A/N: So, guess what? I'm not dead!
I was messing around the archives of the story for some odd reason. Scoffing at all the mistakes I've made in this story, when I came across this draft that I cut out of chapter 20: moving on.
This draft started when Jayson asks Yandere-chan if she'd like to go to the mall so she can take her mind off Senpai, due to his monstrous act of breaking our poor murdering psycho's heart. That part is in the actual chapter, but Yan-chan rejects the idea, saying that she'd rather be alone.
Don't get me wrong. I've cut a lot of stuff out of this story and had so many ideas and scenarios that will probably never get used. I save these cut drafts in case there is a certain paragraph or dialog that I may use later.
Looking back. I can't ever understand why I cut this draft. It was so good! Why did I cut it out!?
Well as I was reading through this cut chapter, I thought it was too good to just be forgotten. So I finished it up and now I'm going to use it for the rewrite of this story, which is still going to happen. Just gotta wait for the game to get done.
So, consider this a sort of 'sneak peek'.
The time was 3:50 PM. Saturday.
She soon returned downstairs after dressing herself and saw Jayson sitting outside on one of the chairs on Yan-chan's patio.
It was a rather nice day today, much better then the horrible thunderstorm of yesterday. Instead of the freezing rain and wet ground, everything was bright and sunny with the occasional cool wave of wind. The people who walked down the streets also reflected this change. Yesterday, everyone was wearing or using raincoats and umbrellas. Now everyone is wearing regular, everyday clothing.
Yan-chan could hear birds chirping in the tree that stood in her backyard. She could see her next door neighbor wave to her while walking his dog. Little kids were playing in the street, riding bikes.
Today was odd… but it was a good kind of odd. This small little village is usually so quiet and bland. But today, it was teeming with life. Everyone had smiles on their faces. People were happy.
Oddly, this sight made Yan-chan feel… nice.
She sighed in contentment as she sat in the chair next to Jayson.
"nice outfit. You look good" he commented.
"so how are we getting to the mall?" Yan-chan asked. The mall was all the way in sisuta town. A rather far distance by foot.
"we're hitching a ride" Jayson explained.
"who's driving?"
"GET IN LOSERS! WE'RE GOING SHOPPING!" a silver convertible pulled up to Yan-chan's house. Info-chan was seen in the driver's seat with a smile of excitement on her face. She always has that look when someone even mentions shopping. Jayson honestly thought she had issues when it came to purchasing items, especially clothing. Have you seen her closet? It's filled to the brim with stuff she hasn't even worn yet. It got to the point where she and Jayson had to share a closet due to her not having enough room for her shoes.
Jayson hated those shoes. So many high heels… so many high heels.
(this part would then transition to the scene in chapter 20. where you read about Yandere-chan's father in America. That chapter finishes with her father being dragged back into his hotel room by Yandere-chan's mother, after Yan-Dad calls to check on his daughter)
The time was 4:46 PM. Japanese time. Location: sisuta town, Japan.
"I love you too" Ayana said before she hung up. A small smile crept its way onto her face.
"you okay?" Jayson asked, smiling at her.
"he called me. My father called me" her smile only grew. Now at least one of her worries had been eased. She knew her family was safe. They'd be home soon. Then after that, her mother can help her get this whole mess with Senpai straightened out.
"are you just going to sit there or are you going to finish your food so we can get back to shopping?" Info-chan asked in an annoyed tone.
The three of them were sitting at a table in the food court of the mall, sating their appetites before continuing their stereotypical teenage shopping experience.
Yan-chan just ignored Info-chan and continued eating her food.
The mall was rather packed today. Many people who were both teenagers and adults were walking through the large complex. Some of the teens were students of aka-demi high, Yan-chan even recognized many of her classmates who would give her a proper hello and goodbye or walk up and have a conversation with her, asking if she was okay.
She honestly didn't expect anyone to recognize her. She always thought she blended in with the background, but now she could see that she was wrong to assume this.
She only felt more wrong when Jayson had told her how badly everyone was worried when she didn't show up for school yesterday.
She never really thought that so many people would care like that. People she barely knew were concerned for her safety and well being.
Wow…
okay, back on topic.
Many females walked out of expensive clothing stores while carrying their weights worth in shopping bags. If the female had a boyfriend, then that poor sod was to become a pack mule for his female companion, carrying all of her bags for her.
Sadly, Jayson was one such pack mule, and an over worked one at that. He was forced to carry both the bags of Yan-chan and his older sister.
Yan-chan personally hated how Jayson insisted on carrying her things while being forced to carry his sister's items.
Yan-chan bought a few things. Some new tops, some matching bras and panties, a new pair of shoes. That was really it. All of her items came from the same store. she really didn't buy that much, due to her limited amount of funds.
Her money mostly came from whatever she could find during her day to day life. Some student leaves a few yen on his desk? It's not there when he gets back!
Her mother mostly handled the shopping for her. Whenever mother wanted to go get her hair done, Yan-chan would go with her. And maybe she'd get a few new outfits, if mother was in a good mood.
You know, maybe Yan-chan should get a part time job or something. She'd take whatever work she could find. But not fast food, gross. Maybe she should learn how to drive a car while she's at it.
"seriously, Onee-chan. Did you buy half the entire mall?!" Jayson asked as his sister.
"you think that's a lot? Wait till tomorrow! The rest has to be delivered to our house!"
"how much did this all cost!"
"you don't wanna know! Luckily, it's not our bank account that's going to be paying for it" Info-chan said smugly. Indicating that she must be using the funds from someone else. Probably illegally.
Don't get her wrong. Yan-chan likes shopping just as much as the next hormone crazed teenage girl, but Info-chan, she has problems. Every store they went in, she had almost cleared out. snagging almost every item off the shelves.
"hello? Anyone home?" Info-chan said as she snapped her fingers in Yan-chan's face, breaking her from her thought induced trance.
Of all the people to go shopping with, why did it have to be the psychopathic murderer? Why did Jayson have to drag her here? The answer was obvious. He wants his older sister to grow a bond and befriend this freak.
He's trying to make sure his future wife and his older sister get along. Well that's not going to happen. Don't get her wrong. Yan-chan is… okay, as far as psycho standards go. These two just don't see eye to eye, that's all.
Honestly, Info-chan doesn't know what Jayson see's in her. If you remove the whole unfeeling murderer personality, all you have left is this shrinking violet that's barely noticeable. This person who fits into crowds too well. A blank slate. An empty shell.
"huh? Did you say something?" Yan-chan asked, coming back to the real world.
"forget it" Info-chan rolled her eyes. "I'm going to go get my hair done. You two stay here and be all… lovey-dovey" she walked away.
"what's her problem?" Yan-chan asked, referring to the attitude of Jayson's sister.
"nothing. She's just in a bad mood" Jayson dismissed.
"she bought half of the entire mall without having to pay for it, basically getting everything for free at someone else's expense while giggling like a first year school girl, and she's in a bad mood?" Yan-chan asked.
"yeah, she's weird like that" Jayson said while throwing his soda into the garbage can. "so where you wanna go next?" he asked. Yan-chan didn't respond however. She stared off into some random direction in the mall until her eyes landed on… him.
"i thought today was no-Senpai day? Remember?" Jayson asked after sighing. He then used Info-chan's method of snapping fingers in Yan-chan's face. "earth to Beautiful. Respond"
"what? Ohh… sorry, I spaced out there" she said.
Yeah, that's been happening a lot. Whenever she sat still or saw anything that remotely reminded her of he who shall not be named, she'd just drift off into dreamland where she fantasizes about bare chested senpai. Okay, maybe she doesn't fantasize and instead loses herself in straining thought. But the effect is still the same and it became annoying for Jayson to keep 'waking her up' after this happened.
"you okay?" he asked. "you've been blanking out a lot, more then usual"
"it's just… look at him!" she shouted while turning towards his direction. "going about his business! Pretending nothing is wrong! Not knowing that he's cut a hole in my heart! And it's bleeding! Arrgh! It's bleeding! It's drowning to death in a pool of it's own blood!" she shouted as she held her hand over her aforementioned organ.
Okay… people are starting to stare.
Senpai was just… standing there, looking into a glass display while his little sister was standing at his side. Yan-chan hated that little brat. If she ever gets the chance, she's going to tear out little Imouto's organs, cook them and force the little incest slut to eat them. It was no fair. Why does that little bitch get to have Senpai's amazing blood coursing through her veins? Why does she get to be made of the same flesh as Senpai?
"maybe we should get out of here" Jayson suggested.
"fine. But I still want to go get my mani-pedi" Yan-chan said.
"alright, lets move" he said as he gathered all their bags and retook his role as pack mule as they walked into the salon, which did both hair and nails. It was here you could see Info-chan relaxing as the employees worked tirelessly on her crimson red hair.
Jayson did what all guys do when they enter this dreaded place. Sit in the corner, on the waiting chair while looking at the hot models in the magazines.
"just a mani-pedi, sweetheart?" the woman working the desk asked Yan-chan.
"yeah… and maybe a shampoo for my hair. That would be great would be great too"
"you got it, Cutie"
Jayson yawned as he laid back into the uncomfortable waiting chair while watching Yan-chan get ready for her mani… whatever the fuck they call it.
She sits down on that rather comfy looking chair, taking off her well worn sneakers and slowly sliding off her tight knee socks. An entertaining show for our male yandere.
God, her feet are amazing. So smooth… so pale… the way those toes wiggled. What he wouldn't give for just a quick kiss of her soles. Inhaling the scent… showing her how much she means to him. Letting him worship her and all her perfection.
He sighed. At this rate, that will never happen. Not until the worm who destroyed her heart is dealt with and properly punished for his actions. Jayson promised that he'd make Senpai suffer. He never breaks a promise.
"you have really amazing feet. You must take great care of them" Jayson glared hard at the woman who said that as she fulfilled the task of perfecting and pampering those freaking amazing feet.
Lucky bitch…
The time was 5:04 PM.
"c'mon Onii-sama! Mom is waiting for us!" Imouto whined.
"all right. All right" Senpai said.
"cute sister you got there. I really wish me and my little sister were as close as you two" The store clerk said as he handed Senpai his recently purchased manga.
"no you don't" Senpai said as they began walking out.
God, he hated going to the mall with imouto. It's here of all places where the whine factor goes up to a hundred.
Senpai sighed. He really wasn't himself today. He'd normally be a very patient and kind guy, but after yesterday, well… things have changed. This isn't a permanent change. Senpai just woke up on the wrong side of the bed, that's all.
But he was very bothered today. He couldn't stop thinking about Ayana. He kept replaying her love confession in his head over and over. Focusing on every word she said.
Crushing on him for over two years? Wow, she's dedicated. He'll give her that.
He was perfect for her? He didn't really think so. He thought he was the worst possible choice for her.
Then he remembered the form she took after Senpai cruelly tore out her heart and stomped on it. She just fell to the floor, sobbing. Her tears of pain and heartbreak covered by the hood of her raincoat.
Then after that, Senpai was told that she wasn't seen in school for the whole day. Did he really hurt her so bad that she couldn't even go to school? And on the day of the final exam too.
But the news that Senpai heard after that made him feel even worst. She tried to kill herself. She tried to jump off the rooftop but apparently Jayson was there to save her. That must have been why he dashed past Senpai while he was walking home from school. He was running to stop Ayana.
Thank god he did stop her. Senpai couldn't live with himself if he knew she threw away her life because of him. He never really thought she'd go that far… another testament to how narrow minded Senpai is when it comes to love. How could anyone devote two years to such a moron like him?
Maybe… maybe Senpai was wrong. Maybe he should get together with Ayana, at least for a few days. Try to make things right and patch up their relationship. Then when he and his family leave so Senpai can attend collage, he'll try to get Ayana to come to his school next year. Then they can have a collage romance.
Senpai said he wasn't ready for love. But is it really something you're ever truly ready for? And even if Senpai said he wasn't perfect for Ayana, perfection doesn't really exist. Everyone is different. They have their bad sides and their good sides.
Ayana would have looked passed Senpai's bad spots in order to see the good ones. He should have done the same for her.
He nodded to himself in determination. He was going to set things right.
"okay, that'll be six-thousand and two-hundred yen, sweetie" the salon cashier said.
When Yan-chan opened her purse and pulled out her wallet from within, she sighed when she opened it. Empty. Her funds are all dried up. Now how is she going to pay for this?
"here, it's on me" Jayson said as he handed the exact amount of yen to the cashier.
Yan-chan sighed in relief. Thank god for him. he really is her guardian angel.
"thank you so much, Jayson"
"just promise to not throw yourself off of rooftops anymore, Beautiful" He smiled.
"aww, you two are adorable!" the woman manning the cash register said. "how long have you been together"
"oh… we're… umm" Yan-chan blushed.
"well we're not really… I… um…" Jayson stuttered.
"we're just friends" they both said at the same time. It sounded like the most painful thing you'd ever hear. Like they were both suffering from inside.
"well that's a shame. You would make the most the most cutest couple, has anyone ever told you that?"
"yeah… yeah they have" Yan-chan sighed.
"well, have a good day" the woman said as they both walked away.
"wow. That looked embarrassing. What is up with you two?" Info-chan asked as she walked ahead.
Wow… just wow…
That was painful. But, why though? Why was it painful for Yan-chan to admit that they were just friends? That was the truth, right? There is nothing like that going on between them. They're just really close friends. Like… brother- sister close!
So why was it so difficult to admit that? Why did it feel so wrong? Why did it feel like hot lava was boiling in her throat when she said that?
Was their friendship evolving into something different? Something new?
Yeah… something was happening. Lately, Yan-chan has been noticing the way Jayson looks at her. His attention is always one-hundred percent focused on her. Was he always looking at her like that?
He always listened to whatever she said and held onto every word. Rarely trying to derail the conversation. Did he always listen to her like that?
He also followed her no matter where she went. Staying by her side. Never leaving her unless she told him too. He even followed her into parts of the mall that no man would dare go into. Stores that every guy would dread and avoid at all costs but here he was, following loyally. Did he always follow like that?
Then there was what had happened just now. She ran out of money to pay for her salon treatment. And Jayson just put down his own funds without being asked. He didn't even ask to be paid back later. He just told her to stop trying to kill herself in the most caring tone possible. Did he always care like that?
"wake up, Ayana!" Jayson shouted as Yan-chan crashed into some other girl.
"ouch! Watch where you're going!" Imouto? Oh no…
"Are you okay?" Senpai asked his sister as he helped her up.
"you alright, Beautiful?" Jayson asked as he helped Yan-chan up and brushed a little dirt of her skirt.
"oh, Ayana-chan… Weird seeing you here, huh?" Senpai asked in an embarrassed tone.
Awkward…
She began shaking slightly as her eyes stared into Senpai's.
"look… about yesterday" he never got to finish his sentence before she ran away as fast as possible.
"Ayana-chan! Wait!" Senpai shouted. "what's wrong with her?"
"congratu-fucking-lations, Romeo. You just ruined no-Senpai-day" Jayson said in a hateful tone as he glared hard into Senpai's eyes.
"no-Senpai day? i just wanted to apologize…"
"just stop" Jayson said. "whatever sweet little idea you have to make her fall madly in love with you again is not going to work. You're only doing more damage. You set off a fire that's burning her from the inside, and now you're just feeding the flame"
"stop making me look like I'm some bad guy!"
"oh look. Now he cares more about his image rather then the heart of the girl he just rejected and left alone to cry" Jayson clapped. "Stay away. You've already broken her heart beyond repair. Haven't you done enough damage?"
When Senpai tried to move past Jayson, he clenched his fist in Senpai's face. Showing him what would happen if he got too close. Senpai backed away out of fear.
"I'll say it only once. If you go near her, I will force you to listen to the sounds of me cracking and shattering every bone in your body" he threatened in a tone filled with poisonous venom.
"you don't really mean that, do you?" Senpai asked as Jayson picked up the shopping bags Yan-chan dropped.
"there are exactly two-hundred and six bones in the human body. I know how to break every one of them without killing you" Jayson said before walking away, leaving Senpai paler then an albino vampire.
"what a bully" Imouto said.
Yan-chan was outside the mall, sitting down at a bus stop. Not waiting for one to come and take her home, she just wanted to rest her legs. They had began aching due to how fast Yan-chan had ran away.
Sky sighed at herself and proceeded to stare down at her aching legs.
Lets face it… Senpai doesn't and never will want Yan-chan. He has no place for her in his heart. Two years of hard work, all her wasted efforts, all the people she's killed for him, the lives she's taken in his name. all in vein.
What's the point of going on with it now? She's already lost. Game over, man! Game over!
"i give up…" she said in a pained whisper as a single tear fell from her face.
"there you are" Jayson said as he sat down next to her. Loyal guardian angel comes when needed. She was actually about to go find him.
The two looked into each others eyes for awhile.
Jayson held out his arms wide. "come on, get it out of your system" he said.
Yan-chan then latched onto his torso while burying her face in his chest. Crying and weeping as much as possible, using her best friend as a sort of security blanket.
Jayson just sat there quietly and wrapped his arms around her as she did the same with him. Just leaving her to vent. Letting all these negative feelings leave her.
"I… I really…"
"shh… don't speak. Just let it all out" He said softly as she continued crying while using his sweater as a makeshift handkerchief.
He sighed as he sat still. Sure, this was something he never wanted to happen. He never wanted Yan-chan to break down and cry but… it felt nice, being here when she needs him. Comforting her.
She then stopped. Apparently there were no more tears left for her to cry. Now she was just whimpering and sobbing.
"feel better?"
"a little…"
"good" Jayson said. Yan-chan never moved from her resting position on Jayson's chest.
She liked this… being close to him, feeling his chest expands and contract. Hearing the soothing sound of his heart beating. She felt more safer here then in her own home.
"so is this how you felt?" she asked. "after Kathrine?"
"i dunno… how do you feel?"
"in pain. I feel like somebody is beating me to a pulp. Like I'm being stabbed in the back over and over. Like I'm being strangled and choked while someone spits in my mouth"
"yeah… that's how I felt" Jayson said.
"i don't wish this pain on my worst enemy" She said.
"it gets better. I promise"
"Thank you, Jayson… For everything. You're always here when I need you. Thank you." she said with eternal gratitude.
"you're welcome"
A/N: See? Why did I cut this?!
Well. As long as we're here, let's talk about the rewrite and get you on the hype train.
When will I start the rewrite?
I originally wanted to wait until Yandere simulator was officially released, but wow… 2019? that's way too long of a wait just to read a fanfiction. So the rewrite is going to start once the names, personalities and appearances of all in game rivals have officially been released.
I need to know their full names, how they act, what they do and what they look like before I even start writing. That's pretty much the only reason the rewrite is not even started.
In this story, I was using original characters as the rivals. I want to use the official characters alongside some new original ones that I've been planning to add.
Yandere-chan will be addressed by whatever name she has in the game. Her current name in the game is Ayano Aishi. People in the story will still call her Yan-chan and Jayson will still use his little pet name 'Beautiful' for her.
Same goes for Senpai. If his name is Taro Yamada. Then he will be addressed as such, but will still be nicknamed Senpai.
Jayson Stone (my original character) is going through a remake. I'm giving him a whole new back story in the rewrite that will suit him much better and fall more accurately with the game and it's lore. He's still going to be the psychopathic, violent, Yandere-chan worshiping bastard we all love!
Yandere-chan's parents will play a more important role in the story, being upgraded from side characters to main characters.
The story is going to be a lot more darker and violent.
The ending is going to be SOOO much better.
Well that's it. I'm gonna leave this page up for awhile but it will be removed when the rewrite is started. Since this chapter will be in the rewrite.
Also, I need help on a new title for the story, I have some working titles but I'm not so sure.
Lovesick: Woes Of The Heart.
Lovesick: Heart Of Stone.
Lovesick: Crazy For You.
Lovesick: My Hearts Desire.
Lovesick: Give The Heart What It Wants
If you've got a better title, I'd love to hear it. I'd like something with the word "Heart" to signify the romance part of the story.
