"Come with me Haru" Rin begged "please"

Haru stared at Rin, he was asking him to drop everything and go Australia with him. True he could just start training, but how could he leave Makoto. Makoto who had always been beside him, could he really say goodbye to a huge part of his life?

"Makoto" Haru mumbled

"Makoto will be fine without you Haru" Rin snapped "I need you Haru, I cant do this without you"

Haru half nodded "Ok"

Rin smiled and hugged him whispering in his ear "Thank you so much"

Haru hoped he had made the right choice, Both Rin and Makoto were special to him. Makoto was studying to become a teacher that would keep him busy. Rin, like Haru, was focusing on his swimming career. Makoto would be fine without him, wouldn't he?


Makoto and Haru were standing face to face now, so many unsaid words hanging between them. Haru moved to the side inviting him in, Makoto walked in taking his shoes off. His apartment was small, but not distasteful it had a cosy feel to it. The air was thick with tension, Makoto fidgeted nervously.

"Have a seat" Haru said "I'll check dinner"

Makoto sat down and took in his surroundings, It looked like any normal apartment. All the neccisary furniture for living, couch, table, T.V etc. One thing caught his attention sitting on a shelf to the side of the room was a picture of the swim club in their last year. Makoto smiled sadly, what he wouldn't give to go back to those times.

"Would you like something to drink" Haru called from the kitchen

Makoto jumped up "oh damn I forgot the bottle of Sake I had for you"

Haru poked his head out "save it for next time"

Next time? Makoto thought "uh, ok well tea will be fine then"

Makoto sat in silence and watched as Haru set out the food and drinks. Not once had they ever been this awkward with each other, they used to spend most of their time together. People used to say they were joined at the hip. Makoto sighed sadly, his heart aching at the memories.

"Idatakimasu"

"Idatakimasu" Makoto took a bite "This is good Haru, you always were a good cook"

"Thank you" Haru mumbled

This felt so wrong, polite conversation as if they were strangers, it was simply ridiculous. They ate their food in silence apart from Makoto praising Haru's cooking every now and then. Makoto went over and over in his head how he was going ask all the questions he wanted answered.

"Goschiso sama deshita" Makoto placed his chopsticks down "would like help cleaning up?"

Haru shook his head and began cleaning up. Makoto was starting to wonder what the point in coming here was, they hadn't talked about anything. All of it just made his heart ache, part of him wished he had remember the Sake, he could really use something strong to drink right now. Makoto sighed and stood up, he had to get Haru talking otherwise this whole night would be pointless. Standing in the kitchen he watched Haru washing the dishes.

"Haru" He began "I-I need to know, why did you leave without saying anything"

Haru stopped washing the bowl and looked up at Makoto "I meant to tell you, but I couldn't bring myself to"

Makoto stared at Haru mixture of anger and sadness swirling around in him "And you couldn't give me simple phone call or an email in the last few years? It never crossed your mind how I was feeling?" Makoto snapped his anger winning out.

Haru looked down "You never got them?" it was so soft Makoto nearly didn't hear him

"Get what? The last time I heard from you was the night before you vanished and we had dinner together"

Haru dried his hands and motioned to the lounge room "Let's sit down and I will tell you what happened"

Makoto followed Haru and joined him on the couch, Haru looked down at his hands and took a deep breath "Rin came to see me about a week before I left with him, he was not himself and I was worried about him so I invited him out to dinner. He was struggling with his training again, it looked like it had been affecting him bad, he hadn't been eating or sleeping properly. He was completely different"

Makoto looked down at his hands, he had always known Haru cared deeply about Rin, it seems he cared a lot more then Makoto realised. "Haru do you love Rin?" Haru looked up suddenly "I mean its ok if you do, I-I have no problem with two guys….i mean look at Nagisa and Rei"

"I did" Haru said simply "That night after we finished dinner Rin asked me to go back to Australia with him. He cried telling me he loved me and he needed me to get through this. I believed everything he said, but I didn't want to leave you either. You were so busy with your studies I didn't want to burden you with anything, so I left without saying goodbye"

The pain in Makoto chest was making it hard to breath "I was so worried about you Haru, I searched everywhere for you and when I couldn't find you i-i…." Against his will tears began pouring out "part of me died when you left Haru. I quit my studies, I spent a year drinking away the pain until my captain found me helplessly drunk at a bar on the verge of loosing my apartment and everything"

Haru looked into Makoto's eyes "I did try to call you"

Makoto pasued wiping his eyes "W-what?"

"I tried calling you and sending letters" Haru said looking down at his hands

Makoto looked confused "My number hasn't changed, although my address has"

"Rin didn't…." Haru was cut off by a banging on his door

"Haru!" came Rin's voice

"Speak of the devil and he shall appear" Haru mumbled getting up and walking to the door "Go away Rin!"

"Let me in Haru, I just want to talk"

"I'm busy!" Haru replied turning away from the door "Makoto's here"

"So you leave me in Australia to come back here without any contact what so ever to be with your beloved Makoto!"

Haru had left Australia without telling Rin, Makoto could sympathsise with Rin on how that would feel. But Makoto doubted coming back had anything to do with him.

"Just go away Rin" Haru yelled "Your drunk"

Makoto stood up and walked over to the door "I think I should leave, we can finish this another time"

"No please stay Makoto" Haru unlocked the door and opened it a crack "Rin go back to Sosuke"

Rin pushed on the door forcing Haru back a step bumping into Makoto. Makoto relfelxably put his hands on Haru's shoulders to help him balance. This didn't go unnoticed by Rin who narrowed his eyes at Makoto.

"So even after everything you two are back to how you used to be" Rin spat

Makoto blushed letting go over Haru's shoulders "No Rin, I'm here because I was giving Haru a chance to explain everything"

"Rin just go or I'll call the cops" Haru warned

"tch, I am the cops bitch!"

Haru rolled his eyes "The sober one's dumbass"

Makoto couldn't contain the little giggle that escaped his lips "I'm sorry, it was like being back in school with you two"

Rin attempted a glare but looked more confused "Shut up Makoto you're always the nice one who always defused the fights"

Haru's phone started ringing from inside, he excused himself to go answer it. Makoto and Rin stood awkwardly quiet. Haru was back in a flash holding his phone out to Rin "It's Sosuke, he is worried about you"

Rin sighed "Tell him I'm fine"

Haru had the phone up to his ear "He's not fine he's drunk, uh huh, ok, bye" Haru looked up at RIn "He's coming to pick you up now"

Makoto took a step towards the door "I better get going to, as much fun as this is, I have work in the morning"

Rin groaned "Shit I have work tomorrow to, I shouldn't of drank"

Haru rolled his eyes "Please stay Makoto"

Makoto hesitated part of him deperatly wanting to stay, the other telling him it was a bad idea. "No I should go we can talk again another time" He said putting his shoes on "Thank you for dinner it was really good"

Haru looked defeated but nodded "I'll text you"

Makoto nodded saying goodbye to them both making his way downstairs. Half way down he passed Sosuke, He got here fast he thought. They awkwardly nodded at eachother and went their separate ways. Makoto let a sigh of relief escape his lips as he walked through his door, Ruka greeting him by rubbing up against his legs. Picking Ruka up he went and layed on his bed without changing. He still didn't fully understand why Haru had left but he understood enough to know that he had loved Rin that much he willing followed him.

Makoto put a hand to his chest where his heart ached, why did it hurt so much to know Haru had loved someone else. Confused by his own feelings Makoto rolled over letting the darkness swallow him up into a dreamless sleep.


A/N

Sorry it took longer then i thought, i made it a little long since i didnt know where to stop haha

Also my university classes start soon so i may not update as often, although i will try hard to :)

Please enjoy and let me know what you think :D