This will be pure smut chapter. Don't like, don't read.

Warnings: Oral sex, anal sex. Beginner of writing smut, some emotional moments.

Chapter eight

Naruto stood with a plastic bag with takeaway ramen, the air was a bit chilly in mid September. Making him wish he brought along his sweatshirt. He stood near the hotel, waiting for Sasuke. He wanted to take control of the situation, and ask him questions. He wasn't afraid of asking them, just the answer he would get. But he knew that it was for the best in the long run.

He could recognize him for a long way, the Uchiha always walked with a straight back and his long cloak. He tried to remain calm as his lover walked closer and closer towards him. He saw the blood on the black cloak. He began to feel his heart beat faster and the panic spread in his body, but he fought back the memories.

"Should we head inside?" Naruto asked when his lover had come close enough the black haired moved pass him and begun to move to the door and he opened it and eyed the bag.

"Ramen? You really should think of getting something else in your diet" Naruto followed his lover inside.

"I've told you and Sakura-chan before. If my body didn't want me to eat ramen, it should protested when I was younger. I'm fine with this" Naruto answers and they walked to the desk. They got their key and walked to their room. They opened the door and walked inside.

The room wasn't something special, a king size bed, a desk , a bathroom. It wasn't anything luxury, nor was it something that was cheap. It was a middle class room with beige walls. It was very many things that were white too. Naruto notice a note on the bed and walked to check it.

We have made the walls in this room sound proof for a reason. Have a nice night and we hope the best of you.

Naruto gave a soft smile and heard Sasuke walk behind him. He turned around and reached out the note and the black haired read it.

"We can be loud as we can now" Naruto teased and brought the other in a soft kiss it broke quickly

" But let's eat ramen first" he added and Sasuke narrowed his eyes. Naruto sat on the bed that moved up and down slightly when he sat down, the other male coming soon after. He opened the boxes and the steaming ramen smelled heavenly according to the blond, they said their thanks for the food and dug in.

" What do you do all the time? You could help me with reports, it's boring when you read thousands of them all day" Naruto said between a bite of ramen.

"I train with Sarada and Boruto often, but I have things to do other than that" the raven replied. The blond swallowed hard with the mention of Boruto but decided that he wouldn't mention him .

"How do Sarada handle the Sharingan? She seems talented with most things from what I've heard" he replied with a slurp of ramen.

"She can handle it good, it takes years to perfect it. She caught on fast and I showed her some Uchiha clan family ninjustu" Sasuke explained and Naruto gave a soft smile.

"It sounds like a good thing for both of you. She misses you very much when you are away" he said with a soft voice "We all do" he added. Sasuke swallowed the noodles while Naruto took another bite.

"I've heard it from other than you. Sakura told me that enough times" the raven said and Naruto noticed a difference with his lover's voice. He swallowed the noodles.

" Have you spoken about with her? About taking care of her more if you live with me and the children" the subject were out and Naruto saw the black eye looking at him before turning his eye to the noodles.

"I did and she seemed upset about it. She said that she didn't think it would be a good thing. Sarada being in another family, it could affect her negative. I convinced her and I'll give it a try at least" Sasuke replied firmly. There was one more question that made Naruto's stomach turn and his smile fade away as he looked down at the soup.

"Will you still travel like you do now? I know that you don't want to settle down. I just miss you that I don't know how much more I can take from being away from you. I will support every decision you make and I will stand by your side till the day we stop breathing. It's just so hard, not knowing if you alright" Naruto turned his eyes down, and his voice low and full of emotions.

He didn't want Sasuke to leave, even if his lover wanted it. He felt for once whole, warm and happier. Even if they haven't met every day when he had been in the village, Naruto still felt safe when Sasuke was somewhere near him. He could search Sasuke up and they could meet. He felt warm when he thought about Sasuke and the thought of not having Sasuke near him as much made him cold.

"I'm going to be here more often and longer. I'll rarely travel, and come back sooner if that's what you asked" Sasuke answered with a calm voice making Naruto's shoulders fall down. The blond smiled into the cup of ramen, satisfied with the information.

"I'm glad that you will be here more, we all miss you when you are gone" he said in a light voice and looked at his lover.

"Boruto said that you look happier with me in the village, I can't keep you depressed all the time" Sasuke replied with a little smile making Naruto warm inside.

"I'm not always depressed when you are away, even if I do feel happier when you are near me" he replied with a little smile.

"No, right now you are depressed and I'm near you" Naruto tensed all over his body. Narrowed his eyes a little but still looked at his lover.

"I'm not depressed when you are here. I've just been down a little while, it has nothing to do with you being here or not" he said in a low tone and made eye contact with his lover.

"You are in denial then. You are the only one that won't see it or accept it" his lovers hard voice answered. Naruto lost the appetite, laid down his pins and moved it from the bed. He felt eyes on his back the whole time. "You aren't even eating ramen. You have something that drags you down" his lover added. The blond had his back towards him, still struggling with the words that just been told.

"What do you want me to do? It's not like I can take vacation from my work. I'm cable doing this on my own i-"

"If you would be cable of doing this alone, you wouldn't be like this now" Sasuke broke in and replied harshly.

" I can't let anyone carry this burden, I just need time to think that's all" Naruto replied and turned around, facing his lover's frowned eyebrows.

" You let us worry more when you don't do anything and look like a living death. You aren't living anymore, I want to know why" Sasuke stood up from the bed, facing Naruto "I won't let you get away with this. I've been patient, but I won't let you go now" the blond had widened eyes before he narrowed them.

The blond have been thinking of why he was feeling the way he was. He knew that he felt lonely, even if he had a family now. It was more okay before the genjutsu came into the game. He felt hollow, and he knew what he had to replaced it with. Being social and be with the ones that he loved, doing things that he wanted to do. But now couldn't because of his work. He knew all along the reasons, it just took time to get it through his mind. He didn't want to be ill, never wanted to become a victim. It wasn't him.

He didn't want to admit that he was depressed, that the hole in his heart become larger each day he was away from the one he wanted to be with. Admitting that he was weak, useless was hard. In this situation he was. He didn't have the time or the effort to make this along with the work and the family to take care of. He had Sasuke right in front of him.

"What do you want me to say? That all I'm trying to do is to find a way to live through the day? That I feel a hole in my chest that seems to grow every passing day when I don't see my closest friends, family or even you? That every night I'm scared that I'll see the nightmares, and if I fall asleep I'm waking up panting and sweaty? Hinata is worried about me, Shikamaru is too. I know you are. You all look at me like I'm a victim. I don't want to be a victim, but I have no time to spend time thinking of me when Karasuba could be out there. Getting villagers the same trauma that I've experienced. I'm the Hokage, I can't do that" he said quickly.

"Sasuke, I know that I'm not okay. Even how much I'm thinking of it the only solution is to take a break. But I've become the Hokage, a dream that I dreamt my whole life. I can't give it up for just my own sickness. I will be fine sooner or later, it's just a bad time now" he said calmer but still harsh voice.

" Get it through your mind, you can't sit in your office all the time. Thinking of how you can get better. You have to make the thoughts real, and I'm not the one that can do that to you. You have to do it. I will hold your hand when you recover. But you have to do the first step, I can't do them to you. I can't solve all your problems, but I can be near you if it feels better" the blond heard the words and felt himself relaxing. He still felt on the edge, something in those words sent him to an emotion level.

"I will stay here, as long as it takes for you to recover. I won't leave you like I did years ago. I didn't see that you are broken, and I didn't see that you hide your pain every time I left you. You aren't strong enough to make this alone, not this time. It's been going through that thick head of yours for too long" the raven said and the blond took a step closer. Grabbing the other's shirt, he laid his forehead against the other's chest. He felt an arm around his waist.

" Sasuke. It's been reverse rolls, I thought I would be the one saving you forever" he muttered in his lover's chest.

"Someone has to save your lazy butt" Naruto heard Sasuke lowly say. Naruto grabbed his lover closer, around his waist. Taking in his lover's smell, he began to calm down.

His mind wasn't clear, he never wanted this to happen. But now he was like a child, desperately wanting to get the problem fixed. Not wanting to feel the pain anymore. He wanted his life back, he could work a descent amount of work. Coming home his children and Sasuke. They would watch TV and cuddle in the sofa. He could quit earlier sometimes so he could train his children. He would want to know every part of his children's childhood.

But it was never that. It never becomes his idea of having a family.

It hurt, knowing that his children thought of him nothing more than someone that made him. He didn't deserve the title. He wasn't a father, he was a stranger that lived in their house. But Boruto wasn't even living there anymore, he was still in his trauma. His son haven't been home since two weeks ago.

When did everything go so wrong? The thought made his chest ace. He never wanted anything of these. He just happened to become Hokage, a dream of his. But it didn't turn out as planned. He fell in love with Sasuke, his best friend. The one he had told his children to call uncle. He made their family split, bringing the children in more difficulties.

He lifted his chin, looking at the little taller male. He looked at his lover, he leaned in. Naruto craved Sasuke. His lips drew the blond crazy, his tongue trailed over the other's lips. In a second their tongues rolled on each others. Saliva mixed but neither cared. The blond grabbed his lover closer to him, wanting him near. They broke the kiss and a black and two blue eyes meet.

The blond pushed Sasuke backwards towards the bed, until the black haired sat down on the bed. A smirk came on the Hokage's face, and he leaned in once more. Kissing mid while he took of his lover's cloak. Slowly, loving to touch the slim shoulders. He broke the kiss, to lean his face on the other's neck. Softly kissing the pale skin, but it wasn't enough. He wanted to see the pale soft skin under his fingers. He let out a moan in desperation until he trailed over covered abs and to the bottom of the shirt. Sasuke helped and lifted his arm and when he was shirt less. Naruto took in the pale skin and let his fingers slowly touch nipples. He kissed his lover.

Sasuke broke the kiss, and moved in the middle of the bed. He had his head and neck on the high pillows, enough for him to observe what Naruto was doing. Naruto moved crawled over to his lover, kissing the red lips. Tongues got harden and soften, while the blond trailed his fingers over nipples. He pinned both of them, rolling them in-between the thumb and index finger. He heard a soft moan from Sasuke and he was pleased with it. He rocked his hips against the other's, making the friction between clothed dicks wonderful. He kissed his lover once more, a soft one.

He traveled down to his neck. Naruto loved leaving hickeys on Sasuke, his pale skin always showed them and it took time before it vanished. He gave a little suck, Sasuke let out a moan and he smiled against the other's skin. He moved down to hard nipples, he sucked the right one. Rolling it between his teeth and he rolled the tip of his tongue over it. He heard Sasuke let out a moan and he gave it a soft bite before moving to the left one. It was already hard he gave it a lick and moved down.

Abs were visible, the six pack were hard. Naruto kissed in the middle of Sasuke's stomach, he felt it harden. He didn't care and moved to the visible half hard cock in front of him. The only thing between the organ and Naruto was pants and boxers. He zipped up the pants and grabbed it with the elastic waist band. Sasuke lifted his hips and tan hands pulled down. He the pants as well as boxers somewhere on the floor.

Sasuke was nude in fort of the hungry Naruto. He couldn't help but moan at it. The long slightly darker cock had a red head. He leaned in, grabbing it with his right hand. He jerked a few times, before he kissed the head. Before blowing on it, Sasuke's moan was heaven in his ears. He pulled the whole head in his mouth, still jerking the hard organ. Naruto's pants grew tight fast at the sound. He let go of the head and moved down, meeting black curly pubic hair that tickled his nose. He moved up and down a few times, the musky taste was familiar to Naruto. He loved it.

Naruto stood up on his knees on the soft bed. Taking of his shirt, seeing Sasuke looking at his body pleased him. He took of his pants as well as boxers. He moans slightly when the air hit his hard cock. He leaned in to kiss Sasuke, who gladly did it. A pale hand touched his dick, and Naruto let out a groan at the contact. It's been too long waiting for this. He rocked his hips slightly in Sasuke's hand. He trailed his tongue over the other's lips, who open his mouth gladly. A hot kiss and hand on his dick drew him crazy.

"How do you want me?" Sasuke husky said in Naruto's air. Driving Naruto more and more on the edge.

" On your hands and knees, I need to prepare you" he husky said and moved from his position. Sasuke was flexible and in a moment he stood on his knees. His chest on the bed, his only arm beside his head. Naruto saw the pale ass in fort of him and grabbed it playfully. Spreading the muscled ass cheeks seeing the hole.

He licked three fingers, and trailed one over the hole in a teasing way. Before slipping it in the tight passage, he let the whole finger slid in and felt Sasuke relax. He began to move in and out, slowly preparing his lover. He did it a little faster and he heard Sasuke moan in respond. He pushed one more finger inside, and felt the passage very tight. He very slowly move them to the first knuckle, repeating it a few times till he did it the two whole fingers. The passage grew looser and he pushed the third one inside. Sasuke's body teased at the pain, and Naruto let them be to the first knuckle until he felt it loosen up. He moved in and out the three whole fingers. He heard more moans out of Sasuke and he felt himself drip pre-cum at the sounds.

"Are you ready?" he asked his lover as he fingered him a little harder earning a moan from Sasuke.

"I'm not a virgin, I can handle you. Go on" Sasuke said and Naruto wanted to smirk at it. Sasuke was always harsher when he was horny.

"We haven't done it in a while, I don't want to hurt you" he replied caring as he pulled out the fingers and the stretched hole were in fort of him. " Do you have any condoms?" he asked his lover husky.

"Pants, front pocket. Don't leave me waiting" Sasuke said and Naruto moved from the bed and grabbed one of the two condoms.

He ripped the foil and grabbed the condom. He pulled the condom on his cock, he grabbed the base of his cock and guided it to the needy hole. Slowly pushing inside the tight passage, he let out a moan. He pushed the whole cock inside, heard Sasuke moan at it. He waited a moment or two, before he pulled half out. Pushed himself in the whole way, his hands on slim hips. Seeing the hole taking in all of his cock was such a turn on. He felt his balls touch the underside of Sasuke's ass, and he liked the sound of it.

Naruto had a fast rhythm, a smack each time he was fully inside. He leaned over Sasuke's back, his head beside his lovers. He pushed Sasuke's legs apart and the black haired laid on top of the bed with Naruto on him. Naruto was fully inside and he pushed in fast, hearing Sasuke moan right beside him made him moan too. He did it harder as well as faster, aiming for Sasuke's prostate.

"I want you to ride me" he husky said in Sasuke's ear.

" Get of me then, I'll ride you" Naruto pulled completely out and they changed position. Naruto had his back against the wall, Sasuke's hand on his cock guiding it to his hole. Naruto groan when he felt the tight passage again, and Sasuke moan too.

Sasuke moved up and down, the blond pushed up each time the black haired pushed down. Hitting other places, and he loved it. Sasuke rolled his hips skilled full, his chest sweaty and his lips parted. Naruto felt himself growing close at the sight, he grabbed Sasuke's cock, jerking him while he moved his hips. Naruto leaned in to kiss him, tongues over each other and Sasuke moan loudly in his mouth and he felt cum on his hand.

Naruto wasn't long after, his seed came in the condom. He pulled out and putted it in the trashcan beside the bed. His lover beside him and they both panting slightly, he began to fell asleep.