Sorry fellow followers of this story for not updating for a while. I did not abandon it or put it on hiatus. So let me just point things out right now:

#1: I had been studying for my high school finals (I didn't fail!) and it was crazy.

#2: Had a teensy-tiny writer's block.

I read all the reviews and they make me as jolly as a roger!

...I cannot believe I just said that. But it's my favorite time of the year, so whatever. Thank you for your reviews and enjoy this chapter!

Note: Check out my story 'Journey of the heart' if you can. It would support me dearly if you reviewed on it. But that's up to you.

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto or Inuyasha. They belong to their rightful owners.

Warning: Some Sakura bashing. I'll see how it goes.

-AU so however the story goes, IT GOES LIKE THAT…

Main Summary: After friends and family are killed, Kagome dies and is reborn into the Naruto world; but with some deadly secrets. She attends the Ninja academy and joins team 7 as a new life begins for her. But what happens when everything from Kagome's past returns for her…? AU

Pairing: Sasuke/Kagome


Chapter 8

Kagome walked through the damp streets of Konoha in the dead of the night, the rest of the people asleep in their own homes apparantely due to the eerie silence that hushed the streets. The dark clouds were still overhead, but the rain had just let up about an hour ago, and thus the streets being slippery and wet everywhere.

Kagome made sure she walked as quietly as possible while carrying a lantern in hand.

Kagome had gotten out of bed a few hours ago and she had planned to go outside. But when she had saw the lantern she had used sometimes when she went out for training late in the night, she had pondered her options and then took it with her. She had quietly slipped out of her home and hadn't even bothered to lock it and left.

Kilala must still be in the house, sleeping.

Kagome slowly tread through the dampened forest, and the mud stained her ninja shoes. She didn't seem to mind, as she focused her gaze straight ahead. She stopped when she got far enough, and looked behind at the small lights from the street lamps in the distance that illuminated the town.

Spend all your time waiting.

For that second chance

For a break that would make it okay

There's always one reason

To feel not good enough

And it's hard at the end of the day

I need some distraction

Oh beautiful release

Memory seeps from my veins

Let me be empty

And weightless and maybe

I'll find some peace tonight

She turned away and looked up at the sky, the stars shown clearly now that she was out of the excessive lighting in Konoha. Even if there was little to no lights at night, without being around them made the stars shine more clearly in the sky when Kagome stared at them.

Kagomee lifted the lantern that dangled in her hand from the handle she held, and a sloshing noise was heard as it slowly rocked back and forth due to the movement. The lantern was filled with oil. About halfway full and empty.

She stared intently at the lantern, as if she was expecting answers out of it. Kagome took the lantern in both hands and held it in front of her, then raised it over her head.

And dumped the oil inside the lantern onto her head, and the substance quickly spread and coated her body. She threw the lantern away and it rolled into some nearby trees.

Kagome shuddered at the sticky feeling on her, and the putrid smell along with it. It felt greasy and warm. It was very unusual...very unusual to do something like this...

Kagome ran through a couple of fire jutsu's mentally. The answer was now clear.

Kagome was going to kill herself. Suicide; and she wasn't going to stop at this point.

So tired of the straight line

And everywhere you turn

There's vultures and thieves at your back

And the storm keeps on twisting

You keep on building the lies

That you make up for all that you lack

It don't make no difference

Escaping one last time

It's easier to believe in this sweet madness

Oh this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

Kagome did silent, quick hand motions, mouthing a few incoherent words. She felt her hand heat up and she slowly brought a hand to her face. This was the quickest death as possible at the last minute for Kagome.

Her eyes shifted to the stars. She wanted the heaven's to be the last thing she saw before...

Once she did the jutsu, whatever fire jutsu it was, a spark would erupt and light the gasoline on her body and burn her. It was going to hurt a lot, Kagome thought.

'But it will be over...I won't have to suffer anymore...'

She felt her hand heat up more, but there was no spark or flame.

Kagome stared intently at her hand, expecting it to do the job for her. Why wasn't her hand listening to her? Kagome wondered as shook her hand, sending a silent order for her hand to cooperate.

Maybe this wasn't the best thing, Kagome chewed her bottom lip as she thought. She shook her head. 'No, I can't live like this...'

She felt control of her hand, and she was ready.

But there was footsteps, rustling of a few trees, and that's all Kagome heard before something had latched onto her from behind.

Kagome struggled at her captor, her arms at her sides in a tight grip by the arms that encircled her from behind. Kagome glared at the person holding her back. None other than...

Sasuke.

"Sasuke, what the hell are you doing?" Kagome hissed out.

"Stopping you! What do you think you're doing?"

"Let me go! Now!"

Sasuke shook his head, which made Kagome even more angry.

"I'm not going to let you do something you will regret."

"I won't regret this! Now let me go!"

"No."

"Sasuke!"

Kagome thrashed in his tight grip, trying to at least free her arms so she could pull away from Sasuke. But Sasuke kept a vice grip around her, not letting her do her callous act.

Sasuke spoke as she continued to struggle, "You don't want this. You don't want to kill yourself."

Kagome hung her head low as her thrashings died out. "Yes, I do."

"No...you don't. I watched you...I watched as you hesitated. I saw it in your eyes; you weren't sure. You don't want to do it."

He was watching her?

Kagome shook her head. "Well, I made up my mind. Now release me."

Silence. The couple were still.

Sasuke spoke quietly, "Are you sure?"

"Yes." Kagome responded simply.

"Positive? No regrets?"

Kagome nodded. Sasuke turned his head away, and released her. Kagome looked back at him.

"Sasuke, just kill me."

Sasuke looked at her. His eyes were emotionless, no sign of stopping her. "Fine." He backed up and stood a few feet away from her, as she watched him.

His hands performed the hand signs for the fireball jutsu. No hesitation, no slowing. Kagome prepared herself.

Sasuke put a hand to his mouth and took a deep breath.

Kagome's eyes then widened. Her breathing started coming out rapidly.

Then, she was getting scared. She knew that she was going to die. But why was she feeling scared now?

As Sasuke released the fire from his mouth, Kagome shrieked and jumped out of the way of the attack.

Kagome's hands covered her head, her breathing coming out heavily from the adrenaline.

"You see? You don't want to die." Sasuke's voice broke through.

Kagome brought her hands down and looked back. She was more than surprised when the area she stood in wasn't burnt or there was no crater. She shifted her eyes more up and widened seeing that the crater was more away from the spot.

Her eyes connected with his. Seeing the look in his eyes, she realized he had not planned to actually kill her.

"You're confused. Lost." Sasuke said as he took a step forward towards her.

Kagome fell to her knees, realizing what might have just happened if he had tried to direct the fire towards her. She held her head in her hands, her body shaking.

Sasuke kneeled next to her. He placed a hand on her shoulder as he continued, "You feel lost...your emotions are clouding your mind and you're following whatever your feelings tell you to do. Your depression is telling you to do this. But your soul is telling you not to. You're torn with pain and lonliness...the isolation. But as the reality strikes you, you have second thoughts. You may not know it...but even if you had succeeded, you would have regretted it."

His words had cut deep into her, and she bent down even more, her hands clenching into fists as she lowered them.

"You miss the ones you loved so much...your emotions overwhelm your mind. The pain then becomes too much..." Sasuke said.

In the arms of an angel

Fly away from here

From this dark cold hotel room

And the endlessness that you fear

You are pulled from the wreckage

Of your silent reverie

You're in the arms of the angel

May you find some comfort there

Then, it was silent. There was only the movement of Kagome as she shook. Then, a whimper.

"Sasuke..."

Sasuke looked up at Kagome, as his thoughts had drifted his gaze somewhere else before.

"Please...make it stop." Kagome pleaded. Her voice sounded like a lost child.

She lifted her head, and Sasuke's eyes widened as he saw tears in them. They were bundled and looked like they were about to burst.

Sasuke placed another hand on her shoulder and sat in front of her, staring her in the eye. "Make what stop?"

Kagome lowered her eyes. She whimpered a little and resopnded hoarsely, "My chest...it hurts."

Sasuke immediately knew what she was feeling. She didn't know it, but her heart longed for some comfort. She had deprived herself from it so long...and now the heart hit her back full force from her self-neglection.

He had found his comfort...now she needed it too.

Sasuke placed a hand behind her head and gently lowered her head until her face was pressed against his chest.

Kagome gasped a little and squirmed in his arms, but he just held her head firmly against his chest.

"Cry." He said. It wasn't a request...it was more of a command. Sasuke knew she was trying to stay strong, but it was unhealthy for her not to let her emotions out.

Something snapped inside of Kagome. Her eyes widened, and they watered. Then, she buried her face in his chest and started to pour out years worth of tears and emotions out into it. She didn't even bother to hold herself back. Something told her not to.

Kagome slumped against him, and Sasuke placed his other arm around her waist and held her as she cried.

You're in the arms of an angel

May you find some comfort there

He looked down at her broken form and said, "It will be fine..."

-Hold her closer when she cries, hold her closer whens he feels. She needs a hand to hold, someone who will never let her go again- Blessed Union of Souls


SONG USED: 'Angel' by Sarah McLachlan.

Sorry it's short. But I hope you enjoyed it.

Until then,

Sayonara!