When youre broken

When you're broken in a million little pieces
And you're tryin' but you can't hold on anymore
Every tear falls down for a reason
Don't you stop believing in your self
When you're broken


Emma was starting to hate dress shopping. Picking their colors had been the easiest part of their wedding, teal with gray. Bridesmaid dresses were easy as well; long one shoulder dresses in teal with Mary in a grey colored one, same style, as her maid of honor. But now it was Emma's turn to find a dress.

"Em come on out, it can't be that bad." Tink said as she sat with Mary, Ruth, Ruby, Regina, Elsa, Anna, and Rose. As much as Rose had hated Emma, she asked her to come because she wanted to try having a relationship with her.

"Okay but promise you guys will be honest." She said before sighing and nodding to the attendant, Tiana who opened the door and smiled to Emma following her out. This was the third dress she had tried on; the first two were too princess-y like for Emma's taste. This one wasn't too different but her mom and Mary asked her to try it on, so she would for them.

Walking out she sighed as she headed to the mirrors and stepped up looking at herself in the mirrors before she turned and looked to the group of girls.

"What do you think Emma?" Ruth asked giving her a smile. It was a nice dress, just not Emma's taste at all.

"I don't know if I like it too much. It's too poufy. What do you think?" She asked them as she turned and looked in the mirror.

"You look like crap. Your father and I will not pay for that one." Rose said, earning a small smirk from Emma. James told her he wanted to help with the Wedding and after some talking to with Ruth; it was settled before Emma could decide.

"Looks like this isn't the one then." Emma said before she headed back to the dressing room, one dress left. Emma was now glad Rose had come along. She seemed to know what Emma was thinking and would voice it before Emma could. Once she was out of the dress and the robe was back on, the attendant went to get the last dress. A knock on the door caused Emma to wonder who was there.

"Come in." She said softly, sitting on the small couch in the corner. Rose walked in and closed the door behind her before she sat down beside Emma.

"Why aren't you trying on dresses you like?" She asked softly looking to her. Emma sighed and rubbed her face, looking down to her hands which were resting on her lap.

"I want to make sure the dress that I find is perfect for me, but they all like it too. They matter to me." She told her as she gave a small smile. Rose shook her head before giving her a smile.

"It's your wedding. You need to wear whatever want." She told her before she stood up. "The assistant is going to be bringing you a dress in a moment. Think about what I said. Whatever you want is best." She left the room, giving Emma a few moments alone before Tiana came back in smiling. She helped Emma in to the loose flowing dress. She loved that it was strapless and the diamonds were just a light touch. Tears came to her eyes as she realized how perfect this dress was. Tiana and Emma headed out to the waiting area and Emma stepped up on to the platform smiling as she looked in the mirror before she turned to the girls.

"Emma you look so amazing." Ruth said with tears in her eyes. Emma smiled wondering what Killian would think of her in the dress. She looked to Rose and smiled, thanking her as she turned again and looked in to the mirror.

"This is the one. I can't wait to wear it for my wedding." Emma said as she looked over the dress again.

Three more months and she would be married to the love of her life. She couldn't wait.


Killian looked over the computer screen rubbing his face. Emma and Ashton were off visiting her mom and sister in law while he was working on getting their honeymoon set up. Emma told him she wanted to go somewhere fun, just the three of them. But most places were booked out or he couldn't get a room in their budget.

After trying another site, Killian gave up and headed away from his computer, wandering down to the kitchen. He was glad things at the hospital had finally settled in to a good routine. Killian worked Monday to Friday 6 to 2, Whale took the 2 to 12 shift and August took the 12 to 6 shift, and weekends. Lily turned out not to be a good fit and while it sucked having to take longer shifts, or in August's case more days, which he had asked for, It was working. The next week they would be having interviews, but Killian already knew it wouldn't be too bad. He had made a few calls and had someone coming down who would be perfect for them.

As Killian grabbed a drink from the fridge he smiled seeing the countdown Emma had started, which was now at 28 days til the wedding. He was excited to make her his wife, excited for the future with her. As he turned the oven on to start dinner, he heard Emma and Ashton walking in, or more so he heard Ashton screaming as they came in to the house.

"Kil?" Emma called out as she set the diaper bag down by the door and went in search of him, starting with the living room.

"Kitchen Love." He called back, sliding the pizza in to the oven before he headed towards her, gladly taking Ashton when Emma held her out.

"She's been screaming nonstop and while I know it's because she's teething, its driving me insane!" Emma said of their 9 month old. Killian kissed Emma's head, before he headed to the kitchen with Ashton, whose screams had turned in to little whimpers.

"Go up stairs and relax for a while. I'll take care of her and get dinner done." He told her smiling as he set Ash in her chair, giving her a cold teething ring for her gums.

"Are you sure? I know you are busy." Emma said biting her lip, knowing he would always make time to be with them.

"Go love. I promise we will be fine." He told her kissing her before he headed back to cut up some fruit. Emma headed up stairs smiling as she realized how lucky she was.


"What do you mean you can't be there? Liam it's my bachelor party, you are the best man you have to be there." Killian said into the phone, his lunch break almost over.

"Kil I can't. I go roped in to some over night school thing. I promise ill make it up to you." Liam said to his brother, feeling bad.

"Don't bother." Killian hung up before he headed away from the break room and back on to his shift. Liam had been the one planning the party for weeks, in agreement with Emma that no strippers are there. It was something they both agreed on. Emma was doing a movie night with the girls, while Killian and the guys were going to a bar to play some pool and relax. It was going to be fun for them both, one last night with friends before married life.

But now, Liam wouldn't be there and it already sucked.

"Liam cant make it tomorrow. – Kil."

"Why not? –Em."

"Claims school event. Third time he's blown me off for one. – Kil."

"Ill reach out to Els. Maybe he has been taking more hours at school? –Em."

"Thanks love. Ill be home late, Whale is running late tonight. I love you. –Kil."

"I love you too. Have a good rest of the day babe! –Em."

Emma put her phone away and headed down the hall, checking on Aston before she headed back down to the office and sat down. She opened her class book and grabbed her phone.

"What is going on with Liam? He isn't going to kils bachelor party tomorrow? – Em"

"Work thing. He is sorry he cant be there. –Els."

"Tell Liam I want to talk to him. Is he going to bail out on the wedding next? –Em."

"Emma, you know he is busy. Just leave it alone. – Els."

"Fine. Ill see you tomorrow. –Em."

Emma set her phone aside and started studying, wondering what was going on with Liam. She wanted to ignore the problem and study but she couldn't. She was angry there was something going on but she knew it wouldn't help if she was angry. Sighing she put her book away and grabbed her phone leaving the room.

"I love you, but I don't know what's going on. Killian is hurt, and I am hoping that when the wedding happens in 20 days, just that reminder, you will be there standing with him and both of you on good terms. – Em."

Emma hit send before she thought twice before she set her phone down and started cleaning up the house. She knew she was getting in to a problem she shouldn't be but Killian was upset and Liam was being weird. Within a few moments she had a reply, but not from Liam.

"I told you to stay out of it! Emma Liam is busy just leave him alone! –Els."

"I have an upset fiancé, a wedding in three weeks, and now his best man is backing out of events he planned? I cant stay out of it Elsa. What is going on? –Em."

Emma sat down in the living room, grabbing the notebook they had been keeping wedding plans in and started flipping through it, making sure everything was ready and taken care of.

"Look he will be at the stupid party if that makes you both happy. – Els."

"What would make us happy is to know what's going on with Liam. –Em."

"He's fine alright. Just taking on more hours. –Els."

"Alright, if you say so. –Em."

Emma set her phone away and headed up to check on Ashton. The wedding was in 20 days and she was nervous. Not to marry Killian but to stand in front of everyone. She never did like eyes on her.

After changing Ash's diaper, Emma headed back down stairs, stopping when she Liam walking in to the house before sitting on the couch.

"Hey Lee, What's up?" Emma asked as she sat down on the chair, legs crossed as she cuddled Ash close.

"Why is he so mad for me working?" Liam asked as Emma looked to him concerned.

"Because you are missing something you planned for his wedding. Please Lee, what's going on?" Emma asked worried. Liam looked down at his hands before looking back to Emma tears in his eyes.

"I can't talk about it Emma. Please." He said worried. Emma didn't hesitate to get up and move to his side, Ashton crawling on to her uncle's lap and cuddled close as Emma put her hand on his arm watching him.

"Liam, whatever it is, whatever happened, we are here for you. I promise." She told him softly. Liam held Ashton close to him before he took a deep breath.

"I might have Cancer. I found a lump a couple days ago and saw a doctor who wants to remove it worried it may be full cancer but there isn't a way to test without removal. I can't tell Killian, he would be worried I didn't go to him sooner. I have the removal the day after the bachelor party. How do I tell my little brother that I have cancer?" Liam said as he cried softly. Emma's heart broke for her as she pulled him into a hug.

"He will be right here to support you Liam. He loves you and would want to be here for you. You should tell him Lee, but if you don't want to I won't force you too." She told him as she kept him close. It was breaking her heart to see him like this, so broken and little. She looked down at Ashton, smiling as she saw her daughter, one hand holding on to the collar of Liam's shirt, the other on his cheek patting it softly.

"I love you Em. I'm so glad that you are here and pushed me to talk." He said softly, earning a small laugh from Emma.

"I am a pain in the ass and I love you too." She said smiling as she kissed his forehead before she got up and grabbed her phone.

"Can I stay for dinner? Spend some time with Ash talk to Killian?" Liam asked kissing his nieces head. Emma smiled as she pretended to think about it for a moment.

"Well, I guess if you must." She teased as she headed to the kitchen to start on dinner.

"You are a big pain in my ass." He yelled to her laughing before sitting on the floor with Ashton, Ash grabbing her puzzle from the box of toys they had down there and started putting one together.


Laying in bed that night, Emma cuddle close to Killian, kissing his chest above his heart.

"You think he will be okay?" Killian asked softly as he looked down to Emma worried. Hearing Liam's news had him in tears after dinner, Liam too. Emma took Ashton from the room and they headed to give the boys some space. It had been heard to hear that his big brother, the one who protected him from monsters under the bed or bullies or had been there when no one else was, was hurting and there was nothing he could do to help.

"I think he will be okay. He has you looking out for him and he is seeing the best doctor in the state. He will be okay baby." She told him softly as she held him close to her. Killian had pushed the bachelor party back a few days, Emma too both wanting to be there for Liam and Elsa, who had called Emma and apologized for snapping at her.

"I just wish I could do more." He said as he closed his eyes. Emma knew he would be betting himself up for it all. She just wished she could get him to see it wasn't his fault. She stayed close to him as he fell asleep, praying silently for hope; any hope would do in this moment.


A|N: First I'm so so so sorry it's so late! I tried to write before but my muse left me and there was so many family problems I wasn't sure I would be back for a while to continue this. But I'm here and already working on chapter 10. It makes me smile to see the Love I get for this story, any of my CS stories honestly. I will continue this one until maybe chapter 15, which has me smiling because it was only planned to be 5 chapters. Next chapter will be the wedding, Liam's results and a little family moment for Emma.

I have a new fic coming currently untitled but its coming after chapter 10 gets posted. If you ever want to see a fic written you can always message me here, Love you guys!