So im not 100% happy with this update, but here goes. Jane and Maura will enter in 2 more updates :)
Lunch had been quite peaceful considering the company. Meredith had been relieved that her mother had left things at the simple apology and Addison had pushed off with the remaining conversation.
Now though, as Meredith prepared to leave the hospital knowing that she and Callie would be joining her parents for dinner at a nearby hotel, she contemplated what she would wear, and whether Callie would even want to go to dinner. She herself had already decided to broach the subject of their wedding and she didn't want to bombard her fiancée with everything.
Grabbing her light jacket and bag, Meredith moved towards the door with the thoughts of grabbing the elevator down to orthopaedics to meet up with Callie. She had thought about messaging her to let her know she was on her way, but decided to hold off, maybe she could surprise her with a little bit of romance.
Moving off of the elevator, Meredith looked around the ward that would become increasingly familiar to her before moving in the direction that Callie's office was.
She felt something in the pit of her stomach stir when she saw that the door was closed and the blinds to her fiancées windows were closed. Meredith couldn't help but wonder whether Callie had gone home without telling her.
She had only once encountered a closed door and blinds drawn when it came to Callie, and it hadn't been a fond memory for either of them.
Testing the door handle, Meredith found the door to be unlocked. Tapping the door slightly with her knuckle, Meredith then proceeded to turn the knob and make her way into the room.
It was dark inside, but the sound of a soft sigh, drew her attention towards the couch present in the office. Meredith left the door ajar so that there was a touch of light to give her eyes a chance to adjust.
"Cal?" Meredith asked softly, and moved a little closer to the couch. Her eyes adjusted enough to take in the sight of her fiancée laying a sleep on the couch.
Letting out a sound of relief she moved forward and tried not to think of that day two years ago when things could have gone terribly wrong for them both.
"Hmmm" Callie sounded and Meredith slowly bent down to press a kiss to her fiancées lips. She took a moment to suck on Callie's bottom lip before moving to pull back, a little surprised when Callies hand snaked up to hold her there.
"Hey" Meredith spoke when she finally was released.
"Hey" Callie responded, as she seemed to be adjusting to being awake.
"You ready to go home?" Meredith asked, hoping to remove the memories of the past from her mind as she tried to focus on their future.
"Yeah" Callie sounded and Meredith moved back to allow her to get up.
"Dad and mom are expecting us at Panorotties tonight, we should have some time to get ready." Meredith informed her.
"Or we could go home, get naked and eat pizza." Callie responded. Meredith wasn't sure if she had realised the uncertainty she had been feeling when she had entered the room, or even when she pulled back from the kiss. Meredith hadn't always been able to mask her emotions.
"We could, but..." Meredith trailed off in thought.
"Mer?" Callie asked.
Trying to recover, "we could eat dinner with my parents, eliminate that issue and then come home and have dessert in bed." She said as she reached a hand out to Callie, offering to help her up.
"But" Callie started and Meredith pulled her towards her, slipping her arms around the other woman.
"Please" Meredith sounded.
"Mer?" Callie sounded in response and Meredith watched as something dawned on her. "What's wrong?" Callie asked and Meredith shook her head.
"No...nothing" Meredith told Callie as she leaned into her, wanting to just push back the memories and be with her fiancée. She rarely thought of that day, they had come along way since then.
Meredith felt Callie push her back and watched as she scanned the room.
"My blinds are down, the lights are off." Callie noted. "And let me guess, my door was closed?"
Meredith couldn't do anything but nod at her fiancées words. She watched as Callie stepped back from her, bringing her hands up to run over her face.
"It was two years ago." Callie spoke and Meredith could only sigh.
"I would never, not again."
"I know" Meredith responded. "I just..."
"I'm pregnant, the first trimester always makes people tired." Callie went on.
"I know" Meredith said again, and took a step towards Callie.
"If I could take back the past..." Callie went to start and Meredith followed through once more with an
"I know" there was nothing more either of them could say.
They stood staring at each other, thoughts whirling in both their heads and Meredith knew that she needed to do something to undo her doubt and the concern that she triggered in the Latina.
"I love you" Meredith spoke as she took Callie's hands. "It was a long time ago and we are in a far better place than we were then. It was just a memory."
Meredith watched Callie close her eyes and lean into her hand that she had brought up to rest on Callie's cheek. She didn't speak or make a sound but seemed to be savouring her touch.
"Cal" Meredith started but stopped when Callie shook her head 'no' at her.
"Kiss me" Callie ordered and Meredith leaned into capture her fiancées lips. What she had intended as a short simple kiss developed into something more when Callie held her there and began to explore her mouth.
In pulling back, Meredith noted that Callie's eyes were suddenly back open and were now looking straight into her own.
"Let's go to dinner. But once we're done, I'm going to remind you just how much I am yours." Callie told her.
Meredith nodded, not knowing what to say as Callie's mouth came down on hers once more. She savoured her kiss and waited until Callie pulled back once more "promise?" She asked only to see Callie nod.
"Promise".
... Heavy Heart... Heavy Heart... Heavy Heart...
Callie fixed the blouse that she had just buttoned up, noting that she would soon need to buy some more due to her further swelling breasts. Once she had her top done up, she looked across the room towards Meredith who seemed to have remained quiet from the time she had been in the office at the hospital. The look that had been in her eyes had been something that had managed to haunt her for a while, and it hadn't helped to see it again tonight. Callie couldn't help but wonder what it was that she could do to keep that look off Meredith's face. She was sure that she had shown that she was committed to the woman, they were engaged! Between that and the child now growing inside of her - there wasn't much more she could do to show that she was in this and would always be there and come home to her.
Reaching for her pants, she began to step into them, turning her eyes away from Meredith as she begun to pull them over her calves and up towards her thighs.
"Is this dress okay?" She heard Meredith ask and Callie turned to look at her fiancée once more. Meredith had turned to face her now wearing a slim fitting black dress with a small slit up the side.
Callie took her time studying her before giving a nod. "You look beautiful." Callie informed her as she attempted to button up her pants and having no luck.
Callie sighed before looking towards the dresser where her new black maternity pants resided. She let her pants fall back down and then stepped out of them. Before she could move much further, Meredith was upon her, hands on her waist. Callie lifted her gaze to her fiancées and was surprised when she felt her hand move from her hip over to the small pouch that had formed at the base of her abdomen. "Gorgeous" Meredith murmured as she quickly stole a kiss, her other hand staying on Callie's hip as her fingers traced over her panty line.
Callie let her head rest against Meredith's for a while. They stood there, caught in a moment that seemed so simple and yet so much passed through the two of them in their exchange. It felt as though both had 1000 thoughts whirling through their heads. They seemed to clash and bang and Callie was unsure what to think of the display of affection despite everything. Finally Meredith pulled back, letting her hands fall. "You should finish getting dressed" Meredith said softly, and was cut off by Callie as she blurted out her own words "let's get married".
Callie had a smile on her face as she watched as Meredith did a double take. "What?"
"Let's get married" Callie repeated.
Callie watched as a frown crossed over Meredith's face. "Are you proposing again?" She asked. Meredith faulted on the spot, her hands moving to touch Callie and then dropping again.
"No," Callie told her as she reached for Meredith flailing hands. She swallowed as she thought of the consequences of her statement. "I'm saying let's get married now. I'm sorry to have made you wait this long."
"Is this because of earlier in your office?" Meredith quickly asked. She didn't want to be rushing her fiancée down the aisle just because she had a moment of fear.
"Yes and no." Callie replied and Meredith could see that she was now thinking carefully about what she was going to say.
" yes, because I hate seeing you feel insecure about us. Your the only one I want; the mother to our child." She paused for a second and watched as Meredith processed what she had already said, "but no, in the fact that in this moment right now. We are already a family - a unit - and I want us to be official."
Callie then pulled Meredith to her once more. "I'm sorry for making you wait." She told her as she leant in and kissed her once more, both women losing themselves in the kiss.
"Ok" Meredith finally sounded and Callie couldn't help but beam at her as she leant in to kiss her once more. "Is that a yes? Or an ok for the explanation I have given?" Callie queried when she pulled back - worried that she had jumped to conclusions.
"It's an okay, we can get married." Meredith replied and Callie did a random happy dance before kissing her fiancée once more.
"Dinner first though." Meredith prompted and Callie pulled a face as both their stomachs grumbled in unison.
