Chapter 6: Her Mistake

Jacob was pacing the room, running his hands through his hair again and again. He was freaking out. That much was obvious. I couldn't stop running my hand across my lower abdomen. Was I pregnant? Could I even become pregnant? The half-vampire set of genetics blurred the lines of normal humanity. I didn't want a baby. Why would I? I was a freshman in college. It's too early.

I was so lost in thought, I didn't notice Jacob had stopped in front of me and looked down at me with a frown on his face. "What are you thinking?" I whispered.

"That I'd be a shitty father." His smiled sadly. "But you'd be an amazing mom if it came to that. Plus, if you are pregnant I'd get to keep you." He reached out to stroke my face, but I recoiled.

What did that mean?

I was suddenly furious. And scared. Not a great combination.

"Did you plan this?" I hissed.

Jacob pulled back. "What?" He looked shocked. "No! I just got lost in you, Ness. You have always had a way of making me lose my mind. In a good way, of course. Why would you think I would purposely knock you up?" He was pissed now, his voice getting louder and louder.

"Because you wanted me back." Realization spread across his face, but he was still angry. But, then again, so was I. I got lost in him, too. Being with him was like coming home after a year in prison. It had felt so right.

And it shouldn't have happened.

If anything, this possible pregnancy was proof. We didn't think around each other, and when bad things happened we get angry with each other instead of supporting each other. We had always been like this, but now I had the memory of him leaving me to encourage my anger.

"Jacob, I think you should go." I whispered.

Bewildered, he asked, "What?"

"Look, last night was- Well, it was amazing. I still love you, Jacob. And I know you still love me, but it was a mistake. I don't think I can forgive you for leaving me. I don't trust you, obviously. I just accused you of purposely trying to get me pregnant. I don't know if that will ever change. Tonight shouldn't have happened. And now we might have to deal with the repercussions. And if we're together, especially if I am pregnant, I'm always going to wonder when you'll leave me again." I felt tears silently stream down my cheeks.

"Ness, I'm not going to leave you again. I couldn't. And- and I'll show you that you can trust me. Just give me a chance," Jacob panicked, forgetting his earlier anger.

"I can't. Please just go. Don't make this harder. Looking at you hurts."

Pain etched across his face. "Ness-"

"Ren." I whispered. His nickname for me cut my heart open like a knife, yet when I corrected him, he looked like he was the one being cut open.

"And if you are pregnant?"

I looked up at him, "Then we'll face it when and if it comes to that. Good bye Jacob."

He didn't say another word, just silently pulled his t-shit back on and left.