Chapter 12-Let her go

So sorry about my side questions or comments at the end of the chapters that were giving away upcoming info lol I will watch out for that from now on.

Sorry the update took longer, my class work has been insane.

Ana POV

We have a system in place, Ray, Lizzy's mom Janet, and I have been rotating turns taking care of Caleb and Gracie. They miss their mommy and it breaks my heart. Before I was able to leave for work Janet called Ray and I over there to talk to us about something important. So right away I called Zane to ask if it was okay that I start again tomorrow night instead because something urgent came up and he was totally fine about it.

Janet is staying with the kids at Lizzy's, I don't want to go back there because the memories always hit me hard. The good feel comforting but it's the bad ones that sting and burn in the back of my mind. Before Lizzy it was just me and I was so lonely, I always wished for a sibling and when she popped into our lives I felt complete. She loved so hard and she always knew how to make me laugh. I haven't laughed in what feels like forever. I wipe my tears that fall.

When we get there Janet offers us a beverage or a snack in which both of us decline. She gestures us to living room to take a seat. Tears fall from her face "I brought you both here to explain that as you know Lizzy had gave me parental rights to Grace and Caleb. My youngest son just started college in Texas and I want to move there to be closer to him. I'm bringing the kids with me, you both are welcome to come see them anytime. I would even be willing to send them over here to visit when they are older."

When will I get a break, it's one thing after another… I just sit there staring into space.

Ray speaks first, "Janet, I understand this is hard for us to hear but I know where you are coming from. I would hate being far away from my Ana."

Ray's words bring a bit of comfort, after all this I still have my Daddy. Lizzy would want me to support her mom, she wouldn't want me to fight with her on anything.

"I understand" I say but the words come out insincere.

"Ana sweetie, I know this is hard for you. Lizzy had so much love and adoration for you." Tears spill from her eyes then she continues, "Our flight leaves tomorrow afternoon. You both are welcome to stay the night and spend as much time with the kids as you would like."

I go to the TV room where Caleb is on the floor playing with his Ninja Turtles.

"Hey there Caleb, can Auntie Ana play turtles with you?"

He smiles jumping up into my arms giving me a big kissy. We set out the turtles and he will never ever let anyone else be Michael Angelo but I tease him anyways. "Can I be Michael Angelo today buddy?"

His blue eyes shine up at me shaking his head, "I don't think so Auntie."

"Fine, then I would like to be Raphael, is that okay?" I tease.

"Yes, you are silly."

We play for a while until Princess Gracie comes in to watch Frozen for the millionth time. She even has the Elsa costume on. She runs over to me hopping into my lap.

"Auntie Ana… Frozen pleaseeee?" She begs me to watch it with her and there is no way I could say no to her. We watch the movie until we both fall asleep during it.

In the morning we take the kids to breakfast before seeing them off at the airport. It's an emotional afternoon. Ray is an amazing father but he is not good with emotions, I miss my mom and my big sister more than anyone could imagine. A part of me wants to pick up my phone and call my mom to tell her to come back but I can't do that. I'm a big girl now, I need to survive this on my own. I head back to Kate's and my apartment to shower and get ready for work at Paddles tonight. I start to think of the last time I was at Paddles it was the night I met Christian, the only man I've ever wanted. The one who has also left me alone. The sadness of that hits me too, but my desire for him is still there desperately shaking me to the core.

When passing the dining room I notice a beautiful flower arrangement on the table with white roses, daisies, lilies. It is gorgeous. I check to see if there is a card there.

When I get it I see his handwritten card and my heart leaps at the thought of Christian.

"Anastasia, my deepest condolences. Let me know if I can do anything for you, anything at all. Christian Grey" Tears fall from my eyes, I wonder how he found out. What you could have done is want me as bad as I want you.

I put on my Paddles uniform, the tight white lace dress. Which isn't as tight as it was before. I guess I have lost some weight. Depression will do that to you. I top it off with my halo and leave for work.

Christian POV

Since the night Anastasia left I haven't been at peace, I toss and turn remembering the sad look of disappointment in her eyes. It takes all the strength that I have not to chase after her taking her, claiming every inch of her. The thought of another man having her makes my chest ache like someone has twisted a dagger through it. I want her like I've never wanted anything, she's awoken something in me. Something about the innocence and desire in her eyes that unravel me to the core.

The bank informs me that yesterday 325,000 dollars was wired back into my account from the location I had just sent it to. I can't believe Ana hates me that much that wouldn't keep that money. I can't imagine that she would let her sister go without the treatment. Maybe they raised that money somewhere else. My mind is going crazy wondering all these different possibilities. But of course Ana never ceases to amaze me, she is so different than anyone I've ever met. I make sure the bank wires it back and that they reject any transfers of it coming back. The only way they can do that is by changing my account number which I'm fine with. When I finish this call I contact Welch to find out what is going on with Anastasia, having him check on her sister Elizabeth and make sure to tell him to do this right away. I want this information now.

He calls back within an hour to give me the heartbreaking news that Ana lost her sister. Oh wow this has got to be so hard for her. That's why she gave the money back. Why would this happen to someone as kind hearted and pure as Anastasia. I'm in no way Mr. Warmth but I couldn't imagine losing Elliot or Mia, especially in such a devastating way. I write out a card for her and have Andrea choose a beautiful flower arrangement to have sent to her.

Later that evening…

I was hoping that after getting the flowers and card that she would reach out. But I need to be realistic sending that doesn't change what happened between us. She is obviously upset with me. After eating dinner I go to work in my office, same thing I do every night. My phone rings, it is Zane.

"Grey" I answer.

"Hey, I just wanted to thank you again for the dirt on Elena, figures she would be committing fraud with her business."

"Sure man, don't mention it."

"Well I appreciate it but that's not the only reason I called. I was just wondering what happened with you and Ana? She is working tonight but she just isn't the same smiling sweet innocent girl?"

My blood boils, my Ana is working at Paddles again. There for every Dom to ogle, maybe even get the chance to claim her. The more I think about it the more pissed I get.

"Grey, you still there?" Zane asks.

"Yes, I'm going to by drop in tonight."

I hang up putting on my suit jacket. I call Taylor to have him take me to Paddles. When entering I watch Ana serving drinks from a far. She looks so beautiful but so broken. The tight lace dress she is wearing shows her perfect breast, it makes my cock tighten against my slacks. The reaction my body has to her is irritating. I watch as a Dom I presume tries to make conversation, she kindly refuses his request and it pleases me.

As I get closer her expression changes as if she can sense my presence. Her beautiful eyes search throughout the room until her eyes lock with mine. Anxiety bubbles in my chest and I'm hoping to God that I didn't fuck everything up. I take in her expression, first she looks puzzled but then her looks changes to frustration.

She bites her lip as I approach her towards the end of the bar, desire swirls inside of me. She knows what biting that lip does to me but here she is doing it. Testing my control. Since I have met this girl my control has flown out the window. Probably never to be found again.

"What are you doing working here Anastasia?" I ask not able to hide my discontent.

She ignores my complaint and leaves the bar area to come closer to me, so we are face to face. "Mr. Grey thank you for the flowers, they were lovely. As for my job, I like it here. I'm not yours anymore, your decision as I remember it very clearly."" She replies spitefully stating the last part. Sassy stubborn girl.

"I'd like to talk to you privately in Zane's office." I state grabbing her wrist willing her to follow my lead.

She yanks her wrist back, "I'm working. Why don't you pencil me into your busy schedule tomorrow and we can have a conversation by phone."

Does she want me to beg with a room full of people, well that isn't going to fucking happen. She turns away to serve a couple drinks dismissing me. She thinks this bar will stop me from getting what I want. I go behind the bar and pick her up carrying her caveman style over my shoulder carefully making sure nobody can see under her dress.

She hollers slapping my shoulder, "Christian! Are you crazy?! Stop it right now! Put me the hell down!"

"We are talking right now Anastasia. I tried to do this the nice way but you are wanting to be difficult." I state

She fights me the whole way to the office and when I set her down, I can't help myself I pull her into my arms kissing her lips desperately like a man starved. I need her to feel the urgency I have felt, the emptiness I felt since she left. Her little whimpers encourage me to continue. After minutes of fucking each other's mouths she groans angrily. "Christian, you don't fight fair!"

I chuckle, "I never said I did."

She growls and it's so cute, like a little cub. But I'm the lion in the equation and I'm stalking my sweet prey. My attraction to her his primal, I need to make her mine.

"Christian, I need to get back to work and you are so confusing! Why are you here? You can't show up here acting like you own me when you were the one to throw everything away."

"Stop fighting this Ana, we both know that you are mine. You know you understand the position I was in when I ended things. It had nothing to do with the way I felt about you or the way I still feel about you. I want you back in my life."

"Please explain what you want exactly? A submissive relationship with TPE?" she says quietly, she's so innocent and nervous.

"No, maybe we can mix the two, sometimes we play but I want a relationship. What do you want?"

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