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Chapter 9 Maybe we wont be okay

I awake from a deep sleep hearing the sounds of people beginning to start the day, i was normally always up early but i guess the last few days had knocked my energy. I finally get myself out of bed and head outside to see Carol watching Rick and Carl tending to the pigs. I had completely forgotten i had told Carol i would look after Judith this morning so she could serve breakfast to everyone.

"You should of woken me" I groan still half asleep

"I thought you could do with the sleep" Carol smiled

"I didn't realise how tired i was" I admitted

"Your over worked maybe you should take a break from the runs" Carol advised

"As much as i would love that you and i both know that cant happen, especially with the amount of people we have here to feed now"

"But now we also have more people to go on runs, they've got to start earning there keep to" Carol addressed

"If we sent out some of the new people they wouldn't make it back alive" I concluded

"I'm just worried about you and Daryl always going on the runs thats all" Carol explained

"Were fine, were use to it" I say smiling and taking Judith out of her arms

"Why don't you go see Rick and Carl whilst i see what i can find for breakfast"

"Sounds great" I nodded

I walk down with Judith in my arms to Rick and Carl who are now helping Michonne on the horse we had found, it was rather tame horse and Michonne had been taking the horse out everyday when she would go out and try and find the governor. It had been weeks since we had burned down Woodbury the governor had nothing left there was no way he would be coming back, but Michonne was adamant that we hadn't seen the last of him.

"Going out again?" I question

"You know i have to" Machine admits

Rick, Carl, Judith and I head over to the piglets in the pen and watch as Rick feeds them. We were finally making this place into somewhere we could stay for the rest of our lives, we had crops growing, animals and enough people to fight the walkers with.

"Why don't you wear your hat anymore" I ask Carl

"Its not a farming hat" Carl laughs

"Its finally starting to come together" Rick smiles taking a smiling Judith out of my arms

"When can i have my gun back dad" Carl questions

I head into the pen with the piglets not wanting to get in the middle of Rick and Carls discussion. I hold my hand out and put some of the food into my hand to feed them, they all begin to circle around me trying to get the little bit of food. Growing up i had never had any animals, my dad couldn't even look after his own children let alone any animals. When i was younger Merle and Daryl would go out hunting and come back with Rabbits and i would always get mad at them for killing them, as i got older i began going out hunting with them i would never kill any Rabbits but i wouldn't get mad at them like i use to. Then when everything happened i had learnt it was a way of life now and i had to kill them to be able to eat them and survive. I am suddenly brought back to reality when i hear gun shots.

"Is that coming from inside?" Carl asks

"Take Grace and Judith into the tower with you, Maggies in there. Stay in there till i come back" Rick demanded

"Grace, lets go" Carl shouts

I ignore Carl and run after Rick, taking my gun out my holster ready for whatever was happening inside. By the time i catch up with Rick who was now outside the cell block Lizzie and Mika come running out.

"There biting people" Mika screams

"I don't know where they came from they just started ripping people apart" Lizzie sobs

"Calm down, both of you need to go into the cell bloke where i sleep and lock yourself in there till someone comes and gets you okay" I commanded

"Will you come back for us" Lizzie cries

"Of course i will" I nod "You need to go now" I add

"I thought i told you to go with Carl" Rick shouts as we run towards where the sounds of shots are coming from

"You need as much help as you can get" I burst out

"Stay behind me, we don't know what were about to walk into" Rick protectivaly says walking infront of me placing an arm backwards to stop me from going infront of him

We walk into the cell block to see multiple walkers eating on the bodies of other people who had been in this cell bloke, the rest of the people where running around scared out of there minds trying to avoid the walkers that where trying to get to them. Rick starts to grab people and get them out the cell block. I hear screams from upstairs so quickly run up there to see walkers taking chunks out of woman who was laid on the floor screaming at the top of her lungs. I stab the first walker with ease but as i go to kill the other a walker jumps out of the cell onto me knocking me into the wall making me hit my head before falling on to the floor. I now had two walkers on top of me, i hold both of there heads as far away from me as possible but blood was now pouring from my head from where i had hit it and was now beginning to blur my vision. Just as i think my arms are about give up Glenn grabs both the walkers and shoots them in the head.

"Thank you" I say wrapping my arms around Glenn

"Are you okay?" Glenn asks helping me up off the floor

"Yeh i'm fine" I say placing my hand over the cut on my head

"what happened" Rick says running over to me

"I was killing a walker and another appeared and caught me off guard" I admitted

"what the hell where you doing in here" Daryl says appearing from one of the cell rooms

"what does it look like i was doing have a nap?" I snap

"I told her to stay in the tower" Rick blurted

"you needed help" I barked taking my hand off of my head

"Does anyone have any bandages" Glenn says

"Ive got it" Daryl says sitting down beside me taking bandages out of his bag

"Were going to go check the rest of the cell" Rick concluded

"Glenn" I echoed making Glenn turn back around to look at me

"Thanks again" I say gaining a nod from Glenn

"You sure your okay?" Daryl asks

"Its just a cut, you don't have to worry" I laugh

"you need to stop scaring me like that" Daryl admits

"you've got to stop trying to keep me from things, I'm always going to help" i sigh

"thats your problem, you always want to help people"

"well i cant help being nice now can i" I laugh again

I walk back downstairs and see all the bodies lying on the floor, how did this happened. I see Carol in one of the cells with Lizzie and Mika who where crying, as i walk in i see that there Dad is laid on one of the beds he has a bite on his neck and his breathing is shallow. Its only a matter of time before he turns.

"You have to get the Dr" Mika cries

"A dr cant help him" I sigh

"Take care of your sister" There dad groans before slipping back to an unconscious state

"Dad dad dad" Lizzie Pleads

"You can wait outside if you want" Carol says

"we should be the one to do it`' Lizzie admits

"No i cant" Mika croaks

"Lizzie are you sure?" I ask

"You have to do it right now before he turns" Carol concluded

"Lizzie" Mika says noticing Lizzie's' breathing getting quicker

"Breathe count with me Lizzie" Carol says passing me the knife

"Look at the flowers" Mika sympaththisz

I walk over the man lying on the bed, i hadn't even got to speak to him and now i was going to be the one to kill him. I take the knife and place it into his skull hearing Lizzie cry more as i did, Killing didn't get any easier.

Later on Rick, Hershel, Glenn, Daryl, Carol and I sit down in a room and talk about everything knowing we had to think of a plan.

"Patrick was fine yesterday he just died overnight" I add

"He complained to me he wasn't feeling very well, but i didn't take much notice i just thought he didn't want to take part in the class" Carol admitted

"We will have to separate everyone" Rick sighs

"Thats everyone in that cell block including us" Daryl reminds

"Is anyone else we know off showing symptoms" Hershel questions

"not that i know off" I say

"it isn't just the illness, if people die they become a threat" Glenn speaks

"We need a place for them to go, if they get ill" Carol adresses

"They cant stay in cell block D" Hershel reasons

"We can use cell block A" Rick suggest

"Death row?" I ask

"Not much of an upgrade" Daryl mumbles

"Its clean thats an upgrade" Rick convinced

We are interrupted to the sounds of coughing outside the door, we all follow Rick out the door to see who it is

"you okay?" Carol asks Karen who is holding onto Tyreese

"were just taking her back to my cell to rest" Tyreese admits

"I don't think thats a good idea" Rick speaks up

"we think its the flu" Rick continues

"it killed patrick, is she going to be okay?" Tyreese panics

"Now we no what it is we've got a better chance of treating it" Hershel calmly explains

"David has been coughing too" Karen weakly says

"Ill get him" Carol nods "Lets go get you settled" Carol says showing Tyreese and Karen the way

"We will call another meeting later" Rick says

I head outside to the fence with Glenn to try and kill some of the walkers as we could see that walkers were piling up. As we get there more walkers come from out of the wood and towards the fence, they all start pushing on the gate which was now becoming weaker and beginning to bend. Glenn and i push against the fence trying to hold it up when Maggie comes down from the tower and helps.

"Its not going to hold" i exclaimed

"Rick, Daryl" Glenn shouts

"How did this happened" Rick questions pushing on the fence with us

"The noise must of drew them out" Maggie commented

"Now this parts giving" I say running to the other fence panel that was beginning to bend

"do you see this" Daryl shouts looking down at the carcasses of animals

"Somebodys feeding the walkers" I adds

"its gonna give, its gonna give everyone get back" Daryl orders

"Daryl get the truck i know what to do" Rick instucts

and with that Daryl and Rick head outside the gates leading the walkers away chucking the piglets out to the walkers. We were loosing everything we had worked so hard for,that tiny bit of hope that had existed in my mind had now completely gone. Maybe we wouldn't be okay….