Chapter 6: Beautiful Chaos

"Kaitlyn. We need to talk. Now," Nicky said.

Kaitlyn was talking with Piper when she was dragged away by Nicky. She was caught off guard. Nicky had never called her by her name, even when they first met. She pulled her into the hallway, pushing her up against the wall.

"What gives?" Kaitlyn shouted.

"What the hell's wrong with you? Why haven't you told Ashley about any of this yet? You were supposed to tell her a week ago."

"I'm sorry. I couldn't do it at the time. Then, time just got away from me."

"That's bullshit. You can't expect this to go on forever, do you?"

"Well no, but-"

"Good. Then you're telling her now."

Kaitlyn's eyes widened. Panic welled up in her throat. As Nicky dragged her to the rec room, where she saw Ashley, Kaitlyn ripped her wrist free.

"I can't do that now!"

"You have no other choice, Kaitlyn! I'm sick of this shit, so you need to do something about it."

She was right. Kaitlyn had let this run on for far too long. It's been two months since she was sentenced here and she has done nothing but hide things from the ones she said she loved.

Ashley sat in a chair in the rec room, reading a book. Nicky dragged Kaitlyn over there, and pushed her towards Ashley.

At first, Kaitlyn only stood there, staring at Ashley's smile. She looked back at Nicky, who motioned her to get on with it.

"Ashley. There's something I have to tell you."

"What is it?"

The hint of concern in her voice made Kaitlyn falter. She cleared her throat, mentally rehearsing what she was going to say. She considered letting her down easy, and leaving out some minor details. Like how many people she slept with. Only tell her it was Nicky and Piper. Alex had nothing to do with it.

No, she had to be blunt and open. She needed everything off of her chest.

"I've been cheating on you since we've been here in prison," Kaitlyn said.

Ashley's smile faded, and she stared blankly at the ground. Her eyes began to water.

"I-I don't understand."

"I slept with three other people. Four including you. I'm sorry."

"How could you do this to me?" Ashley's voice cracked as she was on the verge of a break down. Kaitlyn had to look away, or risk crying herself.

"I never meant to, but it was too tempting. I'm really sorry."

There was a pause. You heard nothing but Ashley's quiet sobbing sniffles. She wiped her nose dripping with snot on her sleeve. Sadness and disbelief left her body, replaced with anger and betrayal.

"You bitch!" She yelled.

She lunged for Kaitlyn, but was caught off guard by Nicky. She grabbed her and pushed her back.

"Listen blondie, you better calm the fuck down," Nicky scolded. "I know Kaitlyn isn't exactly a model for loyal relationships, but she's trying to make things right okay? You can either sit there and hear her out, or we're gonna have some problems."

Nicky's threat made Ashley quiet down, and sit down.

"Was Nicky one of them?" Ashley asked.

Kaitlyn nodded. "She was the first."

"And the other two?"

"Their names are Piper and Alex."

Ashley nodded, clasping her hands together in front of her mouth.

"I know them," Ashley said.


Alex had been watching since she heard screaming coming from the rec room. She went to go see what the commotion was, and saw that it was Kaitlyn and some girl.

She started to have feelings for Kaitlyn. She was intelligent, liked the same things she did, and she had to admit she was very attractive as well. She wasn't like Piper. Kaitlyn left everything out in the open for you to know. Anything you wanted to know about her all you had to was ask. Until now.

Any feelings she had for Kaitlyn were replaced with rage. She also put the blame on herself, thinking that it was possible that a lesbian in an all-woman prison would stay faithful.

Before she realized what she was doing, she found herself right behind Kaitlyn.

"What the hell is going on?" She asked.

Kaitlyn spun around, and gave a faint smile.

"Oh hey. Now is as good of a time as ever to tell you this. You weren't the only one I was seeing."

Soon Piper had found them all. Everyone was now there to witness the chaos unfurling.

"You're in on this too, Pipes?"

"Yeah, and I already knew this was all happening."

"What the fuck!" Alex groaned, resting her head on a brick wall.

"Well, what are we going to do about this?" Nicky asked.

Silence fell around the group. They were all stricken with anger they hadn't thought about what would happen after this.

"I still love her," Ashley said. "I can't let her go."

"I like her too. She's made me feel good about myself, and she is very caring," Piper said.

"I'm not going to give her up either." Alex sighed.

"Maybe we should let Kaitlyn decide who she wants. I can't keep going with this multiple people thing," Nicky suggested.

"She's obviously going to pick me," Ashley boasted. "I mean, we were together for months before we even got arrested. We have way more history than you guys."

"Yeah, but I'm pretty sure I gave her the best fuck," Nicky said, in a matter-of-fact tone.

"If you were the best, she wouldn't have gone for me," Piper chimed in.

Kaitlyn managed to drown out their incessant arguing. What have I gotten myself into? She thought. None of this would have happened if she would have never let Nicky come onto her. Kaitlyn wouldn't be stuck in this situation.

Don't blame others for your fuck ups.

They were all right though. Kaitlyn shares feelings for all of them. If she were to choose, it would be difficult for her. They each possess different qualities that Kaitlyn finds attractive in them.

What the hell did I do?

Within the scrambled voices arguing who Kaitlyn would pick, Kaitlyn screamed out in frustration. It silenced the group, and alerted a couple guards to the scene.

"I need time to myself! I need to think things through!" Kaitlyn yelled. "I think you all would respect that."

She got up, and left in a huff. She needed some fresh air.