Listening to The XX... Hopefully will help me write this chapter... Its a soothing mellow album (self titled) and it will reflect Sonic and amy's relationship as she learns to trust him and turn to him as a friend... she starts to learn to take moments as they are rather than worry about the future... and she focuses on every little feeling she has...
Thank you everyone for your lovely reviews... I love you all 3 but considering i've had quite a few hits I expected more reviews XD maybe everyone just reads it for a laugh, who knows huh...
Sonic placed Amy down at her house and waited for her to unlock the door. "Come in," Amy said, as she unlocked the door. "I'm just going to have a shower." She walked up stairs and Sonic nodded, taking a seat on her couch. What he saw fascinated him...
Clearly she didn't have people over often, because the coffee table was covered in art and writing. He felt as if he'd invade her privacy if he read, but he couldn't help but appreciate what was visible to him.
Collages of her favourite tv show characters, drawings of her scene ideas from fantasy novels... character interpretations and her ideas she'd written when she was at a cliff hanger... It was adorable.
He was stunned at how someone could become so consumed by such a false world. Of course, he knew why, but he was shocked.
He heard the shower turn on, and realised that Amy was not far above him, naked, in her shower - while he sat there, dreaming of her, and adoring her.
He wished he could do something, like go after her, and surprise her, and make her swoon over him, addicted to him, like other girls he'd dated.
And by dated, it meant... Slept with a few times.
But something about Amy made her seem as if she was more than just sex. And it wasn't like he'd always seen women as objects, it was more like... He'd known Amy for so long, and seen many sides of her - and now he was seeing this one, and it made his curiosity peak.
The fact that she saw herself as just sex, or once did, also gave him a goal. He wanted to make her realise that she was more than that. And of course, the evidence was right in front of her: her art, her house, her independence, her friends.
And everytime she tried to flirt with him, or everytime she blushed at his remarks, he knew that it wasn't her - it was her past. Someone - Scourge - had taught her that she was nothing but a toy to be hurt and played with. Seeing her reactions change slowly was exceptionally satisfying. Even if it was just a small change.
While it was undeniable that she was the most beautiful girl he'd ever seen, and he wanted nothing more than to pin her against his wall last night and show her why everyone wanted him - he saw a light in her, one he'd never seen, one that made him control himself, much to his surprise. He didn't know what it was, what the light was. But she was so young, even at 16, and had so much ahead of her.
And he knew that he was the last person she needed to have sex with, or be in a relationship with.
Because it would destroy her.
Coming from a relationship with an abusive tool... And going into an exciting one where not everything was always apparent... Would kill her. The uncertainty, would kill her.
And even if he was honest with her, even if he did admit he was falling, that would make things so much worse.
Because Sonic could only imagine that Scourge had said the exact same thing.
And by saying the exact same thing...
It meant she was expecting the same treatment as a follow up to such a confession.
And in his mind, while it killed him, it was logical for her to be with Shadow.
It was logical for her to be with someone who didn't love her, but respected her. Who could teach her friendship, without risk of rejection.
Because Shadow was a great person. Sonic knew that more than anyone.
And even if it killed him, even if it was the last thing he ever did, he would let Amy be with him, purely because it was better than watching her fall down a rabbit hole of abuse and depression.
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Sonic lay on Amy's couch sleepily, as Amy came down the stairs, dressed and ready for work. "Sonic? You ready?" She asked. He must be pretty tired.
He's basically been drinking for 3 or 4 days straight...
I don't know how he does it.
"Yea-yeah. I'm ready! Let's go. Hey, we have some time, let's get a coffee. I'm pretty tired... Heh."
"Ok."
He picked her up, dulling his emotions as they erupted, and shortly after, they were at the coffee shop.
He bought her the same coffee she had on Saturday and placed it in her hand. She looked amazing: her dress was bright purple, and her stockings matched. Surely this can't be for work, Sonic thought. Maybe it was a new project? Oh well. She smiled and sipped the coffee, moaning innocently as the drink touched her mouth.
Sonic's eyes widened at her sweet expression, and allowed himself to take full acceptance of the excitement he felt. Oh my god... What I'd do to... No! Agh.
He drank his coffee too, and they walked outside, looking at the sky, pointing at clouds. "Hey, it's you." Amy said, pointing to a spiky looking cloud.
Sonic smiled at her confident observation. He did feel like a cloud in the sky when he was with her - high, above the rest of the world, floating away into total bliss.
"Yeah." He picked her up gently and dashed to the studio, meeting Knuckles and Rouge outside.
Knuckles lit up a cigarette as Rouge stood there glaring at him.
"That stuff kills you, bud," Sonic said, walking up to him.
"Only if you're a human." Knuckles smiled, as he pulled the cigarette from his mouth. He passed it to Rouge who took a drag, and gave Sonic a bro hug. "Where ya been? We were a bit worried."
"I'm fine." Sonic smiled and wrapped an arm around Amy, to suggest that he couldn't speak now. Knuckles winked and mouthed, got ya.
"Is Shadow working today?" Amy asked, not really aimed at anyone. Sonic sighed internally and tried to surpress the pain he felt at the mention of his name. He couldn't get the image out of his head: Amy and Shadow together, romantically, intimately... Perfectly. And it made him scared, for if the day was ever to come that he would be with Amy... Shadow would have been better.
Rouge exhaled her smoke above her head, and said, "Don't know. I don't think he's needed though. He'll probably come by at lunch to point out something wrong in the script like he always does." Her and Knuckles started laughing, remembering something he'd pointed out last week, and quoting some of his famous mockeries.
"Let's go inside, then," Sonic said, grabbing Rouge's cigarette out of her mouth and stamping it on the ground, glaring at her. He walked up to her and whispered, "Think of the children!" As he pointed to Amy, making Rouge giggle uncontrollably. Amy was oblivious to his observation, and was checking her phone.
Sonic had pushed Rouge and Knuckles inside and looked at Amy, who had gone pale. "Everything ok?"
"Yeah, just Sally. I'm gonna call her. I'll be inside soon, ok?"
"Sure." Sonic smiled and walked inside, nodding at her gently.
Amy unlocked her phone and saw about 6 messages. Most from Sally, but one from an unknown number.
She thought, Shadow?, and read the message first.
I miss you.
"Huh," she said outloud. "Can't be Shadow. Weird."
She ignored the message, feeling high due to last night and this morning, and opened the messages from Sally.
Don't let him get what he wants.
Just because he likes you, doesn't mean he deserves to have sex with you.
Similar messages followed, and she called Sally.
"Amy! Oh my god."
"Hey, Sally. I'm totally fine. I didn't have sex with Sonic, don't worry. But I need to tell you..."
"Thank GOD," Sally expressed with relief. "I'm gonna be at work later, ok? We'll talk soon." She hung up, shocking Amy.
Why was she so happy?
/Fade into You by Mazzy Star/
Amy stood on the side lines watching Sonic acting with Tails and Knuckles for a new game.
She stared into his eyes, knowing he couldn't see her.
It was satisfying to look at him in secret. His eyes were so beautiful, so green, so deep. And she knew that even though he denied his feelings and pushed them aside with alcohol, and sex, and drugs.. He was a compassionate person.
Images of him flashed through her mind. His kindness. His shivalry. Offering so much to her. He was a great friend...
Fade into you
She didn't feel like he was her friend, though. She felt like... Like he was so much more.
He held the secret to her life.
he was her saviour, and he had no idea...
Every time she was with him, she felt relieved from the world she had come from. Every time his arm wrapped around her. Every time his voice went into a caring, strict way. He was like a father she never had... And he was protecting her from all the evil in the world.
She watched him performing and felt her heart race as he was in action, doing what he does best.
She knew what she wanted from him, but she just didn't know how to go about it.
I need you.
I need you to hold me, forever, and kiss me, and gaze into my eyes. I need you to love me. And look after me. And prove to me that I'm wrong. Prove me that not all people are evil and hurtful. Do it... Just once... Just prove it, and I'll be able to move on from my past.
She believed he was the answer, and the more she adored him, the more she solemnly thought that he was the answer to her problems.
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Shadow walked through the doors of the studio, pissed off, and confused. Everybody turned around and saw him, shocked.
He was a mess.
His eyes were dark and low. His face was drained, and his body was weak. His fur was messy, and his spikes were out of shape...
To be continued.
Disclaimer
Hey guys sorry if this chapter absolutely sucked. I'm a bit scattered to be honest. Struggling to do daily things and trying to sort real from fake. I truly love having schizoid... Anyway, I hope you enjoyed this chapter, as much as it isn't as good as some of the other ones. Please review with your questions or ideas of what might happen next as it will get my head jogging as to how to approach the plot (suspense etc)...
Is Amy falling for Sonic...? We know he knows he's falling for her...
Sally sure seemed happy... Maybe she thinks she's won already... How wrong she is...
Shadow's wrecked... Hmmm wonder what has happened...
Who was Amys unknown texter..
I'm watching Jessica Jones and its incredible, makes me want to continue my A shadow land story (mind control ideas) and/or start a story with amy and shadow as jess and killgrave. Oooo I love it so much.
Message me if you have any ideas and also don't hesitate to check out my tumblr. Same username.
XOXO Shadowworld96 xx
