Chapter six

LOST

Tamaki dropped his fork making the plate clatter; he then looked from Mori to Haruhi, from Haruhi to Hani then to at all of the other hosts.

"Haruhi why would you need protecting, you have us?"

"Sempai, you're the one who said I needed to learn how." Haruhi said not looking into his eyes.

"I know, but I didn't think you would actually do it."

She looked down, "Then why did you tell me too?" her mask fell slightly.

Tamaki didn't answer. An uneasy quite settled again, it seemed like the hosts where surprised by his reaction some were even a little angry. Tamaki looked down at his plate, picked up his fork and started to eat again. Haruhi looked at her plate, she had lost her appetite. She put back the little bit of her mask that fell, and sank into her world again, and unaware of the conversation around her.

Fuyumi looked over at her, and then looked over to her brother, there was something different then when she last saw the two together, the atmosphere around them had completely changed; Haruhi was more drawn back while Kyoya was tenser. Haruhi suddenly looked up at Fuyumi and give a small smile, Fuyumi returned the smile; both of the girls looked at each other for a minute, they seemed to be reading each other's thoughts for one split second then Haruhi looked away from her and back down at the table.

Haruhi was thinking about her past, how weak she was, she thought that maybe if she was stronger then maybe things could have been different, but she knew the likely hood of that. Besides it was too late, the damage was done and now she'll never know.

Yasuo walked around the supermarket, it was Sunday and she did her shopping on Sundays. Or she did… He looked around again there was no still sign of her. Where was she?
There was a flash of sadness mixed with annoyance in his eyes as he turned, and stalked out of the supermarket.

Haruhi looked around the table to each of the hosts then to Fuyumi, she stood…

"Guys I'm not hungry anymore."

"Haru-Chan, are you okay?" Hani asked anxiously.

"Yeah, I'm just going to go back down to the beach, I need to think about some… things."

Most of the hosts seemed to be confused about what she would need to think about, all but Mori and Fuyumi, who had an inkling of what she might be thinking about; but they never knew with Haruhi, she was hard to read. They watched her leave then looked at each other. No one talked, no one ate, and they just looked at each other.
….

Haruhi walked to the door that had become all too familiar, she opened it and walked slowly down to the beach, passing the tree that Mori had kissed her at; she walked over to it stopped and touched the trunk of the tree before continuing to walk down to the beach. She walked to where the ocean meet the shore and sat down and let the waves roll on her bare feet she dug her toes into the sand. The cool water felt good on her feet, she closed her eyes and allowed herself to fall into blissful a state of peace for one second, the sound of the waves hitting the rocks and the sound of seagulls flying overhead, the feel of the sun on her face and her shoulders felt both calming and relaxing. Haruhi did not care if the sand got into her hair. She let her mind wonder, somehow it wondered to Mori and how his lips felt against hers. Haruhi lightly touched her lips; it felt so different from the kisses that she had… experienced…if that was a way of thinking about it. It was so gentle, and soft, she felt like Mori was being careful and gentle, as if he was afraid to scare her… maybe. She breathed in a lung full of ocean air and let it out slowly, calming herself from her thoughts, Haruhi put her uninjured arm behind her head and opened her eyes, she looked up at the sky, her mind began to wonder yet again but this time it landed on Kyoya. She resented him a little; she let out a sigh as she remembered what he said to her in the study. Wondering why had he let down his mask to begin with? Had it been because last night had scared him, or possibly he thought more highly of her then the others? She shook that thought away, she couldn't be, and after all she wasn't that special, not to anyone. Haruhi groaned in frustration.

This was so confusing. She sighed again as she then sat up and began to watch the waves hit the rocks. Why had Kyoya talked to her the way he did today, he seemed odd, he never talks like or acts like that to any one, with the possibly of Fuyumi, so what was his reasoning what was there for him to gain? With another sigh she laid back down, Haruhi closed her eyes once more…

.

Kyoya was the first to speak…

"So how was everyone's night?"

"Good" or "fine" was the most common answer, but some didn't even answer.

"So no one mentioned what happened last night, did they?"

"No."

"Wait what happened last night?" Fuyumi asked looking at each host in turn then rested her gaze on her brother's face

No one answered for a minute, but looked at Kyoya after all he was the one who said not to speak about it. He stood walked over to his sister, and whispered into her ear. She went to stand as well; Kyoya moved a side to let her out, then let her lead him back into the study down the hall.
….

They entered the room, and then closed the door.

"So, what happened?"

"When?"

"You know when."

"No, I don't."

"Damn it Kyoya, don't play games with me!"

"I'm not; I need to know when, last night, or today?"

"Both."

Kyoya sighed then began but choose his words carefully. "Yesterday we all were down at the beach and Haruhi was reckless with some of the locals, one thing led to another and she ended up getting pushed off the cliff. Tamaki saved her, but they had an argument afterwards. At dinner she got sick from eating too many crab legs and ended up vomiting in my bathroom… I… I… only tried to show her how reckless and defenseless she was. Then the next thing I know, she shaking and crying. We somehow ended up arguing and she stormed from my room. The next thing I know is the loud bangs coming from her room." Kyoya paused and shook his head "I looked this morning and there was a small hole in the wall... I tried to talk to her this morning but, I ended up making it worse, and once again she stormed out on me." Kyoya looked at Fuyumi then. "She comes back in from the beach injured and asked for help, so I called you. After you left we ended up talking about what happened, and I apologized. But she said she didn't know if she could forgive me, I… she left soon after."

"Kyoya…" Fuyumi walked over to her brother and put a hand on his shoulder.

"Fuyumi I don't know what to do. I want to help her, but I don't want to make things worse."

"Do you want me to try and talk to her?"

"I don't know if she'll let you. She's like me, so guarded and so untrusting. Yet she's so different than me as well. And well, she confuses me, and the way she can make me feel is so… Foreign."

Fuyumi looked at her brother; he never talked like this about anybody, the only time she ever heard him talk fondly like this was… when he was talking about the Host Club... but only just.

"Kyoya, listen to yourself, I never heard you talk like this... what has gotten into you?" Fuyumi said, allowing a small smile to cross her face.

"That's just it …" Kyoya said as he ran a hand though his hair, making his hair slightly messy. "I don't know."

Fuyumi let out a chuckle causing Kyoya to raise an eyebrow at his sister. "Kyoya you have hardly ever been unsure of anything, it's surprising…"

Kyoya smiled… "I guess you could try and talk to her…"

Fuyumi nodded and turned to leave the room but turned her head around and looked back at her brother; she smiled then continued to walk out of the room.

Kyoya watched Fuyumi leave the room no expression on his face, Kyoya turned from the door and walked over to where his computer. He began to look deeper into the Fujioka's pasts. Any and everything that could explain Haruhi…

The remaining hosts looked at Tamaki not sure what to do.

The twins looked at each other shrugged then got up without saying a word.

"Wait, where are you going?" Tamaki asked looking at the retreating back of the twins. They turned and shrugged again.

"You can't just leave."

"Can't we?" Kaoru asked while raising his eyebrows.

"No. We need to find out what's wrong with Haruhi."

"Tamaki-Senpai has it occurred to you, that she doesn't want us to know?" Hikaru asked rhetorically.

"Didn't you realize that she hasn't looked a single one of us in the eyes sense last night?" Kaoru stated. Tamaki's eye widened when he realized this…

Fuyumi walked slowly down to the beach and smiled when she saw Haruhi asleep down on the shore. Fuyumi walked up to the sleeping girl and sat beside her then poked her in the stomach, making her wake up with yelp.

"You'll get sunburn." Fuyumi said giggling.

Haruhi sat straight up and looked at Fuyumi and smiled. They sat in silence for a while looking out to sea.

"So, why did you run away?" Fuyumi asked not looking away from the sea.

Haruhi looked over at her then back to the sea, she didn't answer for a minute. "He told you?"

"Yes, he's worried about you." Fuyumi said looking over at her to see her reaction but there was no change of her face so she looked back out to sea.

"Memories that should be forgotten." This was the only thing she said though her expression still didn't change… her eyes did slightly. They became a half a shade darker and a little narrower if she hadn't spent all those years reading though Kyoya she never would have noticed.

"How bad?" Fuyumi asked

"I don't talk about it." was her answer.

"Maybe you should."

"You don't want to know."

"I wouldn't mind."

Haruhi let out a bitter laugh. The two girls sat in silence for a while looking out at the waves.

"Haruhi, can I ask you something?"

"Huh?"

"What do you think of Kyoya?"

A/n: sorry for the late update. I'll try to update soon. (OvO) oh and the name Yasuo means peaceful one or tranquility. It took me forever to find the perfect name for him. You will know why in later chapters.