Hopping in my truck, I double pump the clutch like I was told and turned the key, the Chevy roared to life. Pulling out of the drive I hung a right heading to La Push to confront the jerk of a friend, Embry. Upon reaching his house I sat in my truck, my earlier courage faded leaving me fearful. I know he was my friend and I shouldn't be afraid but I was scared of him rejecting me.

I must have been sitting there long enough as Ms. Call came out of the house with a sorrowful expression. I forced myself from the safety of my truck and met her halfway.

"Bella, you shouldn't be here." Her voice strained with sadness.

"I know but I have to see him. If there was something I did wrong, I need to apologize. I just have to know something, anything." I begged her, tears against my will leaked out.

I felt my legs giving out, I didn't stop them.

"What did I do? It had to be something I did wrong, he wouldn't just leave me like this." I was bawling at this point.

She just stood there with glossy eyes, "I'm sorry Bella but you need to go, Embry…he doesn't want to see you anymore. And I would appreciate if you don't come back here." By the end of her speech she had tears streaming down her tanned face but she held strong.

I nodded pulling myself together enough to climb back into the truck. Faintly I heard a wolf howling in the woods, it sounded so heart broken. I could relate.

Through bleary eyes I left the Call residence and headed for the beach, I couldn't go home and face Charlie in the state I was in. I wouldn't want him to decide I was a lost cause and throw me out too.

It took but a matter of minutes before I arrived at the empty beach, for that I was glad. The wind was fiercer without any trees blocking it but I didn't care at this point, Embry didn't want to see me. I once again was all alone in this world.

The tears that has subsided enough for me to drive returned in a body wracking sob. I curled against a fallen log silently crying, it didn't work for long as I screamed in despair. I laid there for a while berating myself for something I may have done to deserve this treatment from Embry. My body started shaking from the cold that was seeping onto my bones. Not yet ready to go home I got up and ran into the darkening forest.

I ran until I came upon a hidden grotto, no one would ever find me here. I could stay hidden from the world in the comfort of my misery, it sounded like a perfect idea.

Pulling back the ivy covered entrance I scanned the cave making sure there were no inhabitants after finding none I sat in the back of the rocky interior and cried more. I hoped I would run out of tears soon.

I don't know how long I sat in the pitch black cave nor did I care. I really didn't care if anyone found me. I didn't care in general anymore.

My sadness consumed my entire being; the need for food didn't register, neither did the need for warmth.

Sometime during my pity party I had fallen asleep. In my dreams I dreamed of a man, he looked similar to Embry but not quite. He whispered something in my ear before backing up. All of a sudden the man that was standing before me shifted into an abnormally large dark grey wolf. I wasn't scared like I should have been; instead I walked right up to the wolf and pet the silky fur on his head.

I awoke to hot arms cradling me, we were walking but in my state I couldn't make out anything besides blurs. I figured I would either die by this person or they would bring me home. Not caring in either case I fell back into a deep sleep.

A few times I gained and then lost consciousness, hearing tidbits of a conversation.

Truck is at the beach…in a cave…she's ok…just cold.

They must have been talking about me but who was Charlie talking to? I had heard the man's voice before but I couldn't pinpoint it with my hazy mind. After hearing the few words darkness pulled me in for a nice little recap of my lovely life.

Why are you doing this to yourself Bella? I can't take it anymore, I can't help you.

I'll come over in a bit. Is your mom gone? Good, we'll have fun.

Just try it, I did it and I'm fine. Just snort it like this, and chase it with some vodka. Later we'll smoke a joint.

Don't worry, we won't get in trouble just rip the tag off and shove it in your purse.

You can't see Embry. Please just stay away.

I woke up, sweating pouring off me. My sheets had an imprint of my body in dampness. I got up heading straight for the shower; I needed to get the grime of yesterday's events off my body.

After getting dressed I snuck downstairs seeing if Charlie was home, luck was not on my side.

"Isabella Marie, what on Earth possessed you to stay out in the woods at night?" Charlie asked concerned but furious.

I jumped not expecting the interrogation to start so soon.

"I-I"I choked not knowing what to say.

"I need an answer Bella. Whatever you have been doing needs to stop before you hurt yourself." He said in a softer tone.

I nodded not trusting my voice to not break.

"You're staying home from school today but you are going back Monday. I would like you to go down to La Push and thank them for sending a search party out for you. If it wasn't for them you may not be here right now." His voice laced with sadness at the prospect of me not being alive.

Maybe I had it wrong, maybe Charlie wouldn't dump me like my mom had. Maybe I had something worth living for.