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She breathes in quickly then speaks "Caleb, I-"

He stops in the doorway and turns around to face her she blinks up at him.

Just kiss her dammit.

He thinks, then before he can stop himself, his lips are on hers, his hands cupping her face as she wraps her arms around his shoulders her hands into his hair. When they pull back, he rests his forehead on hers and they are breathless. He turns and he walks slowly down the hallway to the stairs

Did that just...did I just? So much for not crossing that line...

He thinks as he reaches the top stair, he stops and turns around and looks at her; she stands still in the doorway with a smile plastered on her face in a daze as her fingers trail over her bottom lip. He smiles to himself and turns back and walks down the stairs, debating with himself if he should go back to her apartment or go on to his hotel. When he reaches the front door, he pushes it open and when the cool air hits his face he lets out a deep breath.

GO. BACK. UPSTAIRS. NOW. No, you need to just go to your hotel room and let her think it out...

He collects his thoughts and heads for the street to hail a cab. When one pulls up to the sidewalk, he opens the door and when he gets in a familiar voice greets him. "My man" makes him look into the mirror to see the cab driver from the night before. "I see I am picking you up here today so I am guessing everything went pretty good last night?"

Caleb smiles at him "I, uh actually came back over this afternoon for dinner and to talk..."

"And?"

"And it went a lot better than I expected actually, weird how that happens." he says with a smile as he rattles off the address of his hotel. The cab pulls away from the curb and he takes one last look towards the building and smiles.

Think about it Hanna...just pick me...choose me...

He turns back to face the front of the cab and as they drive, they begin to talk. Caleb tells him about how when he first came to Rosewood, how he met Hanna and how she pretty much saved his life at such a young age. He holds nothing back as he tells him how he hurt her and packed all his things heading to Arizona to find his mom and how he came back, only to find that second chances are not handed out by Hanna Marin too easily. He tells him how he eventually was able to regain her trust and they were together until he left again for Ravenswood, skipping over all the details of that experience. He tells him how he came back to Rosewood only to find that Hanna had finally moved on with Travis and how she willingly came back that time. Finally he tells him about moving to New York, and the fights that led up to the big one about the trip and how he left and never came back.

After a long silence the driver finally speaks "No offense, but sounds to me like you've got a real problem with leavin"

Do I? Well Rosewood for Arizona. Rosewood for Ravenswood. New York for Europe then to D.C.

Caleb laughs and shakes his head in agreement "Yeah, I guess so..."

I won't leave again if I can get her back, I can promise you that.

Caleb learns that the driver's name is Carl and he has been married to his wife Helen for 37 years and their story, was a lot like his own.

"She is the absolute love of my life. We met in the summer before my junior year. I was smitten with her from the first time I saw her...kind of like you say you were. It took some convincing but she finally gave in and we were together for over a year before she left town. Her dad was in the military and got stationed somewhere else. We tried to make it work, but we just couldn't. I moved on and I was actually engaged to someone else - Patty - the next time I saw her. It was here on the streets on New York when I saw her again, buddy...I knew that it would never be the same. I ended my engagement, and Patty understood...she was with me when I ran into Helen again and she said that she could just see it in my eyes when I looked at her. I went back to Helen and a few years later we were engaged. The rest is history. And let me tell you, I have endured my share of arguments with her, and I can always tell which ones are fueled by anger and which ones are fueled by love...and what happened last night, that was love. You can tell in your eyes, and your voices. Pardon me for saying so, but I can see a lot of my Helen in..." he glances back at Caleb in the mirror.

"Hanna" he answers his question with a smile.

"I can see a lot of my Helen in Hanna...and I can see a lot of myself in you...and I know that may sound weird, because I barely know you and it may just be because our stories are so similar...but I think I already know the ending to this story. Don't give up, she loves you." he chuckles "I mean she loves you enough to jump out of a cab in the wee hours of the morning and scream her feelings on the sidewalks of a busy city like this...she loves you. Just do yourself a favor and make sure you don't leave this city without her."

What about Jordan? She said herself that she cares about him...?

He thinks as his smile fades, but his thoughts are interrupted. "I see that look back there; don't worry about that fiancé my friend. You don't have to. You want to know why?"

"Why?" Caleb asks as he wonders how this man he has barely met can pretty much read his mind.

"Because she may care about him, but there is a different in who you care for and settle with, and who you love and are meant for. You two, it's absolutely undeniable that you two are meant for each other...and If I - a pretty much total stranger can see it...anyone can." he says with a smile as he pulls the cab out of the street and beside the curb in front of the hotel "We are here my friend." he says.

Caleb reaches for his wallet in his back pocket to pay his fare when Carl stops him "Your money is no good here. Just don't leave without your girl." he says as she shakes his head in the mirror and glances back at Caleb.

"Thanks." he says as they shake hands.

"Just do me a favor, and send me an invitation to the wedding." they share a laugh as Caleb gets out of the cab, shutting the door behind him and walks into the hotel lobby.

Walking over to the elevators he hits the button and when it arrives he hops in and hits the button for his floor. As the doors shut he lays his head back against the cool metal wall of the elevator and lets his mind wonder. When it comes to a stop on his floor he walks out and to his room. He slides the key card down into the door and opens it; walking in he walks to the bed and throws himself down on it on his back.

God, I feel like I have been hit by a freaking truck. Is her mind as jumbled as mine is? Man, that kiss...it felt like it was the first time all over again...

Deciding that a hot shower will clear his head, he stands and begins to unload his pockets onto the counter throwing first his wallet, and then some change down. He pulls out his cellphone and walks over to the plug and puts it on charge. He pats his pockets down again to double check, this time feeling the flash drive in his front pocket. He pulls it out and flips it over and over again in his fingers, eyeing it closely.

Do I really want to see her diaries? What is in here that she could possibly want me to see? I mean, does she really want me to see inside her head like that?

He thinks as he walks over to the small desk built into the wall and plugs the drive into his laptop. He hits the mouse pad and makes the screen light up. He finds the drive and opens it up; it shows over 800 items saved on the drive. He shakes his head and goes to the folder labeled 'Diary' and opens it up. He clicks on the first one labeled 'Day 7' and brings it up in his video player. It opens to the first frame and he immediately hangs his head.

Yeah, I am not going to be able to do this...

He thinks as he looks back to the screen. The first image of the video is frozen onto a picture of a puffy faced, red eyed Hanna. She is wrapped in a large oversized hoodie with her hair pulled up onto top of her head in a messy bun. She sits in the bedroom of her apartment at the desk with her one leg pulled up into the seat and her knee to her chest. His finger lingers over the play button for a long time before he finally takes a deep breath and hits play.

"So I uh...a girl I work with said that if I got my feelings down on paper I would feel better but I'm not really good with keeping a diary so we will try it this way. Today is day 7 A.C. -After Caleb- that is what we are calling it...anyway. Today is day 7 and I feel just as shitty as I did on day 1 A.C." she stops and wipes her face with her sleeved hands

"Where do I start? My life has been chaos so much for such a long period of time that I kinda let myself go into autopilot sometimes when it comes to emotions. I want so badly for this to be one of those times because I uh...this is really hard." she says as tears fill her eyes and she wipes them away with the sleeve of the hoodie she is wearing. She looks down at the sleeve and laughs through her tears and looks back up at the camera "I've been wearing this hoodie for like 5 days now...it's the only thing that he left here." She says as she giggles again and picks at the hem of the sleeve "and the reason that is funny is because I found it in the trunk of my car the other night...and Caleb HATED when I would leave clothes in my car...but he wore this out to dinner one night and got too hot so he took it off and laid it in the backseat. Well sometime in the shuffle of life, it got moved to the trunk and had it not been moved...I wouldn't have anything left of him." She tears up again but stops herself from crying.

"I've been thinking about it and I guess I should've seen it coming. I know he wasn't happy here and I don't know if he just wasn't happy here or with me or what but I thought the trip would fix it. I thought the time away would be good for us so we could regroup and get back to just us, ya know" she stops and shallows deep as the tears threaten again "I should've stayed. I should've just said screw my job and stayed...I just figured we could work it out. We somehow always found a way to work it out. I guess I kinda took that for granted. I wanted to go on that trip so badly, I really did...but the job that I have...had…the job I had always seemed to be in the way. I just wonder what I was doing when it all went wrong. I wonder if I was even paying attention and could've done anything to change it. I uh, I don't know...I do know however that the Chinese delivery man now knows me by name." she says as she picks up the food box that sits on the desk and shakes it in the camera view before tossing it back down on the desk "and I can pretty much read and resight the entire menu of the bakery down the street...possibly even in my sleep, if I were getting any." she says as she readjusts and scoots closer to the desk.

"This uh, this apartment is so tiny, but it feels so huge and lonely now. I have paced this bedroom a thousand times replaying the fight we had the night he left over and over again in my head. I walk a line from one wall to the other and when I turn back around to walk the same line back to the other wall, it seems so far away...I can't get myself warm…I am cold all the time. I think I am driving myself crazy...like I could go crazy in here...Radley crazy. I mean I haven't washed my hair in days. I can pretty much feel the ends breaking as we speak. I cleaned my car out, willingly...but the kicker of this is I cleaned it out at 2 AM...yeah, I couldn't sleep so I got out of bed and went down to the parking lot of this complex and willingly cleaned out my car...at 2 o'clock in the morning, in the middle of New York City...that is how I can tell that I am going crazy." she says as she stops again and the tears fall silently down her cheeks.

"Like I said my life has been chaos for such a long time, but I can almost remember him being here. Get arrested, he visits jail and says he's not leaving. Get kidnapped and he's the first thing I see when I get out. I uh, I pushed him away because again, autopilot and even though he was a little clingy or so I though he always let me know that he was there for me. Get the boot from my dad about school and Caleb to the rescue, saving the day like he always did. Plus, Lord only knows what other kind of shenanigans I got myself into that he was always there for." she chuckles and looks down at her hands and then back up at the screen "He should've ran away screaming a thousand times...but he never did. Now...I just wish he was here to talk to, but he's on the other side of the world...and I don't think he's coming back this time." she sniffles "I'm uh...I'm rambling...I just don't know what else to say. I just want tomorrow to be a better day; I need tomorrow to be a better day. I can't take too many more like the last 7 or I will go crazy." she leans forward and hits the end button and the video loops back to the beginning.

He sighs and sits watching the screen that is frozen on her face.

God, I can't watch this…why did she think I could watch this. She is absolutely miserable in these…but she's still beautiful…

He stands from the desk and walks into the bathroom, turning the water on as high and as hot as he can. He hops in and stands under the shower head, letting the water wash over his head as he clears his thoughts. When he's done he dresses and walks back to the bedroom part of the room and sits down on the bed, staring at the laptop that sits 5 feet away. He finally stands and walks back over to the desk and clicks on the next video labeled 'Day 8'. The frame pops up and there is a freshly showered Hanna. She sits with long blonde hair dangling wet beside her face. Her eyes are red, but not as puffy as the video before. He hits play and settles into his chair.

"So, I woke up this morning…yes, woke up…5 whole hours people, this is big…that is more than I have slept in a row in 8 days. I woke up this morning and I feel…good, almost hopeful. I laid in bed last night and I got to thinking about the trip. We planned a 2 week trip, 14 days…we are just now on day 8 so there is always a possibility that even though I have bombarded myself with emotions over the last week that there is still a possibility that he can come back here when he gets back in the states…I mean stranger things have happened, right? There is always the possibility that he is as miserable as I am but he's coming back…that is the attitude I am going into today with. I refuse to cry today…that isn't too hard to handle is it? One day without tears? I am going to be hopeful." She slightly smiles and the video goes back to the beginning.

He clicks onto the next one labeled 'Day 9' and it brings up a screen that looks similar to the first one and he sighs and hits play.

"So, yesterday was a good day…a good as could be expected day. I refused to cry and I almost made it…I was so close.." she shrugs and looks away and when she looks back at the camera, there are tears "then the neighbor came over to ask if she could borrow Caleb to help her with something because her husband was out of town. I tried, I really tried…but I couldn't hold it together." She wipes the tears on her cheeks.

"Needless to say, she first thought that I had lost my mind, but she came back over a few hours later…with ice cream. I told her the whole awful, heartbreaking thing and cried as the words came out of my mouth. It's different when I am talking about it to this computer screen or when I talk about it to myself or think about it. Saying the words to other people makes it so…final. I can't handle final. I need Caleb. I need him so bad." She sobs and sobs until she can get her emotions under control and she talks again. "And I tried to stay positive. To look at it as a glass half full point of view…but he's never coming back. And just like that…I am back in the dollhouse again. Getting tortured again, except this time...I am the one pulling the strings…torturing myself."

He clicks through the videos one by one watching more of the same, feeling worse and worse. He clicks on the video labeled 'Day 19' and she pops back up on the screen, before he can overthink it, he clicks play and she starts talking.

"So, it is day 19 and today I don't feel sad, I don't feel like crying…today I feel like screaming. I am pissed…and I can't help it. We were together for years, YEARS and went through so much together and he let one big…okay, huge…one huge fight end everything we had. I may have walked out of this apartment, but I came back…I came back to fix it, and he left. I don't blame him for leaving, but I do however blame him for not coming back. I wanted to fix it, I wanted to apologize and he left and didn't come back. But that is what Caleb does; he always leaves…he takes the easy way out. Things get hard and he's out the door; that is how he works. I wish I could blame it on his parents leaving him, or what happened to him in Ravenswood but he leaves and I am so sick of him leaving me. So, for today I am pissed…and if that is enough to get me through the day without tears, then bring on the screaming because I am so sick of crying."

After the video is over he can't help the laugh that escapes his mouth. Thinking that she was right about the documented fits of rage in a breakup because here she is pissed and it was welcome sight after the last videos of tears. He clicks on the next one labeled 'Day 21' and watches as her rage turns back into tears and his smile fades. He watches each one, noting that she got another job that she was really excited about around Day 28. Day 35 she finally washed his pillow and cried about it. When he reaches 'Day 60' and the video opens with a frame of her sitting in the same position as all the others, but this one is different. She sits with her hair in messy curls and her makeup still halfway done, wearing the red dress she bought for a work dinner she went to with him. He hits play and she sighs first then starts talking.

"I went out tonight. Two months post breakup. I thought I could handle it. I got all dressed up and went out with my friends. I uh, I made it there first and I pulled out my phone. I have avoided all sources of social media…mostly on purpose because I didn't want to be the one to change my relationship status from 'In a Relationship' to 'Single' and I didn't want to have to answer the questions that I knew would follow. But I've been having a bunch of good days so I figured what the hell, right? As I scroll through my feed, there it is…Caleb Rivers has changed his relationship status from 'In a Relationship' to 'Single'…for the entire world to see. For me to see, and seeing it in black and white really made it final, final. So I started to drink…and as the mojitos came, I started to have…fun. It was weird….it's been a long time since I had fun." She swallows like the word 'fun coming out of her mouth hurt her.

"These, uh these guys walked up to our table and asked us if we wanted to dance. That was fine, so we get out and start to dance. Then…I can hear the song start to play and I willed myself to get out of there, but I couldn't force myself to move." She stops and wipes the tears that haven't rolled down her cheeks "It was the uh…I don't even know the name of the song, but it came on one day and he danced with me in the living room to it…I heard it, and I tried to move but I couldn't. I curled into this guy that had asked me to dance and closed my eyes. I danced with a complete stranger to a song that was kinda like our song. When I opened my eyes, he leaned down and kissed me. I froze and when I finally could move…I ran as fast as I could to the bathroom and boarded myself up in the stall." she laughs and more tears fall.

"I pulled out my cellphone and I scanned through, I was trying to call him. I don't know what I was going to say…maybe beg him to come get me…or tell him that I was officially over him because I danced with another guy…maybe I was just going to call him to ask why he never came back, I don't know. But…" she shrugs "I guess I wasn't doing as well as I thought I was. I'm just ready to feel normal again. I am ready to get back to the life I once knew…but I am not sure I can because I am not sure I can get back to the life I knew without Caleb. "

The video stops and he pauses before he clicks on the next one. He puts his head in his hands as he tries to wrap his mind around everything he has seen.

I can't watch many more of these, I just need to find the one she wanted me to see and be done with it.

He scrolls down until he sees 'Day 658'; he takes a deep breath and opens the video. When it pops up, she looks a lot different than she has in all the videos he watched previously. Her hair is longer and her eyes aren't red and puffy. Her cheeks glow with a new tan and she doesn't smile but she doesn't frown either. He hits play and braces himself for what he is going to see as her words ring into his ears.

"Day 658...they are labeled...658 is the day after he proposed. I uh, I do care about him Caleb, as much as I hate telling you that - I don't want to lie to you either and tell you I don't...but you've never been too far from my mind. I know that I have a lot to think about, but there are some things you need to see on that too."

"So, this happened yesterday" she says as she holds her left hand up into camera view and shows off the ring that accents her ring finger "Jordan asked me to marry him …and I uh, I said yes, obviously." She kind of chuckles and looks back down at her hand and back up at the camera "And I am happy, I really am…I know I should say something like I am happier than I have ever been but I can't say that. I can say that I am happy because I am but yesterday was…weird." she stops and sighs.

"I would never say it to anyone else, but it wasn't what I always imagined it would be. I kinda always imagined that when I accepted a proposal, it would be from Caleb. Don't get me wrong this proposal was amazing and over the top…this ring is..." she pulls her hand back up and looks at it "it's absolutely beautiful...I would've never said yes for convenience and I know that. I didn't say yes because he is rich and handsome…he is those things but that isn't the reason. I do care about him. I love him, I do. . Jordan is amazing. He is everything that I should want in a husband. He is smart, he is loving, he likes a lot of the same things I do. He comes from an amazing family and he could take care of me…he does take care of me. He will make an amazing husband…but…he isn't…Caleb…and my heart broke a little yesterday because of it." She stops and sniffles as she wipes her nose with her hand.

"I just, never imagined myself marrying anyone else. But I don't think I am settling because I do care about Jordan…I don't want to settle. Caleb is never coming back so that isn't technically settling, that is moving on right? I know that sounds awful and I know that I shouldn't be saying things like that, not at this point because I said yes to a marriage proposal…but I know that deep down I will always love Caleb. There is nothing I can do about it. I just…will. There isn't any amount of time that will change that. I love him…I will always love him."

And the video ends and he takes a deep breath.

Oh my god…

He rewinds the video a few seconds and watches it again, her voice echoing off the walls.

"I will always love Caleb. There is nothing I can do about it. I just…will. There isn't any amount of time that will change that. I love him…I will always love him."