Betrayal and Turkey.

Chapter Nine.

By Hopping Hamster.

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"please Kathryn talk to him, tell him the truth" B'Elanna couldn't believe that Kathryn was actually considering just letting it go and letting things between her and Chakotay stay as they were.

"I can't" Kathryn insisted tightly without explanation as she had been doing for the last five minutes.

"Why not?" sighed B'Elanna fed up and angry with the whole situation having been so surprised to learn of the horrible misunderstanding between her two dear friends.

"It won't change anything" Kathryn hissed trying hard to turn away from her friend as to not let her own confusion at the new revelation penetrate.

"What are you afraid of?" B'Elanna asked softly having watched her friend and being sure that was the problem. When Kathryn almost winced at the question B'Elanna knew she was right and asked softly "that you might actually fall in love with him again?"

Kathryn let her eyes close as her deep husky whisper came "I already did the moment I saw him in the kitchen this morning" then she shook her head as though to disagree with what was said there as she whispered "in honesty I never stopped loving him."

"So what are you afraid of?" B'Elanna asked while she took in what Kathryn had admitted she also wanted to press about why she wouldn't go to talk to Chakotay now she knew he had seriously miss understood the situation.

"It's just better he goes back to trebus and we can all get on with our lives" Kathryn growled through her teeth as her eyes shone with deep tears.

"How can you say that?" B'Elanna was shocked and wide eyed at this statement "do you not want to put him right?" she hissed with her arms folded tightly across her chest above her large round belly "do you really want him to believe you did that?"

"I want to let him get on with his life" Kathryn yelled as her tears fell. As she composed herself and met the half Klingons dark eyes she found herself weeping "look at me B'Elanna."

"I see you Kathryn!" B'Elanna insisted as she looked firmly down at her friend's twisted body and then raising her eyes to meet Kathryn's shining blue orbs.

"How could he ever love this" Kathryn felt the anger well up in her. She shook her head firmly and said what was really hard for her to say "its better he hates me" Kathryn knew he could never move on, neither of them could as long as there was just a hint of love for her in him.

"I told you he doesn't hate you" B'Elanna growled "he hates what he thinks you did. I know he cares for you"

Kathryn couldn't accept that she shook her head her eyes bright and certain, she would never get in the way of his future "he's making a life on trebus, he has a girlfriend there"

"What?!" screamed B'Elanna, this was not information she knew, nor was she happy to hear it.

"That's what he told me today" Kathryn sighed.

B'Elanna felt sick. She couldn't believe it she knew Chakotay and she could see how much he still loved Kathryn, how he still cared greatly for her "at least come to the reunion Kathryn" B'Elanna sighed hoping getting them in the same room again might help. As well as the fact that the whole point of making Chakotay come was that they were all together again for the five year reunion. "As Voyagers captain you deserve to be there."

Chakotay looked around the body of Voyager crew. Everyone looked so beautiful. It had surprised Chakotay to see that Kathryn hadn't even shown her face after all the effort everyone else put in romantic being there. A hint of worry did surge through him as he wondered what had happened to his beloved woman but he tried to quench that worry by asking Tom "where's B'Elanna?"

"I don't know, he said something about going to fetch something." tom shrugged just as he raised his glass in a kind of wave to somebody behind Chakotay.

"What?" an exasperated Chakotay asked feeling annoyed that the young pilot wasn't giving him any attention.

Just then the doctor appeared at Chakotay's side and nodded behind where he stood saying "Kathryn janeway"

Chakotay spun round to see her stood with the support of both Sam and B'Elanna. She wore an elegant red dress and a radiant smile on her beautiful face as her blue eyes shining brightly met her waiting crowd "stunning isn't she commander?" the doctor asked unable to keep his eyes of her.

"Yes" Chakotay smiled. She still was the same beautiful woman he fell in love with. Alive and free. Even as her body stood broken and twisted she knew how to hold her audience captivated. Chakotay found anger at her physical appearance flood through him as he demanded of the doctor "isn't there something you can do for her?"

"A little more but I have been reluctant because of the side effects but I think she wants it how it is. She wears it as an outward sign of the guilt she feels" Chakotay was wide eyed as he stared from Kathryn back to the doctor. When Chakotay didn't say anything the doctor stood tall to face the Native American as he asked "commander if I may be so bold to ask if you intend to relieve her of some of her guilt before you return to Trebus?"

Chakotay turned slowly to face the doctor before demanding "what are you talking about? How am I able to relieve her guilt?"

"Your anger towards her since the miscarriage of your child, I am aware of the difficult feelings a father may feel but the mother also feels this way"

Chakotay ground his teeth together and hissed "she chose this, she killed my child"

"She miscarried Chakotay and your anger has made her believe she wasn't worthy of you and your child" Chakotay could hardly take in the doctors words but he couldn't deny them as he stood stunned "she had already signed full custody to you upon birth" Chakotay froze as he stared in disbelief.