A/N: Yes it's an update! I know ot has been too long and I am sorry. But life is complicated and I am in too many fandoms... Also trying to start my own original book - let's see how that goes... Anyways, I was supposed to have updated sooner but, when I finished the chapter, Wors decided to be a darling and deleted it... Well, I found the focus and here it is. Forgive if it isn't as good as you expected it, after so long... Love you!
Ben's POV
Mal accepted my 5-minutes-talk offer and I will used them wisely this time. I can't afford to lose her. Not when she is so important.
Mal sits back and I take a deep breath, joining her on the sand.
"Alright, Mal. Where is the thing. I know I was a complete jerk. I know that I acted as the stupid guy that I am. And I also know nothing justifies how I turned on you. But at least I can try and justify my reaction, my view of things.
You see, I imagine, or I think I do somehow, that your life before Auradon and even here was really hard. And although what you did was unforgivable, I now understand your reason for giving me te love cookie. However you have to understand my side too. And see me as selfish, but when you admited it, I couldn't even consider your side. Because you and the others are right, I grew up with everything, I grew up feeling loved, and just as it hard for you to comprehend my action, sometimes it can be hard for me to do the same about you.
When you confessed, I felt like a fool when you said that, and it didn't even matter if you had tried to steal the wand or if you had though about using other people for that, all that mattered in my head was the fact that I never meant anything for you. That broke my heart. Even though I was dating Audrey before, the truth is, I has never been in love. Nor had admited to anyone my feeling towards them. Audrey was just show-off to the rest of the kingdom. But you. It was never that. Even under the spell, even after the spell, everything I felt was true. It still is. But with what you said. I just felt like... I felt, feel used, like I was nothing to you. Like I was just a dool you could play with and throw away when you didn't want or need it anymore." I whisper the last part looking at the waves, waiting for a reaction, qny reaction from Mal.
I can almost hear her think, consider what to say, and I wonder if she will ever forgive me. There is so much more I can say, so much more I can try and justify. But I can't seem to form the words, the anxiety building uo inside of me.
"I never wanted you to feel that way..." Mal mumbles and I look in her direction. She is facing me as well, her facing looking tired, emotionless. This wasn' the reaction I was hoping for. Maybe some scream. Maybe her walking away. But never something so peaceful.
"I know..." I whisper back. "And I am sorry for making you feel you weren't good enough. That you didn't belong here. I never meant that... I was... I am just so stupid... I am actually ashamed of my action... I am no one to judge you... You don't deserve that... You risked yourself for me..." I continue, shaking my head.
"And I would do it again, if it was necessary..." She admits looking away now. I feel the pull to touch her, make her face me, but my head freezes in the air.
I take a deep breath, looking at the sky. Twilight is coming soon, shades of orange and pink are already taking over the sky.
"Do you think you will ever be able to forgive me?" I shoot suddenly.
She turn to me and looks to the sky too.
"One day, maybe. But you a King, you don't need my forgiveness..."
"Mal, please. You are the most important thing in this entire kingdom to me... I don't care about some stupid crown. I care about you. I don't, can't lose you!" I state getting up and standing in front of her.
She cleans up the sand in her leggings and get up too, crossing her arms, a serious expression on her face.
"Then prove it." She challenges me and I smile slightly.
She starts walking to the other side of the beach, from where we came from and I follow her.
All of a sudden, she stops and holds a hand in the air. "Just don't sing songs in public again, please. I think I've had my amount of public humiliation." And then she continues walking, making me shake my head briefly, smirking.
"Can I take you back to school?' I offer, following her two steps behind.
"I wasn't expecting nothing else. Since it's your fault I came here." She states and I chuckle. So Mal...
Once we stop in front of my bike, I look down at her. She lifts an eyebrow.
"What is it?" She asks, some humor expressed on her face.
"Can I do something and you promise you won't be mad?"
"Well,... I can't exactly promise that... You know you kind of seem to like maki..." I cut her off but hugging her, embracing my arms around her. She doesn't xorrespond but doesn't pull away either.
"I was so worried. I am so sorry."
It felt nice to have her in my arms, safe.
"Enough, Benny-Boo. It's freezing and I am straving so, let's go"
I let her go and her both hop on the bike. She relunctantly puts her arms around me, and I turn on the bike. Just so happy that there is the possibility she will forgive me
A/N: hey! So please let me know what you think ;)
