Chapter 56
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On Valentine's day Spike was at the Bronze, alone. He might be able to hook up with some lonely girl, but he wouldn't be with who he really wanted. He loved Buffy, and Kendall. Those two girls didn't look too much alike, but they seemed similar somehow. But Kendall was here, with Ben. Buffy with Riley, no suprise there. Bianca and Willow, Xander and Anya. Spike was almost tempted to hang out with Giles, then he remembered where Giles was tonight. He was visiting the grave of his beloved Jenny Calander. When Angelus murdered Jenny, put her corpse on Giles' bed even, he had been on Spike's team. Spike hadn't been a part of that particular muder, had even advised against it. Still, Spike doubted that Giles wanted Spike around for this. He was alone, too much of a monster for these humans, too human for other monsters. Angel had been accepted by them once, but ofcourse there was a difference. Angel had a soul. Then it occurred to Spike, what if he had his soul back. Willow was an experienced witch, had restored Angel's soul. It stood to reason that she would do the same for Spike, make him a real member of the team. The only other option would be to remove the chip, and Willow would never do that. Spike didn't know if he would even be the same creature after the spell. Maybe the creature he was now, would for all intents and purposes be dead. But Spike knew he couldn't be alone anymore.
