I hate this chapter, but it has a lot of family in it. It's pretty useless but some moments are more useful than others.
Chapter eleven
The air were tensed, and Naruto waited impatiently for an answer. It made sense, something happened between the two of them. He was just too blind to see it. He needed to know what had happened. Slightly angry that he just noticed it now, and not before. Overall angry that they haven't said anything. He knew that neither of them had spoken to each other, but something had happened. Something he was unaware of knowing, and it bugged him more than anything.
He waited, and he felt the anger boil. He didn't know what took them so long, they couldn't read their minds. Something they both thought hard about, for a decision. It bothered him. So much. Why didn't they say anything, both of them could be loud and neither backed down for an argument.
"Why won't you speak" He muttered angry. He turned to meet Sasuke's eyes before he looked at Sakura. Same angry eyes "Speak" he said more loudly but in the same bitter tone.
"We had a small argument with the care of Sarada and how things would work when you two moves in your house" Sakura explained and Naruto was half reivied that it wasn't bigger "I've lost some contact with Hinata, but I heard that she will move out anytime soon. How will the things get with the part-time with Boruto and Himawari?" Sakura finished with a serious tone.
"Hinata and I will have part-time. Two weeks at her place and two weeks at our place" Naruto answered with the same tone "It's the best for the children. We can make place for Sarada when she comes over" he added carefully.
"I will come to the village longer and in a shorter in between" Sasuke spoke in his deep voice. Naruto looked at him, and his lover didn't return it.
"Sarada would be happy if you did, she needs you. It will take some time for her to get used to it, but I'm glad that you two choose each other"
It took a moment for Naruto to process the words, he had been afraid for this. Sakura had said it before he didn't believe her enough. She spoke the words truthfully and a with a slight smile. Making the blond almost smile back, but didn't.
"Naruto I know that you probably over thinking this. But I mean it, you two are great together. It just took me time to realize that the only one who can make Sasuke looking like he is now is you. When I grew up I only saw your rivalry, I wasn't old enough to see that it was more between you too. It was craving each other's attention. I just want you to know I were never angry at you for having Sasuke. I was angry that it took years for you to realize it" Sakura said and Naruto widen his eyes at the words. It came as a realization , as a shock. It was weird if Sakura had said it in another tone or in another way. But she still had that little smile on her face and her green eyes still honest. He couldn't look at her straight, but the things he saw was relaxing for his mind.
"I never saw it like that, I didn't realize until I was an adult with two children that I was in love with Sasuke. I never reflected or analyze it until it was too late. But you seem to done it as well as Sasuke" he said in a low voice letting out his thoughts and guilt. "I'm still shocked but pleased that you think that way Sakura-chan. I found it hard to believe at first, I still thought you wanted Sasuke" he admitted more to himself than to the two other's in the room.
"Naruto, you have me. Sakura will respect it either way. We are still in a relationship, with children with mothers we aren't together with. We will be fathers to our children. It won't change and I won't regret it" Sasuke answered and Naruto felt it warm up in his chest at the words.
"Sasuke" he said breath taken and looked at his lover. "I will always be yours, I never give up ya know" he admitted with a little smile.
Naruto sat in the bed, his back towards Boruto. He had just gotten inside and they still couldn't look at each other without the flashbacks coming up. But the older blond saw that his son had gotten less sleep and gotten a little thinner. He felt a clench in his stomach, and he felt depressed.
"You haven't eaten" he stated, without question voice. It was anger.
"I can't get myself to eat. It isn't easy" his son said.
"You don't need to say that, I already know that. Why?" he asked, his stomach still clenched.
"I can't. I try but I can't swallow it" Boruto answered in a angry tone but low.
"You won't feel better if you won't eat. I still can't eat much but I try and it can work" the older blond answered. "Please do it" he said pleading.
"I will try" Boruto answered in a low tone.
"I hope you don't lie to me now" the older blond answered.
"I don't but I won't promise that it will work. I only said that I will try" Boruto replied.
"Good, that's the only thing I can make you do" the Hokage answered.
It was silent for a moment after that. Both blonds still uncomfortable with each other near.
"How's Himawari and mom?" Boruto asked with a low tone.
"I think it's fine with both of them. But they want you there. But I explained that you will meet them as soon as you feel better" he answered.
"When will mom move out?" his son asked in a low tone. The air grew uncomfortable quickly with that.
"Tomorrow" he answered shortly in his own thoughts. "Will Sasuke move in then?" his son asked quiet.
"Yes, we will help her move out and then he will move in" he replied and felt the guilt come as a flash. "Hinata will take care of you and Himawari two weeks and then you will come to me and Sasuke the other two weeks" he added in a low guilty voice. Knowing that this will tear the children for a while until they get used to it.
"Alright" Boruto said shortly, in a uncomfortable voice. He didn't hide the emotions and Naruto didn't know if he liked it or not. It wasn't happy feelings and he felt the guilt flash again.
Boruto and Himawari were always close to their mother than himself. He wasn't happy with that, but he cared more about his children than himself. He wanted them to trust him and if a problem they would come running to him if they ever where depressed about something. But as long as they had someone to talk to he was more pleased. His children where close to each other, Boruto always took care of Himawari when he couldn't. He knew that they felt alone in the world, just like he probably did. He didn't pay much attention to them, just like villagers didn't.
"When Sasuke is here he will help me with the Hokage work" he said. "I won't have as much work then and I will possible come home earlier with him" he added.
"Alright" Boruto answered shortly. Making Naruto wonder why he didn't say more.
"How do you feel about that?" he asked in a low tone but he had hope that his son would say something back to him.
"It feels like when something big happens you only pay attention to us" his son voiced low and painful. "You forgot Himawari's birthday and she couldn't get mad at you. But I was and I still think you were horrible towards her. I won't forget that, I know Himawari she's sad too" his son added.
The guilt came again and he wasn't happy with the words that were said. He couldn't forget it either. He remembers it well, the words Boruto said with an angry tone he said that he never wanted Naruto to be Hokage. It was knifes, in a wound that wasn't healed. It was two years ago, and he remembers it as if it were it was yesterday.
"I know" he said shortly and in a low voice. "I can't forgive myself for that" he admitted to his son in all honesty. "I can never do that. But I will try to be better. I mean it now this time. I can't let my family in any trouble anymore" he added. "Sasuke will be home more often now that he lives in our home"
"Sarada is sad that Sasuke is never here. I can see that she smiles brightly when he's here visiting. She seems to be more in peace. I never know why he always leaves, but every time he does Sarada's smiles get fake the two first days. If she thinks I wouldn't see that. It's annoying" Boruto said in a low with hints of worry. Naruto listen to each word and it almost sounded like Boruto was worried about her. But didn't know if went deeper but happy with it all.
"Sarada sounds a lot like a mix between her parents. Sakura never wanted anyone to worry about her, I think it's because she thinks she's the weak in team seven. Sasuke is another story, he never let anyone inside and even now I'm not complete sure what he thinks. Sasuke leave because he doesn't want to bound anywhere, he likes his freedom and he likes walking" Naruto said with a small smile " But you seem to care about Sarada, it's a good thing in teamwork. Without that, you can't do hard missions" he added.
"Did you do a dangerous mission with team seven?" Boruto asked in a low voice. Naruto almost smiled when he knew Boruto was interested in his life. Until the memories came as a flash back.
"The first dangerous mission was when we were twelve. It wasn't meant for us to get in that much trouble but it happened. It was the first time I felt Kuramas charka control me" he explained in his own thoughts.
"What happened?" Boruto asked in a low voice but interested .
"We was fighting two dangerous people. Both ended up killed in the end. But it was the first time I was afraid of loosing anyone. Me and Sasuke were fighting a ninja that controlled ice and we were trapped in a ice mirrors. His weapon of choice was needles and he was fast at moving from mirror to mirror. I didn't see it coming but Sasuke did and jumped in front of me. He fainted and I thought he died, I got scared and it was the first time I wanted to kill anyone. I almost killed the boy who did it, before the mask had cracked and I saw him as the victim I was. I learned a lot out of both of them" he explained in a low voice. Thinking of Haku's dead body and how he cried to Zabuza about how Haku loved him.
"What did you learn then?" Boruto asked.
"They helped me figure out my ninja way. That if I found my most important people I can truly be strong. The enemy you fight, will always teach you a thing or two. In life you can found your own way, and create your own vision of how you want your life. You can't have that on your shoulders and you learn it step by step. I never give up, not even if I'm died. I will fight for what I believe is right" Naruto replied in a firm tone. He couldn't see Borutos reaction but he wanted to but he hoped that he could understand what he meant.
It was silent for a moment. Naruto in the memories of the Haku fight. He was twelve, which meant it was twenty years ago. Even with that many years in the future he can't forget it. They will always be two that helped him, they was never enemies. They were victims, just like he was. With nothing as a guild it was the only thing they could trust was themselves. They knew what people can do and they knew that they would get hated for what they had done.
He had grown up in a world of ignore. The villagers wasn't hurting him they just never paid attention if he didn't do anything stupid. He got the attention it was many words that he kept thinking of every night he went to bed. He never knew the reason why until he understood that he and Kurama in him. He never grew out of it. He couldn't he always wanted attention. But he understood that it wasn't needed with everyone. Only the ones he cared about.
"I will be better at being a father. Not because you've been through the same thing as me or if you feel depressed. I care because you are my child and I will do anything to make you smile again" he said with a little smile on his face. He didn't know if Boruto saw it, but he wanted his son to see it. Their meeting ended there.
Naruto walked on the street on his way home. He felt more in peace with the talk with Boruto. He had a busy day and he felt his energy go low with that many clones on the run in the Hokage tower. He didn't feel the need to go there, he had a thousand clones there already. It was soon dinner time and he didn't want to eat. But knew that he needed it. He needed to prove it to Boruto too, that if he can so can Boruto.
He saw Sarada running towards him and he let a little smile on his lips. She stopped a little in front of him slightly panting.
"Hey Sarada" he greeted her. She had a smile on her thin lips.
"Naruto, you can control sage mode right?" Sarada asked him and he gave a little nod.
"Yes, why do you ask?" he asked the Uchiha.
"I've heard a lot about it and I wanted to know more about it" Sarada explained in a friendly tone.
"I can explain it too you sometime. You seem interested in it, I'm happy to try to explain it too you" he replied in a happy tone. Sarada's dark eyes shined a little.
"Thanks Naruto. I need to head home now, Mama don't like waiting" She says with a smile. He returned the smile.
"Sakura-chan don't like it so I would hurry if I were you" he said and Sarada gave a little nod before waving and began to run with a smile.'
Naruto walked inside his house, the smell of food hit his nose right away. He pulled of his shoes and walked inside. He saw Hinata and Sasuke stand in the kitchen, neither making eye contact or even looking at him. He smiled at it, and walked towards them.
"What are you two cooking?" he asked and Hinata turned to look at him in shock.
"We are making fish soup, its good food for you" She explained with a soft voice. Sasuke must have told Hinata about the meeting or she just took care of him.
"Sounds great. I'm sure it tastes really good, both of you are good at cooking" he replied with a little smile. "Where's Himawari?" he added.
"She's in her room, I think she's reading" Hinata answered softly. Naruto gave a little nod before he looked at Sasuke's only arm cutting onions in high speed. He never loses his speed.
"Perhaps I'll talk to her a little" he said and Hinata and Sasuke turn to look at him in surprise "I think I can handle it. I think it's needed for her" he added softy.
"Alright, don't push yourself" Hinata said worried. Naruto gave a nod and waited for Sasuke to say something but he didn't so he turned and began to walk to Himawari's room. He took a breath when he saw her room but walked a gave a short knock.
"Himawari? Can I come inside?" he asked softly.
"Sure" he heard her answer.
He open the door and saw Himawari sit on the bed with crossed legs. He felt the flashback come back but he looked at the surroundings before it kicked in. He saw the tons of books on shelves and he gave a little smile at it. He walked to her bed and sat down, still afraid that the flashback would come. He didn't look at her.
"I talked to Boruto today" he started and he heard Himawari take a breath "He said that he miss you and Hinata. But it seems that he wants to get better so he can see you two" he added.
"He talks about us?" she said softly.
"He asks about you, he really cares about you two" he said with a smile.
"When will he come home?" She asked him, and Naruto wasn't sure what to answer.
"When he gets strong enough to see you. It can take a week less or more" he replied in a fatherly voice "I know this is hard for you, but you are strong as us. This will get better, I promise you that" he added. He heard her crying, and his fatherly in stings kicked in. He turned and gave her a hug.
He let her cry and he felt his shirt got wet fast, and her arms tightly around his chest. Himawari are strong, but she's very emotional when it gets to her family. Just like Boruto are. They have a deep connection and he was jealous of it. But never questioned it.
"I-I just want to m-meet him" she cracked out between sobs.
"You will meet him. He just need some time with to recover" he said softly in a calm voice.
"I feel so alone" Himawari answered in a sob. He felt the words clench his heart.
"You are never alone, you will always have someone near you. You are never alone, remember that. You can always turn to me or someone else. Always remember that" he said softly and felt her tears stop slow down in short breaths. "You have a family and friends, you are loved by them" he added as he hopped that his words would reach her. She continued being silent, for what reason he didn't know. He just wanted her near him, just to take care of his little girl that still had so many things yet to see. He wanted to keep her here. But knew that she had a life to live and he wouldn't stop her for living it.
"I will always be here watching you as you grow up" he said in calm and guilt strikes again.
"T-thanks dad" he heard her said. Making him warm inside. They sat there, for a minute only holding each other near. It was one of the peaceful moments he ever felt, and he was happy by it. He closed his eyes laid his chin over her head and let it rest there for a second. A knock on the door made them both look at the door and they stopped hugging each other.
"It's time for dinner" Sasuke deep voice said as he stood in the opening of the door. His left arms sleeve hang loose, not hiding the fact that he lost an arm. Himawari jumped out of the bed and ran to Sasuke hugging him.
"Thank you" She said softly and Naruto wanted to chuckle at the surprised face Sasuke gave her. Sasuke let his hand rest on her back slightly.
"Thank you too" he answered and Himawari gave a soft smile and broke the hug. Leaving the two men in her room.
"It seemed to go well" Sasuke said and Naruto smiled slightly and rose up and began to walk towards his love only leaving a very little space between their lips.
"It did" he answered and gave a kiss on his lovers lips. He enjoyed the kiss and it turned more heated up when he trailed his tongue over the others lips asking for entrance. Sasuke open his mouth and their tongues met half way and saliva were mixed. Sasuke broke the kiss and left Naruto panting slightly.
"Let's get some dinner" Sasuke said and turned and began to walk down, Naruto following him.
The dinner was peacefully, it was small talks over a meal of fish soup. Naruto knew something missed but it would be soon be complete. He smiled at them and felt the whole in his heart slowly beginning to fill up.
