Hey! So, I know I've been away fro a very long time and I'm very sorry. I've been very busy, but I haven't forgotten you guys. My editor sadly has been too busy and didn't get a chance to edit this chapter. I talked it over with her and I'm going to start putting up some chapters unedited. It won't affect the story, just the grammar. I hope you guys have still stuck around for this. I'm very very sorry about the wait. Without further ado... Enjoy!
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Dave woke very shortly after falling asleep. He rolled Jade gently off his arm and stood up. He stretched and walked out the back door of the house and onto the porch. He stood in the mid morning breeze, feeling it blow over his naked body. He took a deep breath and let it out slowly.
His head had finally stopped spinning and he was able to form his thoughts in some semblance of a cohesive manner. He turned his face to the sky and let the sun wash over his face, heating him up. It was a late-summer morning in Texas, and the air was dry with the temperature at a mild 87 degrees Fahrenheit.
"Hey sis," He spoke aloud but more to himself. "I know you would love this, me talking to you. I know that wherever you are, you're analyzing this. Is Dave crazy? He's talking to himself. Maybe I've always been crazy sis, I mean I did just... nevermind... I... You remember how I used to talk to myself constantly when I first moved in with you? Heh... I was a headcase wasn't I."
Dave shook his head. "It came from all that time I spent with dad, well without dad. Dirk raised me the whole time. Dirk is the world's shittiest dad, you know that? I hardly ever saw him. I guess That's why I talk to myself all the time, cause I was the only one I had to talk to for a long time.
"Then I had to move in with you. I was the world's most awkward 13 year old. I know I gave you shit all the time for doing you psychological analysis stuff on me all the time, but truth be told, I wouldn't be where I am today without your help. You even introduced me to Jade and her goofy brother who is somehow my best friend."
Dave sighed. "I'm really terrible at this, but I guess I'm saying thank you. Thank you for fixing me and introducing me to my best friend and to the girl I fell in love with. I'm really gonna miss you. You really were the best sister I could ask for. Goodb..."
Dave choked up and looked away. He couldn't do it. Tears formed in his eyes and his lips quivered as he pulled them tight. He couldn't say goodbye. It was too final. He couldn't admit that this was final. He didn't want to admit that this was final.
"Let's face it sis, I'm never gonna say that. Maybe it's because we both know I'm gonna meet you there sooner or later, wherever there is." Dave sighed again. He leaned against the railing on the porch. He heard the door open behind him. He looked over his shoulder and saw Jade stepping outside, wearing his shirt and nothing else.
"He Jade." He said, turning to face her.
"He Dave." She blushed, looking away bashfully. Dave took the opportunity to close the distance
between them and embraced her. He held her against him for a while, his chin resting on the top of her head. Jade wrapped her arms around him causing him to smile.
"You not gonna sleep anymore?" he asked.
"No. I slept in the car." She smiled against him. "You still smell like sex." She muttered.
"Do I? Is that a bad thing?"
"No... but it might be problematic if we wake John and Karkat up." She teased, leaning back and looking up at him, raising her eyebrows suggestively.
"Out here Jade?" Dave asked, a little taken aback. It wasn't that he didn't want to do it outside, but he hadn't expected her to be okay with it.
"If you're up to another round."
"Oh I am." Dave smirked. "Let's get that shirt off of you."
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Karkat rolled off the bed and hit the floor with a thump. He sat up with a start, suddenly awake. He looked around trying to figure out how he ended up on the floor. He shook his head and stood up.
John stirred on the bed next to him and he watched him for a while, letting his mind wander. He wondered what Gamzee would think of John. Karkat scoffed at the thought.
"You'd probably make threats that he better take care of me or you'd haunt the fucking shit out of him." Karkat chuckled to the window. "You always were about protecting me, weren't you. Even if it meant you had to sacrifice something. You were always sacrificing something..."
Tears welled up in Karkat's eyes. He wiped them away with annoyance. "I always hated that. It made me feel like I was a burden... I was always afraid you would grow tired of me and move on, leaving me alone."
Karkat couldn't stop the tears now. His body shook with sobs. "Why didn't you leave me alone? You'd
still be here today then... I got you killed, Gam... I killed you..."
Karkat slid to his knees and sobbed into his hands. The shaking of his sobs grew more violent and frequent. Suddenly he felt arms around him. He turned his head and saw John leaned against him. John wasn't looking at him, but Karkat could feel his tears wetting his shirt.
"I'm sorry Karkat..." he cried. "I'm so sorry..."
Karkat turned around and wrapped his arms around John. He stroked John's back slowly. John pulled back and they locked eyes for a moment before Karkat locked their lips together. John moaned softly as
Karkat laid him back and mounted him, keeping their lips together.
'Gamzee would approve of him.' Karkat thought as he slid John's hoodie up and off of him. John offered no resistance this time.
