When You're Broken
When you're broken in a million little pieces
And you're tryin' but you can't hold on anymore
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't you stop believing in your self
When you're broken
Emma sat on Killian's bed, Liam on one side and Killian on the other. They had taken to having movie nights since Liam moved to Storybrooke a few weeks ago. He had been excited to tell them the news a few nights after Emma's baby shower. Killian was excited and Emma was happy. She had grown fond of Liam, he was fun to have around and she loved watching him press Killian's buttons when Killian got too uptight.
Since the TV in the living room had broken, Emma wasn't sure how that happened given both Jones boys blamed the other, they had moved movie nights to Killian's room. Emma wiggled as she tried to get comfy, being 7 months pregnant it was hard. Killian glanced to her giving her a confused look.
"You okay love?" His voice was soft, Liam barely noticing they were talking.
"No it's hard to get comfortable. She won't stop moving." She said as she shifted towards him more feeling bad that she was almost laying on him at that point. Killian shifted and pulled her on to his lap, his hands on her stomach, rubbing slowly.
"Just sit back and relax. Hopefully she calms down soon." He said softly as they both turned back to the movie. In the last month, Emma and Killian had grown closer. Neither were sure they would cross the line in to more, neither knew what they wanted. Liam was no help; he kept pushing for them to be together, knowing it was a good idea.
"I'm getting a drink, anyone want something?" Liam asked as he stood up, the moving rolling the credits. Emma shook her head giving him a smile.
"Beer please." Killian asked as his left hand moved to the remote, looking for another movie as Liam left the room.
"How are you and peanut doing?" Killian asked Emma softly as he kissed the side of her head.
"She's calmed down more which is good. I just hate that I can't soothe her. I'm her mom and she doesn't like my touch as much yours." Emma said through some tears. She hated her emotions being all over the chart and wished it was different. Killian shook his head as he looked to her, giving her a smile.
"Trust me; once she is here there are things that I won't be needed for. And when she's older she will always go to you to complain about every, from boys to younger siblings to me driving her insane. I just get the fun things. Like giving her money, or scaring the boys off, or even driving lessons." He said laughing. Emma laughed smiling to him.
"Younger siblings?" She asked almost feeling hopeful for more kids with him. She was sure that it would change once she was in labor. Killian blushed with a small laugh.
"Well I don't think you will stop at one. I may want more as well. And maybe we just happen to have them together. Raise them all in one house, maybe get married, grow old together." Killian said with a shrug trying to play it off. Emma smiled, tears in her eyes again, this time for a much better reason. Just as she was about to kiss him, Liam walked back in to the room on his phone. He handed the beer to him before he turned and left the room, too focused on his call to notice them.
"He's talking to a girl." Emma said with a smirk taking his beer and setting it on the other nightstand watching him, "He's in love, or at least smitten." She said smiling her eyes on his. Killian shook his head looking to her.
"I doubt it. Maybe work?" Killian said as he moved his hands back over her stomach smiling.
"Nope. Look at his face. It's the same look you wear when you talk to me." She told him smiling. She couldn't wait much longer, moving forward and pressing her lips against his. It had been a while, 7 long months, since she felt his lips against hers and it felt like the last kiss was just yesterday.
Killian smiled against her lips as his hands moved up to her cheeks holding her close to him as they kissed. Emma was tempted to let it keep going but she knew they needed to take it slow. Just as they pulled apart, Liam walked back in smirking, pretending he didn't just see them kissing.
"I have a date tomorrow night." Liam said as he sat back down and took a drink of Killian's beer. Emma laughed as she rested back against Killian, his hands back on her stomach.
"I called it. You owe me." Emma said with a smile looking to him before looking to Killian. "Who is it?" She asked smiling as she watched the older Jones brother, wondering if he would spill and tell her.
"Her name is Elsa; she's a realtor that I met with to look for my apartment." He said, Emma laughing harder, Killian joining in laughing with her. "What is so funny?" Liam asked confused. It took a moment for Emma to calm her laughing down, though when she did she smiled and looked to him.
"Elsa is my best friend." Emma said smiling as she placed her hand on her stomach, rubbing it gently. "I'm surprised she didn't tell me anything the other night when we talked. You are her little secret." She teased him as she carefully got up, Killian helping her.
"Where are you headed?" Liam asked smiling. Emma laughed shaking her head.
"Bathroom, your niece is dancing on my bladder. And to get my phone. I have a friend to text about her little secret." She teased him as she headed from the room. Killian laughed smirking as he looked to Liam.
"Look at you, getting a life set up here including a great girl. Who is copying who for once?" He teased him as he got up and stretched some.
"Shut up little bro. I'm not copying you. However, I am glad that we are both making a better life here. Thanks for letting me move here." Liam said smiling. Killian smiled shaking his head
"Like you would have listened if I told you not to." Killian said smiling as he headed out of the room, Liam following. "I am glad you are here. Its good to know my big brothers going to be here to see my little princess grow up." Killian said as they stood in the kitchen, Killian looking for something to eat.
"Me too, I wonder if I hadn't come if you would have ever find out you were the dad." Liam said as he opened a cabinet and took out some chips.
"I'm sure I would have. And if I didn't may I would have ended up just being the dad anyways. I care deeply for Emma, had things gone the same way since I met her this time around, I would still be here." Killian said, smiling as Emma walked in to the room, on the phone herself.
"Elsa! Why didn't you tell me. I could have helped out or something. I know I know. But please? Fine, fine we can double date. Yes both Jones boys. Whatever love you too. Bye." She said as she sat down, stealing the chips from Liam.
"You are a jerk for not telling me sooner. But you and Els will be good together. Just don't hurt her." Emma said as she ate. Handing the chips back she yawned. "I'm going to bed. Maybe peanut will let me sleep tonight. Night guys." She said, hugging Liam before pressing a kiss to Killian's lips.
Killian watched her leave smiling as he did. Liam left not long after, leaving Killian standing in the kitchen smiling. He was more than glad that Whale needed help at the hospital. Making sure the door was locked her headed to bed himself.
Emma was doing her best to avoid school work. Most of her general classes she had done after high school, but there were a few she had to redo just to make sure she was on track. Since she only had 2 months till her due date, she was doing her best to get as much done before the baby was born so she could take time off.
Standing up, she pushed her chair back as she headed into the kitchen and looked for something to eat.
"Emma!" Ruby called through the door as she walked in, bag of food in hand. Emma grinned looking to her best friend as she moved out of the kitchen and meeting her in the living room.
"You just made your niece happy!" She said hugging her best friend before sitting down.
"Good. I've missed you! I know things have been busy for us both but I hate not seeing you more than on Sundays." Ruby told Emma as she handed her some fries smiling.
"I know. I keep trying to get ready for peanut to be here but at the same time I'm hiding away. I just feel so out of it lately. Killian said I need to try getting out but it's hard." Emma told her as she ate some fries.
"It's okay. We all understand. Just know that we are here for you." Ruby said smiling. "Are you guys going to do a DNA test? To make sure?" Ruby asked, feeling nervous asking it. She knew it was an awkward topic but she was curious. Emma nodded as she finished a fry.
"Yeah we have had a long talk about it a while back. I was the one who asked and he laughed telling he agrees because he just wants to make sure, though he did tell me no matter what he would be there and if I'd like, he would be Peanuts father." Emma said with a smile her hand resting on her stomach.
"You found yourself a good one Em. Keep him." Ruby said with a small laugh, Emma joining in. The conversation switch to Ruby and her career problems, Emma listened and did her best to offer advice.
After Ruby left, Emma cleaned up before she started some laundry, bored out of her mind. Killian wouldn't be home till after 7 and it was barely 3 now. A nap sounded like a good way to pass the time but at the same time she knew that maybe she should keep working on her school stuff, get it done early. Sighing she headed back to the kitchen table and turned her computer on getting to work.
Emma laid in bed sighing as she tried to sleep. For some reason sleep wasn't coming to her. Her back was killing her and no position she tried was helping it at all. Giving up, she stood and headed to the living, wondering if walking would help soothe Peanut.
Pacing the living room he thought over the names she and Killian had come up with. Non seemed to fit perfectly and she hated it. She hated that she wanted to find the perfect name and none worked. Emma continue the pacing, not noticing Killian leaning in the door way.
"Everything okay love?" He asked her curiously as he moved in to the room more, sitting on the couch.
"No. Your child won't stop moving and it hurts, every name we have thought about for her is stupid and I'm tired." She said as she stopped moving to take a moment and breathe. She felt bad for going off on him but she just couldn't take it at this point.
"What can I do to help?" He asked her softly as he looked at her. He wanted to help her but he just didn't know what to do.
"I don't know! I just want to fucking sleep so leave me alone!" She yelled at him before she stormed off, going to his room instead of hers and slamming the door.
Emma sat back on the bed crying. She felt guilty for going off on him, and tomorrow she would do her best to make it up to him. Emma laid under the covers hoping if she was on her side it would help. Her hand rubbed over her stomach slowly before she fell asleep.
Killian sat there after she stormed off knowing she didn't truly mean it. He gave her the space, and his bed, as he got up and headed to her room lying in her bed. His mind was going over things he could do to help her. He was trying his best to be there for her but it was hard when he didn't know what to do. He wanted to call Liam, ask him what he should do, but he knew it was late and he would try tomorrow.
Emma woke up feeling refreshed and relaxed, but also a little sad. She knew she had to talk to Killian and apologize, she hated going off on him when all he was doing was trying to help her.
Getting out of his bed she headed out to the kitchen wondering where he slept that night. Seeing him already in the kitchen, she shyly sat down at the counter biting her lip.
"Kill, about last night," she paused taking a deep breath. "I'm really sorry, I know it's not easy on you and me going off on you isn't helping any at all." She said softly as she looked to him worried he would be too upset with her to talk to her. Killian turned around and moved to her, wrapping his arms around her holding her tight.
"Don't apologize love. I know this isn't easy on you so let me do what I can to help. Tell me what will help you." He said softly as he kissed her forehead. Emma felt tears in her eyes as she realized how amazing he truly was. Her arms wrapped around him as she held him close, crying silently. "Love don't cry, its going to be okay." He said softly as he rubbed her back holding her.
"I just don't know what to do. It uncomfortable any position I lay in. I tried so hard last night to just try and sleep but it didn't work. Walking was the only thing that seemed to help but even then it was hard." Emma said with a small frown on her face. "You're bed had me out in two minutes and I don't want to kick you out of bed but at the same time I want to take over your bed." She told him sadly.
"Take my bed. If it will help you and the baby take it. If you think it will help love it's yours." Killian told her with a small smile. Emma watched him for a moment before she stood up and hugged him tight, the best she could with her belly. Killian held her close to him rubbing her back. "What else can I do?"
"I just want sleep. It's hard when she won't stop moving, though when you are around she is calm at her voice." She said as she moved to sit back down. "About the names, I don't like them anymore. They don't seem to fit and I want a name that fits perfect." She said softly as she looked up to him almost worried what he would say.
"Alright, we can think of more later. There is no rush on names right now." He told her as he moved back to the oven, pulling out their food. As they ate Emma sat there silently wondering what he was thinking.
"Is everything okay?" She asked softly as she put her bacon down and looked to him. She was scared she may have upset him.
"Everything is fine love. I was just thinking about a few things. Don't worry it's all okay." He told her giving her a smile, not wanting her to worry.
"I didn't upset you?" She asked softly as she went back to eating, the air around them uncomfortable. She didn't know what to do any hope that it wouldn't be like this all the time now.
"No Emma you didn't. It's okay, really everything is okay." He told her before he kissed her head and stood up cleaning up his plate. "I'm going to head to work early so we can leave on time for the appointment today. Try and rest okay?" He told her smiling, giving her a real kiss before he left the apartment. Emma sat there and started crying, she knew she had messed everything up and didn't know what to do. Grabbing her phone she called Regina, needing someone to talk to. With a promise to be there soon, they hung up and Emma headed to her room changing to in clean yoga pants and a purple tank top before she headed into the kitchen. She did her best to clean up while she fought back feelings of being sick and upset at the same time.
The knock at the door stopped her from scrubbing the counters for the 3rd time and headed to open it, smiling when she saw Regina and baby Henry. Letting them in to the apartment she hugged Regina before sitting down and taking Henry from the car seat holding him.
"What happened?" Regina asked as she watched Emma cooing with Henry.
"Last night I couldn't sleep, so I started walking out here. Soon he came out and joined me and I just went off. I told him I was tired and his baby wasn't letting me sleep, sick of hurting and sick of the names we had agreed on. He was so sweet, let me scream and be mad and then let me take his bed for the night. Then this morning I apologized and tried to talk to him and he shut me down and just seemed so cold. Regina I fucked up I just don't know how to fix it." Emma said as she looked up from the small baby in her hands. He was so tiny and perfect Emma wanted hers to be just as amazing.
"Emma, I'm sure Killian understands and isn't mad. He's probably tired himself and doesn't know how to help out." Emma closed her eyes not sure what would help her. Sleep mainly but other than that nothing right?
"All I want is sleep. It's seriously hard when she won't be still. The only real time I can get her calm is if he is around and it sucks because I'm her mom, I should be able to calm her!" Emma said through tears, realizing how upset she was over it all. Regina moved to her side and slowly rubbed her back as Emma sobbed.
"Emma it's going to be okay. You will have tons of time to be there for her when she is growing up. Things Killian won't want to deal with." Regina said as she looked to her friend. Emma nodded carefully bringing a tear up to wipe her eyes.
"That's what Killian said when I told him but it still scares me that she won't need me." Emma said as she looked down to Henry smiling softly.
"I wish I could calm your fears but they are something you have to work out. Have you considered talking to Killian more about this? Or even your mom?" Regina suggested as Emma handed Henry back to her. Emma shrugged sighing.
"Killian and I talked about it, he told me there are things she will come to me for that she won't need him for and it just made me scared. Being abandoned so young has fucked me up." Emma said as she wiped her tears, "I just want to not think this way, but it's hard. It's hard to feel normal when I'm so scared." Emma admitted as she looked to Regina.
"I feel like that about the boys some time. I'm scared that I am going to mess them up or not be there for them and it's scary. But Robin reminds me that things will be okay, they always have to be in the end or it's not the end." Regina said as she set Henry back in his car seat before looking to Emma. "You need to talk to Killian. I know you guys are heading to Portland tonight for your appointment tomorrow; it's a good ride there, talk to him about it. Talk to him at the hotel room. Just talk to him." Regina told her. Emma nodded and wiped her face doing her best to not cry anymore. Regina rested back and pulled Emma close, just holding her, giving her the comfort she needed.
After Regina left, Emma started getting an overnight bag packed. She knew she needed to talk with Killian, make sure they were really okay and get on the same page.
Setting her bag down by the couch she rested back and placed her hands on her stomach.
"Alright little peanut. Mommy is tired of feeling like she is going to hurt you. I know daddy said that he is scared to abandon you, but I'm scared to hurt you too. I was left alone when I was no older than little Henry. I had no one growing up. Not until Gramma and Uncle Dave came in and helped me. I know that its scary, being do little and big sounds coming at you. But I promise you that nothing will hurt you. Your dad and I will protect you the best we can. Uncle Liam and Dave and all the other family we have, they will make sure you are okay. I love you princess. You will always be okay. Even if I screw up and…" Emma trailed off as she started crying. She was scared and hated being this scared to be a mom.
Killian walked in, in a much better mood now than he was at breakfast. He didn't mean to shut down on Emma; he knew it was hard on her. But he had his fears that he was keeping from her. They had touched on the subject before but Killian knew it was more than that. Looking to her on the couch he frowned. Seeing her cry broke his heart more than their disagreement did. He set his things down and moved to her wrapping his arms around her. Emma held on to him as she cried more keeping him close.
"Love what's wrong?" He asked softly as he rubbed her back.
"I'm going to be a horrible mom. I never had a mom when I was little, I'm scared that from birth till 10 I won't be a good one. What if I mess up? What if I do something that turns her against me. I just want to be a good mom." Emma cried as she looked up to him.
"Honesty time? I have had the same thoughts love. I have sat here at night and wondered if I would be a good dad, if I could do it." He told her as she looked to him a little shocked. "But then I realize that this is my chance to make sure im not like my dad. I know we have talked about this before, I know we have voiced our fears but we have to remember that we will be better than they were. We will be okay. Our daughter will be beyond well loved and we will be here for each other. Its going to be okay." He told Emma as he kissed her head softly. Emma nodded against his chest before looking up to him.
"I'm sorry; I've been the worse person lately. I really am sorry." She told him as he wiped her face.
"You aren't the worse person Emma. You're pregnant and you have fears. It's okay love. I'm still here. I'll be here as long as you want me to." Killian told her softly, smiling when she gave him a smile.
"I'll never want you anywhere else." Emma kissed him smiling as she did. She hated that her emotions ran wild, but she loved that he was there for her during it all.
"We should get going if we want to get to the hotel in time; I have a surprise for you." He told her softly as he gave her a smile. Emma nodded as she got up, helping him up before watching him walk to the bedroom to get his bag.
Emma knew that they would be okay; she just had to stop internalizing everything.
Once they got to Portland, they laid back on the bed staring up at the ceiling, Emma's hand was tight in Killian's, almost scared to let it go.
"Tomorrows appointment will be good. I can't wait for you to hear her heartbeat." Emma said softly as she looked to him, Killian looking to her grinning.
"I'm sad I missed it the first time but I know that this time will be even better because she's bigger and stronger." He said smiling, letting go of her hand only to move his hand to her stomach.
"This is the calmest she has been all day. She moves like crazy when you aren't around and then you are even near and she ist happy and still. It drives me insane." She said with a small laugh. Killian laughed before he moved down, his face at her stomach. He pressed his ear to her belly, smiling when he felt her moving.
"Hi my little princess, I hear you are driving your mom insane during the day. Just a little longer than you will be here with us, keeping us up all night and making us beyond happy. We both love you more than you realize. It's hard to imagine it but it's true. Keep growing big and strong okay?" He said as he kissed her stomach a few times. The whole conversation made Emma tear up as she realized how lucky she was to have him in her life. She didn't know what they were or where they stood but she was just happy to not feel so alone.
"So tell me, what is the surprise you have for me?" Emma asked as Killian sat up looking to her. With a smile he got off the bed and headed over to the couch, where he had tossed his bags, and pulled out an envelope.
"So I did some thinking and you are tired and stressed so I figured you need a spa date, Time to get away and a massage. The hotel has a great spa and I made the appointment for you to go tonight and relax. Then dinner with me at the hotel restaurant tonight." He said smiling. Emma watched him, wondering what she did to be lucky. Standing up she kissed him, her hands running through his hair as she pulled him closer. Killian let the envelope fall from his hand as they moved to her waist holding her close to him.
Emma barely made it to her massage to time but she knew it was worth it. Being with Killian and knowing that tomorrow she would remember it was even better than a massage. After an hour of being able to relax she slowly made her way to the restaurant smiling as she did. She felt great for once and couldn't wait to see Killian.
"You are glowing." Killian said with a smile as he stood from his seat, kissing her cheek as he pulled the chair out for her. Once she was sitting down he moved around and sat down.
"I can't help it. I am relaxed for once. Plus little princess is calm too." Emma said as she took a drink of her water once the waiter filled it.
"Good I'm glad. You both deserved a little break from life." He said smiling picking up the menu.
"You do too Kil, you don't have to put up with life and not have an outlet." Emma told him, picking up her own menu looking over it.
"Don't worry, I will find myself an outlet, but for now let me focus on you and helping keep you and our princess happy." Emma just smiled as she looked at him, shaking her head. After ordering their food, the conversation between them was easy and in a much better tone than the earlier morning.
After dinner, they headed back up to the hotel and ordered a movie before falling asleep.
The shaking of Emma's leg was enough to drive Killian up a wall. But he knew that she was just as nervous as he was. They both knew it was just an ultrasound appointment to check up on their princess and make sure she was growing and being healthy.
"Emma Swan?" Emma and Killian stood and followed the nurse down the long hall, Emma answering all the questions. Sitting down in the room, she pulled her shirt up and rested back, the nurse starting the machine up before pressing the wand to Emma.
The heartbeat filled the room, Emma looking too Killian before she looked to the machine, taking his hand in hers.
"Your little girl has a very healthy heart. She looks to be growing well and right on track. We need to run some tests and measurements before we let you leave but so far it seems like your baby is healthy with no worries." The nurse said as the doctor came in, shaking Killian's hand and then Emma's, after she had cleaned up her stomach.
Emma held the pictures from the ultrasound in her hand smiling as they talked about her next appointment, and her due date. After they were completely done, Emma and Killian sat in his car looking over the pictures.
"I'm worried about the results from the testing. What if there is a problem? I mean I was adopted what if I have some genetic thing that will hurt our baby?" She said softly as she looked to Killian, voicing her fear.
"Then we will deal with that when we get to it. But for right now, our baby is healthy and happy inside you. That is what matters." Killian told her. Emma nodded and took his hand in hers before kissing him softly. Killian started driving back home, singing along with the radio and doing his best to keep Emma distracted and laughing.
Once they got home, Killian carried their bags in to the house as Emma told him she would be back later, she wanted to go see Elsa. Knocking on Elsa's door she smiled when her best friend opened the door pulling Emma in to a hug.
Moving to the living room them say down on the couch, Emma doing her best to get comfy.
"Alright tell me about Liam." She said with a small laugh, only laughing more when Elsa bushed.
"There inst much to tell. When he got to town and told me he needed help getting an apartment. After hours of looking at many, I found out he was just stalling for time to spend time with me. So we went to dinner and then he asked for my number. I wasn't going to say anything to you yet, I was almost nervous to jinx it. But Em, he's so sweet." Elsa said smiling as she looked to Emma.
"I know he is. He is really great and I'm glad you both found each other." Emma hugged her best friend before they both laughed.
"So tell me about my niece! How is she growing? How is she doing?" Elsa asked smiling, taking the pictures from Emma and looking through them.
"She is so good. Super healthy and super strong. We did the genetic testing today, which was scary but Killian and I both knew it needed to be done as well. I go back in in a month and then from there it's just wait till baby is born." Emma looked over the photos as well, smiling as she realized how close they were to having the baby.
"I can't wait! Have you guys decided on a name?" Elsa asked as she got up and headed to the kitchen going to grab them a drink.
"Nope. We had a bunch of names but I don't like them. There is a few Killian likes but won't say out loud to me. He told Liam." Emma said, thanking Elsa for the chocolate milk as she sat back down.
"What are they? Why won't he tell you?" Elsa asked curious, both girls taking a drink.
"I don't know he hasn't told me. Liam said there were some names he liked but didn't know if I would like them. I told Liam its Killian's daughter too. I'm going to ask him about it soon, hopefully he will tell me." Emma took another drink, before setting the bottle down on the table. The conversation moved to work and random topics. It was good to be able to spend time with her friend and not have to cry for a moment.
After what felt like hours, Emma left and headed back to the apartment. The fall air around her was enough to make her cold, given it was October she wasn't too surprised. But she didn't rush back. It was nice to be out for a while, to not have to feel worried and rushed like she would have had it been 4 months ago. Emma headed up the steps to the apartment smiling as she walked in to see both Jones' boys sitting on the couch.
"You took forever." Liam tested as he kissed her cheek, taking the pictures from her hand.
"Sorry I was busy talking to your girlfriend." Emma teased him with a laugh as she moved to the couch, sitting beside Killian kissing him as she curled close.
"She's not my girlfriend." Liam rolled his eyes as he sat with the pictures looking through them.
"Not yet anyways. I give it a month." Killian told his brother smirking. Emma shook her head as she looked between the two boys.
"No I give it until our little princess is about a month old. 3 months give or take." She said grinning at Liam.
Liam ignored them as he looked at the pictures.
"How is Elsa doing? I don't see her around here much anymore." Killian said as he looked to Emma.
"She's okay, super busy with work lately, she's working on expanding to other cities. Plus there is this guy she seems to really like." Emma said smirking as she noticed Liam's head snap towards them.
"She really likes me? She hasn't said that to me." Liam smiled as he thought about it. He handed them te pictures, calling a goodbye before he left heading to Elsa's. Emma laughed as she got up and headed to the kitchen, starting on dinner.
"So I had a talk with Elsa myself. I didn't know when I was going to tell, more after I was sure." Killian told Emma as he watched her, leaning against the door way. Emma worked on the chicken as she looked to him.
"Oh yeah? What about?" Emma asked smiling, putting chicken and veggies in to a pan before sliding it in to the oven before moving to him.
"Well the apartment is kinda small and we will need more space. So I've been having her help me look for houses, nothing too large or extravagant but something perfect for us and our princess." He told her, his hand moving to her hips smiling. He was scared of her reaction but when she smiled at him he seemed to calm down some.
"Well that is a good thing; given you said you want more kids." Emma said with a small laugh smiling. "Have you found the perfect house?" She asked softly.
"Yes but I'm waiting to see if they accept the offer before I tell you anything about it. I don't want to get our hopes up." He said smiling. "I just had to tell you because I didn't want to keep a secret from you, even something so great." He told her as he kissed her. Emma grinned against his lips kissing him back.
"Can I say something and not get judged?" She asked softly looking to him. Killian nodded smiling.
"Always love. What's up?" He asked softly leading her to the table sitting down with her.
"I did some thinking on my walk home and I'm scared but not about the baby for once. I'm just worried we are moving to fast and its going to only hurt us or our daughter someday." Emma said as she looked down at the table not wanting to see his reacting in that moment.
"Emma, love look at me." Killian said softly as he waited till she looked up to him before she spoke. "Love, we don't have to rush any faster than you want us to. Let just take it day to day. No matter what I'm right here, I promise." Killian told her giving her a smile. Emma nodded and placed her hand on his forearm smiling.
"Thank you. I know a lot of times its me that is starting it and I'm sorry. I just don't want to rush and ruin this." She told him as she glanced to him. Killian smiled shaking his head.
"It's okay. It's probably better that we slow it down rather than not making it in the long run." Killian told her as he kissed her forehead. "We good?" He asked softly smiling. Emma nodded as she stood up, kissing his forehead smiling.
"We are great." Emma pulled out some plates before pulling the pan out of the oven. "Movie tonight?" She asked smiling as she dished them up and carried the plates to the table. As she sat down, Emma felt some pain in her stomach. She did her best to get through dinner and ignore the pain. But as the night went on and the movie started to end, Emma realized the pain wasn't going away.
"Em, what's wrong?" Killian asked seeing her face. Emma shook her head standing up.
"I don't know. Something wrong Killian. I feel pain and this doesn't feel right." Emma said she tried to pace.
"When did it start?" Killian stood up and moved to grab his keys.
"Dinner. I thought it was just hunger pains but its just not and I'm now worried." She said as they moved out of the apartment, Killian helped her down the stairs not wanting to take any chances. The drive to the hospital didn't take too long, but for Emma it felt like forever. Her hand rested on her stomach as Killian checked her in and Whale came down, rushing her back.
Lying in the bed, she listened to the machines hooked up to her beeping; her eyes closed praying she was going to be okay. Her daughter had to be okay. Killian placed his hand on hers, his head laying on the bed beside her.
Neither knew what was going on just yet, but they were just hoping for the best.
A|N: You guys are seriously the best! The love and reviews I get keep this story going! Thank you thank you thank you! You guys know how to make me smile that's for sure!
To answer all the questions, yes a DNA test will be done. I had it written in the last chapter, her asking him for one, but every time I wrote it it just sounded so bad and awkward, hence Ruby bringing it up and not having Killian and Emma discuss it. Im sorry its just a hard thing to write and not sound uncomfortable.
BUT Hopefully the rest of this chapter was enough to make up for it! Leaving on a little of a cliffhanger, hopefully I will be able to update soon, maybe by Wednesday depending on work and life. I do need some help and input! Ready?
BABY NAME?! What'cha thinking? I have a few in mind but I would love to hear what you think or would love for them to name their daughter!
Sorry for the long note. Review and let me know what you think! Love you guys, can't wait to hear from you soon. Also, please remember characters are a bit OOC.
DISCLAIMER: I own nothing, Characters belong to their rightful owner! Song is "Broken" by Lindsey Haun.
