Septday, Guire 30th 067.M42

Oh Throne.

Emperor help me, I need someone to tell me what to do.

Last night after I'd written my journal and put my dataslate away, Maddy came in to find me. She said she couldn't sleep. I have to admit I was having similar problems. I was still upset about my call with Mum and what she told me about Daisy.

So when Maddy said she couldn't sleep, I asked her if she wanted to sit and just talk a bit, sit up leaning against the stacks. If we kept our voices down we wouldn't disturb the others over the sound of the stacks. It seemed like a good idea at the time.

I mean, I guess it was a good idea. It was nice. I got to tell her a bit more about Mei and Daisy. We talked about her dad too. She thinks I should go to the Magisters and try to get Daisy's pict footage, to see if I can find anything.

Anyway, we were talking, it was warm and I guess the noise of the stacks was a bit comforting or something. She sat next to me. That was okay. Then she leaned against me, and put her head on my shoulder. I… might have had a little bit of a panic attack at this point. Though I like to think I kept it together pretty well. Mostly.

Then she fell asleep on me. I didn't know what to do. She was just… there. Leaning against my arm, her head on my shoulder. I didn't know if I should wake her up or lie her down or what. But it was really nice. Really, really nice. I managed to shift a bit and put my arm around her and… Well, I eventually fell asleep too, leaning against her.

I think she woke up before me, I'm not sure how long by. But when I woke she was still there, still leaning against me. Looking up at me. And when I actually woke up properly and realised where I was, she kissed me before getting up and walking out.

I'm not sure if I did something wrong or something right, and I don't know when I'll have a chance to talk to her about it. If she even wants to talk to me. She didn't say anything before she left.

Thought for the Day: It is not our place to know the future; rather, the Emperor gives us the day to make with it what we shall.