*** WARNING ***
This chapter will contain explicit material. Not smut, but it will contain violence (intimate violence such as rape).
Before you review or message me saying that I am sick or deranged, please know this. This chapter is simply an outlet for me to rewrite an event that happened to me personally. I do not plan for this story to be like 50 shades of grey or to encourage domestic violence or intimate partner abuse. You do not have to read this chapter. I can summarise this chapter in the next one in a way to understand the story still.
Thank you, if you do choose to read this, please let me know your thoughts.
"Shadow, no." Amy begged. He held a knife in his left hand and grabbed her thigh with the other. "You don't have to do this! NO!"
He held the knife up about to stab her, or so she thought, and she closed her eyes. If I close my eyes, it will be over quick, right?
But to her surprise, he cut the ropes that were binding her to the bed, all except her arms and ankles. She became distraught, unsure of what on earth was about to happen. She looked over to Sonic, who still had the fearful expression, as if he thought Shadow was going to kill her. He began to scream, as realisation had hit him of what was about to happen. While his words were muffled, Shadow knew exactly what he was trying to say:
I'm going to fucking kill you, Shadow! Don't you touch her!
Shadow was not touching Amy at this point, simply looking into her eyes to read her. He didn't think he was one to violate a person sexually, and for some reason, he didn't want to hurt Amy, despite the fact that she was the reason for Sonic's happiness. He could have killed her, easily - but he didn't want to.
Why? He thought, hating himself. He continued to look at her eyes. He couldn't tell if she was begging him to leave her alone, to give her what she might want, or to kiss her again like last night. He knew that Sonic was aware of his intentions, and he knew that it would hurt Sonic more than anything.
Wouldn't it hurt more if she actually wanted it? It's one thing to physically dominate a person, but to emotionally dominate them, to corrupt them... What a gain...
Shadow smiled at Amy blankly. He leaned forward so that their noses were touching and whispered, "Tell me what you want, Amy."
Amy became even more mislead. "I don't know what you mean, Shadow."
"I mean," Shadow said, "Tell me your desires. If you want me. If you want me to kiss you, or make love to you, or just leave you alone."
She didn't want him to leave her alone. After what had happened, after all the exhileration she had felt that had never been caused by Sonic, all the forbidden desire... The last thing she wanted was that to stop. Maybe just once... For curiousity's sake...
But she was Sonic's.. And he was her's...
Though Sonic was so different now, it was too difficult to keep up, and too difficult to feel a consistent love for him.
Amy closed her eyes. "I don't care."
Shadow raised his eyebrows and broke the embrace. "You don't CARE?" He whispered, slightly raising his voice.
"All of the above..." Amy said with her eyes still closed.
Shadow was shocked. "He's not going anywhere," Shadow said pointing to a helpless Sonic, still trying to break free.
Amy still didn't care. The rush she felt when Shadow came near her, when he brushed across her face, when he teased her lips - it couldn't be replaced by anything other than this. And she knew it was wrong. She knew she didn't want Shadow, she just wanted what he could give to her. She knew he was not to be trusted, especially considering what he was doing to Sonic right now. Or maybe he was trust worthy - either way, he was not going to give up, and Amy found it easier to lie and give him what he wanted, or rather let him take it - than to refuse it.
"Ok." Shadow said. He hadn't planned this far ahead. He was still surprised that Amy actually seemed to want him, in any way possible.
***** Sexual moment coming up *****
Shadow looked at Sonic and knew that he wouldn't dare close his eyes. He wouldn't dare risk ignoring Amy being hurt or being tortured. Of course, it would hurt and torture him more than anyone, but that was not important. Shadow was no longer grinning, nor smirking. His face was blank. He wanted to make love to Amy, not fuck her, or force her in any way.
What happened next was sudden and shocking. Shadow walked slowly to Amy and stood in front of her, as if to hide her from Sonic's view. He ran his fingers through her hair, and didn't leave her eyes. He kissed her the same way that he did the night before, soft but desperate. Again, Amy felt a certain compulsion she had never felt while kissing Sonic, or Knuckles. It was as if Shadow had woken a fire inside of her; not a dark fire, but a warm, glowing, fulfilling fire. He didn't even need to touch her for her to feel warmth expand all over her.
Shadow became so carried away he forgot where he was. He was so consumed by Amy that he had no idea that Sonic was watching, or that Amy was stuck to the bed, or that he was feeling such incredible sparks fly through his body. His thoughts were racing...
Holy shit... She is even better at kissing than she is at looking pretty... She's actually kissing me... I need her... I want her... I love her...
The last thought he had disrupted his peaceful override and broke the kiss. He closed his eyes and avoided Amy's burning eyes, and continued to think to himself.
Get a hold of yourself, Shadow. You need to make Sonic angry, remember? Not just jealous.
Not just jealous...
Suddenly Shadow rotated so that Sonic could see everything. He kept his eyes closed, knowing that Amy's sweet innocent eyes would demolish any dark intentions he had. She was like an angel, and he was the devil... She was made to soothe him, to balance him... And Sonic was there to confuse the fuck out of everyone, and for that, he had to be reminded who was in charge.
Shadow ripped off Amy's clothes and didn't continue kissing her. He could feel Sonic's eyes burning at him. He could almost predict exactly what Sonic's thoughts were. What the fuck? You just kissed her for minutes and now you're going to violently...
Of course, they were Shadow's thoughts, his own self-hatred.
I can't love her. I can't love anyone. This is the only thing that will make you in charge.. Of him and her...
They will never predict I have these feelings if I can do this.
If I can.
If.
Shadow continued with his efforts as Amy tried to get through to him, her eyes darting. What is going on? She was so confused. He had just kissed her as if she was the most amazing person in the world, and now he was being rough, as if she could escape anyway, and he was trying to prove a point.
Going from feeling relaxed and calm to feeling tense and anxious, Amy hated every single moment that Shadow was on top of her. The more she hated it, the longer it went on, and the more she wanted to cry. This wasn't what she had expected after that kiss, and this wasn't what Shadow wanted. He said make love, not fuck. Not rape.
Why is he doing this?
Once it was over, her answer was clear.
Because he can.
Sonic had tears running down his face, and Shadow was trying to cover his sadness, trying to prove that he was strong, and capable.
"See, Sonic," He said, once he'd walked over to Sonic, placing a hand over his ears. Sonic was hyperventilating, and glaring at Shadow as if he was about to kill him. "Well... I think you did."
Shadow closed his eyes, smiling, and gathered a ball of chaos in his hand. Chaos Control, he said, and set Sonic free. Neither of them moved for minutes, and Amy had already buried her head into the pillow, unaware of what was happening.
Sonic had felt as if he was frozen in time and space. He was so angry he could kill someone, but he was so hysterical that he couldn't even speak. It was as if someone had sucked all the air from the room, and he was just floating, just existing in nothingness. He felt as if none of this was even real, like he could just wake up at any second and it would all be just another nightmare, but he was wrong.
"You didn't have to hurt her," Sonic said sadly.
Shadow opened his eyes fearfully. "What?" What did he mean? He didn't hurt her! He didn't do anything that she didn't want.
"You didn't have to hurt her." He repeated.
"I know what you said. I didn't hurt her, Sonic. She wanted me. She told me she did."
"If you'd just looked at her eyes, you would have known." Shadow's heart sunk. Had he actually hurt her? "I'll take note though, that you're a psychopath who hurts innocent females."
"That's not my goal." Shadow stared at Sonic neutrally. "I made a statement. She is mine. You are mine. I could have been gentle, but it just isn't me."
He had lied. All that Shadow had wanted to do was be gentle with Amy, to caress her, to watch her sleep, to hear her sweet voice laugh. He wanted her to love him, and he had a chance. But the thought of someone controlling him scared him more than anything - which is why he had to shift his method.
Now he could have what he wanted, when he wanted it - it was easy. He just had to use Amy's weakness, Sonic - and her need to be loved - and he could have her whenever he wanted, at any time, no matter what.
And as for Sonic...
He knew his place now.
