Chapter 5 is here! Finally the story is progressing, I might even update chapter 6 later or tomorrow evening.
I myself can't believe that I am updating chapter 5 now since i just update last night the extra story. I do hope you will all like it.
I apologize for all the grammar errors!
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN KUROKO NO BASUKE
Chapter V: "Bothered Feelings"
Kuroko's P.O.V
I've lost count of the days that I'm staying here in this island, I can't blame myself for that since for the past few days Mikhail keep on staying beside me. Sometimes he's being so persistence in some things but he will always make me feel that I'm safe within his arms. I just hope that kagami is the same to me when I got back. I did promise Mikhail that I will stay by his side for a month but I didn't say that I will love him back. I still love kagami with all my heart and even though he isn't my first man or he wasn't the one who mark me first, he is still the first man I've ever fallen in love this much. Right now, Mikhail is not around since he said that he need to attend something back in Tokyo and now I'm alone with some of his man but he left his most trusted assistant to guard me. He said that he won't be gone for long that is why I'm just waiting for him to come back while sitting on one of the chairs in the balcony.
"hey…I think you must go back inside… it's kinda cold out here already, you might catch a cold" said the assistant of Mikhail and his name is Leo-san
"I'm fine, Leo-san…and I'm waiting for Mikhail to arrive back here…."
"young master will be back soon…you don't have to wait for him here…he might scold me if you'll really catch a cold…"
"say…why does Mikhail trust you? That he left me in your care…"
"well…young master is aware that I'm not interested in harassing you or raping you since I would rather rape or make love with my lover…"
"eh? You have a lover?"
"yes…and he is also here in this island…young master wants me to ensure that I won't touch you that is why he hired my lover here…."
"so he works here…wait…he? Your lover is a man?!"
"yes…back in Tokyo…I'm known to be a man eater since I have a lot of sex friend and every night I have different guy in bed but after I met him…my life change…I started to forget all of the man that I slept with and started living with him…so…now…we've been lovers for 2 years am I'm happy being with him…"
"hmnnn….so what is his work here?"
"well…he's working in the kitchen so most of your meal we're made by him…"
"really?"
"yes…"
"then…can I ask you a favor?"
"anything…"
"since it's almost lunch…can you ask him to be the one to bring my lunch here…I want to meet and talk to him…"
"hmnn…well…that's fine with me…since it's not bad to have friend here…right?"
"hehe…yeah…thanks…"
"then…I'll be telling him to make your lunch…young master may be here any minute or hour…"
"ok…thanks!" I said. Leo-san left me in the balcony still waiting for Mikhail. Now a day, I've been thinking of Mikhail instead of kagami-kun or my family. Somehow I've became attracted to Mikhail since every day or night he is by my side, caring for me, making me feel that he really loves me. I envy Leo-san and his lover because they are together and they do love each other while I'm stuck here doing nothing but to be with a man who kidnap and rape me and yet he make me feel loved. While my lover who is in Tokyo, I don't even know if he is worried of me since just last night I check my cellphone if I receive any calls from kagami but it's so disappointing that I receive no calls from him. That time I just cried while I hug mikhail tightly as I say 'please make me feel that I'm being loved…He…he…hasn't called me yet…*sob*sob*' after saying that I just fell asleep. I just hope that when I came back he is still the same kagami that I left and that he is worried sick that I've been gone for a long time. I didn't notice that leo-san came back with someone from his back that I think his lover.
"sir…your lunch is here..so please go inside for you to eat" said leo-san
"ah…thanks…" I said as I stand up and go inside the room. I saw the boy who is currently placing my food into the table.
"are you leo-san's lover?" I asked, I saw the boy flinch and somehow shock of what I asked.
"ah…eh…yes…" answered the boy
"hmnn…what's your name?"
"you can call me yuuto…"
"then yuuto…how old are you?"
"hmnn…I'll be 19 this year…what about you sir?"
"ah! You can call me kuroko…well…I'm just 16…"
"hmnn…so what do you want to talk about kuroko-kun?"
"well…I just want to have someone in this island to talk to since Mikhail isn't around and you're the lover of leo-san…so…"
"hehehe…I get your point…from now on we'll be friends…I'll keep you accompany when young master isn't around"
"thanks…" I said as I started to eat my food. The two of us keep on talking a lot of things that we jump from one topic into another. I already finish my lunch and leo-san took it and just left me and yuuto alone in the room.
"you know what you're lucky to have young master love you"
"eh? What do you mean?"
"well…leo did told me that young master never love anyone or rather he haven't had any relationship with anybody…you're his first love"
"you must be kidding…"
"nope…I'm not…young master really loves you…"
"but…he kidnap me and rape me against my will…"
"well…he do have his own reasons but…I'm sure that while he held you that time…he must be regretting it but…look…you're still here and he protects you from his man who wants to take you while he was gone…"
"that…he must be feeling guilty that I was rape or gang rape by his man" I said as I felt myself shiver just from remembering those times.
"yes…maybe…but…can't you feel it through his touch?"
"eh? His touch?"
"hmnnn….how do I explain this…the way he cares your body…is he violent? Did he hit you while doing it? Or he is very gentle that it feels good?"
"now that I remember it…the first time he did it to me…it's somehow violent but gentle…then now…he's really gentle to me…"
"see…young master do love you…"
"but…but…I already have a lover and I do love him…"
"*sigh* well…maybe you can just forget about him…did the two of you already did it?"
"not yet…since the day that Mikhail kidnap me…is the time when I just started going out with my lover…"
"hmnn…so the young master is your first man?" he asked while I just nod while blushing. That time I hear a helicopter pass through the house and I think that is Mikhail but I didn't stand from my sit.
"aren't you gonna see him?" asked yuuto
"eh? No…since Mikhail said that I just stay here…" I answered
"then…I'll be going now…I need to make something for you two…"
"ok…thanks for your time…"
"well…don't mention it…if you need something or someone to talk to…just tell leo and he'll be the one to call me…"
"thanks… " I said with a smile while yuuto just left. I was left into thinking of what yuuto said to me about Mikhail, that mihkail loves me well, the person himself did told me that he loves me but I just can't believe that he loves me this much. I walk into the balcony to look at the sky while still thinking of what he said. Suddenly someone hug me from the back that made really shock me.
"hey…what are you doing here? You might catch a cold you know…" said Mikhail who is still hugging me
"mikhail…don't do that again…you scared the hell out of me…"
"hehehe…sorry…so what are you doing here?"
"just…thinking…"
"about? Me or your lover?"
"will you be shock if I told you that I'm thinking about you and not my lover"
"eh? Really?!"
"well…yeah…since yuuto said something to me a while ago that is about you"
"yuuto? The lover of leo?"
"yeah…"
"so you made friend with him huh…"
"yes…since you left me here alone and leo-san told me that you know that he won't touch me like those man who rape me that is why I thought that maybe I can be friends with his lover"
"oh well…that's fine with me…so what did he said that made you into thinking here in the balcony?" he said while he started to kiss my neck
"well…he told me that you love me and that I'm your first love…and i…"
"you didn't believe it?" he asked as he stop what he is doing and loosen his hug that made me look at him.
"well…a bit…but…"
"tetsuya…I love you…you're my very first love and I know that you won't be able to return my feelings but…that is the reason why I want you to stay here with me…"
"Mikhail…"
"tetsuya…i'm really sorry for forcing myself into you and for kidnapping you but…that is only out of love…and my man just want me to be happy since the day that you were brought here was actually my birthday…" he said while he look down.
"Mikhail…yes…I am really frighten when they took me here and when you did that to me but now…your always gentle and since you're my first man…I don't really know how to interpret it…"
"don't worry but…after this one month…you can rest a sure that I won't show my face to you again…"
"no…don't…please…"
"tetsuya?"
"please…I don't know if kagami is really worried about me back home…but at least I want you to be my friend"
"hmnn…what kind of friend?"
"eh?"
"well…I can be your friend but you can't stop me from wanting your body anymore…"
"are you telling me that I can be your sexfriend?"
"no…I want you to be my friend who will always be there by my side"
"tetsuya…I want your heart too and if becoming your friend is a way for me to be closer to you and gaining your love then I would love too even if it hurts to see you being with him"
"I'm sorry for being selfish Mikhail…I just can't give my heart to you since I still love my lover"
"I know but if he ever made you cry or hurt you I would never hesitate and take you away from him so you better be ready to accept me and forget about him"
"I will try" I said as he hug me so tight. I know that I am being selfish asking him to stay being my friend even if it will hurt him seeing me with kagami but what can I do since I can feel that my body is starting to get use to him. I look forward to the time that we will be doing it and it feels too good to resist.
Kagami's P.O.V.
It's been two weeks since kuroko had gone missing, I'm in a messed, I can't bring myself to text or call him. Not after doubting him being with aomine, I just can't believe how things turn this way. I sometimes wonder where he is, we already looked in all the places he will possibly go but he's not there. I don't know what to do anymore and another reason of me being in a mess is that I was not even kuroko's first kiss nor his first lover. I feel like I'm a fool not knowing all of that. All I could do now is play basketball in order to relieve my stress and pain. I'll leave them in finding kuroko since in not less than a week a new season of the tournament will begin and all of us would be busy again. I am practicing in a place that no one would know that I am here, it's a side basketball court near my house, only few use this court for stress basketball purposes.
"kagami-kun?" said a girl who I don't even recognized, she is standing at the side of the court.
"yes? Who are you?" I asked.
"my name is Mayuzuri Mika, um…you may not notice it but I'm one of your classmate." She said while I just get back into practicing.
"I see…"
"um…kagami-kun…I've notice that kuroko-kun have been absent for over two weeks now…I'm just curious if you know why"
"hmnn…why do you want to know? Do you like him?" I asked which is beginning to make me irritated, a whole bunch of generation of miracle is enough to have taken his first, I don't want to have any more rivals.
"NO! I don't like him!" she shouted which shocked me. I stop from practicing and faced her
"then why do you want to know?" I asked once again
"well…I just notice that you have been acting weird these days and I know that kuroko-kun is reason behind it…that is why asked"
"hmp! That guy is missing and I just notice it a week again if it's not his old teammates informing us…"I just can't say that kuroko is my lover.
"I know that there is something going on between the two of you…" she said and that made me look at her with a big shock as she just look down on the grounds
"you…knew?"
"yes…because I like you kagami-kun…that is why I know everything about you"
"you…like me? but I have a lover" I said
"I know and it hurts…I like you kagami-kun! Can't I be the one?" she said while now facing me. I can see her tears starting to build up with every word she is saying, I can see that she is sincere.
"I'm sorry but I love kuroko…I can't-" just before I finish my sentence she kiss me. I know that it is wrong but something within me says that this is a girl's kiss.
"I know…but I like you and only you…I would do everything…just forget about him!...i just gave you my first kiss…and I would give you my everything" she said while I was so stunned and didn't know what to do. She kissed me once again, and this time I cried and kiss her back, I place my hands in her hips as we kiss so passionately. I know that this is wrong but…it just feel so right.
"kagami-kun?" she asked since I hug her tight after our kiss
"can I…stay like this for a while?" I said as I cry in her arms. I'm a messed ever since I learned kuroko isn't mine alone.
"of course…I'm here for you kagami-kun" she said and hug me back. We stay like that for a while and I didn't notice that I was able to smile again after that. She joined me practice and it was fun even though she doesn't really play basketball. I just have fun being with her it's like that I could forget about all the problems in my mind. She is new to my life but she was able to fill the empty space that was supposed to be for kuroko.
~TO BE CONTINUE
