Hello again people, I have a few announcements to make. Firstly this story will be coming to a close in two chapters as the climax is about to start in this chapter and there is not really anything i can do after the climax But Do not fret i have a solution. I have been working on ideas for a new story The Story is called Moments To Change A Life, It is a run away fic with twists and turns, new dragons and villains and Hiccstrid Romance galore. I am certain if you like this story you will love my new one. Also don't worry i am not going to stop this without finishing it first i wouldn't do that to you guys. My new story will be going on for ages and ages, it will be my masterpiece. so without further Adieu The Past Comes Back To Haunt You.

Astrid looked at the next page to see it was dated a few days after the previous one but she took no notice of it as she began to read.

Well today was a failure... just like my life so far. You may have noticed i didn't write anything for the past few days as nothing much really happened and i reserve this book for important things in my miserable life.

Astrid groaned and cringed at the way Hiccup described his life. She knew his life wasn't and still isn't a failure. Hiccup had done so many great things in his life that she was extremely thankful for. Astrid's guilt rose even more if that was even possible, she hated what she did to him before ,she hated what everyone did to Hiccup... because she loved him.

So yeah i tried to tell my father what has been going on, well actually i was forced to as i couldn't... exactly... hide it today. Today again when i was out in the forest doing some sketching, i was jumped by Snotlout and the Twins again. I swear who ever is reading these must find it extremely repetitive by now.

Astrid managed to give a little chuckle at that comment but the worse thing was that it was repetitive.

But this wasn't any ordinary beating no no no i couldn't be that lucky no they had a reason apparently. "Useless why weren't you doing your job you little piece of shit, Your "CURIOUSNESS" caused what 30 people to die or something"Snotlout said trying a blame the deaths of the villagers on me like i cut them down myself or something. It was most likely because his dad got hurt during the raid and he needed someone to blame it on and i happen to already be the village's punching bag so i was the prime person for the job.

"I SWEAR I should KILL Snotlout for what He's Done! That Fucking Son Of Half troll Rat eating munged bucket" Astrid grunted out in anger as she clenched her fists needing something to take her anger out but nothing or no one was in the room...Yet she thought. As it just dawned on her that hiccup would be coming home soon so then was when she would make it up to Hiccup but she had doubts if he would accept cause she thought she didn't deserve his love. Funnily enough Hiccup thought quite the contrary he was thought and still does that Astrid is too good for him and she deserves a more masculine viking for her but those were only doubts on himself and Astrid is always there for him. That's one thing they share, one of many things they both relies on each other for comfort, so all Astrid wanted was be in Hiccup's lean but strong arms and let her tell her everything will be OK.

I kept silent cause i knew nothing would dissuade him from his "TASK" I just resigned to my fate and kept my arms up in a defensive position but i didn't expect what came next. "Ha got nothing to say hey useless no wonder you're mother i died, she rather be dead then raise the failure of a viking you are!"Snotlout spat at me as the twins chuckled on the outside just waiting to start beating me up. "Come on Snot lets get started already"Ruffnut said but unaware to them inside me something had snapped ,i felt something i have never felt before RAGE!

"Oh shit"Astrid said as she was genuinely a bit intimidated by it, as she had never seen Hiccup in a state of rage before so she no idea what to expect.

I Lashed out like a wild animal being let out of it's cage. I sent a punch to Snotlout's jaw giving me a resounding crack as my fist collided with his jaw. To say Snotlout and the twins were flabbergasted was an understatement they were looking at me like i grew a second head. I was fuming as Snotlout recovered from the blow and punched me in the face. I was use to the pain but my rage wasn't satisfied, I landed another blow to snotlout this time to his nose. A loud crack could be heard along with Snotlout's screams of pain. The twins were just watching the show when Snotlout called. "Ah Get That FUCKING twat NOW!" The twins out of their trance ran at me and started belting down on me. Even though i was enraged i couldn't ever hope to stand up to all three.

"Oh gods NO! Hiccup get out of there"Astrid Called in fear.

I tried to run but to no avail it was a fruitless effort. Snot and the twins kept belting down on me i started to cough up blood and i could feel one of my ribs cracking CRUNCH I heard and felt it break. Snot and the twins must of heard it as well as they started to laugh manically loud and hard they laughed. I was in so much pain that i might of passed out.

Astrid groaned and cringed at the thought of hiccup in that state, That horrible, horrible state.

After what seemed like a eternity they left laughing away at how easily they beat me when i was fighting back. That was no concern of what was my concern was getting home and getting help. I needed this to stop, It had to stop i wasn't going to live long if it didn't. I was going to tell my dad and this all was going to stop hopefully.

"YES Go hiccup tell your father YES" Astrid shouted in glee and relief.

As i got up fighting the pain of the broken rib and my other cuts and bruises i began my crawl back home. As i was walking well limping in pain more like it, I looked at my hands they were shaking, Shaking so much they looked like they might of been shook off my arms. I then looked at my wrists i felt a new sensation will be, A new urge as i looked at them, The urge to cut my wrist. The thought almost comforting now a way to release my pain a simple Release.

At this Astrid froze, Hiccup had the urge to cut himself. The thought hit her like Thor's hammer as she fell into a pit of snakes filled with guilt and sorrow the snakes being the thought of Hiccup cutting himself.

I trudged my way to my house the pain making each step living hell, The pain was like a knife stabbing me in the ribs with each step. By the time i reached my house in the village the pain was almost unbearable but i trudged on. I could here in my house two men shouting one being my dad and the other SPITELOUT. "Oh Shit" I said as limped my way to the doorstep. I slowly opened the door to see Snotlout's father belting down to my father about how i broke is son's nose for "No Reason" Yeah right. "And here is the menace that broke me son's nose!" Spitelout shouted at me. "Hiccup did you break Snotlout's nose?"My dad asked i couldn't lie about it. "Yes dad i did but i was only defending myself when Snotlout and the twins jumped me in the forest."I replied shyly Spitelout exploded "LIES YOU MENACE YOU JUST PUNCHED HIM BECAUSE YOU ARE JEALOUS OF HIM!" Spitelout screamed out.

"Jeez bloody Spitelout always been a Arse hole but wow this is a whole new low" Astrid groaned but she knew Hiccup could prove he was jumped for obvious reasons.

"If i was jealous of someone it certainly not be your son"I replied with my usual dry humor style but before Spitelout could say anymore "SILENCE... Thank you ,now hiccup can you prove you were jumped by Snotlout and the twins?" My dad asked "Yep il show you the injuries i got" I said as i lifted up my shirt to show all the bruises that turned my abdomen into a purple mess especially around my broken rib which was the most bruised. "IS THAT A BROKEN RIB!?" My father shouted i could see Spitelout visibly paled. "AND YOUR HERE COMPLAINING HERE ABOUT YOUR SON'S BROKEN NOSE WHEN MY SON HAS A BROKEN RIB!"My father shouted at Spitelout it felt really good that he was getting his just dessert.

"Yeah go stoick tell that Son of a half troll off YEAH!"Astrid shouted joyfully.

But it was short lived, "Now get out my house and i won't trial your Son!" Spitelout scurried out and as soon as i heard the door slam i turned to my dad and asked "Dad can i talk to you about something?" He turned to me "Hiccup you need to understand i can't always stand up for you, you need to Stand up for yourself but you can't go fighting like that Ok you need to make The family name proud Ok" I could already see i wasn't getting through so i just nodded. "Good now go to bed i will get Gothi to come other to treat you broken rib in abit" My dad said as i walked up stairs and here i am didn't i tell you i tried but yet again my dad never listens Gothi should be over to treat my rib soon which is good. My hands a still shaking so much, When Gothi goes i am not so sure if i am gonna go to sleep straight away. I Can't take it anymore i just want it to end ,I Just want the pain to stop i could make it stop, I could all it would take would be a few knife slashes and a small wait.

with that Astrid's mood dropped and broke again with that horrible thought. NO Hiccup couldn't do that, He Couldn't for obvious reasons, which Astrid was oblivious to at this point. So she was scared out of her mind as she broke down again and Cried ,so hard she cried that she felt she was literally crying herself a river but she couldn't stop at this point she had to keep going as hard as that may be.