Chakotay stood still staring at her. She stood before him, tears falling down here face. He looked at her. Was this some kind of joke? Did she think this was funny? They stood, their eyes locked. She had tears streaming down her face now. He was still in shock, this didn't make sense. She just stood and didn't know what else to say. Time seemed to pass the two of them by as they stood staring at each other. When he just stood looking angry at her she whispered softly "say something Chakotay"
"like what?" he retorted back to her.
She shrugged "I don't know, anything, something!" came her reply.
He didn't say anything for what felt to Kathryn like an eternity. She stayed stood before him as he paced in front of her. She knew it was a lot to take in, it had been for her when the Doctor had first approached her. Slowly Chakotay turned to her and growled "do you care to explain?" when she just hung her head and looked broken he asked in a slightly more softer tone "your son?"
She nodded, her eyes wide as she stepped towards him saying "You have to believe me, I never knew about him until voyagers return." He looked at her saw the begging and longing in her eyes. She was desperate.
Stepping back from her he demanded in a rough voice "Why should I believe anything you say?"
"it's the truth" she offered seriously, her deep sapphire eyes wide to meet his dark and angry eyes.
"you have a son?" he spat and when she nodded in return he spat "a Cardassian son?"
"yes" she nodded taking his hand in hers "please Chakotay" but he pulled his hand away, the anger still very evident in him.
"ok so you have a Cardassian son but your telling me you forgot nine months of pregnancy and that you forgot childbirth?" he was scoffing at her now "come on Kathryn that's weak even for you."
"Chakotay I didn't-" she gasped shaking her head, tears falling "I never-" but she didn't know what to say. She wanted to beg him to believe her, nag him to listen but she also knew in this anger he wouldn't. Taking his hand again and giving it a squeeze she whispered in a deep husky voice "Remember Seska?" she knew that bringing this up for him now would be hard and hurtful. Kathryn was scared, worried he would reject her but also scared he would be angry. She couldn't bare to think of him leaving angry with her and never knowing the truth.
"What has Seska got to do with it?"
Giving him another reassuring squeeze of the hand she whispered "Do you think she invented the technology to extract a persons DNA and create a pregnancy" Form that moment she felt him stop. She felt his breathen sofen and she felt him clasp her hand in his.
"That was different?" He told her slowly, the fierce anger and certainty in his voice was almost gone now.
"How?" she whispered looking up into his eyes.
"she impregnated herself"
"yea" nodded Kathryn moving closer to him.
Chakotay looked into her eyes and turned fully to her. He saw no lies, no deception, only honesty and love. "what your trying to say is that a Cardassian woman impregnated herself with your child?" he asked softly seeing that she was not lying he felt his heart break, he knew that pain. When Seska had done it to him he hadn't known what to feel and still Kathryn had been there for him, willing to do what ever he wanted for his child.
"yes" his beloved Kathryn nodded, tears still falling form her eyes down her delicate cheeks "my child and the child of another man." Chakotay could see the fear there, he could see the apprehension as she looked at him. "She was a surrogate mother"
"This man was Cardassian?" He asked softly, the anger was disappearing as he looked at her, she was telling him the truth and he knew she was trapped in all of this, a victim to the ways od Cardassia just like anyone else.
"yes" she nodded as she fell into tears, her heart broke and she nearly buckled under him.
"your lover?" he asked softly. At theses words she felt her knees give way.
As she collapsed under him she met his eyes told him seriously "no" He held her upright "my captor."
