I will post at least two times a week. I have so many plans in my mind that I don't know what I do with them. But I write them down, so I'll continue write stuff! Well with that done here's the new chapter.
Warnings: not much, could be hard for some readers.
chapter seven
Naruto woke up in a sweaty shirt, the memories from the nightmare still fresh in his mind. It had gotten slightly better after he could control it a little more with help from Sasuke. He still woke up once or twice in the middle of the night. He clenched the sheets, but began to control his breathing. Those nightmares were always the same, the same scene over and over again. The panic was always the same.
He checked the clock, six in the morning. He could get up, even if he was tired he knew he wouldn't sleep much more. He raised himself of the sofa, stretched his back. He could see his skin through the shirt and he took of it along with his sleeping pants. He grabbed his orange shirt with black strips in the end of the arm along with his pants.
He got to the kitchen and begun to take out the breakfast and to the table. He brought the milk out and put on coffee. He heard someone walk down the stairs and he saw Hinata in her ordinary clothing.
"Naruto-kun, are you making breakfast?" she asked in a surprised voice.
"Yeah, I thought I could do it when I'm already awake. I could walk to the office earlier too" he responded in a light voice.
"That's nice of you, Himawari would be happy. She won't be awake till another half an hour" Hinata replied light. Naruto eyed the watch slightly.
"I didn't think of that. Did I wake you up?" he asked her. She shocked her head slightly.
"No, I wanted to talk to you" she grew more serious. Naruto let his eyes widen a little.
"Should we take a seat?" he asked in an understanding tone.
"No, it's not necessarily. I found a house, a little while ago. It's a bit smaller than this, but got enough room for the children and myself" Hinata explained with a small smile.
"That's great for you. I hope you get to buy it" He said honestly happy with the fact.
"Thank you, I've already bought it. I can start moving in a week. I have to take some more missions, but I have time when you and Sasuke-kun take care of the children" Naruto felt a little ashamed. He had spoken with Sasuke about it, but not if he would be in the village all time or not.
"I and Sasuke haven't spoken about the details. I'm not sure if he can have spoken about with Sakura-chan, either. But I'm happy that you sake" he replied.
"I thought Sasuke-kun have done it already" she said surprised and widen eyes.
"I don't know if he done it. Yesterday was the last time I saw him, and before that we haven't spoken for the past two weeks" he replied with a slow voice.
"I didn't think of that. But you seem a little better now when you spoke about Sasuke-kun" she said and Naruto felt a little blush.
"Am I that obvious?" he said embarrassed "He got me to realize that I couldn't let it control me, in his own bastardy way. But it helped on the way" he replied. He saw a flicker with pain through Hinata's face. But it quickly disappeared.
"I'm glad. I hope I could've done something more" she said gently. Naruto pulled her in a light hug. She wrapped her arms loosely on his waist.
"You've done enough. You helped me from the nightmares, you are wonderful woman" he said seriously "I'm sorry that I can't love you the way you wanted" he added sadly. Hinata broke the hug and shock her head a little while looking down.
"It's alright Naruto-kun. I'm happy for the time we have been together and that you told me right way when you felt your feelings vanish. I can't image a world without you in it. But I know that I'm not the one you want, and I won't let you be sad all the time for my own happiness" she said with a gentle she looked up and Naruto looked down. Her eyes linked with his for a moment, before he turned his glaze away.
"You will find one that deserves you. You deserve the best" he said with a little smile.
" Thank you Naruto-kun. I wish the best for you and Sasuke-kun" she said with a small smile.
Naruto cared a lot of Hinata, even if the love for Sasuke ran a lot deeper. Not as much as Kakashi, Iruka. But he did care a lot of her, and he considers her a dear friend of his. It's the only way to describe it. He wanted the best for her, she did deserve the best. How many times he thought about her, her good sides. How much he should love her, he couldn't. The only one he could was with Sasuke, even thinking of him made him warmer.
He knew their family wouldn't be normal anymore, it was never. But now was a lot that changed it. He was with a man instead of a woman, a father that would replace a mother. He didn't think that the children would call Sasuke father or any other term. It sounded wrong in Naruto's mind. It sounded wrong with them calling Sasuke Uncle it made him shiver. As long as he got all of them together, he was happy with it.
It was hard to picture the future either way.
It was something he couldn't predict, he didn't know if they could accept each other in their family. Sasuke could possible do it, Boruto could too but it could need some time. His son was over protecting with his mother, and it would take a long time to get used that Naruto was with a Sasuke. Boruto was still mad at him with that, or Naruto thought it. He haven't met his son in two weeks, but he knew that Boruto could be angry a long while. But Naruto hoped that it was only a matter of time.
He haven't met Boruto in two weeks. He was still living with Shikamaru, still frighten to meet the people that he saw in the genjutsu. Naruto didn't want Boruto to be in that mess. If Boruto felt the same way as he did, it was a hard trauma. Even for him but Boruto was fifteen, Naruto didn't want something like that stop his future. It was a trauma and even if Naruto and done a lot when he was fifteen he never had a trauma that early.
Boruto was still lost in his own mind and Naruto needed to help him out of it. He needed to see him, and he needed to help him. If not him, someone else. He knew that it was a little crackly with each other. Hinata could be a better person to make Boruto open eyes a little. Naruto wanted to help him, but perhaps in this situation Hinata was better for that. He could listen to her more, maybe.
Even with the cards out. He still been through the same thing as his son, and with that. He could understand Boruto more. But Naruto isn't recovered yet, how can he speak with someone how he should do when Naruto himself haven't been able to move on with the trauma. He and Boruto could recover together, it would be easier that way. The last problem was that Naruto was too tired to even take care of himself. Naruto was lost in his own mind and he knew that he still haven't gotten the strength to look at any of his children. He barely looked Sasuke, it was hard enough as it already was. He clenched his hand a little. Since when did he ever back down a challenge? This was his own child, a part of his gene in someone. He never backed down from a challenge, no matter what happened before. He never gives up, even if he was empty inside. He felt the motivation begin to rise and he began to unclench his hand.
"Mom? Dad?" he heard a soft feminine voice in the stairs. He looked and saw Himawari, he saw the scene come up. The high grass with the dead body in it. The blood wouldn't stop flowing, stop bleeding. Stop bleeding, he tired to reach down but he couldn't move. Useless, weak. I always bring out trouble.
"Naruto-kun. Control it, please" he woke up from the scene. He saw Himawari below him, looking worried with her eyes. He felt his heart beat hard against his chest. He still saw blood on her clothes, he could still see her lifeless body. He wouldn't let it control him. Not now. The image changed, she wasn't dead. The blood was on her clothes it was stains.
"Sorry, let's have breakfast instead" he spoke with a low voice.
"Alright" Himawari replied in a low voice and they walked to the table.
"The victims of the black blob have a name now. The project is now named "The unknowingly creature - karasuba-iro (glossy black)" Naruto explained to Shikamaru who stood in front of his desk.
"Karasuba-iro uses genjutsu to capture it's enemy. It shows something horrible and leaves the enemy in a trauma. We still don't know what it's after. It possible wants you, Karasuba did say something about the Hokage in one of the teams been fighting it" Naruto eyed him.
"If Karasuba wanted me, it could just kill me the moment it saw me. No, it's after something else" Naruto replied, what did it want. He couldn't let it slip, with this enemy was strong
"Karasuba seems like it wants its victim suffering not by wounds on the body but in the mind. It seems like it plays with its victim mind. It could want you to be distracted from something it wants to protect or anything" Naruto did a nod while not trying to think about it too much.
"Perhaps, I haven't sent a team on Karasuba yet. Let's lay back a few days with this project"
"We don't know where it's headed and what it's after" Shikamaru replied.
"What do you suggest we do? We can send a message to the guards to check if it ever begins to travel" Naruto asked his left hand man.
"We can do it for now. But I suggest we need more information about it, before we think of what's its goal" The lazy man spoke with a flat tone. Naruto eyed him, they needed information. Even if they had gained more now that he had seen everything about it. He didn't know why he targets him, his own son or any of his Shinobi.
" We already have information about it. We need thing to lure it out more so we can watch it more" Naruto replied. "We need the same that been in the genjutsu, I won't send new ones out there. I will go out there. I'll do it tomorrow night, don't let anyone follow me" he added.
"I don't think it's a good thing if you go there alone. You haven't recover enough to be strong enough to face it alone" the other male respond. "Bring someone with you, Sasuke or someone else. If it knocks you out we don't know what it would do with you" Shikamaru replied. "I bring someone else with me. Don't tell Sasuke where I'm heading if he asks you" he responded short. The door opened and Sasuke stood there, blue eyes turned elsewhere.
"Don't tell me what?" the black haired said.
"I'll leave now, it seems like you two needs to talk" Shikamaru and walked away closing the door. The air was uncomfortable but Naruto didn't let it change his mind.
"Care to tell me what that was about?" his lover said. He couldn't look at Sasuke yet, still afraid of meeting the flashbacks.
"It's nothing. It's about Karasuba-iro, I've named the black thing now. But we need to speak, about something else" Naruto said his eyes focus on something else.
"Look at me first" Sasuke's damned. Naruto turned his head slowly, eyes closed. He slowly begun to open his eyes, it's nothing you can't do, come on. You faced a freaking goodness one time. It didn't calm down his nerves, but he open his eyes even with the fear. The blood began to come up. The ninja behind Sasuke had his sword high and swung and his lover was dead. He breathed heavily, he clenched his armrest. He closed his eyes, trying to forget the flashback.
He felt lips against his and he kissed back. He breathed in Sasuke's smell and he felt the panic run out. He reached out, grabbing Sasuke's neck pulling them closer than they were. The blond's tongue reached to the other's mouth and it developed quickly to a sloppy kiss. Tongues trailing over each other, none caring about which were which saliva. Only that they were each other's. Sasuke broke the kiss and Naruto open his eyes to see black obs staring into his own.
"You always kiss me when that happens" Naruto low said.
"It helps you to relax" Sasuke said in a low husky voice that made Naruto slowly lose his self control. He rose up, in a flash Sasuke was against the wall. The blond pressed up against the slimmer body, his hands on Sasuke's sides their lower regions touching each other. Naruto brought their lips together and let the out a moan when their silk muscle brushed against each other.
"More like drive me crazy. I can make a room somewhere in the village, we can spend the night there" Naruto spoke in Sasuke's ear. His lips brushing against the pale neck he always loved kissing. It was one of his lovers weaknesses, kissing his neck and suck it.
"You make it hard to say no to you" Naruto almost smiled at it. He kissed his lover, tasted his lips the fluid was all he could get now. He was lost in the world of Sasuke forgetting the papers, his responsibilities.
Naruto bites slightly in Sasuke's bottom lips, before trailing his tongue over his lovers. It grew sloppy, with soft moans and a little too tight pants for their own liking. Naruto were very tempt to just let it go and let his desires let loose. His lover was here, a little blush on his cheeks a little flushed with the kisses. A tan hand came to a pale face, a bandaged thumb slowly touching pale skin. A black eye popped up, staring in blue. A soft smile came to Naruto's features, before leaning in. Kissing the red lips he was addicted to. It wasn't a sloppy one, one with low movements.
"I hope you get that room soon. I don't need to feel your dick to know that you have a hard one" Sasuke said against Naruto's lips. He felt the breath against his own, their noses almost touching.
"Don't act like you aren't. I'll make the room, and I will show you how much I've missed you" he replied with a low voice.
"You better hold your promise, I'm looking forward to it" Sasuke replied with the same tone.
"A promise is a promise, I never break a promise" he replied with his now normal tone. He moved away from the wall, letting Sasuke get his own personal space. His pants no longer as tight, but could return in a second if needed.
"I can fix the room, just get there and we can spend the night there" Sasuke respond.
"We can walk there together, let's meet at the hotel at seven. I bring the food and we can eat there" Naruto added with a soft smile.
" See you then. I'll book the room" Sasuke said and Naruto brought him closer and gave him a quick soft kiss. Sasuke began to walk away and Naruto followed him with his eyes. He had some things to get done before he could spend some time with his lover. It felt ages since they had meet.
As hard as it was for Naruto, he had to take his mind of Sasuke. Even if that black eye, that aura around his lover made him go on his knees. He couldn't think about it all, his first mission and only mission is to be Hokage. No matter how much he didn't want to do all the papers. He grabbed one, and begun to read it. Naruto read through most of the papers and fell asleep on his chair on the evening.
It was dark, and he felt water in his shoes. He didn't know where he was, or why he was here. But he knew that something didn't feel right, the air was cold against his normally warm skin. He felt the panic begun to develop inside of him.
"Hello, anyone there?" he said loudly turning his head in every direction. He began to walk in some random direction, the water were the same but the landscape felt weird under his feet. He saw a little light far away, he began to run towards it. The wind blew stronger and colder, he brought up his arms in a cross to protect himself. He had to get to that light, he could find answers there. He ran faster but the wind blew stronger. But he wouldn't give up, even if his legs seemed to lose its strength and his breathing became rough and uneven.
All of a sudden the landscape changed, and Boruto,Himawari,Kakashi,Iruka,Sakura and Sasuke stood in a row in fort of him. He felt the panic rise, it was the same scene when they got killed. He tired to move, tried to reach out in a depressed need. But the ninja was behind them, with its sword it cut of all their heads. He was useless, and he was in front of their dead bodies again. Their blood dripping from their necks, their open eyes looked at him. As if asking why he had done it, he got them killed because he wasn't strong enough.
Not strong enough.
Weak.
Useless.
Naruto screamed, the nightmare all to fresh in his mind. He brought his hand to his forehead, he wasn't sure if he could do this anymore. He was scared every night and day, waiting for Karasuba to come and get him. Get closer to his mind and soul. He was panting of the stress. His mind racing with thoughts of what he had seen just thirty seconds before.
The door flew open and Shikamaru walked fast towards him, his eyebrows in frown and eyes worried. He stood beside the Hokage, scanning the tan face.
"You look very alike Boruto now, he has nightmares all the time. Making the whole family wake up because of his screaming" Shikamaru explained quickly " You can't keep going like this. You can't keep on not sleeping, not eating. I know that you won't accept any help, you are that stubborn. But if you don't do anything soon, I'm sure that you will keep on getting thinner and worse" Shikamaru added. Naruto looked up sadly at his friend. His eyes weren't shiny, they were almost dead.
"I know, it's just a lot of things in my life that I need to take care of before I can think of myself" he admitted in a low slightly panting voice. His eyes were unfocused, his mind were a mess. He couldn't do anything right now, he was caught in a spiders Webb.
"You need to take a week of. Get those clones in action here if it got you worried. Get yourself in a run again, you won't get any better by sitting here. Seriously, you can't take care of a country like this" blue eyes never made eye contact. But he heard the concern in the other's voice. He just didn't want to take action. The energy was dragged out of him after the nightmare. He felt heavy, as if it were two large stones on his shoulders making him closer to the ground each time he took a step.
"I will think of it" was Naruto's small reply still in his thoughts and distance.
"Troublesome, I get Hinata to help you home" Naruto didn't hear it.
He was lost in the memories, where his family were on his feet. Their blood soaking his shoes, their bodies laying in fort of him neither breathing and their body cold.
