SakuraPinkSky415: Not really. You ever played the Madoka PSP game? It has an extra route in there in which Kyousuke and Sayaka get together, no tragedies necessary. It's a pretty good game, and it's probably the only time Homura has cared about someone other than Madoka. Alas, even though everyone was happy in that route, time had to be reset anyway as Walpurgisnatch couldn't be defeated.
Sayaka walked into her room and crashed on the bed. The day had been exhausting. It had started off great, with her finally going on a date with her beloved Kyousuke. But the revelation about the Soul Gem had messed her up, plus the death of her mentor Mami had just put her on edge even more. What made matters worse was what Kyubey had said about Kyousuke earlier.
Kyousuke Kamijou loves you unconditionally now
Yes. Even if you cheated or become a cold blooded murderer, he would still be yours. Kyousuke' s heart and body belongs to you forever now
She wondered about the implications of Kyubey's words. Does this mean that it's all fake? He would have never loved me like that if it weren't for the contract?
I'm not even a human being, so do I really deserve him?
Sayaka was absent from school the next day. She didn't feel she could face Kyousuke knowing she was nothing more than a zombie pretending to be alive. Instead, she faked being sick. It was easy to convince her parents: her mum had believed her instantly, and her dad had already left for work so he couldn't assess her condition properly.
For the entire day she just stayed in bed, watching her Soul Gem glow. It had gotten a little bit muddier since last night, so Sayaka needed a Grief Seed. She quickly threw on some clothes and left the house, in search of a witch. She eventually found one by the riverside, and killed it almost instantly. She took a lot of damage to her body but she didn't care. As Kyubey had said, her physical body was nothing more than a piece of external hardware. It didn't hurt at all.
On her way back from the hunt, she ran into Hitomi, who was leaving school. Sayaka pretended not to notice her and kept on walking forward. Unfortunately, Hitomi had noticed her and was now bounding towards her calling out "Sayaka-san!".
"Oh, Hitomi! What a surprise. I didn't expect to see you here".
"Where were you today? It was just me and Madoka-san. She seemed a bit off today. In the middle of lunch she just started crying for no reason. When I asked her what's wrong, she said 'I'm glad to be alive. I'm glad to still be able to be with my friends'. Do you have any idea what that was about?"
Sayaka froze. I can't tell her about Mami-san and the magical girls. She either won't believe me or she'll believe me and freak out. "No idea. Why were you heading this way? Your house is on the other side of town".
"Looking for you, of course! I wanted to talk with you, and catch up, since we haven't been hanging out as much".
"Well, here's the thing Hitomi….."
"Uh-uh, you aren't getting out of this!" Hitomi laughed. "Come on, Sayaka-san, I just want to talk with you!".
"Yeah, ok. We'll walk around for a bit" Sayaka mumbled.
Both of them walked around the block, just casually talking. Then out of nowhere, Hitomi asked how things were going with Kyousuke.
"Well, it's going great! I'm really glad that he recognised how I felt….yeah".
"I'm glad for you then! I'm happy he's with someone who cares about him!".
"Why do you care?".
"Hm?"
"Why do you care who he's with anyway?".
Hitomi blushed. "I've liked him for a while now…..but I'm happy he's with you. You two deserve each other".
Sayaka stopped walking and just stared at the ground with eyes wide. Hitomi turned to see what was wrong. "Sayaka-san?".
Without warning, Sayaka began to run off. "I'm sorry Hitomi!".
"Sayaka-san!" Hitomi called out after her.
Sayaka continued to run until she was in an unfamiliar, unpopulated area. She leant against the wall of an abandoned shop and started to cry. "I'm not worthy of Kyousuke….I'm not even human, so I don't deserve his unconditional love, especially if it's forced!".
Meanwhile, Madoka was sitting in front of her TV, watching a baseball tournament. She was only half paying attention when an urgent news headline flashed on the screen.
"We interrupt this program with some breaking news. The body of Mitakihara Junior High student Mami Tomoe has been found in Takara Park. No known causes of death have been identified. More on this story at six".
Madoka gasped. Sayaka, you didn't…
She suddenly jumped up and grabbed her shoes. "I'm going out!".
"Ok, Madoka, be back soon".
She sped down the drive to, on her way to Sayaka's apartment complex. When she finally reached it, she buzzed in the door. "Miki-san, is Sayaka-chan there?".
"No, she's not. I thought she'd be with you?".
"No she isn't. I need to find her though!".
Madoka left the building in pursuit of her friend. Come on, Sayaka. Where are you?
She eventually ended up in a cul-de-sac filled with abandoned buildings. She found Sayaka lying in front of one of them.
"Sayaka-chan, are you ok?".
She began to sit up and rub her eyes. "Yeah, I think I am".
Madoka noticed her bloodshot eyes and red, damp face. "You've been crying, haven't you? What's up?".
Sayaka looked down at her hands. "I've been thinking a lot about the contract. If I hadn't wished for him to love me, would he still have if I had confessed like a normal person? Is it even real? Does Kyousuke truly love me, or is it all an illusion fabricated by my wish?". Sayaka rested her head in her hands. "I'm a terrible person….".
Madoka wrapped her arms around Sayaka and let her cry. "It's all forced! He only loves me because of my wish! I'm unworthy of him, because I'm just a zombie pretending to be alive. I can't ask him to hold me, I can't ask him to kiss me!".
She continued to cry until it seemed there was nothing left. "I'm sorry Madoka, you had to deal with that. Let's go home now".
Sayaka walked to school alone the next day. She had mostly recovered from the shock of being a soulless zombie, but Kyubey's words kept circling her head. Being so occupied in her thoughts, she almost didn't hear the footsteps sneak up behind her. "Kyousuke?".
"Hey, Sayaka.I'm surprised you aren't walking with Kaname-san and Shizuki-san today".
"Oh, well….I think they left earlier than me and are already at school" Sayaka awkwardly laughed. Kyousuke stared at his girlfriend as if she had cancer. "Is everything alright Sayaka?" He asked, concerned.
"Am I fine? Why yes I am! Totally fine, finer than fine!" Sayaka smiled.
"Really? 'Cause you've been acting sort of weird. You weren't at school yesterday".
I can't tell him about magical girls and Soul Gems, he'd freak out, Sayaka thought. But I don't have an excuse for my weirdness.
"If you don't want to talk about it, that's fine. But remember – I'm here for you, and I'd never judge you for anything".
"I guess there's one thing I wanted to talk about…"
"I'm listening".
"Have you ever wanted something so bad that you'd trade your soul for it?" Sayaka asked.
"Well, if I had been asked this back in the hospital, I would have said yes. Now that I'm back at school with my friends, I'm not so sure. I've gotten everything that I've ever wanted" Kyousuke said. "Why did you ask this? You didn't do anything crazy, did you".
A wave of regret suddenly washed over Sayaka. You idiot, why did you say that? You've gotten Kyousuke all confused now. "Look, I don't want to talk about it" She snapped.
"You don't have anything to be ashamed of! Just tell me what's wrong".
"I said I don't want to talk about it! Please, just drop it".
Kyousuke sighed. "If you say so, but now I'm really worried".
School dragged on forever and ever, time seemed to stand perfectly still. Sayaka spent most of the day staring at the clock, waiting for the next break. She missed the teacher calling her name to answer a problem, and was scolded for it. At lunch, she was with Hitomi and Madoka, barely eating any of her lunch. She didn't speak a single word.
Once the bell had gone, she had done her best to melt away in the crowd and get to the front door. Quickly surveying the area for teachers and other students, she grabbed her the handle and pushed the door open. The main gate was closed but there was a smaller gate beside it in case of an emergency. Sayaka walked across to it and tried the handle. It was unlocked.
Before a teacher could find her and stop her, Sayaka ran out of the school and down the limestone boulevard, and didn't stop until she was a safe distance from the school. Sighing, she found herself in an empty street with mostly closed shops. She pulled out her Soul Gem and transformed into her magical girl form. Her gem began to pulse strongly, and Sayaka found a labyrinth in the alleyway at the end of the street. It was the labyrinth of a familiar, but that didn't matter to her. The familiar was relatively weak and easy to defeat but at a heavy cost to her magic. When the work had been done, the labyrinth disintegrated to reveal Homura standing there in her civilian form.
"Why don't you seem to get it? You can't afford to be wasting that much magic on a familiar. Focus on the witches".
"Mind your own business, transfer student" Sayaka snapped. Who does she think she is, trying to tell me what to do?!
"Your Soul Gem is beginning to taint. You must purify it or the consequences will be disastrous" Homura said, throwing one of her spare Grief Seeds towards Sayaka. "Use this".
Sayaka merely stared at the small object before kicking it away with her foot. "I don't accept handouts. Why should I trust you anyway?" she protested, trying to search the girls face for any clues to her true thoughts.
As usual, Homura's face remained stoic and unreadable. "Don't be a fool. You are in no position to be questioning the motives of others now. Tell me, does being helped by someone else bother you that much?".
"I won't use magic for my own benefit anymore, and I don't need any rewards for my work" Sayaka proclaimed. "It wouldn't bother me as much if the person who was offering the help wasn't incredibly shady".
"You're going to die if you keep this up. Don't you have a boyfriend, the sole reason you became a magical girl?".
"So what? If I die, it just means I'm no longer able to kill witches. And then, Kyousuke will be free to find real love and not be trapped by a selfish wish".
Homura gritted her teeth. "Why are you trying to destroy yourself? I only want to help you" she asked.
"I don't trust you. You have the eyes of someone who has given up on everything. The words you speak are empty, what you're doing right now is no different. You act as if you want to save me but in reality you don't give a damn about what happens to me. You're a liar, Homura Akemi" Sayaka objected, staring into the soulless girls eyes.
Homura held up her Soul Gem and transformed into her magical girl form. "You're quite perceptive. You are right, I don't care what happens to you. You are only a nuisance on my part, and if Madoka didn't care about you, I would have gladly shot you already" she quipped.
"Madoka? This has nothing to do with her".
"No, everything is for her. The only reason I bother with you is because of her. I don't want Madoka to witness you destroying yourself. If you refuse me here you'll die either way" she said, slowly creeping towards Sayaka, who held out her sword in front of her but almost immediately found it scattered a few feet away from her. Homura was now pulling a gun from her shield and she held it up to Sayaka's forehead. "I might as well just kill you now".
Before she managed to pull the trigger, multiple beams of pink light shot through the space between both girls and exploded with light as soon as they hit the concrete walls. "Run, Sayaka-chan! Get out of here!". The light had temporarily disarmed Homura, giving Sayaka the chance to escape.
Once the light weakened, Madoka was standing right in front of Homura, aiming her bow at her head. "Madoka…..".
"You've gone too far Homura-chan…." She sobbed. "You can't just try to kill my best friend!".
"Point your bow away from me".
"No! After what you tried to do, I don't think I can trust you…" Madoka cried.
Homura's expression changed briefly, revealing her to be hurt by Madoka's words. She pulled a flash grenade out of her shield, activating it. She was gone as quick as she appeared.
Sayaka kept running until she was at the train station, where she finally transformed back into her civilian form. Thankfully, there weren't many people around and the people that were weren't paying much attention to her. She sat down on a bench and pulled out her Soul Gem. A quarter of it was tainted.
She couldn't go back home, since it was so late and she couldn't face Kyousuke after what she did to him. I've become a manipulative bitch now….i'm no better than Homura…..
A/N: Sorry it took so long to update this! I've been primarily focusing on my Sailor Moon fic and i was really stuck for ideas on this chapter for quite some time. I hope to end this around about the 10th or 11th chapter, and and update frequently. Thank you all for waiting patiently!
