Maura stands at the nurses station and hands a nurse, smiling tiredly at the young woman. Three months had gone by since the last time she has spoken to Jane. Since three months she feels like life has been sucked out from her, since three months she wouldn't mind if she lied down in her bed and turn into a heap of sand. Twice she had the chance to be with the one she loves more than her own life, twice she failed and even the stabbing pain her chest gets worse from day to day. She takes a deep breath and looks at her coworker. "Keep an eye on bed four. Call me if Mr. Callaghan -" She trails off as soon as she notices that the nurse's looking past her and turns around. Her heart drops when she looks into a familiar face that looks somehow angry and in the same time tortured. She blinks a couple of times and isn't really sure how to react. She wants to drop the chart to the floor, hurry to the Italian and kiss her, in the same time she's positive that this would be more than inappropriate. She feels like the world stopped turning and that everyone on this floor is staring at them. Though she really want to move, her body isn't listening to her right now. She can't even say if Jane's at the hospital for business or to accuse her once again to be lying and being insane.

Maura swallows back the upcoming tears and frowns a little. Every time she thinks back to the night in the park, she bursts out in tears and even that would be beyond inappropriate right here and right now. She can't afford to lose her composure in front of all her colleagues. She takes a deep breath and hands the intern the chart. "Jane," she says with a steady voice and stuffs her hands into the pockets of her white coat. "It's good to see you. Do you, again, need a statement from one of my patients?"

Jane's clenching her jaw and looks at Maura like she's her prey. "Suspect got hit by a car when we chased him down." She answers matter-of-factly and yet sporadically. "Gotta have to read him his rights before he can claim that we didn't do it and that he had no chance to contact his lawyer. You look good."

Only now Maura notices the young man standing next to Jane and smiles a little at him. She can tell that this has to be Jane's partner Detective Frost. She had heard a lot about him but never met him in person. She looks long at the taller woman and wishes she could say the same about Jane, but she can see that the detective's suffering from lack of sleep. "You look tired."

Frost presses his lips together so he won't start to laugh. He and Korsak is saying that since three months and every time Jane tells them to mind their own business. He's curious how his partner's gonna react this time.

Jane's face softens and do as Maura did, stuffing her hands in the pockets of her pants. "Recently didn't get much sleep. You look like you're doing much better than me."

Frost clears his throat and nods in the direction of an isolated room. "I … um ... I'm gonna read Taylor his rights."

Jane nods slowly and frowns a little. "Alright." She waits until Frost's gone and sighs when she once again looks at the doctor. "Can we … can we talk?"

The doctor swallows hard and starts to lead the way to a break room. "I think I can spare five minutes." She says and closes the door after Jane enters the room. "What can I do for you?"

"I can't stop thinking of you." Jane blurts out unceremoniously and blushes. She shrugs and steps closer. "Every time I close my eyes I can see you in front of me, me having my hands all over you while I make love to you." The frown on her forehead deepens and the desperation is clearly visible in her eyes. "It's not some kind of weird fantasy of me, Maura. It more feels like a déjà vu and it's driving me nuts. I never experienced something like this before and then I meet you and you turn my life upside down. I don't know what to do or what to think."

Maura presses her lips together and doesn't know what to say or how to react. The first thing she wants to do is to step up to the Italian and to press her lips to Jane's, but the voice in the back of her head tells her to stay put and to give Jane the chance to make the next move. She knows that she could read too much in the brunette's words even though it doesn't sound like Jane's trying to end things once again. Her heart is beating wildly in her chest and her mouth becomes dry, her hands are twitching because she wants nothing more than to reach out and touch the taller woman again. To feel the warmth of Jane again, but she knows that the detective's like a timid fawn and that a hasty reaction would make Jane back off from her, that's why she doesn't move and keep her mouth shut.

Jane stares straight into Maura's eyes and stars to wring her hands nervously. Frowning while she's looking for her next words. She had had enough time to think about what to say as soon as she meets the doctor and how to act around her, but as soon as she had laid eyes on Maura a couple minutes ago, her head went totally blank. She isn't quite sure why she had said those words in the first place after the door has closed behind them.

She licks her lips and then she snickers briefly before she says sheepishly, "I don't even know why I said this in the first place, but every single word is true. I … I can't stop thinking of you even if I try really hard, Maura. I mean … I … You can't blame me for freaking out after you told me that I'd be the reincarnation of your … long lost lover Jacob who died over two hundred hears ago."

Maura turns the corners of her mouth downward and nods approvingly. Of course she can understand the detective's reaction. She's still surprised that she didn't end up in the psych ward after her revelations.

A small smile plays around the taller woman's lips and a sigh escapes from her lungs. She clenches her jaw and shakes her head a little. "I still … I still hardly can believe that everything you said is true, but my memories can't be deceptive, can they?"

"I can't answer you that question, Jane." Maura replies and her voice is beyond steady but her eyes are full of hopes. She takes a deep breath and furrows her eyebrows. "The only thing I can do is to tell you the truth. It's within your own discretion if you believe me or not. But you should know by now that I've never lied to you."

Jane swallows hard and nods slowly. She knows that Maura never had lied to her and her inner voice is telling her that she can trust the blonde and that she can believe every word that comes from Maura's lips. She wiggles her lips and scratches the back of her head. "Well, it's hard to believe. I mean, I am a rational person -"

"So am I," the blonde cuts Jane off and crosses her arms over her chest. "I am a scientist."

"Uh … yeah." Jane scoffs and shifts her weight from one foot to the other. "However, I … need a little time to come to terms with the fact that I was born to be with you. I … I always was a independent person and now knowing that my only spirit and purpose is you … it changes everything. It explains so much. Why I never was able to stay in a relationship or why my relationships never fulfilled me. And it scares me that the only reason that I was born was -"

"Don't you dare finishing that sentence." Maura cuts the brunette off and steps closer. "Don't you dare saying that the only reason why you are here today is me, Jane. You are here because of your parents who love you for who you are and because they made you an good person, and not because you're my destiny, or because I am yours. You have so many traits of Jacob that I love, like your staunchly loyalty to the ones you love the most. But I also see the things which makes you you, Jane." She pauses and place an hand over the brunette's heart. "Things that remains me that you are not him, that you are that you are …" She closes her eyes and shakes her head. "That you are a good person without any kind of Jacopo's influence. You are a good person because you know what is right and what is wrong. And the only reason why I want to be with you, why I love you, is because for who you are today. Not for who you were ages ago. I was looking for -" She pauses and smiles. "It sounds silly, but I was looking for you, I admit it. But I've fallen for you even harder than I fell for him, Jane."

Jane takes a deeps breath and licks her lips. "Even if I had been a fool and preferred to run away from the truth?"

"Especially because of that." Maura replies with a broad smile and nods. "Because that shows me that you are not someone who believes everything they are told."

Jane smiles and sighs, frowning. She dares to look into hazel eyes and holds her breath. "Actually I am not, never was." She pauses and steps closer to the doctor. "Do you think you can give a fool like me another chance, Maura?"

"I think I can do that," the smaller woman replies with a relieved smile and steps into Jane's personal space. She searches the detective's face and her smile grows wider as soon as she feels Jane's hands on her hips. She let herself pull even closer and buries her face in the crook of the brunette's neck, closing her eyes.

She doesn't need to kiss Jane in this moment. All she needs right now is to feel Jane against her own body, and to know that the brunette isn't going to run away once again. She inhales shakily through her mouth and forces back the tears in her eyes.

Jane can't help the small smile on her lips and holds the blonde close to her. Somehow, she feels like a heavy burden has been lifted off her chest. She doesn't say anything because she fears that it would ruin the moment. Instead, she holds Maura close and let her hands roam soothingly over Maura's back. She wants to say that she loves the doctor and that Maura's the only one she'll ever love, but instead of saying it she hopes that the simple gesture is telling Maura everything that she doesn't dare to say right now. She tightens the hold and a single tear finds its way down her cheek.

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I am so so sorry for the delay. I had a serious writer's block, I hope all of you are still with me.

Anyhow, the story is almost done, a epilogue is still to come. I hope you'll enjoy this update. And as always, you are welcome to tell me what you think.

Enjoy,

T73.