet goodbye kiss. Olivia follows Cragen back into his office after being asked to update him on things while he was gone.
Pausing beside my desk once again, Alex rests her hand on my shoulder and gives it a gentle squeeze, "See you Friday night, Amanda."
Overhearing the comment, Fin looks up from his DD5, "Girl's night out?"
"More like a girl's night in," Alex looks back over her shoulder and replies before I can say anything. "Just a quiet dinner for us SVU women, Fin."
Fin chuckles, "You girls need to stick together, huh?"
"Something like that, partner." I look up at Alex, "Do I need to bring anything for dinner, Counsellor?"
Alex eyes my cleavage lustfully before she looks directly into my eyes, "Just bring yourself, Rollins. Olivia and I will take care of everything."
Underneath my desk, I squeeze my thighs together to relieve the renewed throbbing as Alex pats my shoulder and walks towards the elevators. It seems Friday night can't come fast enough for any of us.
