Sorry about the delay - i have been immersed in developing teaching programs and therefore haven't had time to write.

If i owned the show, all i would be doing is writing...

Maura was reluctant to wake the sleeping Jane beside her, but knew how irritable her wife could get if she slept too long during the day, especially in a cramped position much like the one in the car.

They were half an hour out of Cape Cod and Maura could only hope that her decision to bring her wife here would turn out to be a positive one.

Maura had read up on the possible ways to mend relationships that were in severe turmoil and although she had been very tempted to enrol them in couples counselling, something she knew Jane would be extremely opposed to, she had read that a quiet holiday away together on equal ground with no everyday stress factors could be beneficial. She really hoped that she was right.

Maura hadn't wasted any time in calling the man she considered her father in law to request the time off for Jane. She knew that it had been short notice to request 3 weeks that she had accepted that it would be possible that he would say no, but knowing that he would have been updated on their most recent events and the fact that Jane didn't currently have any large cases, lead Cavanaugh to say a swift "Yes" to her request. He had groaned when she had mentioned that it needed to be put in to effect immediately.

Reaching across the centre console where Jane slept, she brushed a hand over her wife's leg before giving her thigh a squeeze. "Jane" she said softly, not wanting to startle her wife. One receiving no major reaction, Maura gave Jane's leg a firmer squeeze and said her name a little louder.

It had been enough for Jane's eyes to flutter open as she groan and shifted her body further away from her own.

Maura let out a sigh. She was determined not to start their holiday with a grizzling Jane who had a sore neck from hours of sleeping in the car.

"Jane Clementine Rizzoli-Isles" Maura said with a slightly sterner voice. "Wake up - we are almost at Cape Cod."

This time Maura watched as Jane's eyes opened completely as she proceeded to turn her head so she could face her.

"Where?" Jane asked and Maura knew that she had just been clear enough for her wife to hear.

Maura shifted her eyes back on to the road. A part of her wondered whether she should have told her wife where they were going from the beginning.

"Maura, I have work!" Jane panicked as she sat up and turned her body completely towards the drivers side.

Maura felt her hands tighten on the steering wheel. She wasn't sure how much fight her wide intended on putting up in regards to their holiday. "You have 3 weeks, starting today, with me at Cape Cod." she advised her wife.

Her words seemed to stun her wife into silence and Maura didn't know what to think. She could only hope that it meant that she was going to simply accept her decision. It had appeared so, right up to the moment Jane had uttered a simple, "Why?"

Maura kept her eyes on the road too scared to look at her wife.

"Because" Maura started and then stopped as she took a deep breath and tried to calm herself. "I'm afraid that if we don't do this" she started again before pausing trying to with hold the emotions that were building up inside of her. "If we don't do this, I might just lose you."

The words hung in the car for a moment and Maura figured that her wife was trying to process them.

"Maur... I" Jane began, but stopped as she seemed to think about everything.

"We haven't had a holiday in a few years. Just let us have this..." Maura found herself saying.

"And if it doesnt work?" Jane asked Maura and Maura thanked God that there was no one behind her as she suddenly braked so she could truly look at her wife. Tears were building in her eyes and she didn't want them to fall.

"Is that what you want?" Maura asked, not believing that she was asking this question on the first day of their holiday.

"Maur" Jane sounded but didn't meet her eyes as she then turned her head to look out at the scenery instead.

"Is it?" Maura asked as she felt the tears begin to fall.

"I..." Jane started and it was Maura's turn to look away from her wife as she then pulled the car to the side of the road. She couldn't drive like this.

"No" she finally broke. "I can't lose you.

Maura slumped forward and Jane's hand wrapped around her own, both not sure what more they could say to each other.