Betrayal and Turkey.

Chapter Twenty Seven.

By Hopping Hamster.

Chakotay's breathing was heavy, his mind spinning. This was a dream it had to be a dream, Kathryn Janeway running, here on Trebus. Carissa's gentle loving hand took his as she looked from him to the door. Slowly he turned to his girlfriend and gave her hand a gentle squeeze saying softly "I need to go after her" he looked angry but his anger was being defused by confusion evident on his face.

Softly Carissa kissed the cheek of the man she loved very much and asked almost fearfully "who is she?" she wasn't fearful for herself but for Chakotay and this strange white woman.

Shaking his head Chakotay took in a deep breath and said deeply "somebody I used to know"

When he didn't offer any more and the gentle Chakotay she had grown to know and trust seemed to be raging with unexploded anger inside Carissa was worried, very worried. "Chakotay?" she asked her dark eyes wide as she look at him. He had rarely talked to her about is life with the federation, his time with the people of earth. This mysterious woman had rattled him, and rattled him hard and it scared her, he had never seen him this way and the fact one woman could do this to him concerned her. Who was this mysterious read head? She had heard Sekey talk about some of the women he used to know. She had once seen by accident a box among his things which contained letters mostly, letters of love from a woman named Kathryn, Kathryn Janeway. Could this be her?

Slowly Chakotay turned to his girlfriend and saw the deep concern and worry etched in her eyes. With a heavy sigh he whispered "Spirit's Carissa I am so sorry" before leaning in and planting a soft kiss on her lips. As he pulled away he took her hand tighter in his and whispered "Come with me"

As the moved together towards the door she asked softly "Is she from earth?"

"Yes" he almost spat in reply. Why was she here? Why now? What was this about?

Carissa was just trying to engage Chakotay in conversation to keep him calm from the explosive anger that was clearly just under the surface "that's quite a journey" she pointed out softly yet it sounded so feeble given the circumstance.

"Yes" was all he growled in fuming reply.

Carissa stopped walking and forced him to stop too and look at her as she asked softly "you and she you were….?" But she found herself unable to finish her sentence.

"Engaged" hissed Chakotay a slight hint of his anger bubbling to the surface.

Carissa was shocked, he had never know this about him "engaged?" she gasped almost letting go of his hand as she stared at him. "Chakotay?" She gasped as he carried on toward the door. Now she was confused and angry "Stop why have you never talked about her before?" she insisted feeling hurt he had never shared this part of her past before.

Chakotay did stop walking but couldn't bring himself to look at his new girlfriend, how could he lie to her when he was looking her in the eye? "She's not important" he whispered deeply as he hung his head and ran his fingers through his long hair unsure what to do or say.

Carissa was confused "then why are we going after her?" she asked coming up to him and turning him so he had no choice but to look her in the eye. She was beautiful and young. She has beautiful dark skin, dark brown eyes and jet black hair that was long on silky.

Closing his eyes her cupped her face with his hand and whispered lovingly "Because she doesn't know trebus Carissa" leaning in her met her eyes and softly caressed her cheek in an effort to reassure the concerned woman "I need to know she's ok" Carissa simply stared back at him as he added "I need to know she has somewhere to sleep for the night"

"That's all?" Carissa asked feeling concerned, she loved tis man very much but wouldn't compete for his affections with a long lost lover from the federation who could offer him far more and a far better life than she could.

"That's all" he said offering his dimpled smile to try to reassure his lover. When she didn't look very reassured he sighed and whispered "look Carissa she and I, well it's complicated" Carissa offered a feeble smile and nodded, basically he was saying he wouldn't explain it to her "but I am with you now" he insisted reassuringly "I would do this for any person" Carissa met his eyes and still saw anger and hatred there. He was so very bitter and hurt by the presence of this woman but Carissa knew him, she knew he was right, he would never stand by and see any person asleep on the streets or in danger.

Carissa couldn't get the image of her Chakotay fuming and disgusted out of her mind as he reached up and cupped his face saying softly "the way to you looked when Larren described her didn't look like she was just any person"

Chakotay sighed, what could he say? How could he explain he had no desire to ever see that woman again yet she still plagued his thought's and fantasies, that he still loved her, that whenever he was with Carissa he pretended she was Kathryn, that he hated it when she talked when they were together because it broke his fantasy of her being Kathryn, how could he tell this beautiful woman that? She deserved more. "Carissa please" he said softly

Carissa was exasperated and concerned for him as they exited the café and looked around on the crowed street. "Ok" she said softly watching him search the street for his mystery ex-lover "but I don't want to see you get hurt" he told him placing her hand on his shoulder.

He leaned in and kissed her cheek as he insisted "not this time I won't" his smile was feeble and so was hers as they eyes met briefly before they both returned their search of the street for the red dreaded woman.

Suddenly Carissa saw her, in a dark corner near an ally double over in pain for sickness she couldn't tell. Pointing she shouted "over there" and ran off towards her before Chakotay could say anything else.

Chakotay's eyes fell on Kathryn standing half double over against the wall, her carry case still sling over her shoulder and a mug of coffee clutched in her hands. Her hair half covered her face and she was being sick on to the dessert floor but Chakotay felt a surge of concern for her as he followed his girlfriend towards her. He got there just in time to hear Carissa ask with concern "Are you ok?" and wrap her arms around his beloved.

"What?" Kathryn's deep voice gasped out as she slowly looked up and wiped her mouth with her sleeve, as he eyes fell on Carissa Kathryn gasped and tried to pull away "oh" another wave of nausea caught her as she looked up and saw Chakotay stood tall scowling down at her "oh…." She gasped but was unable to her words out, what she had planned to say when she saw him was long gone and tongue tied.

Once again she nearly fell as she wretched onto the floor "easy" Carissa cried as she tried to catch her. When Chakotay offered no assistance Carissa looked up at him and asked. "Chakotay?"

Still Chakotay did nothing but stared as he watched his new girlfriend help his long lost lover stand up tall. Once Carissa was sure she could stand fine and nausea wasn't going to overcome her again Carissa let her go and Chakotay stood feeling his heart tighter as he saw Kathryn stand tall all on her own, it made him question if he was dreaming, his Kathryn was stood before him, tall on Trebus just was she had promised. His anger washed over him as their eyes met and he hissed "where are you planning on staying?" His voice was rough and firm and clearly taking now messing. Carissa was taken aback as he stared uncaringly at her.

"What?" Gasped Kathryn feeling very hot and nauseous in the hot desert sun even though it was lowering in this late hour.

Chakotay let out was could only be described as a growl as he repeated himself "where are you planning on spending the night Kathryn?" he was taking no messing and he wasn't going to let himself fall for her charms again. He was so angry with her, he wasn't giving in this time. How dare she turn up her after a year, after what she did a year ago in San Francisco and pretend all was ok.

Carissa looked from Chakotay to the white woman stood staring at him "Kathryn?" she gasped "Kathryn Janeway?" She had heard Sekey, Chakotay's sister talk of her, the woman of Chakotay's dreams and if Carissa was honest with herself, though she hated to admit it, sometimes it was Kathryn's name not here's Chakotay called out in passion.

Kathryn slowly turned to the young woman and said softly "pleased to meet you" Carissa nodded and offered a smile in return. She woman truly was beautiful, and more Chakotay's age, and clearly somebody he still thought of.

"All right all right." Snapped Chakotay stepping between them and towering over Kathryn in an effort to intimidate her "I asked you a question Kathryn"

"Chakotay!" Carissa yelled furious at his actions, she shoved him aside, whatever this woman did or didn't do she wasn't going to let him be ruled by anger, she wasn't going to let him loose the peaceful warrior he was. She wasn't going to let him try to intimidate women.

When Kathryn opened and closed her mouth to speak but had no words to replied she only growled and rubbed her forehead in response Chakotay scoffed "just as I thought" Kathryn tried to offer him a sorry smile as he spat "you haven't got anywhere have you"

"Well not exactly" she admitted feebly with her deep rich voice and her sapphire eyes filling with tears.

Chakotay let out a long growl and let his fist beat down on the wall just behind her head causing Kathryn to jump at the sudden unexpected movement as he leaned in and yelled in her face "don't you ever get tired of prying on the good will of others?"

Carissa was horrified, she had never seen him react that way to anyone and if she was honest it scared her. Somehow she knew her soft words were not going to control this anger that was being unleashed towards the poor woman before him. Kathryn too was scared, scared of where is ager would lead but she tried not to show it as he wide blue eyes met his and she whispered softly "I'm sorry" it was a genuine sorry but Chakotay was too blinded by anger to see it "I just needed to see you" she tried to tell him the truth from the beginning.

Assuming she was playing some new kind of game he bared his teeth at her and hissed "well now you've seen me" then pulling away from her sharply and turning his back on her he yelled "you can go back to that hell whole you came from"

Carissa stepped in at this point resting both her hands on his deeply breathing chest and insisted "the next transport is in three days Chakotay!" as Chakotay turned and looked at her in anger she continued "besides look at her she isn't well"

As A very pale and clearly unwell Kathryn stepped forward she tried to appear ok she held her hand out the young woman and said in her deep voice "look I am fine" Slowly both the Native American's turned to look at her, Chakotay really saw her for the first time and saw she really wasn't well at all, concern flashed through her for a split second before his anger returned as she addressed his girlfriend saying "err Carissa right?"

"Yes" the young woman smiled and nodded.

"I'm fine" her pale hand came to rest on Carissa's shoulder "it was obviously a mistake coming here"

"Obviously" snapped Chakotay before he turned his back completely on her to try to collect his thought.

Carissa looked at him wide eyed as she moved away from Kathryn to look her partner in the eye and yelled "Chakotay!"

Chakotay stared at Carissa for a second as their eyes met silently reading each other's thoughts until suddenly Chakotay spat "oh no!" he shook his head vigorously "no way!"

"Well where else is she going to sleep for the next few days?" Carissa begged on Kathryn's behalf.

"Don't worry I'll find somewhere" Kathryn muttered deciding she would just walk away as quick as she could.

"You said that was the only reason you wanted to find her" Carissa insisted watching as Kathryn began to walk away from them "now you have" Carissa insisted.

"Now I have I don't like what I see" snarled Chakotay at Kathryn's back.

"look I am sorry" Kathryn spun round to face him, her eyes and face awash with tears witch took Chakotay aback very much "I obviously disturbed your date excuse me" she whispered not taking her eyes from Chakotay's and she growled "this wreck of a woman can get by on her own"

Chakotay's face contorted into pain as he realised she had heard what he had said. He hadn't meant for her to hear, not like that. "You heard that?" he gasped at her in horror, his face showing regret.

"Maybe it is true" shrugged Kathryn as she truly began walking away from them. Chakotay just stood and watched stunned as she did so, she was actually walking on her own as well.

"Chakotay!" Carissa begged gesturing to the retreating Kathryn.

Chakotay couldn't see her on the street no matter how angry he was and he knew she had been counting on it which made him even more angrier. With a growl he gave in saying "Ok maybe Sekey can put her up for a few nights"

"Sekey?" Carissa was applaud but Kathryn had stopped walking "oh that's very brave of you Chakotay passing her on your sister"

"Well what would you have me do?" he asked his girlfriend deeply as Kathryn turned to face them. As he met Carissa's eyes he gasped and shook his head saying "Oh no! Carissa our house is crowded enough as it is!"

"It's three night's Chakotay!" She shrieked shocked and surprised he was being so proud and pig headed about it.

"Look I will be fine with Sekey" Kathryn said deeply raising her hands to try to break up their argument, she didn't want to cause them to fight, that was the last thing she wanted. "She and I haven't seen each other in a long time" She smiled feebly at Carissa to try to reassure her but the young woman wasn't happy.

"see" growled Chakotay keeping his eyes fixed on Kathryn, surprised to see her actually crying as he added "she's happy to stay with Sekey" this in a cool, cold stab he added "let's give the lady what she wants and be done with it"

"Chakotay what has gotten into you?" Hissed Carissa in a high pitched surprised voice.

Chakotay met Kathryn's eyes and looked at her in disgust as he replied to "she's about this tall" he measured Kathryn's height with his hand "flaming red hair" Kathryn held his gaze, she wouldn't turn away from his angry as he continued "Deep blue eyes" then he stepped close her and growled in her ear "and thinks she can treat people how ever she want's and they'll come running whenever she beckons" once again he slammed his fist on the wall just behind her as he leaned in and made a show of grabbing her shoulders, kissing her cheek roughly and then casting her aside as he scorned "not this tie Kathryn Janeway you hear me?" as he turned his back on her ridged and shocked frame she yelled "not this time"

"Chakotay…." Kathryn whispered in her deep voice as she came up behind him and placed her hand on his arm.

What happened next happened so fast all three of them were left ridged and stunned. Chakotay spun round in rage at her gentle touch and shoved her hand off his arm yelling "get off me!" as he did so his eyes met with her tearful eyes and all the pent up, held in rage for her came gushing out. His hand flew up and before he could stop himself his breathing quickened. Carissa shrieked as the back of his hand collided full force with Kathryn's face sending her hurtling to the ground. The smack of flesh hitting flesh was so loud it didn't need to be questioned how hard he had hit her. Her hand went up to her face as she felt the sting still cold on her cheek, her lip cracked open as she had bit down with the surprise force. She felt the metallic tang of blood in her mouth as she hit the floor with a crash. Chakotay froze and looked down as he towered above her realizing what he had done he simply let out a gasp as he groaned "Spirit's"

AUTHORS NOTE...

chakotay isn't really violent ... just made a mistake.
sorry if you don't like it. i wasn't sure weather to keep it in or not, and i went for keeping it in... its a tough call when writing angst how far to go and i feel in the show because the show had to be for family ages the real angst of their relationship couldn't be played out.
as for why hes angry... its all to be reviled shortly... i don't believe in playing all the hand of the story in one chapter... makes for boring reading and writing.

please stick with me. Reviews welcome.