Penelope followed Spencer to the living room dreading the conversation that was fixing to take place. She sat down and wished she hadn't see the baby with Fran. She was nowhere near ready for this but she knew it was inevitable. She watched Spencer look out the window.

"Derek told me what he said to you the other day. How he wanted his family back? He never had his family to begin with but that is beside the point. You know when I first saw you I was with Derek. I never expected to fall in love with you all those years later. I watched you love Derek, never getting anywhere. I felt the same with you as you felt with him."

"I never knew you felt that way. Why didn't you tell me?"

"I don't think it would have mattered and I was ok with that. I need to know something Pen and I need the truth. I don't want you to tell me what I want to hear. I want the honest to God truth. What do you want?"

"I don't know."

"You know what you want. You always have. Do you love Derek?"

"Honestly I don't think that I will ever stop loving him but that doesn't mean I don't love you."

"Do you love like a woman is supposed to love a man or is just a love between friends?"

"I never meant to hurt you but I just don't know."

Spence could hear the tears in Pen's voice and knew if he turned around that she would be crying.

"Do you know we have been sleeping in the same bed for months and you sleep on your side of the bed and never come toward me? You never seek me out. Sometimes I feel like I'm alone in bed."

"I'm sorry."

"It's ok. I kind of new you could never be intimate with me. First you used your pregnancy and I understood that. What is the reason now?"

He waited for Penelope to say something and when she didn't he turned to her. Her checks were wet with tears and he knew they couldn't go on like this. It wasn't fair to either of them. He walked to her and sat next to her.

"What you want Pen?"

"I want all this to go away. I want to be happy. I want to feel like the old me. You and Derek talk about what you want, what about me? There are things I want too."

"Tell me what you want."

"I want D to grow with his daddy but Derek hurt me so much and I don't know if I can get over that. I know I should but right now I can't. Sometime I look at him with D and wish we were together like a family is supposed to be. I don't want to hurt you but I am anyway. You were there for me when I needed someone and for that I will forever be grateful. I do love you Spence but I don't know if I will love you the way you deserve and need. I knew you would never hurt me the way Derek has and I needed that at the time. I didn't realize what this was doing to you."

"Maybe I pressured you into agreeing to marry me after you had the baby and you probably would have but you wouldn't have been happy."

"You didn't pressure me to do anything, Spence. I could have said no."

"I think when I asked you, I didn't think you would say yes. I was thrilled when you did but then we never talked about setting a date or what you wanted, what I wanted."

"I know. I kept putting it off. I shouldn't have said yes." She sighed. "Where do we go from here?"

"I don't know. I bought this house for us but as of right now there is no us. We could still live together but not together."

"I wouldn't feel right."

"Look Penelope to be honest with you, I told Derek I wasn't going to let you go so easily but that's when I thought I had a chance. This house is big, we can still live together, I can help you with D and be a buffer for you and Derek. We don't have to tell him what's going on between us."

"Spence I want you to know that I do love you and I appreciate everything that you did for me and D. I also want you to know that this doesn't mean I will go running back to Derek. I'm not looking for a relationship right now."

"I would understand if you did."

"It's not easy to forget what he said, and how he said it. What he did."

"I know but you are going to have to forgive him or you won't able to get on with your life."

"I know but it's going to take time."

"Let's go out and have a worry free dinner. No matter what, we'll always be friends."

"Ok. Let's go."

The following morning Pen met Derek and Fran at the mall entrance. She was excited to see after being away from him for the first time. She smiled when she saw Derek pushing her son in a stroller. When he stopped in front of Pen she leaned over and kissed him. D got excited when he saw his mommy and started cooing at her. She decided to leave him in there since she knew that he wouldn't want to be in there if she took him out.

"How was he last night?" she asked as they entered the mall.

"Oh he was good. He got a little cranky when I put him to bed but I think it was because he didn't see you."

"Mmmm, could be. I usually give him a bath and read a story to him. He's never cranky."

"It was a new place but he was fine. How did you do without him?" Fran asked.

"I was ok for the most part." She said. "I have to get used to it."

"Well let's hit the baby store." Fran said.

Fran went crazy buying D clothes. Penelope tried to explain to her that D was growing fast and he might not wear all those close. She commented it was fine and went on with her shopping spree. After the clothing store they went to the toy store and there it went way worse. Derek and Fran wanted to buy D everything they saw and Pen had to put her foot down and tell them that they could buy him the bigger things later. She shook her head. D wouldn't be able to play with them for a while. They had decided to eat at food court for lunch and Pen was sitting at a table feeding D when she felt someone standing next to her. She look up and stared at her visitor. She shook her head and turned back to D, who had finished his bottle.

"What do you want Savannah?" asked as she placed D on her shoulder to burp him.

"I want to talk to you."

"How did you know I was here?"

"I was walking by and saw you." she said. "Are you alone?"

"No. I'm here with…"

"I know what you want and you won't get it."

"What is it you think I want?"

"Derek."

"Why makes you think I want Derek?"

"Oh please you've always wanted him. I saw that right away. He never wanted you."

"I don't really feel like hearing your take on my feelings for Derek." she cradled D to her chest. "I'm getting tired of hearing the same words all the time. I am not responsible for Derek asking you for a divorce. I'm not responsible for Derek sleeping with me that night. I didn't force him, I didn't have to. You were not married much less engaged at that point. Have you ever asked him why he did sleep with me when he was supposed to be in love with you, planning a future with you? I'm not taking the blame for your marital troubles any longer. I did nothing wrong and neither did my son. I never tried to take Derek from you but I could have if I wanted to. I could have told him I was pregnant instead of running away. I know Derek better than you do and he would have dropped everything so we could figure out what to do, even you. But instead I decided to run instead talking to him. That is something I will regret because Derek should have been there when I heard D's heartbeat for the first time. He should have been there when I had my first ultrasound and saw our baby for the first time. I'll never be able to make it up to him. But I do have a question for you. I think I already asked but I'll ask you again. What type of woman forces a man to marry her even when he doesn't want to?"

"I didn't force him to do anything. He married me because he wanted to."

"I was there the day you got married. Derek didn't smile not once while you were in that church. If Derek was marrying the love his life, he would have the megawatt smile on his face and no one would be able to wipe it off."

"You don't know anything."

"I know he had it the day D was born and he has it every day he sees his son." Savannah looked at D and Pen cradles him tighter to her. "He's the spitting image of Derek isn't he? I've seen baby pictures of him and they looked exactly alike."

"You think you've won but you haven't. I won't give Derek the divorce he seeks to be with you. I'll make his life a living hell and as a result yours as well."

"My happiness doesn't revolve around Derek. It revolves around this little guy right here. I don't need anything else."

"You act so smug sitting here holding your bastard with a smile on your face. I'm going to wipe it off real soon."

Savannah turned to leave and found Derek staring at her with Fran right behind. She could see the anger on his face and for the first time since she had known Derek, she feared him.

"What the hell do you think you are doing?"

"We were just having a friendly chat."

"It hardly looked friendly." Fran said.

"I just wanted to see how my stepson was doing. Is that a crime?"

"I told you to stay away from them and like always you don't listen. Maybe you listen to a restraining order, which I plan to file as soon as I can. Maybe the thought of you going to jail will make you see reason."

Savannah watch Fran sit down and take D in to her arms. She watched as she smothered kisses all over his face and he responded with excitement, kicking his legs and waving his arms. The first thought that came to her was that was supposed to be my baby. She turned to Derek.

"I need to talk to you."

"I don't have anything to say to you. Contact my lawyer and he'll get in contact with me."

"Derek we need to talk."

"Say what you need to say and leave. I don't have any secrets from my family."

"I think I'll just go."

Derek waited for Savannah to leave before he sat down. He took a deep breath and sat back.

"I'm sorry for that. I didn't know she would be here."

"Did you know she would be here today?" Pen asked. "I'm bound to run into her sometime."

"What did she say?" Fran asked.

"Oh you know the usual things. It's getting kind of redundant but I'm not going to take the blame for what's going on between the two of you. I did nothing wrong."

"Pen I'm sorry for all of this and your right, it's not your fault. I wish the both of you weren't in the middle. I wish she would agree to this divorce so I could it behind me."

"It doesn't look like that is going to happen." She murmured. "Are you going to shop for your new home?"

"I saw some things I like but I need to figure out what I'm taking and what I'm leaving before I do anything. I've been meaning to ask you, where's Spencer?"

"He had some things to do this morning. He's doing some research for something. I get confused when he starts talking about scientific stuff."

"Well you think we could all get together and go out to dinner."

"Sure. I just need to tell him. When would you like to go?"

"Tonight if possible."

"Ok."

They finished eating, threw their trash away and Fran was pushing D when Derek stopped her.

"What's going on between you and Spence?"

"What do you mean? There is nothing go on."

"You're talking to a profiler here. I saw the look on your face when his name was mentioned. Now spill it."