I woke to the ocean waves hitting the shore, I heard Sam sigh from beside me, the bed shifted, I felt his arm go around my waist, and rest on my hip. I remembered then where I was, my anger started to rise, I fought back tears. Sam sighed again as I started to get up. "Where you going Katie?" He asked as I grabbed for my night shirt wadded up next to my side of the bed, before I could slip the shirt over my head, it was removed from my hands, I found myself underneath Sam. "Sam, let me up." I struggled under him. I felt his hard male body part digging into my thigh. "I told you last night that we're married, this is going to become normal to you in a few days, the first time can be very painful, and you chose to struggle with me, it's completely normal that you were scared, it will get better." He said pushing my legs apart with his knee. in less than 20 minutes he rolled off of me, trying to catch his breath. I rolled to my side and grabbed for the bed sheet. "Katie, you will get use to this." He said putting his arm around me it resting against my hip. The anger rose, I jerked away from him. "In less than 24 hours, you have managed to rape me twice, and I'm just suppose to get use to it? Oh that's right, you are the husband, you have a right to force yourself on me whenever you damn well please." I said before moving his arm, going into the bathroom and slamming the door.
I didn't talk to Sam. Every time he tried to talk to me, I walked away. Finally on our last night on our honey moon, he cornered me in the shower. As soon as I felt his breath on my neck, I tensed up.
I had tangled with him enough during the week to know not to struggle with him, it would turn bad.
"Katie, talk to me, I cant stand the silence between us." He said . I had turned the water off, and grabbed for my towel. I refused to even go into our problems in the shower. Before I could think, I was up with my back against the shower wall. "Please Katie, talk to me, I cant stand my best friend ignoring me." He said. I started to tense up even more before saying "You should of thought before you did what you did, you forced yourself on me our first night, knowing how terrified I was, I cried, no, I begged you to stop, I screamed, and cried, and struggled, and you forcefully took something from me that I was willing to give you when I was ready." at that point I felt stronger than I had in days, I finally got out what I had been wanting to scream at him. "Katie I'm sorry, but It was mine to take, and now it's your choice to get use to me or continue to fight me every time I try to be intimate towards you." He said as I looked up into those bright green eyes. "Let go of me Sam, this is not the time to even be discussing this." I said trying to remove myself from the wall, I could feel his erection, and my fear was growing just as strong.
I managed to remove myself from the shower but as I left our suite bathroom, he followed me, pulling at my towel. "Katie, please," He begged me to give into him. "No, I'm not a whore." I said tightening the towel around my upper body. "No, You're not, you're my wife, and I expect you to act as such." He said pulling on the towel again before pushing me down on the freshly made bed. "Sam, No." I yelled out, I tried to push him off of me, but once again he wasn't budging. I decided I wasn't going to be raped a 3rd time, I kicked him in the knee. He groaned in pain, but didn't let go. "Katie please, you will understand in time, this is normal." He said pushing his body between my legs, I felt him brush up against me. I hated him, and I wanted out of this marriage. I knew my step-mom was right, I knew not of what I was getting into when I entered that church that morning.
I tensed up under him, knowing if he really wanted me that bad, he wouldn't stop until he was satisfied. I pushed with all my strength, he again didn't budge. "Stop, please, you called me your best friend, you're willing to force yourself on your best friend, Would you do that to Blaine or Tina?" I said which I know caught him off guard. "Tina would of never fought like this." He said before his lips brushed up against my neck. "Are you 100 percent about it? Would you of lied to her to get her into bed with you that first time, like you did me?" I said knowing my words were starting to hit him like a ton of bricks.
I managed to slide out from under him. He rolled over reaching for me, he pulled me into his arms.
"I'm sorry Katie, Things have to change between us, or this marriage will be over before the end of our first year." He said with his chin resting on my shoulder.
"I don't want to talk about this, I don't want to think about it, just let me up." I said trying to pull out of his grip. "Please Kate, you will learn to enjoy this." He said climbing off of the bed, pulling me to the edge of it. Before I could object, he had his arms around my thighs holding me in place, and had his face planted between my legs. I hated the feeling, to me it was gross, and totally uncalled for. I finally managed to kick him in the head.
He stopped, climbing back onto the bed next to me.
