Trigger warning!
i'm so so so so so so so sorry! DX
Sorry to everyone who read this before i could add that i totally forgot to put it there
i realised today while i was staring at blueberries (i sort and pack blueberries as a job atm)
please forgive me
"Kisumi!"
Makoto could have sworn the name echoed of the hills, what was he doing here? Wasn't he in jail? So many questions flooded his brain. Haru had stepped in front of him like a shield, which warmed Makoto's heart. He softly grabbed Haru by the shoulders and gently pushed him to the side.
"It's ok Haru I'm fine" he cringed as his voice shook a little betraying him "I will be fine" he whispered again more to himself than anyone else.
Kisumi looked around at them awkwardly "Uh, sorry I'll…um get someone else to teach you all" he turned his head and called out to the burgundy haired instructor talking to another group "Asahi!"
Makoto looked at Haru "Asahi?" he whispered, Haru shrugged his shoulders in respone.
The burgundy haired instructor excused himself from the other group and walked over "Kisumi what's the…." He spotted Haru and Makoto "Oh my god! Haru, Makoto! Long-time no see"
Haru nodded in response "Yeah it's been awhile" Makoto said rubbing the back of his neck "How long have you worked here?"
Asahi shrugged "not long a couple weeks" He looked at Kisumi standing awkwardly to the side "So what was the problem Kisumi"
"I uh I can't teach this group" He said looking down at the ground
Asahi raised an eyebrow confused "Why not? Aren't most of these guys your friends?"
Kisumi rubbed the back of his neck "Uh it's a long story"
Asahi begrudgingly agreed to swap groups telling Kisumi he owed him dinner later. Their lessons went about as well as anyone expected, Haru and Rin were naturals, Nagisa was a little over enthusiastic and ended up crashing into trees with a flustered and worried Rei following him, and then there was Makoto. Makoto stood wobbly trying his hardest to stay balanced.
"Ok that's good" Asahi praised him "Now slide one foot forward then the other"
Makoto carefully slid on foot forward but lost balanced falling backwards on his backside. He cursed under his breath "I'm just not meant to ski" he chuckled turning to Haru and Rin who had been patiently waiting for him "You guys go have fun, I might just go sit in front of the fire"
"I'll join you" Sousuke said "It's not safe for me to ski"
Rin snickered "Bullshit you just don't want to let everyone see you fall over"
Sousuke glared at Rin "I'll have you know I am a great skier; I just don't feel like doing it today"
"Sure sure" Rin chuckled "We will meet you guys back in the lounge later"
Haru glanced at Makoto worriedly, then headed for the ski lifts without a word Rin following behind him. Makoto sighed taking his ski's off, Sousuke offered him a hand to get up "Come on let's go defrost by the fire"
Makoto chuckled at the irony of someone helping him up "Sounds good"
"Makoto!" Asahi called from behind him "can I talk to you for a moment" He eyed Sousuke "alone"
"Uh ok" Makoto turned to Sousuke "I'll meet you inside"
Sousuke hesitated but nodded and headed in, Makoto turned to Asahi who had picked up the ski's "Been a while Asahi"
Asahi smiled at him "Way to long, but that happens when you grow up I guess" he paused smiling sadly "Well with you and Haru the exception, you guys will probably always be together"
Makoto blushed slightly, images of him and Haru earlier in the room flashed through his mind. "Maybe" he muttered
"Can I ask you something" Asahi said carefully as they walked to equipment shed "Did something happen between you guys and Kisumi?"
Makoto stopped in his tracks "Uh….well….it's complicated"
Asahi turned to him raising an eyebrow "All I know is I ran into Kisumi a few weeks ago, he told me he lost his job and seemed down so I offered to get him a job here with me for the winter months" They started walking again Makoto looking anywhere but at Asahi "Then the boss, who's also my uncle, calls me and tells me Kisumi has a criminal record, which shocked me since he's always been so nice, then you guys show up and he has that kind of reaction"
They stopped at the equipment shed and Asahi placed the ski's inside. "Asahi, I…."
Asahi held up a hand "I don't need to know what went on, but I want you to at least know this, Kisumi told me about 2 years ago he went through a hard time, he didn't elaborate on the subject and I didn't make him, but I just wanted you to take into consideration that he hasn't had it easy either"
Makoto had never thought about that; it had never accord to him that Kisumi had been acting out of character. "I-I should talk to him"
Asahi smiled and patted Makoto on the back "Good man, I feel like Ikuya should be here, it's like some weird dysfunctional reunion"
Makoto smiled, they walked back idly chatting about their middle school days, and what they had been up to after school. But in the back of his head Makoto could only think about Kisumi, wondering if maybe they had been too harsh on him. He found Sousuke sitting in an armchair by the fire looks as serious as ever. Makoto bid farewell to Asahi, who said they should all catch up before they leave, he sat silently down in an armchair across from Sousuke. He closed his eyes enjoying the warmth from the fire.
"Makoto" Sousuke's voice pulled him from his thoughts "I'm sorry we should have told you he got out on good behaviour and is on parole"
Makoto smiled "It's fine Sousuke, after talking to Asahi I feel like we may have been harsh on Kisumi"
Sousukes mouth dropped "He sexually assaulted you" He whispered hoarsely "Hell he would of raped you if we hadn't stepped in"
Makoto watched the flames dance "I know, and nothing will excuse him from that but I feel like there's something we don't understand"
"Still.." Sousuke muttered
Makoto turned to look at him "You and Rin were friends with him in elementary school, don't you think what he did was out of character?"
Sousuke stopped and thought about it for a moment "Well yeah, but people change"
"Maybe, but form what Asahi said I think something happened to him" Makoto smiled sadly
With that the conversation died, each lost in their own thoughts. Makoto wasn't sure he could fully forgive Kisumi for what had happened, but he wanted to know what had happened to change him so much. Memories from middle school played through his head, not once had Kisumi ever been mean, he was probably one of the nicest people he knew. Maybe just a little pushy when he tried to get them to join the basketball club, Makoto smiled fondly at his memories. He stood up, excusing himself telling Sousuke he wanted to go lay down for a while before dinner. He didn't like lying but he knew his friends wouldn't agree with him going to talk to Kisumi.
Makoto checked the bar area first, he figured at the very least he might find Asahi who would know where Kisumi was. But there sitting at the bar alone, was Kisumi. Makoto took a deep breath; he could do this. He sat down silently beside Kisumi, trying to find the right way to start the conversation.
"I'm sorry" it was so soft Makoto nearly missed it "I'm sorry Makoto"
Makoto turned to look at Kisumi meeting those Violet eyes for the first time since the incident "K-kisumi, why did you do it" The words tumbled out before he had time to think, Kisumi flinched at his words. He drank the last of his drink and ordered another 'the strongest drink you have'.
"Let me tell you a story Makoto" He said sipping his drink "It's about a man who would do anything for his little brother"
"Come on Hayato" Kisumi said smiling "lets have some fun before I have to leave"
Hayato frowned "I don't want Onii-chan to leave"
Kisumi knealt down to face his younger brother "I promise I'll call every day and come visit whenever I can ok"
Hayato pouted "Promise"
Kisumi held up his pinky finger "I pinky promise"
Hayato smiled and linked his pinky finger with his brothers "Pinky promise"
Kisumi smiled and picked his brother up putting him on his shoulders "Now let's go have some fun at the park before dinner"
The park was empty when they arrived and Hayato ran around excitedly playing on everything he could. Kisumi just sat watched his brother, he was really going to miss this when he left for university. He made sure to engrave every memory into his brain. Hayato's smiling face, his laugh, the way he called out onii-chan. A sad smile played on Kisumi's lips as he watched his brother slide down the slippery dip. Two men who were stumbling into the park caught his attention, they made a beeline to his brother.
Kisumi had a bad feeling so he ran over to Hayato "Come on Hayato time to go home"
Hayato simply nodded scared of the strangers that had just appeared. "aww don't leave yet, we wanted to play with you little boy" the shorter men said
The taller of the men tried to reach out and grab Hayato but Kisumi stood in his way, he couldn't make out the features to well as in the dusk lighting. The tall man snickered cruely "I'm not really into older boys but with a cute face like that I could make an exception"
His words slurred and swayed as he talked, Kisumi was 5'11 but this guy had to be at least 6'2, he looked well-built to. Unsure of whether Kisumi could take them on he turned and knealt down in front of his brother "Hayato listen to me ok" Hayato simply nodded to scared to speak "Go straight home, I won't be far behind"
"Onii-chan…" the little boy whimpered
Kisumi hugged him "I will be fine don't worry"
Hayato took a couple steps back as Kisumi stood back up to face the men. The two men looked at each other laughing, Kisumi attempted to punch them but he had never been much of a fighter. The taller man grabbed him and pinned him on the ground, he reaked of alcohol, he pushed him on his stomach.
"I'm going to enjoy this" his whispered into Kisumi's ear
Kisumi wiggled around trying desperately to free himself. "Onii-chan!" came Hayato's scream. Kisumis head shot up see his brother standing a few metres away tears streaming down the boys face.
"Go home Hayato!" Kisumi screamed as he felt his pants being ripped down "Please go Hayato, GO!" tears ran down Kisumi's face. The boy turned and ran out of the park, if anything he was able to save his brother.
All he ever wanted was to protect Hayato no matter what. He tried again to break free, but the shorter man slammed his head into the ground. Everything started to blur in front of Kisumi's eyes "H-hayato" he whispered picturing the boys smiling face before the darkness took him.
Makoto sat frozen in his chair as Kisumi finished his story "K-kisumi"
Kisumi shook his head wiping tears away "I don't want your sympathy Makoto, none of that excuses what I did"
Makoto was torn between his own fears and wanted to comfort Kisumi "I'm not sure if I can forgive you yet" Kisumi opened his mouth to speak but Makoto stopped him "But no one should have gone through what you did"
Kisumi finished his drink and looked Makoto in the eye "You wanted to know why I did it, part of it was because I have always liked you, your always so caring and sweet and would do anything to keep your friends happy" He looked down at his hands "The other part was because I guess I wanted someone else to hurt like I hurt, I didn't want to be alone"
A hand rested on Kisumi's shoulder shocking him "You're not alone now" Asahi said smiling at him
Makoto tenderly reached out his hand and placed it on Kisumi's "I-I want to be there for you to, I want to try to be friends again"
"Same goes for us I guess to" Makoto jumped at Haru's voice behind him
"Just don't try anything again" Rin said swinging his handcuffs around to make a point
"Why do you even have those here" Sousuke asked
Rin smiled mischievously "You never know when they come in handy"
"Keep it in the bedroom Rin-chan" Nagisa teased "Now that everything is all happy let's begin our Christmas celebration
Makoto turned back to Kisumi who was smiling through his tears. Despite the fact that Makoto said he couldn't forgive Kisumi, he knew he already had partially forgiven him, he could never hold a grudge. "Would you like to join us?" Makoto asked Asahi and Kisumi
Kisumi blushed slightly "Actually I'm spending tonight celebrating with Asahi"
Asahi blushed slightly "We are spending it with my uncle"
Kisumi pouted "only for part of it" he teased
Makoto laughed "Well let's make sure to catch up before we leave"
The wished each other a merry Christmas and bid their farewells. "Makoto" Kisumi called out "Thank you" he said simply knowing those words would never be enough. Behind Makoto, Haru glared at Kisumi as they left, one thing was for sure he would never forgive him for what he did to Makoto.
A/N
Sorry this took longer then i thought kept getting distracted haha
So i bassically felt bad for making Kisumi evil since he is to cute to be evil
So i gave him a kinda of back story as to why he was like that haha
i hope you guys like it, i kinda of shed a few tears writing kisumi's flash back
ANYWAY! enjoy :D
