A/N: yeah, i know. this one took forever. but since it's a really important part of the story, i wanted to be extra careful and not mess up like i did in the last chapter, which was rushed since it required rewriting before i posted it and i was dead tired during proof reading. this one isn't perfect. but so far, it's my personal favorite.

thanks for reading. all feedback is and always will be appreciated.


The time was 9:43 PM. Wednesday.

Yan-chan was laying in her bed, dressed in her mint green nightgown.

She had trouble falling asleep due to all the thoughts that were going through her mind. Tomorrow is the day of the final exam. after that, graduation day. These two little facts caused her to rethink her time and experiences in high school.

She had been through so much. First, she got to experience life outside of isolation. Then she met senpai. Then came two whole years of stalking and murdering any girls that dared look at him.

And then the biggest change in her life… Jayson Stone, her first best friend. the first person that she actually desires the company of. the first person who supports her and her every decision.

That poor boy has done so much for her, and what has she done for him? Well… nothing. She can't ever recall doing anything for him, yet he's done so much for her. He's assisted in the dispatching of all of her rivals. he's helped her grow a proper bond with her senpai. He's even protected her from danger, which he is doing right now as you read this.

You know what's funny though? yan-chan always thought that she could take care of herself. she thought that she'd be more then capable of defending against any threat to her safety.

But in reality… she's nowhere near as capable as she thinks she is.

Think about it. Have you ever read about yan-chan and a rival going into a direct struggle? No, you haven't. She's never broken out into a fist fight with someone. She's never been in an actual battle.

And in honesty, yan-chan preferred it that way. A fight attracts attention. And of course, if senpai sees yan-chan beating down another student, he'll see her as nothing more then a brute. Senpai could never love a brutish delinquent.

She's always caught her rivals when they are unaware. She strikes when they don't expect it. She attacks when their defenses are lowered and their backs are turned. She'd rather kill you in your sleep with a knife instead of beating you down in the open with her fists, which she's never really used.

But… what happens when someone does the same thing to her? When one of her most powerful weapons, the element of surprise is used against her.

Well, you know what happens. Osana Najimi had yan-chan tied to a tree while looming death over her.

Jaku Chikan had disguised himself as senpai and when yan-chan tried her best to defend herself, he pressed her to the ground while attempting to rape her.

Budo almost killed her with her own knife!

But before any damage to her could be done, her guardian angel appears.

That's kind of what she sees jayson as, a guardian angel who will always be there to protect her. And he plays his part rather well. He's very skilled at direct confrontation and self defense. he knows exactly where to hurt you so he can hear your cries of pain.

Yan-chan sighed in relaxation. She was being completely and totally honest when she said that he makes her feel safe and comfortable. Whenever he's around, yan-chan doesn't really worry or doubt herself as often as she used to. He gives her hope. He gives her more hope then her mother ever gave her.

Even now. He's downstairs, sleeping on her couch. Standing guard against anything or anyone that can be perceived as dangerous.

She didn't really want her protector to sleep on the couch. She would have preferred it if he slept in her parents room. Hell, she would have let him sleep in her bed while she slept in her parents room. But he wanted to sleep on the couch, so he sleeps on the couch.

Yan-chan did wonder why jayson was so protective of her. Why does he spend almost every available minute with her? Why does he do whatever she asks of him? Why is he assisting her in the killing of innocent people?

Maybe… because he knows the pain of heartbreak and he doesn't want somebody else to feel that pain. So he's not just protecting her life, but he's also protecting her heart too? What a good friend!

A small yawn forced its way out of yan-chan's mouth, telling her that her body and mind require rest.

She flicked the switch on her bedside lamp, causing the room to go dark. She snuggled against the blanket and felt the sweet embrace of sleep.

She awoke to the sound of her alarm clock at exactly 6:00 AM. Thursday.

She stood up from her bed and stretched out her arms and legs to make sure all her limbs were ready to concur the day. She opened her wardrobe to reveal a full body mirror on the inside, attached to one of the doors. It was thanks to the mirror that she noticed the sticky note on her upper chest.

Left an hour early to get ready for school. Final exams are today, good luck. See you in class.

-Jayson Stone, your best friend. P.S. made you breakfast, check microwave.

Yan-chan smiled as she set the note down on her desk. She grabbed one of her many school uniforms from the wardrobe and headed to her bathroom to change and redo her hair back into it's ponytail.

She then walked downstairs and into the kitchen. Jayson's note told the truth. In yan-chan's microwave was a plate of short stacked pancakes, eggs sunny side up and turkey bacon. Her favorite.

After reheating and then eating the amazing breakfast made by her friend, she grabbed her school bag and rain coat from the rack near the front door.

It was pouring today. The sky was a dull grey, the streets and sidewalks were being bombarded with tiny drops of heavy water as a roaring thunder could be heard. People were all either wearing raincoats, using umbrellas or running as fast as they could to get to dry shelter.

Yan-chan opened her black umbrella soon after she put on her yellow rain coat and walked outside. She actually liked it whenever it rained. Hearing the pleasant sound of the heavy downpour as it crashes onto the ground was relaxing for her. It calmed her in a way. the air always smells and feels fresher during storms. And of course, the rain gives you an excuse to laze the day away.

Should she take her bike today? It would be the fastest way to get to school. But it was raining and riding a bike in this kind of weather is dangerous. Her tire could slip and send her flying off, causing her to hurt herself. Then senpai might see her as… damaged goods. No. best to just walk like always. It was a shame though, it's been so long since she's rode that old bicycle. It's probably still in the garage, covered in dust thanks to months of inactivity.

Aka-demi high school was north east of yan-chan's house. She went west… toward senpai's home.

Today was the day. She was tired of waiting. Graduation is tomorrow, which means senpai will be leaving anytime after that. Yan-chan needs to confess before some collage whore taints his purity.

Once senpai has committed himself to yan-chan, she'd finally be able to rest easy knowing that he will honor the pledge he will make towards his soon-to-be lover. And if he says no… well… a certain someone is going to be very unhappy. And when a certain someone is very unhappy, people go missing… or turn up dead in their homes.

Yan-chan checked her phone as she walked toward senpai's house, hoping her parents actually remembered the existence of their only daughter.

No missed calls. No new texts. No new e-mails.

Why were they doing this to her? Don't they know that she's worried for them? Are they ignoring her? Did they?… did they abandon her and restart their lives!? No… they wouldn't do that, right? No parent can be that cruel towards their child! She's not some dog that gets left on the side of a street while waiting for it's cruel master to return!

You know what? Fuck it! She's calling them! If they don't remember that they have a seventeen year old daughter that misses them, she'd force them to remember! Yan-chan will not be ignored by her own family!

"come on… pick up already" she said while waiting for an answer.

"hello?"

"mother! I-"

"I'm sorry I can't answer your call. Leave a message and I'll get back to you as soon as possible" it went to voice mail.

"hi mother. it's me, ayana. I haven't heard from you in awhile. Please call me… I love you, mother" yan-chan left a message.

Okay… mother was not answering. fine, whatever! She'll call her father. He always answers his phone.

When she dialed the number, it went straight to voice mail, meaning that his phone was off. But father never turns his phone off! He always answers! So why is he not answering now!?

"hi, daddy. It's me, ayana. Please call me… I'm really worried about you. I love you" she left another message.

Why? Why was this happening? Why are they being so distant from their daughter? Maybe she had misbehaved in some way? Maybe they were just too busy? Busy doing what? Sightseeing? Buying cheap and useless souvenirs and knickknacks? Having fun without their only child? Leaving her alone without once checking if she was okay? Forgetting her?

Abandoning her?

She shook those thoughts out of her head. No! She refused to believe that her mother and father, the two people who were responsible for her creation, who regularly shower her with love and affection, would just abandon her! They'd never do that! They love her! They treat her birthday like it's freaking Christmas!

She needed to stop thinking about this… it was ruining her mood, and this horrible weather was only making it worst. Damn you channel 4 weather man! Damn you to hell!

She eventually came upon senpai's home. A beige colored house with an upstairs, a patio and a garage.

Yan-chan walked right up to the doorway but hesitated before knocking.

Is this really a good idea? Should she really just throw her feelings at him and expect him to go along with it? Is it seen as a burden to do this when he's in the middle of moving far away from her? Will he actually accept and understand her feelings?

Would he ever find out what she is? Will he realize that deep down inside this young woman lives a horrible and disgusting monster? Will senpai become like her father? Will he live the rest of his days in fear of his soon-to-be girlfriend? Will their future marriage be seen as life imprisonment?

If yan-chan gives birth, will senpai see the child as a monster too? Would yan-chan be a good mother? Would she shower the child in love and affection like her parents used to do for her? Or would she mistreat and abuse the child?

She backed away from the door in fear of these questions. No, she can't do this! She's not ready! She needs to leave!

"you're not just going to quit while your ahead, are you?" a tiny angel appeared on yan-chan's left shoulder. He wore a white robe, carried a harp and bared a striking resemblance to senpai.

"my shoulder angel" she stated as she saw him appear out of thin air.

"don't listen to that guy!" her shoulder devil appeared on her right. He wore a black shirt and black jeans with a red hoodie. He carried a pitchfork and had two tiny red horns coming out of his forehead. He bared the likeness of Jayson. "he's trying to lead you down the path of righteousness. I'm gonna lead you down the path that rocks!"

"oh, come off it"

"you come off it!" the shoulder devil shouted. "listen up beautiful, I got three good reasons why you should just walk away. Reason one, look at that guy! He's got that sissy stringy music thing!" the shoulder devil insulted the angel.

"we've been through this. It's a harp."

"ohh, right. That's a harp… and that's a dress!"

"ROBE!" the angel defended, clearly aggravated.

Yan-chan sighed "look guys, you're trying to help. I understand that, but you're only making this harder so… begone" she said to the both of them.

"well, fine. Have it your way, princess" the shoulder devil scoffed as he and the shoulder angel both disappeared in their separate clouds of smoke.

"ayana-chan? What are you doing here?" the door to senpai's house opened.

"ohh, um… good morning, senpai" she said while blushing and looking down at her now soaked loafers.

"is something the matter? We don't really leave for school until 6:30" senpai said while walking out to his patio. He was wearing his uniform while carrying a mug of coffee. He drinks it for the taste, not the caffeine.

"oh, nothing… I was just in the neighborhood and-"

"is something wrong? You seem worried" he asked while gently grabbing the bottom of her chin and slowly lifting her head to reveal her face. Their eyes were now in direct contact.

Ohh! Why does this have to be so hard!? Damn you emotions! Damn you character development! Damn you author for giving yan-chan feelings! When this story is over, she's coming after you!

"are you still packing?" she said while looking at senpai's window. She could see that many boxes were packed and placed against the wall.

"yeah. And I'm still not done yet! Its amazing how much stuff I have. I'll be here for another month or so!" senpai said.

"umm, there's something I need to tell you, senpai" yan-chan said, grabbing his attention.

"yes, what is it?" senpai asked while smiling.

There's no going back…

"I… I'm…" easy, beautiful. Breath. You got this. "I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU!" she shouted her confession.

"wh-what!?" senpai asked in shock. "you're in love… with me?" he almost couldn't believe it.

"y-yes. I've been crushing on you for… two years now" she said, ashamed of herself. This was a mistake.

"wow. You couldn't have picked a better time to say this" senpai said while looking down at his feet. Almost as if he was working up the courage to say something too.

Is he? Is he planning to confess his desire for her?

"ayana-chan…"

"shh" she put her finger on his lips, silencing him. "don't speak, my beloved senpai. I know what you're going to say. I knew deep in my heart that you would feel the same way. We are made for each other, aren't we?" she purred with a loving smile on her face.

"that isn't what I was going to say" he removed her finger from his lip. He didn't want to tell her how he felt. He had a bad feeling about this.

"ohh, were those not your exact words? Oh well, the meaning is still there, right?" she asked. A small look of worry crossed her face.

"I'm incredibly flattered to hear that you've had your eye on me for so long. I never thought a girl like you would be interested in me. I mean, you're pretty, and you're kind, sweet and…"

"go on… I love hearing you complement me" she purred again.

"but I don't think I'm ready for a relationship" senpai finished his sentence.

The moment he said that, yan-chan felt the world around her shatter like a mirror being hit with a hammer.

"wh-what?" she said in a shocked tone as she took a step back.

"i'm sorry, ayana-chan. But with everything that's happening and everything that's going to happen, Supporting a relationship is just not on my agenda"

"b-but I…"

"look. You're a really amazing girl, ayana-chan. And you deserve someone who's perfect for you. And in all honesty, I'm not perfect. I'm not ready for this. And with collage coming up, a relationship would only slow me down" he admitted. "but hey, just cause I'm not ready doesn't mean you aren't either. You should go out there, find a nice guy and have fun. Maybe you could give jayson a try?"

"n-no… w-wait. This wasn't supposed to happen" she begged. "you are perfect for me. I think about you day and night! You're my destiny!" she poured her heart out to him.

"you might think I'm perfect for you, but I don't think I'm perfect for you. I know this is a lot to take in, and I hate seeing you like this. But I'm just not ready" he said with a look of sympathy towards yan-chan. "maybe we should just stay friends"

That last sentence made yan-chan wince in pain as she felt her heart break into tiny pieces. She collapsed on the ground, kneeling on senpai's porch. He swore he could hear her sobbing, he swore that he could see tiny droplets of water fall from her face, but the hood of her raincoat hid the proof to confirm this.

"i'm really sorry, ayana-chan. Please don't hate me" he said as he looked at her kneeling form. "we can talk this over on the walk to school and…"

"just… leave me alone…" she sobbed in despair.

Senpai took the hint. He walked to school and just left her. He just left her crying on his porch.

"why am I such an asshole?" he asked in regret as he walked towards the school. He really felt like that. What kind of cruel and sick jerk breaks a poor, sweet girl's heart and then just leaves her crying on their front door? That's like kicking a box of newborn kittens into dirt!

Senpai wanted to return to her and take back everything he said, just to get her to stop crying. but that would be lying, and senpai hated deceiving people.

What's worst? Burying your true feelings for someone while you feed them sweet lies? Or throwing the hard truth in their face while you watch them cry?


The time was 7:49 AM.

"seriously, where is she?" Jayson Stone asked himself while leaning against the wall next to the school gate.

He was sure that yan-chan would be here by now. What was taking her so long? She's usually on school grounds around this time.

Jayson sighed as he continued to lean against the wall. He watched as the many students came rushing into the school. The ones that didn't wear raincoats or used umbrellas, would use their school bags to keep them dry as they sprinted towards the shelter of the main building. Inside the main building, many students huddled into groups while looking over textbooks and questioning each other about said textbooks. Final exams were today, many of the students were trying to cram in as much last minute knowledge as possible. Some even began using the classic trick of writing the answers on their arms.

Jayson did not do this, however. He was confident in his studies and the tutoring sessions of yan-chan.

He was worried about her. Ever since last night, jayson had been… thinking.

When yan-chan asked him to stay for the night, he thought they were going to… you know. He thought that she had finally seen his true feeling for her. He thought that she was ready to move past their bond of friendship and have a relationship upgrade. But jayson was obviously wrong. Instead of her saying 'pin me to the wall and make love to me' she was really saying 'stay and defend me like the loyal dog you are. good boy!'

How long was he going to let her play with him like this? When was the right time to even think about confessing his feelings? Would she accept them and move on from senpai? Would she become enraged and see jayson as a threat? Would she just ignore his feelings and say that they should stay friends? Or would jayson have to go with… plan B?

Plan B was his last resort. If all else fails, then this will be the only way of securing the love of his life. Plan B is difficult and dangerous to both himself and yan-chan. He'd get hurt and she'd break down and go insane. But again, this was just a last resort. Jayson hoped it wouldn't have to come to that. That's not the way a lover should be treated, especially when said lover is a highly unstable sociopath who receives pleasure from the suffering of others. But then again, Plan B won't give him a lover, it will give him a pet.

Lets just leave it at that.

"good morning, jayson" senpai said as he saw his 'friend' leaning against the wall.

"hey. You see yan-chan anywhere?" jayson asked.

Oh no… should senpai tell him what happened? He knows how protective jayson gets when ayana is concerned. Maybe senpai should just fain ignorance, but once he finds ayana and she tells him… he's going to be pissed.

And jayson was a person that you did not want to piss off.

"umm, about ayana-chan. We kinda had a… falling out"

"what did you do?" he asked in an intimidating tone while glaring directly into senpai's eyes. God, those beading orbs were terrifying. They held so much rage, so much anger and hatred. It made senpai squirm a little.

"answer me" he growled.

"she… she told me she loved me, and I said I wasn't ready for a relationship and… she didn't take it too well" senpai's words made jayson's eyebrows rise in surprise.

"you worm!" jayson shouted as he grabbed senpai by his neck and threw him to the ground. "where is she? Did you hurt her? You made her cry, didn't you!" he shouted in anger as other students took notice.

"hey, those two guys are fighting!" isn't that the guy who beat up haruto?" "is that senpai?" they said as they gathered around the two.

"aww, shit!" "come on! Beat his ass!" "kick that stuffy upperclassman to the ground!" "break a rock over his head!" "Fight! Fight! Fight! Fight!" the students cheered jayson on as he stood over senpai, who was on the ground.

"look man, I never wanted her to cry! I just told the truth!" senpai begged.

"you just left her alone to cry?" jayson asked while glaring.

"i'm sorry. I just…"

"ooohhh, he's gonna get it!" "kick that jerk in his face, jayson!"

Before anything could happen, the bell rang, signaling that class was starting. Multiple students groaned in annoyance as they headed toward their homeroom classes.

Senpai was literally saved by the bell.

"look, I'm sorry" he said while standing up.

"hide your face from me! Because the next time I see you, you will break!" jayson threatened as he threw senpai into the fountain and walked into the building, heading for class.

He wasn't lying, he was going to break every bone in senpai's body. He was going to show that pathetic worm what true suffering really was. Jayson would make him pay for breaking the heart of his beloved.

Poor girl. She's probably either in her room, crying into her pillow. Or she's somewhere in the school, planning her revenge while under the heavy influence of anger and rage. Jayson hoped for the latter.

He honestly thought about skipping class to find her and give her comfort if it was needed. If she was crying, he'd take her into his arms and rid her of sadness. If she was angry, he'd help her exact sweet revenge. And once that pathetic worm is dead, his blood splattered all over yan-chan, Jayson will finally confess his love for that demented and sadistic goddess.

"and it appears miss Satsujin-koibito is absent today, what a shame. I had such high expectations for her" the teacher said as she closed and locked the door to the classroom.

The teachers assistant, a girl with green hair who went under the name koharu Hinata, began passing out the multiple pages of the final exam. They were all stapled together. The test spanned multiple questions for multiple subjects and all around, it would take the whole day to complete.

As the students began writing their answers on that test, jayson kept glancing to his right, which was where yan-chan's desk was.

It felt so weird seeing that space empty, and jayson knew that he wasn't the only one thinking that. Other students glanced at the desk too. They also held similar faces of worry and concern.

Yan-chan never misses a day of school. Even when she's in one of her worst possible moods or when she's incredibly close to attacking someone out of annoyance, she's never once been tardy or skipped class. She's had perfect attendance ever since her enrollment. This often generated respect for her among the students and faculty, which was why yan-chan was regarded so highly and gained an almost perfect reputation by both her classmates and her teacher. She must be in bad shape if she's not here.

"hey, where are you? Finals are today! Remember? Are you alright?" jayson texted while hiding his phone under his desk. Yan-chan never responded.

"Hey! I'm worried about you! Talk to me, ayana. Let me help" again, no response. Either her phone was off or she's ignoring him.

"mister Stone! You know cell phones are not permitted during class! Hand it over" the teacher caught him. He surrendered his phone.

The teacher rudely read over his messages. Doesn't anybody have respect for privacy anymore?

"i suggest that you worry less about miss Satsujin-koibito's whereabouts and worry more about the piece of paper on your desk that counts for over ninety percent of your final grade. You may have your phone back after school"

"my apologies, sensei" he said while taking the teachers advice. Try as he might, he couldn't stop worrying. His mind kept imagining worst case scenarios and consequences that yan-chan could have gotten herself into. He hoped her sanity was still intact.


The time was 8:03 AM.

Senpai couldn't stop shaking. As he sat at his desk with pencil in hand, he kept jittering and flinching at anything that he didn't expect. He even jumped in surprise as the teachers assistant handed him his paper.

He was beyond the definition of a nervous wreck. Most students thought he was shivering because his clothes were soaked thanks the cold rain, which was now a thunderstorm.

Senpai gasped as the boom of the thunder caught him from surprise.

"mister Yamada, is something the matter?" his homeroom teacher said.

"n-no, hana-sensei. Just a little nervous" senpai said. Easing the teacher's worry over one of her students.

She was arguably one of the nicest teachers in the entire school. She was less strict and more laid back then the others. But that could have been do to her years of teaching experience or the fact that third year students are a little more matured, respectable and much more reliable when compared to the underclassmen.

"i understand. You're going through a lot of changes that you are not ready for. It is a burden on your mind. Just relax, breath and do not rush. You have all day to complete this test" she said before taking a bite into an apple.

Senpai wasn't worried, he was terrified. Not because of the final exam. He was terrified of jayson.

Their encounter had revealed everything to senpai. They were never friends. Jayson must have known about ayana's crush and used senpai as a gateway to get closer to her. How could somebody do that? Why would you use and manipulate someone without permission? and all for some girl?

Granted, ayana was not just some girl.

She obviously means the world to jayson. Senpai knew this but he never knew how bad jayson had fallen for her. But it was all clear now.

And now that ayana has been rejected, she must hate senpai, which means there is nothing left to stop jayson from delivering the ultimate beating towards senpai.

The horrifying image of jayson's eyes had been burned into the back of his mind. They looked so blank, empty and lifeless yet at the same time, they were filled with anger and hatred for senpai and anything he holds dear. How can someone live like that? How does one have the ability to hold in all that hatred while appearing completely normal? How can so much anger be created by the presence of one human being?

Why is senpai going to get his limbs mangled for doing as jayson said? He wanted senpai to stay away, he stayed away. So what? Does senpai deserve a beating just for following orders?

No… this was so much more. Ayana said that she had been in love with senpai ever since her first day at school, which was two years ago. Jayson said that he's known ayana ever since his first day at school, which was exactly the same day.

Senpai is going to feel two whole years worth of pain and suffering.

What would have happened if senpai accepted ayana's feelings? Would everything be okay then? If he apologized and begged ayana to be his girlfriend now, would jayson back off?

No. then senpai would be manipulating and taking advantage of ayana and her feelings, and that is just wrong.

Wait! Maybe one of the faculty members can save senpai. Yeah! He'll go to his teacher and she'll protect him… while he's on school grounds.

But what will happen when senpai gets home? What will happen when senpai walks home? Either way, he's still going to get whats coming to him.

Oh god…


the time was 2:34 PM.

"Ayana! Open the door!" jayson shouted as he violently slammed on her front door. He had skipped the rest of school due to his worry over her. He honestly didn't care about his final exam and he didn't care about graduation either. They were pointless to him. So what if he just destroyed his only chance at collage. Collage was never something jayson wanted anyway.

"i know you're in there. Open the door before I break it down!" he yelled. Yes, he was angry beyond belief. But that anger was not geared toward yan-chan or senpai. It was geared toward this annoying blockade that prevented jayson from comforting his beloved.

"go away…" he heard her muffled voice on the other side.

He calmed down. "just let me in, beautiful. I want to help you"

"just… leave…"

"I'm coming in there, whether you want me to or not" he said as he took three steps away from the door and then charged straight for it. His right shoulder being used as an effective battering ram.

His first attempt failed, causing him to feel pain as his body collided with the door, absorbing the shock of his impact. He tried a second time, taking six steps back instead of three.

Same result, failure.

He wouldn't give up though. This stubborn piece of oak will move at jayson's command! He was not going to let yan-chan rive in agony. He was not going to let a simple plank of wood come between them! He backed up even father, this time going all the way across the street.

His third attempt was a success.

The door was forced open as jayson collided with it. He was in.

"yan-chan, come out. I just wanna talk" he said as he looked around. She was nowhere to be found.

Oddly, the house was rather clean and tidy. Jayson was expecting the place to be a complete wreck. He expected the couch to be cut and slashed, he expected the television screen to be broken, he expected a large trail of tears all over. But no such thing was found. In fact, the house had been cleaner then ever. Literally spotless. Not a speck of dirt or dust to be seen in sight. It was almost unnatural for any house to be this clean. It was like a stay-at-home-mother's dream come true.

He checked the kitchen, the bathrooms, the dinning room. All sharing the same fate as the living room. Disturbingly clean and spotless.

The dinning room's large dark wooden table had been recently polished. The bathtub, toilets and shower's porcelain had been so shiny that you could see your reflection in it.

This was odd. Yan-chan and her family were clean and neat people, but not this neat! It was like they had some sort of live in maid or something!

Jayson checked the basement, the newly prepared senpai worshiping room. That's what yan-chan called it. Jayson called it hell.

His eyebrows bolted up in surprise as he flicked on the light switch.

The destruction of property that jayson was expecting from a heartbroken yandere was here. The Polaroids of senpai that usually hung from the walls, were now scattered all over the floor with large tears through them, obviously from a knife. Somebody had personally sat here and stabbed exactly six hundred photos.

The candles had all been melted onto the floor due to the heat brought on by the tiny fires that were never blown out.

The walls that held the multiple custom made posters of senpai had been slashed, vandalized and burned. The words 'unworthy' were written in black marker alongside the posters.

The tiny hand stitched doll bearing senpai's likeness was hanging by the neck from a noose that was tied onto the ceiling. The doll had also been stabbed in the chest with a steak knife. If that doll had a heart, it was most likely destroyed.

All around, this shrine, this labor of dedication and love had been completely profaned and destroyed by the very same person who created it. The caretaker of this shrine, who had spent months creating and molding this place until it reflected her definition of perfection, had just destroyed everything in less then a day.

You would say that this was a good thing. Yan-chan is moving on, dealing with the situation in her own special way. Pretty soon, she'll be over it and realize how narrow-minded she's been.

But… what will happen then? Will she go back to the way she was? A blank, emotionless, apathetic, empty shell? She'd go back to being nothing, literally nothing. She'd lose interest in killing because there's nobody to kill for. And when you lose one part of your personality, you lose all of it. Everything that jayson loves about her will be gone. She'd be seen as a perfectly normal living human on the outside, but on the inside she'd be dead.

Jayson exited the profaned shrine and ran into yan-chan's bedroom.

Oddly, her door wasn't locked. He entered the room to see that it too was disturbingly tidy and clean.

Freshly washed sheets, blanket and pillowcases. walls scrubbed free of dirt and dust. Desk polished and shining. A laundry basket sitting by her bed with fresh, clean clothes waiting to be worn. Her phone was on her bedside table, the screen free of fingerprints.

The only unclean thing in her room was the now destroyed little temple… doll house… thingy. The original senpai shrine. Again, showcasing the fact that yan-chan is moving on… or motivating herself to take senpai's life.

She wasn't in her room. The large window on her left wall had been fully opened. The now furious storm caused the curtains to move with the wind as it blew in violently.

Jayson's presence has forced yan-chan to flee her own home. she could be anywhere, alone, heartbroken, and dangerously unstable. the one time she needs jayson the most, and she doesn't want him.

A small sticky note was attached to her computer monitor.

I know you're just trying to help. You're a good friend. I've seen it all now, loving senpai is pointless.

Don't worry about me, I'll be okay. I've decided to end this all where it began.

I am not worthy. I never was worthy. Love is forbidden to me.

I trust that you will take good care of my senpai.

-Ayana satsujin-koibito, your former best friend. Goodbye.

Jayson stared at the note with confusion in his face. End it where it all began? Trusting that jayson will take care of senpai? Former best friend? Goodbye?

Goodbye? What does that mean? It couldn't mean…

No…


The time was 3:01 PM.

Senpai had just exited school grounds. He had calmed down a little bit since his tiny spaz attack back in class.

Ever since first period, he hasn't seen jayson all day. Maybe that was a trick. Make senpai think he's safe and then jayson will show up out of nowhere and beat the living hell out of him.

But senpai did feel like he deserved it. He felt like such a cruel and heartless monster for what he did. And the students, his fellow schoolmates only made him feel worst. News had quickly gotten around as to why ayana had not come to school today. Jayson and senpai's little argument before class had also played a pivotal role in the spreading of this.

Almost every student in the school was on jayson's side. Nobody showed sympathy or even pity toward senpai. The underclassmen insulted him, his fellow upperclassmen looked upon him with shame.

Students who used to look up to him now saw him as a complete jerk. All because he tried to avoid a relationship. Because he wasn't ready for that kind of commitment.

Senpai felt like he deserved this. He didn't break ayana's heart, He ripped it out of her chest and stomped it into the ground. He crushed a poor, innocent angel's heart and he'd never forgive himself for it.

He shouldn't have been so forward and direct when he told ayana that he didn't want to be her boyfriend. Maybe he should have tried let her down easy? Maybe he should have just humored her until he moved to Tokyo?

Whatever. Either way, doing anything to fix his mistake is pointless. If he apologizes to ayana and says that he'll be her boyfriend, he'd only break her heart even more when he moves away and then comes back years later with some other girl while she stays single, waiting for him.

Senpai saw a figure running towards him in the distance. Oh no… it's him.

Jayson has come to do the deed. He's coming to cripple senpai. Well, there wasn't anything he could do. There's no escape from this. You have to reap what you sow. Senpai forced his eyes shut and braced for an attack.

"MOVE IT!" jayson shouted as he pushed senpai to the ground and ran past him, heading in the direction of the school.

Huh, Maybe jayson has forgiven senpai. Maybe he realized that it's wrong to hurt somebody for something they didn't mean to do. maybe something more important has taken jayson's time Or maybe he thinks senpai isn't worth the effort. Either way, senpai was safe… for now.


Jayson Stone breathed rapidly as he sprinted onto the grounds of aka-demi high.

He knew exactly what yan-chan meant when she said she'd end it where it began. Yeah, she's not very original.

As jayson ran through the hallways of the school, he bumped into his homeroom teacher, Miss. Rino.

"Mister Stone, explain to me exactly where you were for second period" she demanded, angry that two of her students failed to complete their final exam.

"i don't have time for this!" jayson shouted as he pushed her out of the way and then climbed the stairs to the rooftop and opened the double doors.

She stood there, wearing her school uniform, hands behind her back, gazing down and watching as students and faculty alike all left the school.

"don't… you… dare" jayson said in an intimidating tone. This was the first time he had used the tone towards her.

"everybody looks like ants from up her" she said, her back turned to him. "that's all this school is to us, isn't it? A tiny, insignificant dirt mound. The students and faculty, ants… insects for us to kill and torture just because we're bored. We have nothing better to do, we use murder, death and violence as a form of entertainment" her voice was deadpanned. No emotion, no care. Just empty.

The old yan-chan has returned. the emotionless one. the one that looks upon the world with a deadpanned expression. "is it wrong for us to do what we do? Are we bad people? Are we monsters? Do we deserve death? Or is that too good for us?"

"what are you talking about?" jayson asked.

"nothing. Just thinking out loud" she turned around, revealing her face to him. Her eyes were bloodshot. her mouth in a saddened frown. The skin of her cheeks were moist, meaning that she had been crying recently. "i honestly didn't think you would find me" she said.

"i know you better then you know yourself" she giggled at his remark. That giggle wasn't a form of laughter. it was empty. a forced expression.

"that's right. I forgot about that. You know what's funny? You know everything about me. you know my favorite foods. My favorite outfits. Where I live. my devotion towards my senpai" She stated "you even knew that I wouldn't mind if you killed others. Yet, you never explained how or why you knew so much"

jayson said no words.

"it takes a lot of time and devotion to know every single thing about someone. You'd have to watch them for almost every moment of their life. Is that what you've been doing?" she asked. "are you stalking me, jayson?"

Oh shit…

"there would be only two reasons to stalk me. Reason one, you are a homosexual and you want to steal senpai from me. so you gained my trust, made me think I was your friend and then you'd stab me in the back and take senpai for yourself" she glared "reason two, you are in love with me. You think about me everyday and every night. I am the star of your fantasies. I am your obsession. You are completely devoted to me. I am your goddess. So tell me, which one is it? Reason one? Or reason two?"

"why are you doing this?" he asked.

"don't dodge my questions. Answer me!" her glare intensified. "what's wrong? Are you afraid to answer? Don't be scared. We're friends, remember?" her voice sounded so venomous. So threatening. yet, so sweet and innocent at the same time.

Jayson could feel his body tense up as she spoke. Fear kept creeping into his mind, but he wouldn't show it. This was a game of dominance. She wants him to feel fear.

"you probably though I was going to kill myself. You were right, I was. But in what I though were my final moments, I looked back on my life. For fifteen years, my parents isolated me from the outside world. I never had friends. I never went outside. All I did was watch television and read books. That was my life for fifteen years" she said. "and then I thought about you. The time you and me spent together. And I noticed that something wasn't right. Can you fill in the blanks for me, jayson?"

"what if I don't want to answer?" jayson asked.

"then i will attack you" she stated.

"do you really think you can take me on? I'd wipe the floor with you" he glared at her, trying to use intimidation to cull and scare the beast inside.

"no you won't. If my suspicions are correct, and they always are, You won't lay a hand on me. You can't do it. Why can't you do it?" she asked. "your hands are shaking, jayson. Is something bothering you? Are you scared? Do you want me to come over there and hug you to death?" she grinned sadistically.

"you're really going to toy with me like this? After everything I've done for you?" he asked in a betrayed tone.

"I'm not toying with you, jayson. I'm asking simple questions. You are toying with me for not answering them. I won't hurt you, I give you my word, And I am a woman of my word" she was not. jayson knew this. she's a liar and a deceiver. she manipulates and controls. jayson could have done the same. he could have lied, but he didn't. it was those eyes, they control him, they own him. because he's a dog, a collared dog, and she holds his leash.

"yes… I'm in love with you" he admitted.

"I KNEW IT!" she yelled, pointing her finger at him in anger. "YOU PERVERTED SUCKLING LITTLE PIG! I KNEW I SHOULD HAVE KILLED YOU! IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT! YOU'VE RUINED MY FUTURE WITH MY SENPAI! YOU'VE TAKEN EVERYTHING THAT I HOLD DEAR AND CRUSHED IT! YOU BROKE MY HEART!"

"I'm sorry" that was all he said.

"why? Why do you love me?" she asked, returning to her glare. "answer me, dog!"

"because when I look at you, I see someone who is just like me. You will never judge me for my actions. You will never call me a murderer. You will never become disgusted by me. You will never break my heart the same way Katherine broke mine" he explained. "that's another reason. She broke my heart, the same way you feel right now, was the same way I felt. I was going to jump off this very same roof, in the exact same spot where you're standing"

"but you didn't go through with it" she grinned, satisfied that she had gotten her answer. "it's because you're weak!"

"no. it's because I saw you, hiding behind a sakura tree. I saw your eyes all the way from up here. After that, I felt the pain in my heart go away. The aching stopped. You made it stop. You saved my life, whether you knew it or not. The same way I feel about you is the same way I felt about Katherine, and it's the same way you feel about senpai" jayson said from the bottom of his heart.

"was I just a replacement? Were you using me as some sort of pain relief?" yan-chan asked.

"at first. But as I watched you from afar. As I saw you kill other people for some guy who didn't even know you existed, I knew I had found the right one. The perfect lover, You… Ayana Satsujin-koibito. My beloved, beautiful, yandere-chan" his words only made her anger build, to the point where it looked like she was going to explode.

"you are so captivating, so utterly gorgeous when you're angry. Your glare of pure rage freezes me from the inside. I'm paralyzed with fear, yet my heart is beating faster then ever, all because of you" he smiled warmly.

"I'LL KILL YOU!" she yelled in pure, unadulterated hatred as she charged into jayson.

She forced him against the railing of the rooftop while pressing her butterfly knife, the knife that he had given her, against his neck. He had two choices, die by the hand of gravity, or die by the hands of his true love.

"FILTHY DOUBLE CROSSER! ALL THIS TIME, I THOUGHT YOU WERE MY FRIEND! MY ONLY FRIEND! BUT YOU BETRAYED ME! YOU THINK YOU'RE BETTER THEN SENPAI? YOU THINK YOU HOLD A CANDLE TO HIS DIVINITY? WELL YOU DON'T! HE IS BETTER THEN YOU! THERE IS NO ONE BETTER THEN MY DARLING SENPAI!" she yelled as tears began falling from her eyes. She was crying? Why? Was she sad because jayson had hurt her? Was she recalling all of their moments of friendship? Did she really feel betrayed? Or was she reliving the pain of heartbreak? A pain that jayson knew all to well. he was about to die. yet, the only emotion that he was feeling now, was nothing but sympathy towards his killer. her heart is broken beyond repair. the damage cannot be fixed and she will remain forever changed.

Jayson knows this because he felt the same thing. even with that heartbreaking slut's body rotting away in some alley, jayson never truly moved on. but maybe that was for the best. he heard that being blue was better then being over it. lets people know that you've still got a heart.

"why are you just standing there? SAY SOMETHING!" yan-chan shouted as the tears kept falling.

"please stop crying. it breaks my heart to see you like this" jayson said in a concerned tone. she looked at him in shock. "what? you didn't want me to say that? fine, what should i say?" he asked.

"ARE YOU SERIOUS? YOU SHOULD BE BEGGING FOR YOUR LIFE! YOU SHOULD BE GETTING DOWN ON YOUR KNEES, SAYING THAT YOU'LL DO WHATEVER I WANT! WHY? WHY ARE YOU NOT AFRAID? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?"

"nothing is wrong with me. I'm just waiting for you to kill me. Do it, my love. Set me free. I'm ready to die"

Her hands were shaking at incredible speeds. her breathing became frantic. The tears fell from her eyes even faster then before and a look of pure terror was on her face.

"you can't do it, can you?" jayson asked in a concerned tone. "don't show me mercy, because I don't deserve it. I've done horrible things, beloved. The world would be a better place without me" he closed his eyes and breathed in deep. No struggle, no fighting back. This was his end, and he was more then happy to see it through.

He couldn't help but feel happiness. No more medications for his schizophrenia. No more appointments with doctor Naomi. No more hatred or anger towards senpai. No more keeping secrets from his beloved. His conscience, if he ever had one, was finally clear. His mind at ease. The weights of burden, lifted from his shoulders. His story is over.

Yan-chan however…

DO IT! KILL HIM! YOU MUSTN'T! PLEASE, LET HIM LIVE! BLEED HIM LIKE THE DISGUSTING PIG HE IS! HE LOVES YOU! YOU HATE HIM! YOU SAVED HIS LIFE! YOU MUST END HIS LIFE! SENPAI DOESN'T WANT YOU ANYMORE! MOVE ON! WE WILL MAKE SENPAI WANT YOU! AFTER EVERYTHING JAYSON HAS DONE FOR YOU! THIS IS HOW YOU REPAY HIM? HE LIED TO YOU! HE PROTECTED YOU! YOU DIDN'T NEED PROTECTION!

YOU AND HIM ARE ONE AND THE SAME! YOU ARE NOTHING LIKE HIM! LET HIM LIVE! MAKE HIM SUFFER!

SPARE HIM! KILL HIM! FOLLOW YOUR HEART! OBEY YOUR INSTINCTS!

"STOP!" she shouted. "THE VOICES! MAKE THEM STOP!" she backed away while clutching her skull as tight as possible.

"what's wrong?" jayson asked, worried for his beloved.

YOU CAN'T DO THIS! YOU MUST DO THIS! IT'S WRONG! BUT IT FEELS SO RIGHT!

"PLEASE! MAKE THEM STOP!" she begged in pain as she clutched her skull harder. Tears falling from her eyes incredibly fast.

"make what stop? Tell me what's wrong!" jayson said in worry.

"MY HEAD!… IT HURTS!" The pain was just too much, the voices were so loud. They just kept yelling. They wouldn't stop yelling.

she screamed at the top of her lungs in pain and agony before collapsing to the floor, unconscious.