This is the beginning of the whole fanfic I guess. This is were everything happens and so on. If anyone wants to know I've written chapter twelve done and I will write thirteen as soon as I've edited chapter six. I do have a plan that when I've written all the chapters done (three more) I will update more often. But as you know I have a beta and we both have school work so I don't know if my idea will come true.
WARNING: THIS CONTAINS MURDER, IT'S NOT VERY DETAILED BUT I WANT TO WARN YOU GUYS. IF THIS UPSET YOU OR TRIGGERS YOU STOP READING NOW. THIS WILL CONTAIN HUGE OOC TOO, IT'S PART OF THIS.
Beta: genderlessinmniac
Chapter five
The big black thing began to turn, it moved like as if it was made of sand dragging out a leg, arm, chest. It formed a chin and cheeks. Moving so it looked like a person that was shorter than Naruto. It was still black until the black got more colors. Orange, black, blue eyes, blond hair. When the body was done as well as the face, he saw who it was.
Naruto stod infront of himself in his teens. The Konoha headband tight around his forehead, bangs slightly hanging over it. His hair was longer than his own short hair. The orange jumpsuit was loose on his body, not showing of it at all. The air grew uncomfortable around him. It was weird seeing the younger version, he had a chubbier cheeks. Not like his own hollow ones.
"Why are you here?" the silence broke with Naruto's deep voice.
"Are you the Hokage now?" was the teen's reply. There was happiness in the other's features, the bright eyes and the smile on his lips.
"Yes I am, I became it when I was twenty-eight. Baa-cha have a reason that she's so grumpy", was the older blonde's reply with no hints of happiness like it the younger one.
"I got my dream fulfill, I can't wait for it." the teen smiled "But you are the older one of me right? You know why we want to be Hokage." the teen added
"Of course, but it's not the same" the short haired blonde replied with a calm voice. The younger one frowned.
"How is it not the same? We are seen by others, they have respect from us" the Hokage looked at the younger one. He was really hopefully when he was younger. Of course, each year he grew out of it.
"I've realized that it's not the same. Being Hokage isn't as fun as it seems and I do get respect. But not the one we want, it's my title they have respect for. Not Uzumaki Naruto"
"I never give up. I don't know how. Or have you changed that too? You aren't me anymore, you are someone else" The older felt his eyes widened at the information.
"I am you, I know you better then anyone. I know that you can't buy any other food than ramen because you don't have enough money. I know that you suck at hiding your emotions, and that you are home when you was depressed. And that you always feel more when you come home to an empty apartment. You were never in love with Sakura-chan, you wanted to be seen by someone and you played that part" the younger widened his eyes a little before it turned to normal again.
"I thought you would be smarter then me. I'm sure that you aren't me, you would never think of losing" was the younger one's reply.
"You don't want to be seen by everyone. It's not the villagers you want to be seen by. You want to be seen by the people who matters to you. I'm not the one you are, just like you aren't our twelve year old self" Naruto replied and the teen changed. It grew shorter, with now a blue orange jumpsuit. The twelve year old Naruto. His cheeks were chubbyand his eyes were huge in a small face.
"Hello" the short haired said to the other. With widend eyes the other looking at him.
"Who are you? You look old" was the younger's reply. Naruto felt a little smile come to his lips.
"I am you, just twenty two years older" the younger one's eyes grew wider and had a huge grin on his lips.
"Then I'm the Hokage right? I can't wait for it to happen to me too" the younger grinned and said it very excited.
"I am the Hokage. Let me say thing, you will go through a lot in the years ahead of you. You will feel alone, empty, useless. But you will get through it, and the one you will become is the one I am now. You will change, it's a part of growing up" the younger one gave him a depressed look before he pouted his lips and his cheeks making them look larger.
"You don't need to say that, I want to know all that. Will I get a wife when I get older?" Naruto rose his blond eyebrow.
"I'll leave that for yourself to experience" he said with a small smile.
"That's not fair! You only told me the bad stuff" the younger argued.
"You know as well as I, that life isn't all that great" the older replied.
"That's not true" he looked at the younger, his eyes changed a little more truthfully "Life isn't always good, but I know that no matter how lonely I feel. I still have some sort of family. Kakashi-sensei, Iruka-sensei, Sakura-chan even Sasuke is a part of my family. It's the part I never wanted to loose them, I get seen by them. Even if they are annoying and irritating. Iruka-sensei is always nice towards me, even if he can nag sometimes about it. Kakashi-sensei is too, Sakura-chan is always on Sasuke. Sasuke is my rival, even without him I would get lost" the younger one answered.
Naruto looked at his younger self. The words were hurtful at some points. A part of him wanted to be him again, being Naiv. Not knowing that it will change his thoughts someday. That he never was with his family much, he even had children now. He never gave them attention, the one thing that he craved for so long. He wanted to be the twelve year old again, the child that nothing seemed too big for him to win. He was loyal, caring, soft. He was himself, but he had grown up and grown out some parts.
He wasn't smiling as often, he was more of a pessimist at some points. He was the Hokage, he couldn't think everything was great when it was bullshit. He wasn't naiv anymore and it was a part he now wanted to be.
"Keep that in mind Naruto" the older one respond.
"Do I have a family when I get older?" the younger one replied with a smile.
"I won't spoiler anything more. You will grow up and you will know then" the older gave a small smile. The younger one changed again, into the black thing that was a large mess. It soon changed once again.
The white room changed landscape, to the woods around him. There black thing was gone and he began to see his children along with Sasuke, Sakura and Iruka. They were running away from something, and he felt the panic spread in his chest. He ran after them with high speed. They seemed to run faster, and Naruto did the same. Why are they running?
"Stop, I can help you. Say why you all are running" he shouted and he ran faster towards them. Iruka stopped and turned around. The blonde stopped in fort of his teacher, Iruka's brown eyes were narrowed. Naruto felt the air grow uncomfortable as he waited for Iruka to speak.
"I never liked you, you are kyuubi. You killed my parents, I never want to see you again" Naruto stod in shock before he could hear the words sliding in.
"Iruka-sensei what are you talking about? I'm not Kurama, you know I only have him sealed inside of me. I thought you already knew that, you were the one that told me about it" Naruto spoke fast. Brown eyes looked in Naruto's.
"I felt bad for you, I never believed that you could ever be an ordinary person. You will always be Kyuubi's vessel, always have that title" the words was the only thing on Naruto's mind.
"You are lying, you were like a big brother to me. Almost like my father figure. You can't possible pull this act" the hurt in his voice were clear and he clenched his hand.
"That's what you believe, it's all an act. The third asked me to do this, so you would stop feeling alone. It was all only an order" Iruka made it sound so easy, his voice was flat and his eyes full of hatred.
"I still don't believe you, I know you Iruka-sensei. You are loyal to the one you respect, the one that deserve it" Naruto responded, feeling his heartbeat speed up faster.
"I knew you would fall for it, I knew it all along. I took the chance and I did it. But I never thought that you would get into this deep" Iruka said and Naruto turned and ran.
Not wanting to hear it anymore. Not wanting to hear lies. That's what they were, all lies. He knew Iruka and he was a part of his family.
He shock his head and ran, seeing both his children run slower then the other. He got so close that he reached out to the take both of his children in the upper arm. They stopped but didn't turn to face him, Naruto stod still having them in a tight grip.
"Let go dad!" said Himawari in a cry. He loosened his grip but still held her.
"Talk to me Himawari, Boruto" was his strong reply.
"I don't need you, you only bring us trouble. You never cared for us and I hate you" Boruto said and turned around and Naruto let go both of them.
"I do care about yo-"
"You don't, your never home and you don't know anything about us. You forgot Himawari's birthday, what kind of father does that? Disappear, we only want mom" his son replied with a hateful tone.
"How about you Himawari? Do you feel the same as Boruto?" Naruto asks and she didn't meet his eyes.
"You make no one feel happy in our family, and you don't seem like you want to be a part of our lives. You are always in the tower and I hate it" was her harsh but low respond.
"We're better off without you, I don't see any difference with having you as a father and having no father at all" added Boruto with the same tone.
"I'll try to be a better father, I promise you that" he promised, more to himself than to them.
"You aren't my father anymore"
"You don't need to be here anymore, we are fine on our own" Naruto looked hurt and had to swallow the words he wanted to say before he blew up. He left them without giving them a second look, he saw Sakura's pink hair fly in the wind as she ran after Sasuke. It didn't take long before he managed to catch her thin wrist, she stopped and his grip tighten.
"Sakura-chan" he said to catch her attention. She turned fast, her hair in his eyes and her green eyes staring into his own.
"You only take without knowing that you hurt me. You make me feel useless, almost as if you are better than others. You took my first love, took him away from me. Who does that?" she said harshly and Naruto clenched her wrist tighter.
"I never took him away from you, he left you by his own choicel" Naruto said trying to get calm but he heard his voice crack.
"If you weren't in between Sasuke and I, I would have him all to myself. But you were always there, nagging to get everyone's attention" she said quickly. "If you were dead, I would get everything I wanted and be happy".
"Sasuke was never yours, and yes if I was dead I could possible bring you more happiness. But I'm alive and I won't die for long. Sakura-chan, you don't need Sasuke to bring you happiness" he replied truthfully.
"I do need him, he's everything I could possible need. He's everything I want. I can't let this go, not when I got his child either. I can't give him up now, not when I'm close to get him" Sakura said with a normal tone.
"I won't let you" he said shortly. "Sasuke has his own free will, and he can do whatever he want to do with it. He made his choice", he finished. He let loose her wrist and began to walk away from his teammate.
He began to run through the woods, the high trees and jumped over large stones. He saw Sasuke form a distance and speeded up. He felt his thigh clench from not being used to training. But he didn't care much about it, he saw the cloak coming just a head of him. He took the few steps before reaching out, and he touched the black fabric. He clenched it and Sasuke turned around.
They stod infront of each other, Naruto panting slightly. Looking for any reaction or feeling on his lover's blank face. He let go of the fabric and Sasuke moved his head slightly away from Naruto. The blond didn't know what to think, why the hell was Sasuke acting like this.
"Talk to me, come on Sasuke. I can't fix this if you don't say what made you act like this" he started calmly. Not you too, please let you be the only one that believes me. I don't know what I will do if i lose you too. It's bad enough like it already is. Come on Sasuke, I can't do this alone.
"If you won't speak I will make you speak, like it or not" he said more forceful and took a few steps closer towards his lover. He grabbed his shoulder and turned him around while taking a step closer.
"Come on Sasuke quit this act of yours" he said again and Sasuke took a step backwards. Naruto reached out and grabbed the clothed wrist before Sasuke could take another step.
"You really think I love you don't you? You really are an Dobe"
"Not you. Never you, I know you enough to know that you could never do that. Not you, not you" he felt himself lose control, his breathing coming in and out unevenly.
"It was all a play, and I won it" Sasuke said and Naruto couldn't find a way out of it.
"You can't do this, we've been together for eight years. You can't fake it that well. I know you lie a lot, but hell this isn't even lying anymore. You can't do this, this is one of your lies once again" he said, every thought coming out.
"You were under my control, I knew I could get you to think I loved you. I knew that I got you deep. You are naiv Naruto, you never had your guard up when you were with me. I knew that I could easily make you believe that I loved you" the tone wasn't harsh but the words were like knives. Naruto closed his eyes, This is the lies, he only tells me lies. He didn't play me. He didn't play me, he loves me ….. right? He is good at lying, he could easily play me when I fell for him.
He open his eyes and saw Kakashi stood before him. His face hidden under his mask, his silver hair still high on his head.
"I never liked you, and you were the worst student. I never wanted to teach you anything, you were always so thick headed. You are useless, you never had any talents like Sasuke or Sakura. You were the weak link of the team and always got us in trouble when we went to missions. Always so open minded, you are naiv. I thought you would be smarter with Kushina and Minato as your parents. But you got neither of their talents. They are ashamed of you as their son, but they are dead now" the older was calm, with hints of anger in his flat voice.
"Kakashi-sensei, why?" Naruto's voice were weak, scared, he was close to breaking.
"You were in my team, I couldn't let you out of the team. You were Minato's son, I thought you would have any talent. But seams like I was wrong" Kakashi replied with a dangerous calm voice.
The scene changed, they were on a field with high grass. It was twilight outside. Boruto, Himawari, Iruka, Kakashi, Sakura and Sasuke stod on a line, facing Naruto. They were a few feet away but Naruto could clearly see them as well as their faces. Naruto felt the wind grow stronger and he looked at them.
There was a ninja that came from behind Boruto, in a flash his son's head was off with a blade. His body fell forward and Naruto began to run. But he came nowhere, the ninja came behind Himawari, and in a blink of an eye, her body fell forward as well. He couldn't see the bodies much and he felt his cheeks getting wet.
The ninja slid his sword into Iruka's stomach, it stayed there for a second or two before the ninja dragged it out and Iruka fell to the ground. The ninja swung their sword to the side of Kakashi's torso. Naruto could see the large cut in Kakashi's stomach, before he fell down. The Ninja was behind Sakura in a flash and swung their sword, starting with the shoulder and it slided over her chest. She fell forward. The ninja cut Sasuke's head of.
The scene changed and he was infornt of Boruto's lifeless body, followed by Himawari. The blood was right infront of himself and saw the huge amount of blood. now turned cold. He was shown Iruka's body and so on. Showing his loved ones dead. His family was dead, the ones that mattered the most were gone.
He screamed as loud as he could.
He woke up in a comfortable bed, he blinked his sore eyes. He saw the white ceiling, before he began to move his fingers and toes. Trying to wake up his tired body. He turned his head to the side, seeing a light brown chair standing against the pale blue wall. He turned his head and saw two doors. One in the wall his bed was standing up against and one on the opposite wall.
He turned his head slightly again and closed his eyes once more. His mind was tired, the memories were fresh in his mind and he felt his heart beat faster at the memory. Don't think about it, you only make it worst. I really am useless aren't I? I mean they were right about me, they could easily play me. They could laugh at my stupidness right now for all I know.
He began to move his legs as well as his arms. He sat up and watched around him, I'm at the hospital. Why am Ii here? He looked at the rest of the room when he sat up, he looked at his arms and saw the needle in his arm, that was connected with a container with a clear liquid in it. He wasn't comfortable with this, being alone with no clue at all what was going on. He felt useless, an good for nothing fool.
The door open and he saw a nurse with large eyes.
"Hokage-sama, you are awake" she said with a shocked tone.
"I'll tell Sakura that you are awake. It will only take a minute" she said with a small smile and walked out of the room. It didn't take long before Sakura opened the door and Naruto didn't look at her. He knew that it was her. The memories were still on his mind and he had to take breaths to calm down. "Why am I here?" he broke the silence without looking at her. He didn't want to look at her, and he didn't want to talk to her either. The words were still fresh.
"Sasuke got you here, you passed out. You didn't have any injures. Sasuke explained that you were in short of genjusu. You were out for ten minutes and he couldn't make you respond in those ten minutes. He said it was almost like your soul were out of your body. That was until you screamed, and after that, passed out. The black thing was gone the second you screamed"
